Here's the next chapter! I hope you guys like it! IDon't own anything of these characters!
One week later... Its been one week since I've gotten home... Well at least thats what everyone tells me this is. I remember very little and the things I do remember are only brief pictures that tell me I'm on the right track. But if I dive too far into it, I get these massive headaches that takes up most of twenty-four hours to get rid of.
I spend most of my time listening to the tapes I had made with mom, almost every day I'm visited by Katara for a un-successful healing session. Once or twice she's brought Suki and the younger kids with her.
After they left I'd usually go for a walk around the gardens that were kept up on by the staff, there not as flashy as that of Air-temple islands but they're pretty nonetheless. The nights brought nightmares I couldn't seem to shake at times. Brutal and terrifying at times, sad and very much depressing.
All I remember when I awoke from the dreams were the feelings, I didn't remember who I was afraid of or for what reason. The days when I woke with blinding anger in my heart, were the worst. I was snappy and hard to be around as I said the worst things to those around me.
Today I woke up with a devastatingly calm almost... Numb feeling in my heart. I grabbed my clothes and went to the bathroom where I took a hot shower, steam rose around me and when I stepped out and got dressed I swiped a hand over the mirror and looked into my eyes.
They were... Cold, no there were more then just cold they were... Icy and bitter. All of a sudden I was pulled from my reverie by a knock at the door. I shook my head and gathered by clothes, when I opened the door my sister Lin stood there.
"Some of our friends are going to be coming for a couple of days. The fire lord and his family, mom wants us to be at the Island to meet them. Aang will be arriving to pick us up after breakfast." Lin explained to me.
I nodded without a word and moved past her back into my room, I braided the sides of my hair and tied them both behind my head before going downstairs where a cook had breakfast waiting.
"Thank you Sierra," I commented before eating. She had learned how to tell my moods by how I came into the room or by what I said or did. She was a very empathic woman, she knew what to say or do to keep me from becoming even more agitated.
Today was one of the days she decided to keep quiet sensing I've pushed in the wrong direction I could snap. My mother walked in; "Good morning!" She commented and was given a cup of coffee.
"Morning mother," I replied evenly. Lin came in a couple of moments later. The room lapsed into a comfortable silence, after breakfast I helped wash the dishes. As he had said Aang arrived just as mom was going to head to work, I climbed up into the saddle with Lin making polite chatter with Aang well we flew.
It didn't take long for us to get to the island and once there we headed inside. Katara took me aside to get my once daily healing session but once again... Nothing. We had just finished up when we heard a commotion outside, Katara and I walked out.
"Azula!" All of a sudden a girl half my height tackled me into a tight hug. My hands twitched and I pulled away looking her up and down with the same cold eyes I had when looking in the mirror. "Princess," I bowed my head to her and stepped back. She had an odd look on her face;
"Azar... Don't you remember me?" She looked about to cry. My brow frowned; "No... Don't take it personal kid, I don't remember anyone." I replied and looked away toward another kid who came to stand behind his sister along with three other adults, one of which was a much older female.
"Azula? Do you remember the Fire Lord and his family?" The rest of my family had already said their hellos and welcomes. I looked at each of them, familiarity struck me when I looked at the older woman. An anger surged through my system, it was a cold and bitter anger that made me shake my head wondering where that had come from.
I bit my lip, closing my eyes, I could help the feeling the thought 'mother' looking at that woman. I clenched my fists and I felt myself shaking as I tried to contain the sadness turned into anger looking at her caused me. "Azula?" My head snapped up and I gnashed my teeth.
"Stay away from me," I seethed. I tried to keep the anger from exploding but I could barely keep a hold on it. "Azula what's wrong?" Zuko stepped forward and instantly I was me but I wasn't me. "Stay away from me!" I screamed sending blue flames at the royal family, Zuko was able to block most of them as Aang and Hakoda jumped to restrain me from continuing my onslaught of fireballs at them.
Fist clenched I swung at Aang breaking his nose with a sickening crack and lashed out with my foot which connected with Hakoda's stomach. "Azar!" Toph was there instantly as she had just arrived. I seen her move in front of me; "Mom," I cried and fell suddenly too exhausted to stand.
I was shaking trying to steady my emotions. Her arms wrapped around my shaking frame, I suddenly felt sick. "Mom, what's happening to me?" I whispered as she held me. "I think we might have found a trigger for Azula's memories." Katara commented well tending to her husband. "Did you remember anything Azar?" Toph asked me looking but not really looking in my eyes.
I shook my head; "No, I just... Felt." I replied. "What do you mean?" Aang asked once Katara had finished healing his nose. "I felt a surge of emotions... I don't think they were mine. I just felt what to say or do," I kept my eyes down away from the royal family as they were ushered into the house.
I looked up to meet the stare of the older woman and set my jaw looking away. "Are you alright now?" Katara asked when I stood up. I nodded my head and the three of us headed into the main room, everyone was tensed. My head started to really hurt;
"I'm sorry for the way I reacted... I don't know what came over me." I explained to them. The kids were scared of me a part of me didn't give a crap they were right to be afraid... They should be afraid. But another part of me was ashamed, that was the last thing I had wanted.
"We understand after all that has happened, was that a... breakthrough meeting us that is?" The woman asked. I turned my head... Jaw tight, I couldn't even look at her. "I have to go," I said turned and rushed off. They looked after me. I went into the dining hall with a couple of pieces of paper and started to write. I started to speak it to the empty air lyrics...
Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere|
No one's here and I fall into myself
This truth drives me, into madness
I know I can stop the pain
If I will it all away
Don't turn away
Don't give in to the pain
Don't try to hide
Though they're screaming your name
Don't close your eyes
God knows what lies behind them
Don't turn out the light
Never sleep never die
I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know
That there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be, blinded by tears
I can stop the pain, if I will it all away (X2)
Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons me, shall I give in
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for
I rise to meet the end
Servatis a periculum [save us from danger].
Servatis a maleficum [save us from evil].
The last part was an language spoken by the sun warriors. I don't remember learning it but Toph said Zuko brought it back and now a couple of people including myself knew how to speak it fluently. (It's latin by the way).
"Azula?" I turned to find my mother behind her were the two that had elected the strongest reaction out of me since I woke up.
"Mom... What are they doing here." My voice held venom, a venom I didn't even intend to be there. "They want to talk to you." She sat down in front of me and the two sat on either side of her. "Can you tell me why you're so angry with me?" The woman spoke first. I shivered and felt my eyes tear up but I ground my teeth feeling the foreign emotions build up. I shook my head;
"I don't know, just go. Leave me alone, I don't want to hurt you." I said calmly my eyes holding the stone like anger they seen in the first Azula's eyes...
Okay! How was that?! Sorry it took so long for me to update! Anywho like always I own nothing of AtlA... They belong souly to Mike and Bryan and the producers of AtlA and LoK.