Okay I am so sorry for the wait, and I did this all in one sitting since I am sick so it may not be good.
Disclaimer: I own nothing except Kaya, Bryce and the plot. And anyone else you don't know.
Chapter 1o: I can't
When I made it to my house I wiped away my tears that had fallen as I drove. Sighing I stepped out of the car and made my way into the oddly quiet home. I was so used to noise that the silence of the house scared me and made me nervous.
"Dad?" I called out softly scared that something would jump out at me, that's when I heard it, the squeak of my fathers wheelchair. A smile formed on my face as he rolled out of the kitchen, a worried look on his face.
"Kaya, your home." I smiled and walked over to him hugging him tight. I missed my father so much, hell I missed everyone.
"I'm home and I am never leaving again. I love you dad." I just hugged him tighter before standing up. He had the biggest smile on his face, I almost cried seeing him so happy but I held it in.
"I was just going to make lunch for everyone, would you like some?" I shook my head I was not in the mood for food or really anything except seeing my family.
"How about this though, I cook for them and you go out?" I gave him a hopeful look I really wanted to cook for the boys in hope of apologizing. I guess my father caught on because he nodded before rolling out of the house.
Sighing I walked into the kitchen and began to work on a lunch for the hungry people who would should fill the house. I lost my self in thoughts as I prepared the steak for steak sandwich. I kept picturing Bryce in my head and the look on his face as he said he was leaving. How could he just go with them, he said the Volturi was evil and yet he was willing going to leave with them. Finally I was able to switch my thoughts from him to Paul, I was going to see him soon but I didn't know how to face it. After the day in the hallway when we talked I felt bad, I made him feel miserable and now I'm waltzing back like nothing happened. I felt like a bitch for everything I had done but I couldn't take it back I could only hope they would forgive me. I went back to preparing the plants of food just as I heard the front door open and loads of footsteps.
"Hey dad, you almost done we are hungry?" I heard my brother laugh as he approached the kitchen; I turned around to face him just as he walked in. A huge smile formed on his face just like my fathers and ht embraced me in a bone crushing hug.
"Hey bro, want to put me down." I was struggling to breathe as Jake put me down.
"I'm so glad your back." I nodded before shooing him out of the kitchen I had a meal to finish. Once I made a plate for everyone I took them out to the dining room where they all sat talking, none of them were shocked to see me, I guess Jacob told them. Emily smiled at me as I placed the plate before; I made one more trip back into the kitchen to get the last of the plates. Once I placed the final plate in front of Paul I smiled at everyone before walking out of the dining room.
"I'll be in my room if you need me." It wasn't that I dint want to be in the room with them it was more that I needed time to think for myself. Sighing I lounged on my bed after I turned on my Ipod hoping to drown myself in my music. Soon I was able to close my eyes and drift off into a daydream.
Rain poured down out of gray skies and we stood smiling at each other as we stood in the woods. I couldn't help but smile as he leaned his head back and let the rain run over him; he was being so care free for once.
"I love you Kaya." I smiled and leaned into kiss him just as we both caught a smell, a vile smell. "Leeches."
"Kaya go find your brother now." He growled and I took off in search of Jake.
I broke from my daydream wondering what these dreams all meant, I had some many of them but there had yet to be a known purpose. They were all so confusing all I knew what that in them I was with Paul and he loved me, what more could I ask for. I stood up from my bed and walked into my bathroom taking a quick shower before going back into my room. When I walked back in Kim was sitting on my bed playing with my cell phone.
"You have a lot of new text messages from Bryce and Emmett." I closed my eyes in frustration before taking my phone and turning it off. I wanted nothing more to do with that family, they have been nice but I couldn't keep in touch with them anymore.
"It's nothing." I walked over to my dresser and began to brush my irritating hair. She smiled and nodded before she got a serious look on her small face.
"Did something happen, is that why you came back?" I looked at her confused, what could possibly make her think that I was working hard to keep up the façade that I was fine.
"Nope everything was fine, I just missed you guys." She rolled her eyes not believing a word out of my mouth but she would never question it without more proof. Soon we were both sitting on the floor of my room belting out the notes to our favorite songs as they played though my Ipod. I couldn't stop laughing as we stared up at the ceiling, and for the first time in a long time I was truly happy.
"You two okay in there?" we both looked at the door as Jared and Paul walked in smiling as we laughed. Shaking their heads they took a seat on my bed, Kim and I began to sing again as if they were not there.
"Okay are you two drunk?" I shook my head at Paul and locked my eyes with his. He looked a hell of a lot better than when I had seen him in the hallway which made me feel a little better.
"No we are just happy." Kim jumped up and sat in Jared's lap with in a second the two began to make out making me flinch and look away. It wasn't too noticeable that I was upset I just couldn't handle it.
"Take it somewhere else." Jared rolled his eyes before he carried Kim out of the room smiling, a got a flash of the night before when Bryce had carried me to the bedroom. That was not a memory I wished to revisit ever again, I refuse to think of it.
"Thanks." I said before I sat down next to Paul, it was weird being so close to him. Part of me wanted to yell at him for saying he hated me but the other part wanted to hug him forever. I looked over at him just as he looked over at me and for the second time our eyes locked. He was beautiful in every way and I could never imagine myself with anyone else. Even though I had been with Bryce I knew now that he was nothing compared to Paul, Paul was the one. Well at least I hoped he was.
"So you're back for good right, no more leaving?" I nodded as he smiled, god his smiled was enchanting. "Good because I couldn't loss you again."
With out another word his lips crashed on to mine, it was an urgent kiss that grew passionately until we broke apart to breathe.
"I'm sorry for everything Kaya, I really do love you." I nodded before he kissed me once more, I loved the way his lips felt warm against mine own but there was a guiltily feeling in my stomach. I wasn't the girl he fell in love with, I had given away my innocence to a vampire who just ended up leaving me.
"Paul, stop I cant do this." I gently pulled away from the boy's embrace; I couldn't be the girl he wanted.
"What's wrong?" he was concerned as he reached for my hand.
"I can't do this, I love you but I can't do this. I am not the girl that left here Paul; I'm not the same anymore." Tears began to fall from my eyes, felt sick to my stomach. I refused to be with Paul, I couldn't hurt him anymore than I had already.
"What are talking about, tell me what's wrong?" I shook my head before I stood up from the bed.
"Just go please, I can't do this right now." He frowned before walking out of my room like a lost puppy. I fell to my floor crying once again, I was so dumb I should have just left here and went to New York. Everyone would be so much happier if I was going, Paul could be free to move on without me bugging him all the time with the presence. He could get a girl that wouldn't sleep with his enemy, who wouldn't give up her innocence even if she didn't love the guy. I was the worst kind of girl for him.
I woke up the next day and began to back a bag, it was official I was going to leave in two days. Once the bag was packed I hid it in my closet and left my room to go downstairs. I ate breakfast quietly before I headed out into the woods for a walk; soon I came to the cliff. It was beautiful as the water churned below the rocks; a storm must have been coming.
"Having fun?" I turned around to see my brother staring at me. I nodded before looking back at the water over the cliffs edge.
"I could take you cliff jumping one day when the water is calmer." I nodded telling him that I liked that idea; of course I knew I wouldn't be here for that day. It was silent between us as we both sent down with our feet dangling over the edge.
"So you and Paul fought again last night?" I sighed looking at the water, it wasn't a fight.
"No I just can't be with him Jake." My brother looked at me confused, he knew I loved Paul.
"Why not Kaya, you both have been through hell for each other?" I shrugged my shoulders I couldn't just come out and tell my brother that I slept with Bryce that would be a great conversation.
"I just cant please don't push it. I need time Jake." My brother rolled his eyes not understanding why I was being so stubborn, if he was a girl he would get it.
"Well I'm meeting everyone over at Emily's if you need anything." I nodded as he walked away, my brother was so sweet but he wouldn't get it. I took a deep breath as I stood up and began walking away taking another glance out over the cliff. I began to walk through the woods once more until I reached an open area where I took a seat and took out my cell phone. Sighing I dialed Emmett since he had texted me nonstop since I left. After about four rings his deep voice came over the line.
"Kaya, I thought you wouldn't call."
"Yea hey why did you text me so much?" I wasn't in the mood for this I wanted nothing more to do with their family.
"I wanted to say sorry, Bryce was an ass to you but he loved you." I sighed that was the story of my life.
"I know, I just can't believe he did what he did. It hurt."
"I know Kaya; I just wanted you to know that we are all still here for you. Goodbye." I said bye as well before I hung up the phone. I was actually hoping for an explanation on why Bryce left but I had a feeling I was never going to know. I lounged against a tree as I closed my eyes the warm breeze calming my nerves. Soon though I heard leaves rustle as a wolf came out of the woods in front of me. I knew the color of the wolf, it was Paul. I didn't want to see him so I got up and walked off just as someone else entered the clearing.
"Paul." The voice was soft and feminine, it spiked my curiosity so I hid behind the tree and peeked into the clearing just as Paul phased back into himself.
"Julie." A blonde embraced Paul in a hug, I felt my hear shatter as she kissed him. I didn't even think I began to run out of the woods.
"KAYA!" I heard Paul yell, my guess was he caught my scent after he was done with his girlfriend. I let tears fall from my eyes as I kept running. I should be happy that Paul found someone else right? Wasn't that what I wanted? I just kept running though I could hear his footsteps behind me. I couldn't believe it, he loved me but he found someone knew so quickly but I was no better. Maybe it was Gods way of paying me back for what I did to Paul or maybe it was proof that everyone is better off with out me. Finally I ran until I reached the cliff where I had just sat with my brother. Jacob was the only constant person in my life beside my father; they were the only ones who would always be there. I heard Paul approach faster.
"Kaya it was not what it seemed okay. I love you." I didn't even turn around his words hurt more than seeing him kiss her. I wasn't right for him.
"Stay with her Paul, you deserve someone who can make you happy." I looked at him with tears in my eyes before I looked down at the water. I could hear Paul run toward me as I jumped off the edge, I couldn't feel anything until my body hit the icy cold water and that was the last thing I felt.
Paul's P.O.V
It happened so fast, Kaya looked at me and the next thing I knew I was running toward her as she fell.
"Oh my god." I heard Julie's voice but I wasn't thinking about her, I was thinking about Kaya. I loved her more than anything and I refused to lose her. Without a second thought I dove into the water in search of her. The water's current was fast but I was able to see her hair in the water, I swam over to her best I could. When I finally reached her I pulled her into my arms tight, I was not going to lose her. I quickly began to swim to the nearest shore where Julie was waiting for me.
"Julie go get Jake and everyone." She nodded and took off toward Emily's I was so glad she knew where she was going. I sat on the shore with Kaya pulled against my body, I was trying to warm her up because the water was far to cold for to handle.
"Kaya, wake up please. I need you." She had a pulse but she was unconscious though. I needed her to tell me she was okay.
"I love you Kaya don't leave me."