Okay its well past midnight, I'm rather annoyed and slightly frustrated so of course I'm going to update. That's practically the only times I do update which is rather odd. Hmm, oh well let me just get to this chapter you people have been so patiently waiting for.

LE

I Can't Stay Away…by The Veronicas

Chapter Eleven: I Can't Stay Away

I'm conflicted
I inhaled now I'm addicted
To this place; to you babe
I can't stay away (I can't stay away)
Get up, go down
Then we go one more round
It's wrong, they say
I can't stay a-I can't stay away

I tapped my pencil impatiently on the counter as I glanced at the clock for what seemed like the millionth time that minute. I was sitting at the island in my kitchen, going insane as the clock ticked painfully slow towards five o'clock. I knew that my anticipation was what seemed to slow time down, but I couldn't suppress this needy feeling that was welling up in my chest before slowly pulsing throughout my entire body.

Freddie was never late for tutoring…although it has been a solid three months and he didn't need a tutor anymore, however we just called it tutoring as we both continued to learn, more about each other, more about our relationship and more about how much we were really attracted to each other. Of course it is apparent it all started out with a very strong physical attraction that was built up in the tension we exhibited to each other through his constant teasing and my remarks on his inferiority towards me knowledge wise.

Soon enough, under his guidance, the angry tension had easily turned to sexual tension that did not go unnoticed by my careful diagnosis of the situation at hand when I was not so open to the idea that Fredward Benson may just have feelings for me and I may return those feelings. Over the course of the three months we've been together, we have begun to exhibit more feelings that surpass the physical. I was surprised when he pointed out to me that I always curled my pointer finger under my thumb when I was really focused. He had a good eye.

It also surprised me dramatically when we were over at Carly's apartment and she had offered us some nuts and I quickly refused keeping in mind that Freddie was horribly allergic to the stuff. At first I just thought it was my amazing memory skills, but in this case I don't believe that was the case. I just cared enough to notice even the smallest things like how he messed up his hair when he found something extremely funny, or how he twisted his mouth to the side to keep himself from talking.

I couldn't help but smile. Our progression as a couple was amazing and placed a smile on my face every day considering the past and the circumstances that we had to get past to get where we are today…however there were those moments when I would shoot up straight in bed in the middle of the night calling out his name in need of a cold shower. It was impossible for me to get past the fact that the physical need that I had been up against from the start would be holding the reins to most of my thoughts.

Now, of course my mother had told me many times that these thoughts were part of being a teenager, but because of how irrational they seemed to my intellectuality, I couldn't help but feel like a pervert. When I told Carly she laughed at me openly and even called up Viv to share the humor. I had sat in her bean bag chair for a good three hours with a deep blush etched across my face and a pout pulling at my lips.

Ugh only three minutes have past…this has been becoming unbearable. I had seen him in school today and we had spent every moment together…or as much as the school system would allow, but not once was my desire for the guy satisfied. After our many skipping sessions when we would be swapping spit in a hall, in a closet, or sometimes in a classroom, we had finally been caught about a month ago and the PDA has been cut down to mutual hugs, hand holding and if we were lucky, he would slip his hand into my back pocket…if I had one.

But that wasn't enough for me at this point.

When things had started out with me getting hooked to this drug I called a boyfriend I was just stepping into the water, but now…I was drowning. Call me an addict because there were times I actually needed to feel Freddie's lips crass mine in the most sensual way that made my legs give out from under me. Carly had been referring to him as my favorite brand of heroine (She proudly stole that line from the Twilight movie…I preferred the book) because when I would enter her apartment bouncing on the balls of my feet and red blotches spotting my neck, she said I seemed more excitable.

I couldn't disagree because I had seen the after effects of taking in Freddie. It felt simply…amazing. If the after effects weren't enough than the process should be a good slap across the face; just sitting there enveloped in his arms sends me into my own world where time stopped and Freddie is the only that truly matters. It has come to the point where our tutoring has became my drug session…as I take in what I crave most, satisfying my desire for the lost sex God.

There are certain things about our alone time that I've never experienced before that truly had me intoxicated and I loved every second of it…it brought me to so many heights and I never wanted to get down. He'd always be up there with me only to send me higher to the point that I would walk into school the next day panting just at the sight of him. Of course I was slightly embarrassed, but ashamed? Never…

My heart pounding…adrenaline rushing…heat rising…pleasure increasing…I loved it all and I would never regret any of it.

"Damn I can't take this!" I cried throwing my pencil across the room. As it clattered to the floor I couldn't help but take in a deep breath. I needed to just calm down. Going through some physics problems always settled my nerves…

And there was a knock on my door.

Screw Physics.

I took in another deep breath as I stood up from my seat and quickly snatched the hair tie that had been pulling my hair back in a tight ponytail. I took long strides towards the door shaking my hair out in the process as I took in two more calming breaths. I wasn't about to do the irrational and pounce on the guy. I was the sane one in the relationship…I hoped.

I swung the door open mid deep breath but the breath hitched in my throat as my brain forgot how to go through the simple task known as breathing. He quirked an eyebrow at me and I just stood there staring at him as if I were taking him in for the first time when we had just seen each other about three hours ago.

"I see I've left you speechless again." He teased knowingly. He was entirely correct because the only coherent thoughts running through my mind right now were how amazing he looked even though it has been three hours. I really had an issue because if I was not used to the mischievous look in his eyes or seducing smirk by now, how would I ever survive? Oh wait I'm supposed to come back with a witty retort…

"Save your arrogance for someone who can tolerate it; we have work to do." I said as I back peddled into the apartment. He chuckled lightly, almost darkly, with amusement as he entered the apartment enough for the door to be closed behind him.

"Look whose acting rather eager…" He said in a pleased tone. I couldn't help roll my eyes in annoyance; not because of his comment, but because of the fact that I wasn't flush against him in a sudden rush of passion that I hungered for.

"Not likely," I lied. Whenever I lied I laughed so the statement came out as a sort of giggle. He knew me well enough to know that I was lying so I don't even know why I bothered. I forced a smile and he strode past me letting me inhale the smell of whatever cologne he wore. I had to keep myself from turning my head to let my nose follow him.

He walked around the couch and plopped himself down making me wonder if that would be our designated spot for the day. He let out a content sigh and smiled coyly at me as I just stood there staring. This was pure torture but just having him here was enough to keep my insanity suppressed for a few more seconds.

"Why don't we just spend some time together? You can explain to me everything I missed in English class today when I fell asleep." He said sweetly. The sweetness in his voice was coated in agonizing teasing as they traveled through one ear and out the other. Was this some test on my will power, because I thought we clearly established that I didn't have any the moment his lips grazed over mine.

"Um…a-are you sure?" I stammered out anxiously. His coy smile grew into an innocent grin that was masking the arrogant smirk that he wanted to show. He knew exactly what he was doing and to be honest it was driving me over the edge…however for the sake of my character I was not willing to give in so easily…I hate my character.

"Yea, just being around each other is enough, right?" He questioned cocking his head to the side. I understood that Freddie was bad and that he did horrible things but…how could he do this to me? I was going through Freddie withdraw and he was dangling the drug in front of my face.

"Of course…I'm glad you see it my way." I laughed off, obviously lying once again. His grin turned cheeky as he nodded in agreement. He stood up from the couch and approached me once again; wrapping his arms around me waist he pulled me into a hug.

"You're too perfect." He sighed. This was not fooling me at all. Freddie would never say such things. He displayed his affection in his own, better way, and if he would just cut the crap we could get into it!

"Yea…It's not like we have to be in a heated make out session just to get by." Sorry God I lied again and this one came out as a HUGE laugh like I have been told the funniest thing on earth. Freddie chuckled to himself as he pulled away from me and to my relief his smirk had returned.

"Now I never said that…" He said lowly. His husky voice danced circles around my head taunting my ears and sending the rest of my senses crazy. At this moment I never felt so needy and at another's will.

"Freddie, please…" I trailed off. He laughed lightly as he leaned his forehead against mine affectionately. Again I lost all trains of thought and breathing became foreign to me. His lips hovered dangerously close to mine and I was so tempted to close the gap, but that wouldn't please him. It would ruin the game.

"Are you resorting to begging, Puckett?" He questioned. His warm breath tickled my face and I let out a small whimper. The way he teased me was so cruel but I couldn't help but feel slightly turned on. It was just one of those things that attracted me to him.

"Depends…are you resorting to torture, Benson." I retorted sharply. He laughed again, tauntingly and I felt my hands clench into fists as his arms loosened from around my waist. This was unbearable.

"Are you sure this is appropriate Puckett because Carly is right across the hall and your mom could pop in at any moment." He pointed out ignoring my accusation of torture.

"Carly is visiting her grandfather and my mom has been called into surgery." I responded quickly. He didn't have that excuse to hold over me so what else was he going to do to cause me to tick until detonation.

"Hmm…I still find it extremely immoral, especially for a girl with your stature…if anybody were to catch you sucking face with me, it could ruin your reputation." He was the epitome of evil.

"Freddie…" I whined. He laughed one last time before his eyes flashed that dangerous way that told my heart to speed up.

"I love it when you beg…" He breathed contently, all the while sounding utterly seductive.

In one swift moment he had slammed my back up against the wall next to the door. I cringed as a slight shock of pain traveled up my spine, only to get lost in a tremor of pleasure that came with his lips crashing onto mine. Relief washed over me for a moment and was quickly replaced with wanting as our mouths moved hungrily against one another's. I gave him applause for holding out this long because he wanted this just as much as I did.

He moved his lips from my mouth and let them graze over my cheek and to my ear. I clenched my eyes shut as I tried to suppress another whine from the loss of contact on my lips.

"I think you're suffering as deserved a reward." He practically purred in my ear. I bit the inside of my cheek as his lips returned to mine, kissing me roughly but perfectly. He delved his tongue into my mouth and due to my anticipation of this moment I let a small moan escape me and travel into his mouth. He smirked against my lips, proud of himself and my cheeks flushed.

A miniature war went off in my mouth as my own tongue fought back for the sake of its territory. It was lost efforts considering he would always remain dominant when it came to these aspects of our kisses. I gave in willing and my hands moved on their own as they went to his shoulder before raking down his chest. He grunted in response before taking both my hands and pinning them by the sides of my head.

He wasn't gentle at all and this drove me to the point of insanity. I didn't enjoy the aftermath of some of the bruises…that was just odd, but I enjoyed the process as I mentioned before. He pulled away slowly, biting on my lip in the process and pulling on it. I panted for air as my lids became heavy and my eyes glazed over in desire. His own lust was apparent in his eyes as he gave me this hungry stare.

After a good five gasps of air he lunged at my neck, biting down hard enough to get me to yelp. He laughed cockily against my neck before soothing the small pinch of pain by sucking on the area softly. He released my hands cautiously but I knew they needed to stay where they were.

"You're so obedient." He breathed against my collar before letting his tongue trail all the way up the crook of my neck. My back arched slightly as his lips returned to mine once again, placing small chaste kisses upon them; short but satisfying. His hands moved to the small of my back as our tongue took upon another inevitable battle. My hands slowly found their place at my sides as his right hand traveled down under my leg to the back of my knee so that he could hoist my leg in the air.

This only earned him another moan and then it became apparent to me just how much I loved being a tutor.

Yes that is where I leave you. I find this chapter very enjoyable on my part. In my lapse in updating I think I have improved slightly. I don't know, you tell me in a review and I'll be extra happy. Thank you all the people who have been such faithful readers and I hope you enjoyed this chapter.

Living Eternity

Review responses…

Condawg1: I love using a monotone! It's fun because it's a way I usually express my annoyance with someone or something. Your US History teacher must be cool…eh I don't know sooooo thank you for reviewing you have to be like the McAwesomest! (I made that up).

Unknown: Sorry there was no name there but that you kindly for liking this story so much. It makes me proud to be a writer. I apologize for the long wait. I've just been trying to catch up with things…curse school.

Cupcakeslam23: Yea I just thought since Spencer seemed dead for a while that I would throw some of him in there just to make a laugh. Yea I hate fillers but I tend to do them when I have writers block. Thank you for the review

Sampuckettluvsham: I actually didn't think of that but now that I look at it, yea that was the old Sam shining through. She wouldn't be afraid of a snake. I'm not afraid of them either…I just don't like them very much. Thanks for the review darling.

Invader Johnny: Snakes aren't my thing, although I think they are amazingly cool and I would own one if I could…but I think I'd kill it. I think that's how my bunny died. Anyways thank for the review you are a doll.

Unknowndreamer: Thank you I try and I love responding that's why I felt bad for like three hours. Haha thank you for the review love.

CrystalDarkness-331: I'm glad to know that you liked it even though it was only a filler. Thank you for the review and that chapter really couldn't spark any suggestions.

Ismelllikewetdogintherain: I don't know if the way I portray them getting caught was satisfying but yea I said they got caught…not much to it, but I'm glad that you liked the chapter so much and I hope you liked this on.

Odin13: I'll check out the songs that you have suggested but I've been basing this off of my shuffled music…my library could use some expanding though. Thanks for the suggestions and the review. I love ya for em.

Hypo'Lana: There is no iCarly without Spencer…or so I've been told. I don't hate snakes but I don't like them either. I guess I just don't agree with them. Yea my mom isn't like that because I already tell her everything. Thank you for the review sweetheart.

Silent Falling Rain: Oh I'm glad you like this story. It has to be my favorite out of the three Seddie fics I've written…probably because it's the only true original LE fic. Thank you for reviewing.

Lilo: I live for witty banter. It's my life and sometimes I wish people actually had conversations like that. I only did once but ended up laughing to death in the end…then I was revived. Thank you for reviewing.

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Lyla D.: I'm glad you like it. Yea I'm gonna try giving Sam some dominance. She's the logic of the relationship…when she's not going crazy over the guy (not literally). I'm also happy to be on you top five Seddie list. Thank you!

ZBixby: Yea after I read twilight I had been inspired to write more because between Sarah Dessen and Stephanie Meyer, their style was the kind that I liked and thought other people would like too. I still need to work on making my own though and thank you for reviewing. I like receiving a review like yours.

Eva017: I thank you for reviewing and thinking that the chapter was good despite the fact that it was just a filler and I have a strong dislike for those. I love Disneyland! Although I've only been to DisneyWORLD. Haha Disneyland looks like fun.

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