CHAPTER 11 - My Everything

Paige's POV

Finally working up the courage to step outside I stand up and walk out to the hall. I hear voices coming from the gym.

'Jason and Kevin? Great...'

Kevin: Pitch the rock, Sir! Pitch it!

Jason screams

Finally seeing them Kevin has the ball and turns in my direction, Jason is still screaming, and kicks a chair in his frustration.

Kevin: Don't hate the player son, Hate the game. You know what I'm sayin'?

He looks up and notices me watching them.

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"Oh Ms. Michalchuk!" he throws the ball to Jason and turns back to me. "You wanna shoot some horse with us? Or are you runnin off to a spelling bee or somethin?" I let out a small laugh.

'Oh God…'

"Uh…about the cheer…please know that I've composed more…cheery before."

"Nobodies ever done a cheer in my honor, so by default your cheer, for me, was about the best I ever had…so thank you." I take in a deep breath.

"I was kinda distracted." I explain.

"Distracted huh? Let me guess…by some kinda acid tongued, raven haired beauty from the wrong side of the tracks maybe?" Just then Ms. Hatzilakos walks in to let Kevin know that the taxi had arrived for them. He thanks her and she leaves again.

"Let me ask you a question." he says returning his attention to me again. "You like this girl?" I think about it for a second not sure what to say. "Like you know...Like her, like her…"

Without much more thought I answer him.

"Yeah… I…like her, but…I'm not gay. My brother is gay. I'm straight. I always have been." He looks at me surprised.

"Your brothers gay? My brothers gay too! Even got married to a guy."

'Wow. That…I didn't expect.'

"Really?"

"Yeah. It was the hottest wedding I've ever been to in my life, really, really cool hands down. Almost made me wanna switch teams." I turned, letting out a chuckle. "Almost." he repeats. "Look, I'm probably the last guy who should be giving you advice on this very subject, but I dunno…you guys seemed happy…the other night…you know? And that's kinda rare, and whether its gay, straight, bi…whatever. It's kinda worth investigating a little further, I'd say. Just...my two cents."

'He's right...I think it is...She is…I think..'

"You're just gonna stand there staring at me after I've dropped that wisdom on you?! Come on, that's your move! Go chase the girl silly!" I laugh again, very nervous but excited I walk through the door behind me, turning back to smile at him before leaving. I walk down the steps and off in the direction of her apartments.

'I have to talk to Alex...ugh…What am I going to say? What if she hates me now? I was such a jerk to her, I know if she had said what I said it would hurt and bad…' Just then my cell phone rings.

Paige: Hello?

Marco: Paige! What the hell...

Paige: What Marco?

Marco: I just talked to Alex...Paige you kissed her cause you felt bad for her?

Paige: No, Marco…No that's not true.

Marco: Well then why did you tell her that?

Paige: Marco, I'm an idiot. I don't know why I do half of the things I do…Kevin knocked some sense into me…Is she ok? What did she say? Does she hate me?

Marco: Whoa, Whoa! Calm down Paige...Kevin as in Kevin Smith?? What did he say about your cheer?

Paige: Yes Marco Kevin Smith...and he thanked me.

Marco: -Chuckles-

Paige: Shut up! I hear you Del Rossi! Now answer me please!

Marco: -Sighs- First of all she's really upset Paige...She tried to cover it, but I could tell...She said a lot of things...she told me all about the premiere...most of it in detail…she spared me of too much detail on the kiss...or should I say kisses…And no Paige she doesn't hate you...actually it's the opposite...

Paige she's liked you for a long time. She's just never said anything. I was just thinking about it right now and...well.. remember the other day before the premiere? We were talking about it together and she freaked out and made that comment about not being 'into gay or whatever.'

Paige: Yea I remember that...Right after she had spit milk everywhere -Laughs- I actually remember thinking it was kinda cu...never mind.

Marco: -Laughs- Paige…its me Marco come on…its fine ok?...its not like I'm going to make fun of you...I may tease you a bit...But I think its awesome…So you think she's cute?

Paige: Yea..-Whispering-

Marco: I know you're probably a little confused about all of this, its new... and its not going to be easy...but, if you ever need me I'm here.

Paige: Thanks Marco, Hey I gotta go I just got to her apartments...so...

Marco: Oh wow, you are going to go see her like right now?

Paige: Yea...I'm nervous Marco...What should I say?

Marco: Just say what you feel...what your ready for...But don't say anything you'll regret Paige...I care about you both...I don't want either of you hurt...

Paige: I know Marco…Ill call you later and tell you what happens...Thanks again.

Marco: No problemo, love ya!

Paige: love ya.

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Closing the phone I look up at the building in front of me. I take a deep breath I open the door and step inside.

'Second floor...walk straight then turn to the left and it's the first door on the left side.'

I continue to walk and almost make it to the door.

'Ok Paige, you can do this. Just tell her you are stupid and an idiot and the conversation she over heard was a lie. Tell her that the truth was that you are just a scared jerk who clearly cares too much about what everyone else thinks...ugh...I cant do this...I'll just wait...or I'll call her...' Just then her door opens, she comes out and leans against the door with her arms crossed, obviously upset. She looks my way noticing she isn't alone. She doesn't say anything to me; then again I don't blame her. I wouldn't talk to me either.

"I've been trying to work up the nerve to ring the doorbell." She scoffs at my comment.

"We don't have one...Welcome to my world." She looks away from me.

"Any room in it for a stupid girl?"

'A very, very stupid girl.'

"I already have one of those." she replies still looking away.

'I'm trying to apologize Alex...'

"Well, how bout' room for…someone whose ready to stop worrying so much... about what other people think?" She finally turns her head and looks at me.

"There might be room in it for her."

'God she's beautiful...Focus Paige.'

"Alex, I'm sorry...about before…what I said." She looks away again.

'No don't look away from me...It's not cool.'

"No, it's not." I walk towards her standing in front of her to look her in the eyes. "I said you were nothing to me, which is a total lie. Because…Right now?" She lightly smiles at this.

"You're pretty much everything." I finish off my sentence and take her hand in both of mine holding it tight. She breaths in a little taken aback from what she had just heard me say. I lift her hands up close to me and rub her hand with my thumb. What felt like only seconds was really five minutes. We had been standing there looking into each others eyes not saying a word when my cell phone interrupts our moment. I reach for the phone with my left hand, still holding on to hers with my right.

Paige: Hello? -Smiling bashfully-

Marco: Paige, are you still there?

Paige: -laughs- Marco…its been like 15 minutes, yes im still here.

Alex laughs.

Marco: well, you're laughing...and...was that Alex I just heard?

Paige: -looking over to Alex smiling- Yea…it was...

Marco: Ugh, Let me talk to her!

Paige: Here…He wants to talk to you.

Alex rolls her eyes and takes the phone.

Marco: Alex??

Alex: Yes oh wise one...

Marco: Everything turned out ok right?

Alex: Yes Marco...better than...

Marco: ok… ok I'll let you get back to her...but you gotta tell me everything later!

Alex: -Laughs- I will…Bye Marco…

Paige: Byyye!!

Alex hangs up.

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Alex's POV

"What are we going to do with that boy?" I chuckle.

"Really, I have no clue…I've been trying to figure that out for a while now." She laughs. I look down at her hands and back up at her smiling.

'God she's beautiful...I can't believe she's standing right here...what does all of this mean?' And like she had been reading my mind she raised my hand in both of hers and placed a soft kiss on my fingers.

"Alex...What do you want to do? I mean...what does all of this mean?" I let out a small laugh and she smacks my arm.

"Why are you laughing at me, I'm serious!" This only makes me laugh more.

"Paige…I laughed because I was thinking the same exact thing... What does all of this mean?" Pulling her with me I walk her down the hall towards the doors leading to alley at the side of the apartment building. I always came here when I wanted to be left alone. It was cleaner then most alleys, and lit just enough.

"I don't know Alex…All I do know is that I can't shake what I'm feeling right now..." Hearing her words I stop in my tracks and stand in front of her, taking both of her hands in mine I look up at her.

"What are you feeling?" I ask shyly. She looks up with me and with a blushing smirk she sighs.

"A lot of things right now...My stomach..." She lets out a small breathy laugh. "Feels like butterflies have found a new home..." I raise my hand to her arm and lightly graze it with my fingers from the bottom of her sleeve down to her wrist. She breathes in deeply.

"You ok?" I tilt my head to look her in the eyes; she smiles up at me and nods.

"When you touch me...My skin...Gets hot...like..." she sighs "Never mind I sound stupid..." She says looking down again. I place a finger under her chin and tilt her head up to look at me.

"It feels like your skin is on fire... and you don't want to do anything but let it happen, because you're scared it might never come back if you just let it go... I know...it's what I've been feeling…" Never taking my eyes off hers I continue. "And when it does go away I pray that there would be a moment you would brush passed me even on accident...or another kiss where I'd have your soft blonde curls fall by my face and tickle my cheek making the butterflies in my stomach flutter even faster...anything to have that feeling back...even for a second.."

She smiles and stares into my eyes, nodding and if I hadn't been standing right in front of her I would have missed it.

Moving my hand from under her chin I cup her right cheek, sliding my fingers under her hair. She closes her eyes and leans into my touch. Leaning closer I press my lips onto hers, kissing her for the third time. I wanted this kiss to be a more passionate kiss...deeper, and I was ready, but I wasn't sure she was. And I am not about to push her into something she wasn't ready for, if I did then I might just be setting myself up to be hurt again.

Softly kissing her I slowly started lightly biting her lip, she mimicked my movements by slightly biting my lips. I then snaked my arm around her, letting her know that I wanted her closer to me. Needed her closer. She moved in and leaned against my body and slid her fingers under the bottom of my tank top. Moving my lips away from her I tilted my head and placed a soft kiss on her temple, looking down at her fingers on my skin.

Using moment this to her advantage she began trailing kisses from the side of my face down under my chin and to my neck. When her lips reached my neck I was surprised by her tongue darting out softly against my skin for a second. Noticing the slight twitch that my body had let out at that moment, Paige smiled into my neck and let out a small giggle. She slowly let her tongue peek out again slid it from my chin down to my collarbone. Stopping there she slipped her tongue back in and delicately sucked on my collarbone. And again a twitched filled my body. My fingers began to shake with intensity while my hands and neck felt like they were on fire. It wasn't until after I felt her lips leave my neck, that I realized I had let out a small moan. I had tilted my head back a bit in the moment and my eyes had been closed. I opened my eyes and tilted my head back down to meet her gaze.

PAIGE'S POV

'Damn…How does she have this affect on me?' I look down at the floor and again she takes my chin into her fingers and lifts my head again to look into her eyes. As I look into her eyes the feeling that I had gotten each from kissing her started to creep back. The first two times I wasn't ready for the feeling, I knew what it was but I pushed it away. This had never happened to me when I had kissed ANYONE in the past; if it had gone further into sex then yes I had experienced it. But from a kiss? I've never gotten this aroused from a kiss. So, to say it caught me off guard would be an understatement. I stretched my legs a little and wrapped my arms loosely around her neck. I began to feel her move back holding on to my hips; she backed up until she was against the steps of the backdoor of the apartments. She then sat down pulling me down on her lap, her eyes never leaving mine. Leaning back against the door she pulled me with her and let me sit in between her legs and lay my head on her chest as she holds me. Breaking the silence she is the first one to speak.

"So...You're ready to stop worrying about what other people think, eh?" She chuckles under her breath.

Looking up at her I smile and feel my cheeks heat up, probably turning a bright shade of red. I nod softly.

"As for the unanswered question from earlier...If you want it to mean that you and me...become an Us. Then we are..." She sat there on the steps waiting for my reaction, a smile, a sigh, a frown, words, anything. I look up at her and smile. "So when are we telling everyone about us?" I asked. And back came that beautiful smile she liked to keep for moments like these, the one smile that she had saved for me. Or that's what I liked to think. "You sure you're ready for that? I mean... Look what happened when Hazel just thought..." She looked down again, then to the left away from me. I could tell that her mind had drifted back to the words she heard me say to Hazel.

"Alex…" She turns her head to face me. "It doesn't matter what anyone thinks. Hazel will have to get use to it, and so will everyone else…hell...it might take me a little time to get use to some of it. And I know it isn't going to be easy..." Hearing some of my doubts she covered her face with her hands, frustrated. I reach up and move her hands away and hold them. "But it will be worth it." She smiles and stares at me for a moment, then takes my hand pulling me up.