Hey...
Unfortunately I think I won't be able to update until February or until the end of January...
I'll be traveling, and I won't even be in my country, so it will be difficult to update...
I'm sorry and I hope you forgive me!
Please don't give up on this fanfiction!
I'm not abandoning it, I promise! Next year I'll update normally!
Thank you and happy holidays! =)
When Quinn woke up the next day, Rachel was already there.
"Hey..." Quinn said.
"Hi..." Rachel said. "Your mother went to have breakfast..."
"Oh... How long have you been here?" Quinn asked. "You should have woken me up..."
"A few minutes, don't worry..." Rachel said.
They stayed in silence for a minute.
"What did you tell Santana?" Rachel asked suddenly.
"What? I... Told her... I just told her that I hurt you and tried to kill you..." Quinn said. She unconsciously lowered her head in shame.
"Oh... You didn't tell her everything, then..." Rachel said.
"No... I... Did you want me to tell her everything?" Quinn asked.
"No, I'm actually relieved... I didn't want anyone to know... Your mother knows now... But I still haven't told my fathers and I don't think I'lll tell them..." Rachel said.
"Why?" Quinn asked.
Rachel smiled sadly at Quinn.
"They would kill you, Quinn... Literally... At first I didn't tell them because I was ashamed... But now... I just want to get over it... I don't want to think about it anymore... These weeks I could only think about that and... I'm tired... I want... I want to get better..." Rachel said.
Quinn felt happiness fill her. Rachel was recovering!
"Can... Can I hug you, Rachel?" Quinn asked hesitantly.
Rachel stiffened.
"I... Quinn... I..." Rachel didn't know what to say.
The cheerleader deflated.
"I understand... I'm sorry..." Quinn said, fighting her tears. "It's too soon, isn't it?"
Rachel looked at her for a moment longer before she reached out and grabbed Quinn's hand.
"Is this okay for now?" Rachel asked.
Quinn let a few tears fall from her eyes. She gave her a bittersweet smile.
"Yeah... It's perfect..." Quinn said.
Silence filled the room one more time.
"How is school?" Quinn asked.
"Well... Everyone is worried about you... Santana didn't tell anyone you were here... And everyone just ignores me, so... No one knows you are here and what happened..." Rachel said.
"Oh, I see... Coach Sylvester must be really mad at me..." Quinn said.
"I think Santana took care of that... She even came to talk to me yesterday and said that while you were in the hospital she would make sure I wasn't slushied... Then she threatened to slushie me everyday for the rest of the year if I told anyone that..." Rachel said.
"That sounds like her..." Quinn said, smiling.
"Yeah..." Rachel said.
Silence.
"They don't allow visitors tomorrow... So I can't come..." Rachel said.
"Oh... It's okay... Thank you for coming today... It means a lot to me..." Quinn said. "What are you doing tomorrow?"
"Nothing really... I'll just stay home... My dads said they were going to watch Funny Girl with me..." Rachel said.
"That's your favorite movie?" Quinn asked.
Rachel gave her a small smile.
"Yes, it is... I love Barbra Streisand..." Rachel said.
"You'll be even better than her one day..." Quinn said.
Rachel blushed.
"You don't need to exaggerate, Quinn..." Rachel said. "Being at her level is sufficient..."
Quinn chuckled.
"Okay then... Hey! Does this mean you'll come back to Glee club?" Quinn asked.
Rachel hesitated.
"Yeah... I think I can go back now..." Rachel said. "And it's not like you can win without me..." She added, smiling a little.
"No argument there..." Quinn said.
Quinn stared at Rachel and felt happy when she realized Rachel was getting better. Her eyes were still sad but she could see a small part of the spark she used to have before beginning to shine again. It was far from what it used to be, but it was a start.
"When I get out of the hospital, do you want to hang out? We can watch funny girl... I've actually never watched it..." Quinn suggested.
"You've never watched funny girl?" Rachel asked. "That's unacceptable, Quinn! No one should be deprived of Barbra's voice..."
"Is that a yes?" Quinn asked.
Rachel hesitated.
"If you don't want to, it's really okay..." Quinn added when Rachel didn't say anything.
Rachel averted her eyes from Quinn to the ground and pulled her hand out of the cheerleader's own.
"Quinn, it's really hard for me, but I think that if we really are going to try to be friends, I have to tell you... I need to tell you how I felt..." Rachel said.
"How you felt?" Quinn asked, confused.
"I... I know we've talked about it, but... I never said how I felt... I tried to talk about it to my psychiatrist, but I couldn't... I feel like I can tell it to you now... So, please, listen to me..." Rachel said.
Taking a deep breath, Rachel looked back at Quinn.
"I had never felt so scared in my life..." Rachel said. "When you took me to the basement and started attacking me, I was so scared but at the same time I refused to believe you would actually hurt me like that... When you kissed me and bit me, all I could think about was 'Why is this happening? Is this a nightmare?"... When you scratched me, the pain made me realize that that was not a nightmare... But it was when I heard your voice saying you would take from me what Puck took from you, when I looked in your eyes that were empty at the time, when I felt your fingers entering me that I realized what was happening... At that moment, you broke me, Quinn... Everything that I believed was broken... I had never believed you would hurt me like that... My dream of losing my virginity to my soulmate was broken..."
Both Rachel and Quinn were crying by then.
"After that, I was no longer afraid... I was just sad... I was feeling so sad that when you started to choke me, I didn't even care... But when my body began to ask desperately for oxygen, it reacted almost unconsciously and did what you told me to do... When you didn't release your hold on my neck, I lost all hope... That was when I thought my life was over... Not only figuratively but literally too... And after that night, I felt like everything was lost... I would remember and it felt like it was happening all over again... But when you tried to end your life, I realized I didn't die... And that you tried to give your life so that I could have my life back... Even if it was you who caused everything... And I think that now I can try to live again... Maybe you did give me a little bit of your life after all..." Rachel said. "I still fear you... But when I look into your eyes I know you are not going to hurt me... So I hope that soon I'll stop fearing you..."
Rachel wiped her tears of her face.
"So, yes... It's been good for me to have you around... It's been helping me to feel a little safer around you.. So you can come to my house and we'll watch funny girl when you get better..." Rachel said.
After everything Rachel said, Quinn never thought Rachel would accept to watch the movie with her.
"T-thank you, Rachel..." Quinn said. "You... I don't know if I could ever do that if I were you... If I could ever even try to forgive you if I were you..."
Rachel gave Quinn a sad smile.
"I know..." She said.
That was when Quinn looked into Rachel's eyes and she knew. She knew she would do anything to bring Rachel's life back. Rachel would be happy again, she would make sure of it.
What they didn't know was that someone was watching them and hearing everything they said.