A/N I know it's been a while since I posted. I'm sorry RL has been a bear. Last week hubby had his heart operation and now is home and I'm at his becken call 24/7 wait I was there before hand also hmmmmmmmmmm. Now it's trying to help him heal and hoping he will go back to the man he was before the health problems and will stop all this controling shit.

I wanna thank all my friends for their help with this: abbymickey24, fallgoddess, LunarEclipse1, and KimRathbone or I should say that they encouraged me to continue and write faster. I also need to thank Maria for fixing my tense since I know this is my biggest problem. If your looking for a good story to read check out any of the authors that give me my incouragement along with helping keeping the chapters reading smoothly.

Chapter 10

I woke up to the light coming in my window, not the sunlight, but my security light. I had the light installed at the corner of the house, so I could walk the path down to the birthing barn without killing myself. I found myself still wrapped in his arms, and I don't recall ever feeling this safe.

I really needed to pee, and I was really hungry, but I didn't want to wake the man beside me. I snuggled back against him rubbing my ass against his abs. I felt his arms tighten around me, along with hearing him moan.

I stopped rubbing my ass against him, because that sexy moan made me wet again. What was this man doing to me? I had promised myself that no man would ever control me again. How did this young hot, sexy man already have some sort of control over how my body functioned in his presence?

I slid out of his arms causing him to groan. I darted to my bathroom, where I peed and brushed my teeth. I then grabbed a t-shirt and yoga pants from my little dresser that was built in the bathroom. I thought it was strange to have a four-drawer dresser built in, but for some reason, I filled it with a combination of sleepwear, under clothes, and some workout clothes.

I've grabbed stuff from it all the time, and this was one of those times where I was thankful to have it there. When I walked out of the bathroom, I expected to find Jasper still a sleep in the bed, but he wasn't there! His shirt, which had been dropped on the floor, was also gone! Did I screw up, and he walked out on me?

As I came down the stairs wondering where he could be, I heard him in the kitchen. The sound along with the smell of bacon cooking calmed my fears. I know we still have a lot to talk about, but at least he didn't leave. He needs to understand my past if we were to have a future together.

I found myself almost skipping the rest of the way into the kitchen; as the thought of watching a man cook was such a foreign idea, which I didn't want to miss out on. I rounded the corner and just stood in the doorway watching. He was working in just his boots and shirt.

That shirt had hung down to my knees on me barely covered his tight, sexy ass. I tried to suppress the moan, but the sight before me was just too much.

"I hope you don't mind me cooking. I woke to my stomach growling something fierce. I heard you in the bathroom, and I figured if I was hungry, you would be too. I know I'm rambling. This is all new to me…"

I walked over to him placed a finger on his lips to stop him.

"I don't mind. I loved the sight of you cooking in my kitchen, and it really smells good," I said, turning to get some plates down from the cupboard.

I let him finish cooking the eggs, while I made us, some toast and poured us each a beer, in the frosted mugs I keep in the freezer. Yup, beer, this was not breakfast, but a midnight snack.

By the time, I had the toast buttered and the plate on the table, he was serving up the bacon and eggs.

"Char, Peter's wife, does most of the cooking, so this is the best I can do," he said placing the plates on the table.

"It smells wonderful and I bet it tastes just as good. Thank you for being so thoughtful. After we eat, we need to go and check on the colts, along with collecting our clothes, but I can say I do love the view I have right in front of me," I said licking my lips.

He chuckled a bit before answering, "Thank you ma'am glad you like it. I think my shirt looks much better on you than me though,"

I shook my head, as I dipped my fork into the eggs. I found myself moaning, as I've never tasted eggs so good. We found ourselves in a comfortable banter as we ate. I guess you could say it was more like flirting.

We cleaned up as quickly as possible, so we could check on the colts. The bantering, flirting, or whatever you want to call it, continued as we cleaned up, and as well as we walked down to the barn.

We found them all just standing in the paddock sleeping. After gathering, our clothes and putting fresh bedding down, we opened the gates to let the mares and colts into their stalls.

As we walked up to the house, I asked if he minded if we could talk for a few minutes. He was more than glad to talk stating he understood that we've gone about this all wrong, if we want a future together.

Hearing him say that made me smile and my insides jump for joy.

Once inside, we sat on the couch. I turned sideways pulling one of my legs up under me. I did this, so I was facing him.

"As I told you in the barn, my life up until I moved here was one where every aspect of it was controlled. I will not allow myself to be controlled like that again," I stated.

"I would never try and control you. Talk to me; please tell me all about it. I want to be part of your life. From the second I met you, I've been drawn to you, and now I could never be without you in my life," he said smirking at me before he winked.

What was this man trying to do to me, "It's hard to talk about. I thought he truly loved me, along with only wanting what was best for me. I was in too deep when I realized it was about control, not love that he was after. I threw away nineteen years of my life. I have a daughter, who will not speak to me, because he told her, I was nothing. He told her that I would only destroy her life if she listened to me. How I didn't see it sooner. I don't know. Sorry if I'm rambling. I'm not sure how much of the past you want to know, and if it really affects us. I'm scared out of my mind, but at the same time I want to try."

"Darlin', we all have parts of our past that we just want to forget, but I think we need to let each other know about them. Maybe not all of it right this moment, but a little bit at a time. I know for me, there is no going back. I want a future that includes you in it. I feel it's only right for you to know that I've been known as a player. The future I want is to be with you and you only. I can't promise you that the ladies will stop throwing themselves at me, but I can promise that I will not accept any of their advances. You're the only one I want to be intimate with," he said as he slid towards me so his thigh was touching my knee.

I just sat there staring at him not sure what to say.