After everyone voting, To Save An Angel won! So this is the new title! :)

Warnings: Child abuse mentions of self harm.

If Dean had stayed a minute longer he would have heard the lies she screamed at her son, filling his head with everything but the truth.

But most of all, if Dean had stayed a minute longer, he would have heard her scream that Castiel is to never see Dean again.

Castiel's POV (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*~*~*~

Mother's hand came down and slapped me across the right check. "You gay, faggot. How can you be my son? You're a disgrace to this family and you're going to hell. Do you want that? Do you want to go to hell!?" Mother screamed angrily.

When I didn't respond she shoved me hard. I fell back and hit my head against the wall. When I hit the ground my ankle let out a loud 'snap' causing me to cry out in pain. My eye's clouded over and I couldn't focus on anything as hard as I tried.

"No mother! I don't!" I screamed, hot tears streaming down my face.

"That's what I thought!" She kicked me in the side with her pointy heel. I sucked in a sharp breath and brought my hands up to protect my face.

"You're a pathetic excuse for a son you know that right? I should have just fucking aborted you like your father asked then I wouldn't have to do this and feel guilty after."

"I am sorry!" I screamed pain exploding from my ribs after each hit.

"Why do you do this?! You whore around with different guys and then you dare to bring one home? To our home? Where Anael sleeps? You disgust me." She sneered down at me.

The beating went on until she got tired. My ribs hurt and it was painful to breath, she stomped on my ankle with her heel at least 2 times. She was relentless.

"Stop crying Castiel. Boys don't cry. Just go to your room. You're father will deal with you when he gets home."

I didn't want father to deal with me. Mother may be relentless but father could keep on beating for hours. He never got tired it seemed.
I slowly peeled my arms away from my face and looked up at her. She looked at me with pity, hate and exhaustiveness. I tried to pick myself up but collapsed on the spot.

"Castiel." She said in a much kinder, softer voice.

"I'm doing this because I love you and I don't want to see you rot in hell. I'm afraid to say this but I don't think you can see Dean Winchester anymore." I collapsed again and looked at her with wide eyes.

"M-Mother?" I said quietly but she simply turned on her heel and clicked down the hall.

I tried to pick myself up but fell again. I let out a sigh. I was a failure. How was I ever going to make the stairs?

Mother was right, I am an abomination. She should have aborted me in the womb. Tears still streamed down my face and I couldn't get them to stop. I angrily tried to scrub them away. Boy don't cry.

"Castiel!" I lifted my head to see Anna running down the stairs and coming to my side.

"Sh-she- Why was it so bad this time?" Anna whispered horrified. She hesitated to touch my bruising cheek.

"H-he brought me h-home. I-I couldn't stop him." It hurt to breath. It hurt a lot. Everything hurt.

Anna's worried face and bright hazel eyes started to blur out and go black.

"Cas! Castiel!" She cried, her voice getting fainter and fainter
Soon everything went blank.

I woke up to a dark room. It felt like there was an elephant resting on my chest. I took in a shaky breath before I groaned.

"Castiel!" A voice called out. I turned my head towards the voice to see Gabriel and Anna rushing over to me.

I let out a slight smile.

"Are you okay!?" They asked worried.

"I can assure you I am fine." I lied. I felt like I was dying.

"Wh-what happened?" I groaned and rubbed my head.

"It was Mother..." Gabriel said quietly.

The beating came rushing back.I gasped her words rushing back to me

"I'm afraid but I don't think you can't see Dean Winchester anymore."

I felt tears collect in my eyes. I couldn't stop seeing Dean! Dean made me happy.

"Castiel calm down!" Anna cried trying to grab onto me. I lashed out and hit her. She looked at me with wide eyes.

Soon I was sobbing. I couldn't stop seeing Dean! Dean made me happy! Dean made me laugh! Dean was my best friend! I couldn't stop seeing Dean. I felt the urged to cut. I needed to feel pain. This had to be a dream! If I cut I could figure out if this was real or not.

"You gay, faggot." Mother's angry voice screamed in my head. I gasped.

"Castiel, calm down!" A loud voice said. I turned over to see Micheal was standing at the door.

"I- I can't!" I cried even hared.

Micheal calmly came, crutched down in front of my bed and put my head in his hands and looked me right in the eye.

"Count to ten Castiel. Breath." His deep voice called out.

I tried to suck in a breath but it just came out as a pathetic sob.

"I-I-I'm s-sorry!" I cried out.

"I should have just fucking aborted you."

"One!" Micheal started to count out in a booming voice.

"Two!"

"You're going to hell." Her voice taunted.

My head was racing. I couldn't stop it. It hurt.

"Focus on my voice Castiel. Three!"

I tried. I really did try but his voice was barley there. I let out a soft whimper.

"You're a pathetic excuse for a son!" Mother's words rang in my head.

"Four Castiel!"

"Should have been aborted!"

"Five! Breath Cas, breath!"

I let in a shaky breath and tried to focus Micheal's voice and not mothers.

"You disgust me." Mothers voice roared, sounding a little further away.

"Six!"

I sucked in a huge breath and with Micheal I whispered.

"Seven."

"Pathetic!" Mother angry voice rang quietly.

"Eight!" Micheal yelled crushing Mothers voice.

"Nine!"

"Ten!" I gasped and sat up. I quickly wrapped my arms around Micheal and started to calm down. Micheal's large arms encircled me and held me close.

"She-she said I couldn't see Dean anymore." I whimpered brokenly into Micheal's shoulder.

"Oh Cas." He replied sadly. I sniffed against his shoulder.

What was I going to do?

What have I done.

CAS DOESN'T HAVE PSYCHOSIS. I know it kinda seems like it but he doesn't. You know how if someone insults you it stays with you and you can hear it over and over again? Well throw a panic attack into the mix and this is what could happen.

If you were curious, Castiel's mother is Naomi :D Nice twist eh?

Question for today: If you can live with anyone that is fictional who would it be and why?