The premiere is coming up VERY soon. AHH, I can't wait! I'm so very excited.
CH. 11 Making it Worse, Not Better
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Kinsley hit the 7 on speed dial as soon as she stepped in her bedroom and shut the door. (A/N: I know, Jason would be higher up on my speed dial too. But I figured that Kinsley already had A LOT of people on her speed dial…Aly, Janna, Caleb, Ainsley, mom, dad.) The phone only rang once before Jason picked up.
"Any word?" He asked, hoping there was good news. "I heard my mom talking to your mom but she wouldn't tell me anything. She said that I'd have to wait and hear it from you. So?" Kinsley loved the way he rambled when nervous of excited.
"Thay said yes!" Kinsley exploded.
"I knew it'd all work out." Jason said coolly. "This is going to be sweet Kins! Next week is going to be a blast." Ainsley walked into Kinsley's room. Kinsley almost dropped the phone, remembering that there was still one obstacle to conquer; telling Ainsley.
"Yeah, um can I call you back in a little while." She asked him. He agreed and Kinsley hung up.
"Who was that?" Ainsley asked, sitting on Kinsley's queen size bed.
"Jason." Kinsley told her, Ainsley's eyes grew big.
"I thought you hadn't talked to him since that day you ALL hung out?"
"There's some stuff I have to tell you but please let me finish first before you say anything." Ainsley looked worried, which didn't help Kinsley's nerves. "There was like a week after I hung out with Jase that he didn't call. But then, one day during rehearsal he called and we've talked every day since." Ainsley's face was pure shock but Kinsley forced herself to keep going. "Jason and I have become really close friends. So yesterday he asked me to come out to Hollywood and be his date for a premiere that's going on next week." Ainsley's mouth hung open but she said nothing. "I know that I haven't been completely honest with you and I'm so sorry but I knew that you'd be mad and I really didn't want to hurt your feelings." Kinsley blurted.
"I honestly don't know what to say Kins. This is surreal. To me, Jason is some, very hot, famous guy off TV. But to you he's just another friend." Ainsley sighed. "You win Kinsley, you win. You can have Jason. As a matter of fact, I think I just might hate him. So please, by all means, have Jason. I don't care anymore." Ainsley turned to walk out but stopped just before she went out the door. "But just know, it should have been me. You have everything; an amazing job, great best friends, incredible style, and now Jason. It should have been me." Ainsley said and walked out of the room, closing Kinsley's door behind her. Kinsley couldn't help but cry. Ainsley wasn't mad, like Kinsley thought she'd be, she was hurt and disappointed, which is worse than mad by far. Kinsley didn't know what else to do except call Jason.
"Hello!" He answered cheerfully.
"I can't do it Jase." She cried.
"Do what?" He asked confused.
"Hurt my sister the way that I just did. I told her everything. I told her about the phone calls and the premiere." Kinsley was sobbing so it was hard for her to get everything out, but Jason waited patiently while she finished. "I'm the worst sister ever! She wasn't even mad. She just said that I could have you but to know that it should have been her. I hurt her so bad Jase." Kinsley sniffed. Jason could tell that he was falling for Kinsley because the sound of her crying made his heart break a little. It was at that moment that he knew he always wanted to be there to protect Kinsley from whatever might come her way.
"Kinsley, don't be so hard on yourself. You're an amazing big sister. So Ainsley's hurt right now, she would've gotten over her fan-crush in a year at tops anyway. She won't stay hurt forever, she will get over it." Kinsley knew he was trying to help but those weren't the exact words she wanted to hear.
"Maybe she will one day, but I can promise that it'll be a lot harder for her to with you around." Kinsley was thinking what would happen if Jason every came over to their house. The scenario wasn't pretty.
"Yeah, it probably will, but she'll realize that I'm not the guy I am on TV and maybe she won't even like that real me." Jason tried to cheer Kinsley up.
"I guess that's possible, but what am I supposed to do right now. For the time being she's not the same Ainsley." Kinsley asked for advice.
"Just be there for her if she wants you but give her space if she doesn't. That never fails." Kinsley smiled.
"Thanks Jase, that does make me feel a little better, I guess." How he always knew what to say, Kinsley didn't know. But his words always helped.
"That's what I'm here for." At the moment, making Kinsley smile was his number one priority. "So where did you tell your friends that you're going next week?" He questioned. Kinsley gasped.
"Oh my gosh! I haven't told Aly about the premiere. She's gonna flip." Kinsley clapped a hand over her mouth when she remembered that Jason didn't know that Aly knew about him.
"Aly knows about me?" Jason asked. "You promised you wouldn't tell anyone who I was." He sounded hurt. "You know, if Aly says anything, we could make the front page of every teen magazine in the country. I don't know about you, but I'd rather stay out of the Hollywood gossip." Kinsley bit her bottom lip, like she always did when she felt cornered.
"I'm so sorry Jason. I wasn't hiding it from you on purpose. Plus, Aly would never say anything." She sighed. "I just didn't want to hurt you by making you think I broke a promise."
"You did break a promise, Kins and you did hurt me. But then again, it seems like hurting people is what you do best." Jason paused and Kinsley figured he was probably deciding whether or not to hang up. "Just call me before you pack so I can make sure you brought everything you're going to need." Kinsley heard a dial tone and was now crying even harder than before. What had just happened? One minute Jason is comforting her and the next he's hanging up on her. She felt like the most miserable person to ever live. She decided to stay in her room for the night and cry it out. She would call Jason tomorrow before she started packing and hopefully he would talk to her. He did still want her to go to the premiere with him, so he must no be too mad.
Kinsley barely slept throughout the night. She woke early the next morning to her alarm clock telling her it was 6am on a rainy Monday morning. For the first time in awhile, she didn't mind getting up to go to school. She knew that at school she'd be surrounded by people who were oblivious to her Jason and Ainsly situations. That would be a relief. She took and shower and threw on some knee-length sweat pants and a tight tee-shirt. She decided that it wasn't worth it to get all dressed up when she felt this bad. Aly met her at her car at 7.
"What's up BFF?" Aly said brightly. Her smile faded when she saw the look on Kinsley's face.
"Get in, I'll explain it on the way to school." Kinsley took the 20 minute ride to school to fill Aly in.
"Doesn't Jason realize that I would never tell anyone?" Aly asked as they pulled into the parking lot.
"No, he doesn't know that you're like the best secret keeper ever. Plus, I promised not to tell anyone. And this time, everyone included even you." Kinsley checked her make-up in the mirror. "But I'm gonna be okay. So let's have a normal day okay?" Aly agreed and they walked into a school.
Kinsley received a text message from Jason at lunch.
Hey, we really need to talk. Call me ASAP!
Kinsley read the message and looked at Aly.
"I'll be right back, bathroom break!" Aly said. Kinsley smiled at Aly's way of always knowing what Kinsley's looks meant.
"Yeah, I kinda have to go too. We'll be right back.:" Kinsley pushed Aly to the bathroom.
"It's from Jason, right?" She asked when the made sure they were alone. Kinsley nodded and let Aly read the message.
"We need to talk?" Kinsley repeated the text. "That's never good!" She said worried.
"Kinsley, come on, it could be good. You don't know that it's bad." Aly tried to sound convincing but wasn't even convincing herself. "There's only one way to find out." Aly handed Kinsley's phone back. Kinsley bit her lip.
"Okay, I'll call. But I'm not going to the rest of our classes if I'm crying." She said in a matter-of-fact tone. She waited as the phone rang.
"Hey Kinsley." Jason didn't sound happy. 'Uh-oh' was Kinsley's only thought.
"Hi," was all she said.
"Look, I've been thinking about what happened last night." The uh-oh was still the only thought in Kinsley's mind. "I wish that you would've just told me that you were going to tell Aly. I trust your judgement about her not telling, but you still lied to me." Kinsley wasn't sure where this was going.
"I know. I am sorry about that. But I promise that I'll never lie to you again. It was just so hard to have all this stuff happen to me and have no one to tell. Once everyone knows that I know you it'll be no problem, I swear." Kinsley begged. Jason was smiling on the other end.
"I know Kins. I was going to apologize for putting you in a situation where you felt like you had to lie to me and more importantly, to Ainsley. That's why I wanted you to call me. I know that I made you feel bad last night but it was all my fault and I'm sorry." Kinsley smiled, which made Aly smile.
"Thank-you Jason. That really does make me feel 10 times better. But don't blame yourself, no one made me lie. It was a bad choice on my part." Jason sighed.
"Whew, I thought you'd still be mad at me. You're awesome Kinsley!" Kinsley could hear someone talking to Jason in the background. "I have to go. Call me after work tonight. Okay?"
"Sure. Talk to ya later." Kinsley was all smiles.
"Bye." Kinsley shut her phone.
"So, y'all are good?" Kinsley smiled and nodded, walking back to class with Aly.
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Geez, I'm so glad that Jason isn't mad at Kinsley anymore. Now she just has to work on Ainsley. Read on to see how that works out… to be honest, I'm not even sure yet ;-) Review AWAY! PLEASE!
Much Love,
Talitha