Alright here is the new update I like to say thanks for the review and thank you to those of you who are reading this but are not review, also sorry about the way the last Chapter come out, I did not lay it out like that, that was on fan fiction so I will keep my eye on the lay out NOW! Please enjoy and review.
I wake up just as Sara was getting out of bed but my whole body was so sore and my head was killing me but I remember everything that happened last night and I could not be happier.
I hear Sara turn on the water to the shower and I think I will join her in a minute or two, I just need to get my body moving, I still can't believe me and Sara got married I might be happy about it, but I got a feeling Sara may not been and it not like I planned this to happen, I think that me and Sara need to talk about this, but I am sure of two thing, this could be the best thing that happen to me and Sara or it could be the worst thing that could happen to us and this will push Sara back into Catherine's arms.
I slowly get up out of the water bed so I would not fall on the floor, as I walk into the bathroom, I see Sara in the shower sitting on the floor letting the water run over her body as she looks at her wedding ring, she was so deep in though that she does not know I am here, so I start to take off my clothes before stepping into the shower and wrapping my arms around Sara
"Hi Wifely" I say before kissing Sara's back "let go and had something to eat because I think we need to talk about this" I tell Sara before kissing her on the shoulder, before getting out of the shower thinking Sara may need some time to herself.
I get dress's and dry my hair, that did not take long as my hair was not that wet, I sit down at the table to wait for Sara, I see some book on the table so I picked it up and try to read it, it was about ten minutes before Sara come out of the bath room "do you want to go home to have breakfast or just go to the café?" I asks Sara as I put down the book I was reading "I think it would be best if we go home so we can talk before we go into work" I say to Sara thinking it best we talk in private about what we was going to do, I knew I wanted to give this married a try and I hope Sara feels the same way.
"oh did I forget to tell you that I got Russell to give us the weekend off, but we are on call" Sara tells me and I get a feel we may be alright, as we got the weekend to work through this "so we got time to talk things over, so let go home to eat" Sara tells me with a little smile on her, so we get our things together before checking out and grabbing a cab back to Sara's, we did not say anything the whole way back to Sara's, as soon as we got in Sara and I when into the kitchen, Sara started the breakfast while I made the coffee, after I made the coffee I seat down at the table as I start to feel a little light headed, I watch Sara make the breakfast and I notice that she looks in pain
"how are you feeling ?" I asks Sara getting a little worried about her knowing how bad Sara hangovers can be.
"my head hurts" Sara tells me, so I get up and go into the bedroom then into the bathroom and got the painkillers out of the cupboard, I when to pick up the glass by the sink but it was not there so I when back out into the kitchen and got one out of the kitchen cupboard and fill it with water before handing it to Sara, then open the bottle of painkillers and handing two pills to Sara before going back to sit down at the table.
I can tell Sara does not know where to start or how to start, so I think it is best that I get the ball rolling on this one "Look Sara" it would be good if I have an idea what I was going to say, oh well here go's nothing "I know we never talked about getting married, but I just wanted you to know Sara that I do love you, and I am willing to give it ago, if you are" Okay so that was not to bad and it was the true
Sara did not say anything, she just kept on making the breakfast, so I just wait for Sara to finish the breakfast and to say something, so I just sit here drinking my coffee, once Sara was done making the Breakfast she came over to the table and gave me my breakfast before sitting down across from me.
"you know how much I care for you Julie" Sara tell me and I look up from my coffee "I never though I would even get married, I mean yes there was a time I though me and Catherine was going to get married, what I mean is that I never thought I would marry anyone who was not Catherine" Sara say me and I start to feel a little sad as I watch Sara as she thinks back to a time where her and Catherine were together.
"just because we are married now! Does not mean that we can't just continue the way we have been, we can just keep going slow what do you think?" I asks Sara When Sara comes back from where ever she just when, and I did not want to give up on us and I think that what Sara wants as well, since she takes my hand in her and bring it up to her lips and gives it a kiss.
"I tell you what I think" Sara say before getting up and coming around the table to sit on my lap and wrapping her arms around my neck "I think Catherine is not going to like this and yes I do still care for Catherine and apart of me always will, so I asks one thing, let me tell Catherine before we tell anyone else?" Sara asks me and I am so happy that Sara feels this way and that she has open up so much to me about her feeling for Catherine and I love her for wanting to tell Catherine first.
"of course honey, I understand but once you tell her I want to go out with our friends and celebrate" I tell Sara before smiling at her and then giving her a little kiss
"that a great idea" Sara tell me after she pulls back from the kiss and I could tell there was something on Sara mind "honey there is something I need to tell you" Sara tells me before getting off my lap and then she started to walk back and forth "if we are going to give this married a tried, then there is something you need to know" Sara say as she starts to rib her hands together.
"what is it Sara?" I asks her as I started to get worried "Sara sweetheart whatever it is you can tell me" I tell Sara as I get a very bad feeling about this.
"remember when Catherine kissed me at the back of the café ?" Sara asks me and how could I not remember that ? But I just nod as I can't find my voice "well when she kissed me, I almost kissed her back, I wanted to kiss her back, but remember I did not" Sara tells me and yes I was really upset by the thought of Sara wanting to kiss Catherine.
"Sara thank you for telling me" I say to Sara, Sara turned around to look at me but I can't look at her right now so I look away from her, but it is not because I am angry with Sara but because I feel guilty, because Sara is telling me the true and I need to do the same "there is also something I need to tell you Sara" I tell Sara still not looking at her, I take a deep breath before saying "Catherine kissed me" I tell Sara not knowing how she was going to react but before she can say anything I continue as I wanted to get everything out in the open "she also want's us all to have a three-way, you me and her" I do feel better now I got it all out, but I have no idea what is going to happen now!.
"thank you as well for telling me" Sara say's as she comes over to me and pulls me out of my chair "as long as we are open and honest with each other, then I think this married will work" Sara tells me before kissing me and I start to relax knowing that Sara was not going to kill Catherine anytime soon and that she also wants this married to work as well.
we sit back down to finish our breakfast and to talk some more, once we finish our breakfast I was about to wash up when Sara came over to me and kissed me deeply before taking me into the bedroom and we made love.
After the first round I lie there trying to catch my breath but Sara dose not want to stop even if she is breath heavy, Sara is kissing my body all over, just as we was in round two of love making, Sara phone started to ring and I knew we was needed at work, but I was in no mood to stop.
As soon as Sara phone stopped ringing my phone started up, but we just ignore our phone as we are to wrapped up in ourselves, I do not know how long we stay in bed for before we get up and have a shower together, we are in the shower for about ten minutes before getting out and getting dress, once we are dress I make us some more coffee before Sara calls Russell
"Hi Russell it's Sara" say Sara before drinking some of her coffee and listens to what Russell was telling her, Sara looked at me and I can tell by the look on her face I can tell that something bad has happen.
"What the address?" Sara asks as she put down her coffee and picks up a note pad to write down the address after Sara finish taking down the address she picks up her coffee again and listen to what Russell is saying before Sara face turns white and she looks worried before Sara say goodbye to Russell.
while we finish our coffee Sara tells me that Russell told her that Catherine, nick and Davis was on they our to the crime scene, so that was why her face lost all colour, once we finish our coffee and Sara had finish telling me everything Russell told me, we get a cab to the bar we was at last night to pick up our car before we head over to the crime Scene.
it take's about 50minutes to get to the crime scene, but I do not care how long it takes us to get there because I get to spend some more time alone with Sara, after we get to the scene and I spot Nick, Davis and Brass talking, but I did not see Catherine, I look over to Sara to see she was looking around and I guess she is looking for Catherine.
We got out of the car and got out our kits before walking over to them "what do we have ?" I asks Brass getting right down to business
"it's a family of four, Mother's name is Georgina, Father name is Joy they have two children, one is a teenage boy name Joe and a five year old girl name Samantha" Brass fills me and Sara in, Sara start's to look around the scene and I know she is looking for Catherine "she doing the walkthrough" Brass tells Sara.
"why would you let her do the walkthrough when you know how she gets when there are children involved?" Sara asks Brass before putting down her kit and taking out some gloves, putting them on before taking out a flashlight before closing her kit and going into the house to look for Catherine.
I watch as Sara walks into the house and I wanted nothing more then to follow her, but I do not follower her, I turn back around to the guys and listen to them as they start to tell me why Catherine get so upset when Children involve.
"Julie you don't need to worry about Sara and Catherine" Brass started to tell me
"you see Julie, years before Sara came to Vegas Catherine had a son name David, When David was two, he when missing for three days" Nick tells me as a tear starts to run down his cheek and I also feel the tears in the back so my eyes as i know Catherine does not have a son
"Catherine was only still a level 1, she had only been with the lab for seven months when it happened, when we find David it was too late, we had to keep Catherine away from the case but she was on the war path to find out who killed her boy" Brass say as he also has tears running out his face.
"we find out that the person who killed David also killed five other children, after that Catherine was in a very bad way" Nick tells Julie remember that time in Catherine life, he had only been there two months before it happen "Catherine was drinking a lot and did not want anyone help, then she find out she was pregnant and it was like she got another chance" Nick continue to tell me and I started to feel so sorry for Catherine.
"but after Lindsey was born Catherine was very overprotected for her alot more then normal, but then Sara come along and even if they did not get off to the best of starts, somehow Sara brought Catherine back to her old self, and once they got together and became a family, Catherine finally let David go as much as you could get over a death of a child" Brass tells me as everyone was crying now!.
I some how understand Catherine a little more now! And her relationship with Sara, and I also understand that Sara and Catherine will always have love for each other and a deep connection.
I see Catherine come out of the house looking upset but I do not see Sara, Nick also see Catherine and cleans up his face so it looked like he had not been crying before going over to Catherine and pulling her into a hug and for the first time since Catherine came back I wanted to hug her as well, but it would be out of pity.
Davis and Brass was talking to me but I was not really listening as I kept my eye on Catherine and Nick, I see nick saying something to Catherine as he holds her in his arms.
When Nick finish talking to Catherine, she stayed in his arms for a little were longer before pulling back, I can't take it any more so I turn back to listen to Davis and Brass, "Catherine is like a daughter to me, I care for her very much" Brass tells Davis , I could not take it anymore and when to talk with some of the neighbours.
when I was talking to one of the neighbours I see Davis go over to also talk with the neighbours, after talking with the neighbours I go back to Brass, I did not find much out about the family only that they was lovely people, Davis also come back over to me and Brass and tells us the same thing.
I see Sara walk out of the house, as she walks out of the house I saw her looking at Catherine before she turns and looked at me, she gives me a little smile before coming over to join us.
Sara was walking over to us, Catherine must of saw her as her and Nick also came over to join us, when everyone had join us, Sara started to tell us what she had find, once Sara had finish Catherine also filled us in with what she also find, the good news is that the teenage boy was nowhere to be find in the house.
I did a quick walk around the house, I did not really see anything with the blood that would help so I thought it would be for the best if I go back to the lab to see if I could find something new and everyone else agree so me and Davis was going to go back to the lab.
we was walking away Sara pulled me back "Julie Sweetie, Catherine knows" was all Sara needed to say, so it was not just the little girl Catherine was upset about, she was also upset about me and Sara being married, but how did she find out ? Did Sara tell her? No I didn't think Sara would of told Catherine, if she was really upset about the little girl "she saw my wedding ring" Sara answer my unasked question "look! go back to the lab with Davis and I will try and talk with Catherine" Sara tells me and I know there is something Sara not telling me
"alright Sara, if anyone can get through to Catherine it's you" I tell Sara before giving her a kiss, I did not want to push Sara in to telling me if she was not ready, after I pull back from the kiss I walk over to the car where Davis is waiting for me, I get into the drives side of the car and wait for Davis to get in before heading back to the lap.
"so that was some kiss" Davis say to me, of course he enjoy seeing two woman kiss "it was hot" he say with a big smile on his face, we did not talk the rest of the way back to the lab.
when we got back to the lab I started going over all the evidence again and then again before going over statement from everyone in this case, I find myself reading the same line over and over as my mind kept going back to Sara and Catherine.
It was two forty five in the afternoon when I decided that I had had enough so I started putting everything back in the evidence bags and boxes, I also put all the paper back in to the right flies, I head to the evidence locker and log everything back in before putting all the files back, I go to look for Russell to see if Sara is back yet! But remember I have a piece of evidence in my pocket that I forgot to log in, so I head back to the evidence locker.
As I am walking back out of the evidence locker again I run into Sara, who was holding way too many evidence bags so I take some from her "hi babe, want to go and get some coffee?" Sara asks me while I was taking some bags off her.
"of course baby" I answer with a smile before turning and going back into the evidence locker again and then waited for Sara to lock everything in, once she does I wrapped one of my arm around her hips before we walk out of the evidence locker and head to the break room to get some coffee.
I tell Sara to sit down while I made the coffee, but if you asks Sara she would tell you I gave her an order, once I made the coffee I handed Sara her before sitting down across from her "so how did it go with Catherine ?" I asks Sara knowing she wants to talk about it but just need a little push.
"Catherine wouldn't even look at me let alone talk to me" Sara tell me and I can see how upset she is, I know this is not easy for Sara.
"give her time Sara" was all I can think to say, as I reach across the table and take her hand in mine, we lock eyes and I can see so much guilt in Sara eyes, Sara could be feeling guilty about so many thing, like not telling Catherine we are married or feeling guilty because we are together or feeling guilty because she feel she is some how cheating on Catherine with me or feeling guilty because she still has feeling for Catherine, so like I say it could be a lot of reason "it hard to let someone you love go, I know you two have not been together for a year, but Catherine has been holding onto hope that the two of you will get back together like you always use to do" I tell Sara before giving her hand a little squeeze.
"Julie I love you and we say that we would been honest with each other" Sara say to me and I get a bad feeling, a very bad feeling "there's something I need to tell you, but you are not going to like it" Sara tell me and I think my heart just stopped that hearing those words.
"Sara whatever it is, you can tell me" I say to Sara but I really don't think I want to hear whatever Sara is going to tell me and before I knew what I was doing, I brought Sara's hand up to my lips and gave it a kiss
"I Kissed Catherine" Sara tells me and I feel my heart break but as hard as it was to hear I knew from the moment Catherine came back something like this would happen, I hear Sara take a deep breath "it was back at the crime scene, I know what Catherine gets like when it comes to children and cases involving children are the hardness for Catherine, that why I when into the house after her" Sara try to explain.
I take everything in that Sara has told me and I do understand why she when into the house after Catherine and I do understand in some way why she kissed Catherine but as Sara was telling me about the kiss I find myself pulling my hand out of her, but in other ways I am finding it hard to understand as well.
we sit there for about five minutes without say anything to each other, "we should get back to work" I say thinking it would be for the best that we have some time to ourselves, I get up and put my mug into the sink, then I go to leave.
"Julie" Sara calls out to me and I stop just inside the doorway, I do not turn round as I hear Sara walking over to me, "Julie it's you I love and it's you I want to been with" I hear the words and I know Sara means what she is saying, but I know she is feeling confused which is normal, I turn around and Sara puts her hands on my shoulders before leaning in to give me a kiss, I do not kiss her back but I do not pull away.
"thank you for telling me" I say to Sara after she puts back "Sara I know you love me, but your still in love with Catherine, I just think you need some time alone to work out who you really want to been with" I tell Sara before giving her a little kiss "and no matter who you chooses, I will always care for you" I tell Sara before leaving her alone in the break room.
I hold back the tears as I walk to the restroom, as soon as I walk into the rest room, I cannot hold the tears back anymore and they fall freely, I lock the door and fall to the floor crying, I know if Sara picks Catherine over me, it would kill me, after I calm down I get up and wash my face, I am glad no one was in the restroom because I did not check before breaking down.
I need some air so I think I go for a walk around the block, as I walk toward reception I see a young blonde girl there and I know the girl to been Lindsey, I never met her before but I seen photo's of her and Sara "look you must be new here, I am here to see my mummy's Catherine Willows and Sara Sidle" Lindsey tells the young girl
"will they know what it is about ?" the red hair girl at reception asked
"I do not need a reason to visit my mothers" Lindsey tell the young girl
"I am sorry but if it is not in regards to a case then I cannot get Miss Willows or Mrs Sidle for you" the girl tells Lindsey, Okay where did we get this girl from?.
"are you really this stupid ? I want to talk with Both my mothers Catherine Willows and Sara Sidle so call them and tell them that they daughter is here, oh and for the record it is Miss Sara Sidle not Mrs, my parents are not married unfortunately" Lindsey tells the young girl and i get a knock in my stomach.
"Lindsey ?" I say going over to try and help her out, as she turns around to look at me I can see Catherine in her "I am Julie Finn Finlay I work with you mum Sara" I tell Lindsey and she looks me up and down
"so you are the bitch dating my Mother S ?" Lindsey asks me so I guess Sara must of told her that we are dating, I knew that Lindsey would not like me straight away she is a teenage after all and no one like seeing one of the parents with someone else, I just hope that once's Lindsey gets to know me maybe we can be friends "mum!" Lindsey say before push pass me, I turn around just in time to see Sara and Lindsey hugging, I stay back to let them have some time together.
"hi baby girl, I been trying to call you" Sara say pulling back a little
"I know, I been away for a week, sorry I did not call you Mother S" Lindsey tells Sara
"away? Where did you go and it was nice of you to tell me by the way!" Sara tells Lindsey and it nice to see Sara in mum mode, it a side of her I never seen before. "just because your in college young lady does not mean you can pick up and leave town" Sara say letting Lindsey know she is upset with her.
"I know I am sorry Mother S, you know I would of told you but I did don't want to tell you anything just yet! and I have a very good reason to not saying anything" Lindsey tells Sara and I see Catherine walking toward us
"are you going to tell me now ?" Sara asks Lindsey
"Lindsey sweetie" Catherine say coming over and giving her a hug and a kiss on the cheek
"hi Mother C" Lindsey says giving Catherine a very big hug "I missed you" Lindsey say also giving her mum a kiss on her cheek before taking Sara's hand in one of her and keeping a hold of Catherine hand " I need to tell you both something so can we all have dinner soon?" Lindsey asks them and I look that the three of them as a family before looking down at my wedding ring and a part of me knows I will never been apart of this family.
So I leave them to it and go for that walk around the block, I do not know how long I was walking for as I was so deep in thought thinking about me and Sara before getting pulled out of them as my phone started to beep letting me know I got a text message came through.
Hi Babe meet me at the café in 5mine love Sara xxx
the text read I text back saying I would be about ten minute and I got a bad feeling about this a very bad feeling.
Hi everyone i hope you enjoy this chapter also Fanfiction net not only bring the works together, it also taking workd out or changing works as well, like turn shower into shoulder, i put everything right i think but i may of missed somethings so sorry for that, also if this is happening to any of you as well let me know or if anyone knows how i can stop it from happing please let me know thank you and please review