that was quick
It's been more than a few months since their last argument in front of Connie.
Maybe Pearl considers this a success, progress, a step in the right direction. Amethyst isn't her. Amethyst isn't some hopped up broken maintenance drone trying to keep up appearances when the whole foundation has crumbled to shit.
Pearl doesn't lecture her nearly as often anymore. Good.
For Connie, they've tried to stop bickering every ten seconds they're together. That means they've stopped talking. That means they avoid each other whenever they can.
For Connie, she's tried to get her shit together, and start acting like an actual gem.
That means whenever she does fuck up, no excuses. She knows she's not faking it. Acting out. Trying to get attention.
Everything about her is bad. She doesn't want to take part in serious gem business, she just wants to just eat stuff and discover new things (maybe hoard them,) talk to people, go to parties, get absolutely wasted, break shit, ruin everything, have people yell at you, laugh it off, and just not have to think. Everything about her is bad, she knows it, so what's the point of trying to pretend like they're still gems from thousands of years ago?
Pearl doesn't lecture her nearly as often anymore. Good.
But now the problem is that she doesn't lecture her nearly as often.
They never talk anymore.
And when she does lecture her, the narrative has changed. No more 'Amethyst is a whiny crybaby who just wants someone to actually talk to her about stuff that's isn't about missions.'
It's because Amethyst is weak. Brash, aggressive, impulsive, attention-seeking, crude, reckless, selfish, narcissistic, manipulative, egoistic, fake.
She especially loves it when Garnet just stands there and says nothing like she always fucking does and says nothing while Pearl is throwing all this shit at her (because Pearl's right of course, when isn't she right?)
She wishes she could take some of her "self-love," her "flexibility, love and trust," and shove it all back in her face.
Amethyst is a burden. A failure as a mother, a failure as a gem, a failure as a Crystal Gem.
The best part? She can't help but cry over Pearl.
Cries because she knows she's hurting from Rose, and wants to just make her understand she isn't alone.
(doesn't she know she would kill for just an ounce of the relationship Pearl and Rose had with each other)
Cries because she just wants her to shut the fuck up about how alone she is, how they can be sad and miserable together.
(seriously though how in the fuck did she end up falling for her?)
Cries because she knows she's Rose's, that she'll always belong to Rose, and that her feelings were a dead end even before they could even begin.
Before Connie, everything was fine. No one ever expected anything of her. She would always just do whatever she wanted, whenever she wanted, and Rose was always there in the end to sort out the kinks.
Now she's fucking dead. Thanks Rose.
She cries because Pearl will never see her the way she wants her to; not as a fellow Crystal Gem, but as Amethyst, the gem who just wants her to relax with her every once in a while, with maybe a picnic, a promenade under the stars, them lying in bed together with Amethyst fingering her until she cries and moans and squirts-
In short, Pearl is everything Amethyst isn't. Smart, respected, loved, important (especially to Rose) and ungrateful.
It's nothing a few bottles from the self-medicating (heh) pile in her room can't solve though.
everything is breaking
next interlude will be an adaptation of too far, followed by a chapter
without steven's extroverted glue to hold everyone together, the gems must introspect to resolve their problems (lol)