Ryan drove back to her apartment, silently. Spencer remained quiet as well, feeling the tension. He knew she was upset, but he couldn't understand why. It wasn't a big deal that JJ knew. Even after the fact JJ had told him that it hurt her, he was still excited. He still wanted to be here with Ryan and their baby. He jumped from his thoughts when he heard the car door slam, and quickly, got out of the car to follow the upset woman.

"Ryan."

Ryan turned around to face him in the house. "What, Spencer?"

He stared at her a moment, sort of shocked by her tone. It was cold. She was angry.

"I don't understand why you're..."

"You told her about the baby."

"You told Elle!" He said, unable to see the difference. Elle was her best friend; JJ was his.

Ryan stared at him, incredulously, before shaking her head. "Elle isn't JJ. And I didn't tell Elle. She just knew. I'm sure you went right over there after I left and shared all your news."

"...She's my best friend, Ryan. I was excited. I was scared, I-"

"You needed to run right back into her arms, because you can't ever just..." She trailed off and turned away from him with a sigh.

"She's my best friend." He repeated and Ryan turned back to him.

"You need a new best friend." She said, her anger melting into frustration. She didn't know how he didn't understand why this was a big deal. And Maybe it wasn't. She could be overreacting, but she couldn't help it. She knew their history and she was jealous. She didn't want the woman to be such a big part of his life. The biggest part of his life. She had picked her, hadn't he?

Spencer stared at the woman, unsure of what to say. Ryan sighed at the look.

"I know you two have Henry and that you're...close, but."

"But what?"

"But You're too close! You tell her everything and you two... the way you guys interact is just... It's not..." She didn't know how to word what she wanted to say without sounding crazy. She sighed. "Can't you just find a new best friend. A guy best friend. I mean, you and Morgan are close. You could tell Morgan and talk... Or Grey! Grey had kids. and Will. You guys could bond over that or something."

Spencer just looked at her before sitting down. "JJ and I have a special-"

"Bullshit, Spencer! You have a special bond with me! I'm your girlfriend and I'm telling you that..." She closed her eyes nad took a deep breath, before starting again, more calmly.

"I'm just saying that it makes me uncomfortable. It's more than you telling her about the baby. You run to her about everything and anything and she's always there to take you in her arms and...it's... I know your history with her and it makes me nervous. I know you're a good man. I know you are, but I..." She shrugged, tiredness rushing over her. She sat next to him. "I just get scared that you're going to fall back into that. That I'm going to be like her Will."

Spencer looked down at his hands. He knew she had a point, but he knew that they were only friends. He had told JJ that. He had reassured Ryan multiple times about that as well. He knew that JJ still had feelings for him. He knew that she didn't like that he was having a baby with Ryan. Should he tell Ryan that? That would only make things worse, but he should be honest with her, shouldn't he? He turned to the brunette next to him, his eyes scanning her face. She was upset and tired. She even looked a little sick. He frowned. Now was not the time. She noticed the look and her eyebrows knitted in confusion.

"What is it, Spencer?"

If he said nothing, he'd be lying. He reached out and pushed the hair out of her face.

"I love you." He said and it only seemed to make Ryan more anxious.

"Spence.."

"Why don't we just go lay down. You look tired. We'll talk about this later."

The anxious look turned into a slight glare. "Oh no. You have something to say. Say it."

Spencer sighed. "It's...nothing, Ryan. I understand where you're coming from and I know that the distance doesn't help. And the fact that..there are still feelings there isn't-"

"You still love her?" Anger melted into sadness and Spencer shook his head, quickly to keep her from breaking down.

"No, no, That's not what I'm saying. I mean, I feel her for her, yes, but not like that. I mean, I... What I was talking about was how JJ feels. Not what I feel. What I feel.. I feel.. I love you, Ryan. I love you and our baby and I want us and this and it doesn't matter if JJ's upset about it or anything, because you're the one I want."

Ryan stood up and ran her hands through her hair. His little speech didn't help much. It actually made things worse. He didn't sound sure. It wasn't the speech she had been hoping for. The speech made her feel like she was the only one he saw. She shook her head and picked up her keys before handing them to him.

"Go visit your mom, Spencer."

"But we're..."

"Go. Please."

Criminal Minds || What Happens

Ryan sighed and looked up at the clock. Spencer had been gone for hours. 30 minutes after he had left, She had called Elle, who was now sitting with her in her living room.

"He leaves in two hours."

"He's probably just with his mom, Ryan."

"But he leaves in two hours. and I might not get to see him for three weeks. We can't leave it like this."

"I'm sure he's not even upset. He's just giving you time."

"But if he is upset and he doesn't talk to me then he's going to-"

"Don't. Ryan, you just got into a fight with him over that. And you're sitting here doing it again. He's not with JJ anymore. He's with you."

"Right, but he lives-"

"And he flies down here to be with you. Reid isn't rich, Ryan. I mean... I'm sure he's used that mind to get..." Elle paused, thinking about it. "Is he rich?"

Ryan looked at the woman like she was crazy. Elle shook her head. "The point is that he spends his money to come see you. Because he wants this to work and if you keep blaming him for his past, this isn't going to."

"Okay, but the present-JJ is still in love with him."

"And Spencer's a big boy."

"Yeah, but she's-"

"Ryan."

Ryan rolled her eyes. "You don't understand. You're her friend."

"You're right. We were friends. I know JJ. You don't."

Ryan bit her tongue and looked away. Elle sighed.

"You didn't see how he looked at her, Ryan. You didn't see the excitement on his face when Gideon gave him the tickets to ask her out -

"Is this supposed to make me feel better?" Ryan asked but stayed quiet after Elle glared.

"-and how they protected each other when his mom was in danger. They are close. They were close before their fling and that's not going to change. You just got to get used to that. She's the first woman in his life other than his mother that he completely trusts and cares for. He's not going to get over that."

"So what? Are you saying that there's just no chance for anyone else? JJ and Spencer are just meant to be and nothing can get in the way. I should just give up now."

Elle rolled her eyes at Ryan's sarcasm. "No. I'm saying it's going to take a strong woman and if you're going to be a bitch about his relationship with her, you're going to lose him. Spencer would never push JJ out of his life, nor could he push you out now that you're pregnant. He's a good guy and he's going to do right by both of you. Just don't make him choose."

Ryan shook her head. "I'm not making him choose. Is it such a bad thing that I want to matter more than his ex? I mean, I am his girlfriend. I'm his girlfriend."