What Have I Done

Chapter 11

A/N I know I have been gone for awhile but I will address things I want to talk about at the end. Until then, enjoy!

Lincoln was walking back to his house with his tears stained onto his eyes. Lincoln was still being affected from his confrontation with Ronnie Anne. His mind was confused with the what happened. Yes, he was mad about how things went down, but all he wanted to do was just talk to her. The only thing wrong with what he did was that he didn't think Ronnie Anne wasn't ready to talk to him yet. Ronnie is the type of person that would hold a grudge, but this isn't the time for grudges.

Lincoln needed to find a time where he would be able to talk to her in peace. The problem with that plan was that there wasn't much time to deal with at the moment. He started to notice a trend with his plans lately and that would be that they all haven't been working as well lately, and people though he was the man with the plan. If he keeps this up he may be demoted from that position very soon.

As he was approaching he saw his mother about leave in the van which was weird because isn't usually home this early from work.

"Hey mom, what are you doing home early?" Asked Lincoln as he approached the car.

"I am going to have a nice "friendly" talk with Lynn's baseball coach." Responded Rita.

"Well is it alright if I come with you because I don't want you doing anything you'll regret." Insisted Lincoln.

"What's that supposed to mean?" Questioned the mother.

"Mom we all know that you can go a bit overboard from time to time and I don't you doing anything rash." Lincoln trying to rationalize with his mother.

Rita stood silent from a moment and then said, "Alright jump in."

Lincoln then threw his backpack in the back seat and sat in the front passenger seat. Rita then started the ignition and before the car started the car coughed and spat before it started. They headed out the driveway and stayed quiet for a while. The silence was pretty awkward and unpleasant because they both wanted to say something, but the only problem was that they didn't know how to let it. It was like having tape over their mouth.

"So Lincoln, how was school?" Rita said trying to break the silence.

"It was how school normally is." Lincoln responded in a mumble tone.

Rita looked at her son and something that worried her. He looked depressed and his eyes were still a little bit pink. He didn't look happy and he didn't look like himself, but some other person. He has seen her son be sad before, but he has never seen it to this level before.

"Lincoln were you crying?" Probed Rita.

This caused Lincoln to jolt up and wipe his eyes, "I don't know what you are talking about. I-I wasn't crying." Denied Lincoln putting on a fake smile.

"Lincoln there is no need to lie, especially to a mother of eleven kids." Continued his mother.

Lincoln looked at his mother who was looking back and forth between him and the road. Lincoln was very emotionally exhausted because of the whole situation and he just wanted it to be out of sight and out of mind. He didn't want to feel like this anymore. He wanted the weight to be lifted of his chest, but he knew that still had some more work to do before this mountain could be lifted.

"Mom to be honest I'm just tired," started Lincoln, "tired of this whole situation. I'm tired feeling like I'm need to fix this tension between me, Ronnie, and Lori. I just feel like all of my attempts to reconcile with them are just going to fall apart and crumble before me. This weight is crushing and beating me down and I feel like shutting down from time to time."

Rita stopped at a red light and looked at her son. He sounded miserable and just discouraged to continue on the problem before him. This didn't sound like her son and she didn't want to see her son suffer in front her own face.

As the light turned green she continued to drive, "Lincoln I'm not going to sit here and say I know what you are going through because I am not you. I don't have your body, voice or mind, but there is one thing I can do which is give advice on how you can try to alternate the problem. I know you're a smart boy Lincoln and I always want you to know that. Never think that you can't fix or do something in your life. Like Henry Ford said "whenever you think you can't, you're right". At this moment you can't lose hope. I believe in you son and I know that you will find a way to get through any scenario. You are my son Lincoln, a.k.a the man with a plan."

Lincoln looked at his mother and saw that she a had a grin on her face. Lincoln gave her a grin back and understood everything she had told him. Lincoln was currently letting his mind be corrupted by everything negative. He needed to clear his mind of demons and find a new positive outlook on how he can fix everything.

"Thanks mom, I- I really needed that." Thanked Lincoln.

"Sure thing honey! I know this can be a troubling time for you, but you need to realize that every situation doesn't need to be a bad one. You just need to find a different outlook on how you can carry on and find effective solutions." Stated Rita.

They drove for another five minutes until they reached the baseball field were Lynn was practicing. From a distance he could see Lynn running from base to base after hitting a homerun. She was quick, she was agile, and it looked like she was just gliding through the air. One thing that stood out was that she was smiling, and it was nice to see his sister doing something she enjoyed. He saw in that moment that how much this meant to her. Some random kid was ruining something that she loved to do, and wasn't going to let this happen for much longer.

"Amazing hit Lynn, keep it up!" Lincoln heard a masculine voice yell.

It didn't take long for lincoln to realize that it was her coach, the person he needed to talk to immediately. Lynn's coach was a man in his mid 30's and he was chubby with a tank top on. Lincoln and Rita then started to walk over to the coach that was analyzing the way the players.

Before Rita could make it to him the coach turned and looked at Rita, "Hi Mrs. Loud, it's a pleasure seeing you here."

"Nice to see you too Coach Davis." Responded Rita.

"I don't know how many times I have told you this, but your daughter is amazing. She is showing every boy out there that she can do better than all of them." Complemented Coach Davis.

"Speaking of a boy we really need to talk about an issue that Lynn has been going through lately." Stated Rita in a serious tone.

"Sure, everyone take a break alright." Called out Coach.

Coach then lead Rita and Lincoln to the bleachers to talk about Lynn's problem. Little did they know that they were being watched closely by Lynn.

"Alright Mrs. Loud, what do you need to talk to me about?" Questioned Coach Davis.

"Do you know a kid by the name of Evan?" Probed Rita.

"Yeah I've heard of him, what about him?"

"My daughter claims that he has been messing with her." Continued Lincoln.

"Hmm, interesting, can you give me an example on what he does."

Lincoln noticed a change in the coach's tone as he the continued into the conversation. He went from a voice of concern slowly into a voice of annoyance. Lincoln really wanted to call him out, but he wanted to see what the man had to say for himself.

"Lynn claims the he is basically like a menace to her. She claims that every time they play against one another he begins to mess her up by saying stuff that gets into her head causing her to lose focus." Explained Rita.

"With all due respect Mrs. Loud I don't think it's a big deal. Lynn has told me this before and had told her that what people do and that they will try to do those things to her and that she just needs to block it all out. Sure I know that I can effect the way she can play, but she is an athlete, and would need to deal with people doing worse things out there in the real world than having to deal with some kid. " Stated Coach Davis.

Lincoln has had enough. He wasn't just going to sit quiet while his sister is having to go through this treatment by this boy's torment.

"Coach Davis I think you really need to do something about this situation. Yes, my sister is one of the toughest in the town, but if this Evan guy can make effect her in the ways he has already than something is wrong. Lynn isn't a brick wall, she is human like all of us and she deserves to be treated like she has feelings." Explained Lincoln.

Coach looked at the white haired boy in shock and surprise. He did not expect this from the boy. Coach davis then entered deep thought after the boy's statement.

"Mrs. Loud if it's really affecting your daughter then I will check up on the situation after practice today." Claimed the coach.

Lynn watched in the distance as she saw he mother, brother and coach stand up and leave the bleachers. She then saw her mother and wave goodbye with Lincoln following behind her. Lynn already knew exactly what they talking about and she knew that they were going to talk about this when she would get home practice. Before Rita got into her van she saw caught a glimpse of Lynn looking at her and she waved to her daughter, and Lynn waved back slowly as she saw her pull off.

When Rita and Lincoln arrived at the house they got there stuff out the car and headed inside. When they got inside they could see the twins watching and Leni making a smoothie in the kitchen.

"Hey mom, hey Lincoln." Greeted Lola without taking her eyes off the TV.

"Hey guys." Responded Lincoln as Lincoln headed into his room.

As he closed his door and put his backpack down and then jumped onto his bed. His body sunk into the mattress as he breathed a sigh It wasn't the most comfortable bed, but it was good enough to make him feel comfortable. His body melted onto the bed as all of his muscled relaxed all at once. The last few days have been pretty eventful and his bed was his escape along with his comic books. He then took his head out of one of his pillows.

He then pulled out his walkie talkie, "Clyde you there?"

It took a couple of seconds put then Clyde then responded through static, "Hey Lincoln how's it going."

"Well it could be better, but you know I'm taking things one step at a time." Replied Lincoln.

"One thing I do notice is that you do sound better than you did before at school." Clyde continued.

"I had a nice talk with my mom and she really helped me out on trying to get through the whole situation." Stated Lincoln.

There was a slight pause before Clyde voice was heard again, "You never did tell me what was wrong."

Lincoln sighed a little bit before he spoke into walkie talkie, "A lot of things has happened to me in the last couple of days. First I hear Lori tell me that Ronnie Anne is going to be moving on Wednesday and that she wants me to help convince Ronnie Anne to convince her parents to stay. Now that I think about it it was a pretty stupid plan. At first I was very sad that she was moving, but soon after I started to realize that Ronnie moving wasn't as bad as I originally thought. Then decided to talk to Lori and back out of the plan, but she didn't want to listen and she threw me out her room in anger."

"Wait, so she got mad at you for actually thinking rationally about a situation?" Clyde interrupted.

"Yeah, but you have to understand that she is very emotional especially when it comes to Bobby. She doesn't think straight because she lets her emotions control her actions," Lincoln continued, "After that I had to come up with a way to talk to Ronnie Anne and I had the idea to take her to the arcade and we could talk about it there. Then Lucy came into the picture and she comes to me asking to help. I was hesitant at first because I didn't really want her to be involved with this drama, but she then insisted to help so allowed her to help."

"Wow I wasn't really expecting Lucy to be involved in this." Clyde stated.

"Yeah me neither, but she's always filled with surprises," Lincoln answered, "when it was time to get to the arcade the plan was that Lucy was going to give me advice and watch over me in the vents. I was going to ease my way into convincing Ronnie, but she noticed shortly after what I was doing and she wasn't happy. I cut it short thought that I trying to ruin her father's opportunity to getting a better job with his promotion. I tried to tell her what was really going on, but she wasn't trying to hear it and shortly after she left."

He paused after he finished what he had said. He remembered what had happened to vividly. He remembers how he felt when she left. All the emotions that were flowing through his head at the time. He felt sad, angry, and most of all regret. He felt regret by the way he try harder to tell Lori that he didn't want to do this, or about he didn't try hard enough to tell Ronnie Anne that his intent wasn't to hurt anybody. But he know knew that there was only one way to fix things and that was that he would need to talk to both of them.

"Well Clyde that not the full story," Lincoln continued, "When I told Lori the news she didn't take it well and lets just say that she we got into a fight which involved me getting a bloody nose. I've had worse injuries, but what really shocked me was that she got mad enough to get mad at her for trying to help her out."

"Do you know how you're going to talk to both of them because you are running out of time and you do seem like you have a lot to talk to both of them about?" Clyde asked.

"At this point in time I don't know what to do, but I'm going to need to figure out something."

"Well I wish you the best of luck Lincoln."

"Thanks, and also for talking to me. I really needed to tell someone about what's been going on in my life."

"No problem bro."

After that Lincoln went straight to his backpack and pulled out some of his math homework. He needed something to keep his mind off the recent events of today. He was about thirty minutes in when he heard someone knock at his door.

"Come in." announced Lincoln.

Luna then stepped into his room, "Hey Dude, you doing alright."

"Yeah, why do you ask?" Lincoln asked.

"I ask because I feel like it's important that I keep my eye on you, and make sure you're happy." She answers taking a seat on his bead.

"Well I'm glad you're doing that." Lincoln thanked her.

"Hey listen, if you ever need somebody you need to talk to you can always count on me dude." Luna stated.

"Thanks Luna, It's nice to know you have my back in all this." Lincoln responded.

They hugged one another in a tight embrace. They both knew that they had one another in all of this mess and they could count on each other.

Luna then walked out of his room and LIncoln continued on work on his homework. After he finished he decided to go downstairs and in the kitchen he saw his father cooking up something in the kitchen.

"Hey dad if you need me, I'll be out on the porch." Lincoln called out.

"Alright son, and also dinner should be ready in half an hour" HIs father called back.

As Lincoln walked outside he could see that the sun was starting to set. The sky started to turn into shades of orange and red with a a little bit of pink as well. That was one of the things that Lincoln loved about the world. The sunsets were some of the most beautiful things watch and he loved to sit and enjoy the view from time to time.

As Lincoln took a seat on the steps leading up to the door he saw Lynn make her way into the yard.

"Oh hey Lynn." Lincoln greeted.

"Hey Lincoln is it alright if I talk to you for a sec." Lynn asked in a bit of nervous tone.

Lincoln already knew where this was going so he decided to talk to his older sister, "Yeah sure, what's up."

Lynn took a sigh and said, "I know you know what's going on with me and I know what you and mom were doing at my practice today. But I just have this weird feeling in my gut that I did something wrong."

Lincoln looked at his sister and then looked at the sky, "Lynn you don't have to feel guilty about anything that had happened today. If anything I'm proud that you had reached out to everybody in the first place."

"I just feel like I'm just going to make matters worse by you guys telling the coach. I feel like he's just going to come at me harder. Some of my teammates have asked me hey Lynn you should just beat that guy up, but what they don't understand is that if I do, it would risk me being able to stay on the team."

"So what if he's talking smack about you. You should just ignore him."

"It's not about what he says LIncoln. It's about him talk smack about me and my family and I can't do anything about it. Sure I brushed him off at first, but because he's persistent all the things he says build up inside me and I just want to shut him up but I can't. I just can't risk it."

Lincoln pauses and looks at his sister, "Lynn if you ask me I think he does all of this because he's scared of you."

"What do you mean Lincoln." Lynn asked.

"Lynn this kids is somebody who wants to get inside your head and cause you to break down and become weak. He knows that you're better than him and he want to get you down below his level. You are one of the toughest girls I've ever known in my life. You can take a hook to to the face and you will get back up and hit that person harder, and it breaks my heart to see a person as strong as you be brung down to this level."

"What do you think I do then Lincoln?" Lynn replies.

"I want you show him that you don't care about what he says. The next time you play against him I want you drain him out and focus on the game. Play your best and don't him detour you from doing what you love, and that doesn't just go for him but for anybody who tries to bring you down." Lincoln spoke to Lynn.

"Wow. That was really cheesy Lincoln." Lynn said while chuckling a little bit.

"Hey I least I got you to laugh at it." Lincoln claimed.

"Jokes aside Lincoln, I really appreciate you having the time to sit down and talk to me."

"No problem Lynn, we have to stick together in times like this."

Lynn then stood up ruffled Lincoln's hair and then walked into the house, and she was once looking forward to seeing Evan again.

A/N

Ok so it took me half a year to get another chapter out for you guys. Most of it was because of lack of motivation and mostly personal issues that have been going on. School didn't do me well in the second semester, and I had mostly no time to write anything because of this. I am so sorry for the long wait, but hopefully I can get the next chapter out soon. Also I will be starting my freshmen year of high school soon as well, so I hope I'll have fun.

P.S: There will be more elaboration on Evan will happen later ;)