Fallen Omen

Balthazar watches the six wings fold as John heads out of his apartment.
The wings weren't coloured how he remembered, because this Plane didn't have those colours.

'Why let John think he's Mortal if he's' supposed to help everyone?
I know gender doesn't matter to Uri , but what about John ? He acts like their separate.
I don't want to stop flirting with him , I love him .
The Fallen Angel in love with the Highest Seraph-ArchAngel. '

Balthazar wondered how he was going to survive , since the Blackest Star had threatened to kill him.
He didn't want Uri to risk himself again.
The only way that could happen was if he became Balthazael again.

To do that he'd have to prove to Father that he was worthy of being an Angel again.
But that's' never happened in all of the Millenia before this , why would it change now.

He didn't even know what you had to do , or rather how much you had to do.
Since the Exorcist wouldn't be able to help him all the time.

The Fallen Angel commands the lights off. It was quiet now , far too quiet until the thunder rumbled.
The lightning flashing violently , 'what had that flaming star meant ? Had it just been a sign for Uri ?
Or was it a sign for him as well ? What did it mean ?'

Half-folding his wrecked wings , Balthazar lay back on his bed arching his wings.
Comparing the falling feathers and bare skin to Balthazael's gleaming feathered-wings.
He hadn't appreciated them until they were gone. He should have asked about that sign.
He should have appreciated the warning Father had given him all those millenia ago.
He fell asleep.

Dream

Balthazael watched as Lucifer flew off. If the Second Seraph was right when they won Uri would finally notice him.

Would finally love him more than Zanael or Sithiel , Uriel would love him as more than a friend.
He walked over to the deep blue pond , spreading and flapping his wings to hover over it.
What he saw nearly made him fall into the water , his feathers were falling out.

The Angel landed on the silver sand , running a hand over his wings.
Pulling his fingertips thru and over the feathers, sighing as they rustled reassuringly.

"Are you alright , Balthy? You look worried ?" He startles as the Highest Seraph lands beside him.

" I'm fine Uri, don't worry about me. "

'Should I ask him about it ? Should I tell him about what Lucifer is planning ?
No , he definitely won't love you if he knows you picked Lucifer over him.
Just tell him you love him , he would think about joining you then.'

As Balthazael Fell the pain was nothing compared to the look on Uriel's face.
He had killed Zanael ...he'd only wanted to kill Sithiel so Uri would stop.
So he could convince Uri to join them.

Zanael had gotten in the way and the look of horror and betrayal on the new Severer of the Fallen 's face would never go away.

It would always be in his mind , Balthazael knew he'd never forget it.
He knew Lucifer had been wrong , he wouldn't forgive Lucifer.

'Uri will never love me now. Not after what I just did. I betrayed him.'
But he needed a new name , he still liked most of his name.

' Something similar , Balthazaim? Baltahaz? No , those sounded odd.
Balthazar ? BALTHAZAR , that sounded good. '

The Fallen Angel Balthazar should never have joined Lucifer.
Balthazar should have paid attention to the Falling Feather Omen.

End of Dream

Balthazar wakes up , wishing it was the next day to see Jonny-boy again.