Over the next week...
It was the following Monday. I've gotten to know Anthony more in the past week. Every day, since we met, he would walk me to class in the morning, and meet me after class so we could walk to the dorm campus together, where we said goodbye to each other, and went into our own dorms. Okay, I admit, it was pretty weird hanging out with Alvin's roommate, but then I told myself 'Hell with it.' He's dating my frickin' roommate, so why can't I pretend that I'm friends with his?
Despite how much of a horrible person this idea is turning me into, I keep telling myself that it'll all pay off at the end.
Still, I do feel bad about using Anthony. I mean, in the 7 days that I had getting to know him, I thought he was a pretty cool guy. He made me laugh, which is pretty rare because it's hard to make me laugh. Every now and then, he would say something science-related, but in a way, it was pretty interesting to learn about stuff he masters at. But when Alvin described him as a 'nerd' and a 'human computer, human calculator', he wasn't kidding. Anthony said he was the smartest kid in his class ever since he was 6. I know it may sound cocky, but it's true. He was the Valedictorian in his high school year as well. I was impressed.
I didn't know why Alvin was overly exaggerating over Anthony. Because honestly, he's the nicest and most genuine guy I've met in a long time. But speaking of Alvin...
I hadn't seen him face to face or talked to him ever since that night before his date with Victoria. I miss seeing him. But I didn't know if he was still mad at me or not. Because judging by the way we spoke to each other last week, we were both mad at each other. But I didn't care. I want Alvin to notice me with Anthony. I want him to feel the way I've been feeling. I want him to pick me.
"So, how exactly do you know Alvin, Simon and Theodore?" Asked Anthony, as we walked along the hallways to our dorm.
"Friends of the family." I said. "My sisters and I have known them since we were about 5."
"You guys went to the same schools?" He asked.
I nodded. "Yeah. Preschool, elementary, high school, and now college." I said. "So, how's it like having Alvin as a roommate?" I asked, wanting to amuse myself.
Anthony chuckled a bit. "I think he hates me."
I frowned because it reminded me of myself and my hatred towards Victoria. But I managed to look calm. "Oh? How can you tell?"
Anthony shrugged. "I heard him call me a nerd a million times, but I guess everyone calls me that." He said, and he shrugged again. "But I don't know. I just get the feeling that he hates me. I guess my first clue was when he said he wanted to kill himself when he found out we were sharing a dorm room."
I couldn't help but laugh. "Well, that's Alvin for you." I said.
He laughed too. "You seem like you know Alvin pretty well."
I felt the insides of my body freeze. But I shrugged. "I've known him for 15 years. Of course I know him well."
But believe me, it hurt me to say that.
We continued to walk through the corridors. And once we were about to walk around a corner, we bumped into someone.
"Oh, sorr-" I was about to apologize for bumping into the person, but once I saw who it was, I stopped.
Victoria was standing there. When I briefly bumped into her, I saw that she wasn't alone. I could of looked her straight in the eye, but I couldn't. Alvin stood right beside her.
She gasped. "Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry Brittany. I didn't see you."
I rolled my eyes for half a second so no one would notice, and then I shrugged. "Whatever, it's fine."
I wanted to avoid talking to anyone else, so I tried to move my feet to continue walking down the hall, but my feet didn't move.
And that's when he cleared his throat.
"Hey, Britt." Said Alvin softly, and I just had to look up. He was half smiling at me, like he knew I wasn't in the mood for talking. And he was right.
The last time I saw him, things just got complicated. I knew he was just looking out for me, but I just couldn't bring myself up to say something to him. Alvin was wearing his football jersey, so I assumed that he just had a practice or a game just now. I didn't want to see him, or talk to him right now, but at the same time, I missed him.
But what really made my blood boil was that he had an arm around Victoria.
"Hey." I said, quietly again. We locked gazes for a few seconds, but I looked away.
"How are you?" Alvin asked me, and I knew he meant more than that.
I didn't want to answer. Not only did I not want to talk to him right now, it was just plain awkward having a conversation with him with 2 other people right beside you. But I shrugged. "Fine."
And just when Alvin was gonna speak, Victoria said, "Oh, Brittany, you should have watched the football game!" She said, which explained why Alvin was in his football jersey. "Alvin is so good at playing."
My hands began to tremble, so I put them in the pockets of my sweater. I remembered when I was the one who always supported Alvin during his games in high school. Alvin would always tell me if there was an upcoming game, and I would always be sitting in the front row. And this was the first time everthat he didn't even bother to tell me to watch his game. It truly hurt me inside. And the fact that he told Victoria, and not me, just tore me up even more.
I saw Alvin crack a smile at her, and I looked away. "I had other things to do." I said.
Ugh, yeah, I felt like a complete bee-otch saying that, but I was hurt. I'm not usually a rude person, even to the people I highly dislike, but just the fact that Alvin didn't invite me, ME of all people, to watch his game, just broke me. It was as if he forgot about all those times I cheered him on in the past 4 years. Victoria was about to open her mouth to say something like 'Oh, that's tooooo baaaad.' or something like that, but Alvin spoke first.
"I-I was gonna call you. I mean, Simon, Theodore, Jeanette and Eleanor went, but-" He said, but I cut him off.
"Jeanette and Eleanor went?" I asked.
He nodded. "Yeah. I guess Simon and Theo invited them." He said, and looked at me. "I was gonna call you and ask, but..." He stopped talking, unable to give me a reason.
I just looked at him. I knew why he didn't call me. But I didn't want to say it out loud with Victoria standing there.
He suddenly cleared his throat, changing the subject. "So...you two know each other?" He asked.
At first, I was confused. What was he talking about? But then I remembered the boy standing to my side. I almost forgot Anthony was there, and I almost forgot Alvin and Anthony knew each other.
I looked at Anthony, then I looked back at Alvin. "Yeah, we do."
"How?" Asked Alvin.
I wanted to ask him why it mattered to him, but Anthony said, "We kinda...bumped into each other last week. Like, literally bumped into each other."
I saw Alvin raise his eyebrows. "So, you two bumped into each other, and now you guys are friends?"
Again, I wanted to ask why it mattered to him so much, but then I remembered my plan. I nodded. "Yeah. We've been hanging out a lot this past week. Haven't we, Anthony?"
Anthony gave me a look for a second, then nodded his head and smiled. "Yeah."
I looked at Alvin, expecting to see a face that read jealously all over it, but he just shrugged and said, "Ah, I see."
I looked at him, and he smirked. I knew what he was thinking. 'Brittany, hanging out with a nerd? Worst combination ever.' But I wanted to show him that he wasn't the only one who can date the other's roommate. Two can play at that game. But I hated how it was amusing him, like it wasn't bothering him at all...
"Who's this?" Victoria asked suddenly.
I rolled my eyes. How stupid.
"This is Anthony, my roommate." Said Alvin, and then he turned to Anthony. "And this is Victoria. My..." It was as if he struggled to find the words.
"Friend." Said Victoria, smiling, as usual. "I'm Brittany's roommate too, actually."
"Wow. What is it with roommates? Such a small world, isn't it." Said Anthony.
I saw Alvin smirk at Anthony's sudden geekiness. I felt my cheeks rise up in heat, asking myself why I always get embarrassed at worst times. The 4 of us continued to stand there for the next few seconds in total complete silence. It was so awkward, so I tried getting out of it. I was so thankful we were like, a few feet away from my dormroom. But of course, it sucked how Alvin and Anthony's dormroom were just a few doors away from mine.
"Um, it's almost 6. I should get going." I said, trying to avoid anymore talking. I looked at Anthony. "So, see you tomorrow?"
He smiled. "Yeah."
"Goodnight." I said. I smiled at him, without saying anything to Alvin.
Then Victoria spoke up. "I guess I should get going too. Nice meeting you, Anthony." She said. "Goodnight Alvin."
"Goodnight." He said, and Victoria followed me into our dorm, while Anthony and Alvin went back into theirs. I said nothing to Victoria as we entered the house. But 1 second after stepping foot into the dorm, I suddenly felt like I did something wrong. Like, I did something I didn't mean. As if I didn't only hurt myself, but someone else. I felt guilt pour all over me.
Why didn't I say anything to Alvin?
That night, when I was getting ready for bed, I still felt all the guilt eat me alive. I felt horrible. I felt like crap. I didn't know how to explain it, but when you get the feeling that you wished you could re-do something and do it, because you had hurt your best friend, it's just a terrible feeling on the inside. Although I wasn't sure if I had even hurt Alvin by ignoring him, I just wish I could speak to him now.
I was really starting to hate myself.
I was tying up my hair on my bed, getting ready to go to sleep, when Victoria came in. As usual, I would ignore her, and I would just go ahead and go to sleep, while she gets ready to go to sleep in her own bed. I snuggled into my blankets, and turned the light switch of my lamp off when she spoke to me.
"Hey Brittany?" She asked.
I sighed to myself, sat up, and looked at her. "Yeah?" I muttered.
"Well, I've been thinking..." She started to say, but somehow trailed off.
I waited for her to start speaking again, but it was as if she had a hard time finding the correct words to say. I waited for a few more seconds, and still, she said nothing.
I groaned. "Victoria, if you're not gonna say anything, I'm gonna go to bed." I said, grumpily, wanting to do anything but talk to her.
She looked at me. "Well...Alvin asked me out again yesterday."
I froze completely. I felt my whole body go numb, and my face heat up. My heart began to pound with anger and rage, but what really ticked me off was that she was telling me this, as if she knew I had my own thoughts against it. But I pretended it didn't bother me. But trust me, it took everything to keep my whole self still and to keep my emotions to myself.
"Okay, great." I said, in a voice that clearly stated my sarcasm.
But on the inside, I was screaming against my will.
Victoria half smiled, then she said, "I was just wondering if...you know..."
HOLY CRAP. JUST SPIT IT OUT. If she didn't say anything in the next 5 seconds, I will literally go there and slap the words out myself. And I wasn't kidding.
"...If you and Anthony would like to go with us." She said, and my mouth turned into a little 'O' while I raised my eyebrows. "Like, a double date."
I didn't say anything for a while.
"I mean, if you guys want to, that is." Said Victoria.
I finally regained myself, and said, "Okay, you do know that Anthony and I aren't dating."
She nodded. "I know."
"So why would you ask me something like that?" I asked.
Victoria shrugged. "I don't know. It was just a suggestion."
Why would I want to go on a date with someone while Alvin and Victoria are there? I have so many reasons to this, but in all, it was not a good idea. But again...the whole reason to this was to get Alvin jealous that Anthony and I were hanging out. My idea was for him too see us together, and this was actually the perfect chance. But the scenario was complicated, and I didn't want to speak to Alvin for a while. It pissed me off that it didn't bother him that Anthony and I knew each other. And I was still hurt by the whole 'football' thing. I'm not usually an over sensitive person, but what Alvin did to me made me feel unimportant. So what difference will this 'double date' thing do?
I pondered to myself for a while, trying my hardest to say no. But in a way, it was the perfect idea.
I looked at Victoria. "When's the date?"
"This Friday." She said.
"Maybe." I sighed, hating myself for going with the answer I went with, because I knew 'Maybe' would turn into a yes.
Victoria gasped. "So that's a yes? You and Anthony will go?"
I felt like ripping something to shreds. She gets on my nerves sooo easily, it's not even funny.
I knew I had to talk to Anthony about this, but either way, I know he'll listen to me, and we'll go. But in the pit of my stomach, I had a bad idea about this, but at the same time, I didn't care. I can't continue to hate myself for seeing Alvin with Victoria.
It was my turn to reverse the feeling.
I looked at Victoria again. "Yeah, we'll go." I said, trying to fight back the feeling of turning back.
...
But that night, at around 2:00AM, I was still awake in my bed. I was thinking about what I just did. I don't know why I had a bad feeling about this. And before I knew it, I was regretting everything.
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