Mikayla's POV
I stare at her not sure if I should scream or cry. Cry because I'm so happy that it was her. Scream because I fucken had sex with her. It's been only a dream till now. I can't believe this.
Miley's eyes are the size of tomatoes. She flies out of bed only taking the top sheet, thank god, to cover herself. She backs up a little and keeps the terrified look on her face. "Oh… my… god." She says. I stand up, covering myself with the remaining sheets, and keep replaying last nights events in my head. I don't get it. It was all Andy up until this morning. Maybe she remembers.
"Did we…" Is all I can get out. Miley won't meet my eyes. She slowly nods. We…uh… HOLY FUCK! YES!!! OH MY GOD, I AM SO FUCKING HAPPY RIGHT NOW.
Miley turns around and shakes her head. While she isn't looking I take the time to smile bigger than I've ever smiled before. I even do a small happy dance. Miley turns back around and my face is instantly serious. "I can't believe this." She says then starts pacing the room. I just watch her. "I-we had… oh my god." She says panicked. "Miles it's okay… I think. Look we were both drunk. Typical mistake." I say with a shrug. "How can you say that like it doesn't matter!?! It's not typical! We fucking had sex Mikayla! God, I haven't even slept with Sasha yet!" she finishes. "Y-you haven't slept with her yet?" I manage to stammer out. Yeah I'm happy but that really sucks for her.
She acting a little off. I mean sure she has every right to be pissed but something's just off.
"No, I haven't. How the hell am I supposed to live with this guilt now? God…. and you! You slept with that whore! The last thing I want is her leftovers. It was your fucken virginity! You don't just toss that around Mikayla. Why not Jimmy from science for fucks sake? He's schizophrenic and he's better then that slut that took your virginity." She says all in one breath. I'm surprised she didn't pass out. Well it's now or never… confession time. "Miley… she didn't take my virginity." I say quietly. "What? Then who the fuck did?" she asks. I slowly drag my eyes to hers. "You" is all I say.
Her face instantly pails. "No… the whore did" She says way more to herself than me. "No, you did" I say. "Last night was your…" she trails off. "First time" I finish for her. "But you two fucked" she says still trying to convince herself. "Well, sort of. We got up to my room and right before she… I panicked. I couldn't do it. She got pissed and accused me of leading her on. I didn't deny it. I did lead her on. She said a whole bunch a terrible threats and other things of that nature so, to pay the dept that I owed her… I did her. She never touched me Miley." I say. She backs into a wall and slowly slides down it. She sits on the floor, back against the wall, in shock.
"This whole time… you let me, Sasha, your dad, and that perverted doctor treat you like shit. When you didn't deserve it at all." She says, her eyes welling up with tears. "Miley, I did deserve it. I said a horrible thing to you. It hurt you allot. You get hurt allot… from your dad, from Sasha… and what happened with Lilly. Not only did I add to it but I didn't stop and ever think about how easy I have it and I tried to compare it to you. That was way out of line. And now I'm only swallowing my pride. It's a small price to pay for what I did to you." I say kneeling down to her. Tears are running down her cheeks, fast.
"No Micky, no one deserves that… especially you. You were always there for me, through all the bullshit I pulled with you. You took everything I threw at you and never complained. I'm sorry. I should have done something." She whispers. "Don't worry about it. It's my battle, not yours." I whisper back. "I took your virginity" she says then starts sobbing. I hold back a grin. Why yes, yes you did Miley.
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It's different now. Between Miley and I. I feel so close to her… and I know she feels the same way. Is this what it's like when you're intimate with someone? It's like a whole new kind of trust. She's around me more physically too. It's like before, she could only trust me with her mind and emotions, but now she can trust me with her body too.
We're currently in the lounge of the lodge we're staying in. I'm sitting on one of the couches all slouched down. This couch is comfortable. I'm watching a few of the guys play pool while the girls talk about how cute certain outfits are. I'm so simple when it comes to clothing. All I need is a t-shirt, jeans, converse, maybe a sweatshirt, and I'm good to go.
I see Miley walk over to me and plop down next to me. She slouches down as well but then lays her head on my shoulder. She never does that. In the whole time that I've known her she's never done that. See what I mean? She can trust me physically.
"Miles" I say kind of quietly. She looks up at me. "What do you remember about last night?" I ask. Her eyes get a little wider and she returns to wherever she was looking. "Well, I definitely remember what we did… before that, all I remember is opening our door, screaming at this chick that looked kinda like me, then taking you inside." She says. She blushed at the first part of her answer. "Oh" is all I say. I get it now. Miley yelled at Andy then Andy ran past me. Andy wasn't drinking but when I was being led into the room I smelled alcohol, because it was a stoned Miley. I get it now.
I lean my head back and close my eyes. I'm tired. I didn't sleep much last night, but I wouldn't complain about it to save my life. A shadow crosses my eyes and I open them. Sasha's giving me a ,what-the-fuck look. I just close my eyes again. I keep relaxing till I feel Sasha's foot connect with mine. My head shoots up and I'm fully awake. I grimace and glare at her. Miley, who dozed of leaning on me, wakes up at my sharp movement. She looks at me then turns her attention to Sasha. Miley's expression doesn't change, she just looks at Sasha.
"Yes?" I ask Sasha. "What the hell do you think you're doing with my girlfriend?" she says with her hand on her hip. "Allot more than you know" I mumble. Miley, hearing me, elbows me in the ribs. "Ow" I say a bit high pitched. She smirks and looks back at Sasha. "What was that Marshall?" Sasha snaps. "I said, what does it look like?" I say in a 'duh' tone. "It looks like you're trying to get her to cheat on me. Sorry, she's not as easy as your mom." She says with a satisfied grin. That's it, I'm done with her shit. No one talks about my mom like that.
As I get ready to stand up and rip her face off, Miley puts her hand on my leg, getting all of my attention. "Sasha will you give it a rest" She says sharply. I look at her in confusion and awe. Is she really standing up for me? "W-what?" Sasha says a little shocked herself.
Miley rolls her eyes. Sasha looks offended. "Miley you know I'm right. Her mom is a whore and that's where she gets it." Sasha says with pride. I clench my jaw. Miley stands up and gets in Sasha's face. "Don't talk about them like that! Julie is an amazing person and so is Mikayla. I love them both and would do anything for them. Julie fucking raised me when my dad wouldn't. Yeah, so they both did something that was wrong, but they are not defined by the mistakes the have corrected. They're my family and I love them. So if you're insulting them then you're insulting me. And I don't think you really want to do that considering what's at stake." She says unbelievably stern.
My jaw is on the floor. This is reason number 7,652 of why I'm in love with her. Everything went quiet. Everyone's just watching and waiting for Sasha's next move. Sasha just walks away. Miley watches her all the way out of the lounge. One of the guy's that were playing pool starts clapping and the whole room explodes with clapping and 'Good jobs'. I am so proud of her. Miley blushes then sits back down next to me. I turn towards her to thank her but she stops me by pecking me on the lips. I bust out in a huge smile and lay my head back again. So is that our new thing now? Pecking on the lips? I most certainly hope so.
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We go home tomorrow. I'm not sure I want to leave. Canada's the best thing that's ever happened to me. It got me farther than I ever planed to go, at least this early. But I'm still stuck with the same problem. I'm madly in love with Miley and she still doesn't know. I was supposed to tell her graduation day but as we all know, that didn't happen. I guess it really just depends on if Miley breaks up with Sasha.
Miley's POV
Even I'm surprised that I stood up to Sasha. She deserved it. No one talks about my family like that. I don't care how mad I am at them, I still love them more than anything. It took allot to make me realize that but now that I do, I'm gonna defend them in any way I can.
So… I slept with Mikayla. It feels so weird to say that. I mean, it was her first time. I took her virginity. I know I sound like a broken record but it won't get out of my head. I think the biggest thing that matters to me about it is that she didn't give it to Brook. And… for a virgin, she sure did know what she was doing.
I feel so close to her now. Like I can trust her more on a physical level. You know… that was the first time since Lilly died that I… was intimate with someone. It's been a long time since I've felt like that. About two and a half years. That's a long time. Then again Mikayla waited eighteen years so I have nothing to complain about. There was something about Mikayla though… I'm not sure if it's because she's passionate about everything or something else. In a way… it reminded me of Lilly. I know I shouldn't ever compare someone to Lilly but… it was really that serious. She made me scream. She hit every spot just right. She wanted to pleasure me more then her. It was sweet but rough. It was… perfect.
But why? Why is it perfect? Why does Mikayla make me feel things that Sasha can't make me feel? Maybe it's because I've known her longer. Maybe it's because I'm trying to love Sasha when I know that I can't. My emotions are going crazy and are making me feel different with Mikayla because I'm trying to force them with Sasha. That has to be it. Ok, so I'll just break up with Sasha and the problems solved… right?
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We leave in an hour. We say goodbye to this bittersweet trip to Canada. I'm actually on my way to talk to Sasha. I'm gonna end it between us. She may love me… but I don't love her. I don't think I ever will.
I get to Sasha's room and knock on the door. Sasha opens the door all puffy eyed. She steps aside and lets me in. She's alone. I turn around and face her. I open my mouth to speak but she stops me. "You're gonna break up with me aren't you?" she says softly. "Sasha-" I start but she cuts me off again. "It's ok Miles I get it." She says, her eyes welling up with tears. She leans forward and kisses me on the lips. She pulls back and opens the door. I nod and walk out.
Wow… she really did love me. I hear the door shut behind me. It kills me to do this but I have to if I ever want to be happy. Happy? Oh no… I may have just made the worst mistake…ever. I can't be happy… I don't disserve it. I killed my happiness. I mistreated it and abused it. I murdered it. I don't disserve to be happy… I-I can't be trusted with it.
I made it halfway back to my room… but I can't go any farther. I curl up in the hallway and cry.
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Sasha's POV
I love her… I-I bought the ring. I bought… her a ring… I was gonna… she's gone. Mikayla Marshall will pay.
Mikayla's POV
So we're back on busses now. I spent the last hour holding Miley while she cried. I found her curled up in the hallway on the way back to our room. She is currently sitting in the seat next to me asleep, her head on my shoulder. Exactly where it should be. She slept the whole ride back to Malibu.
We're pulling into the school parking lot. I gently shake Miley awake. "Miles we're here" I say softly. She groans in response. I poke her side and she flinches. She glares at me then stands up. She's always been extremely ticklish. I stand up with her and we get off the bus.
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My mom somehow managed to drop my car off at the school so I can drive myself home. I am currently standing on Miley's porch with her. I helped her carry her stuff in, her dad was watching us, and now we're just talking.
"Thanks" she says at the end of our conversation. "For what?" I ask. "Making this past month of hell worth it" She says with a sweet smile. I return a smile and start to say something. She stops me by leaning in and pecking me on the lips. She pulls back and gives me another smile before walking back into her house. As soon as the door shuts a huge smile appears on my face. It drives me crazy when she does that.
I skip back to my car and make my way home.
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I fly out of my car and sprint to my front door. I missed my mom, allot. I bust through the front door to find my mother on the couch… making out with Dr. Hues.
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Hello everyone. You probably hate me right now but that's ok. I know I promised meager drama but I decided to save it for the next chapter. This one is plenty long. Sooooo, back to the whole hating me thing. Yes, allot of what happened in this chapter has been planned since chapter two. So, did you like my blindside with Mikayla being a virgin? Heh? Heh? AND MILEY HAS IT!!!!! Simply amazing. I gave you a little more insight on what's in Miley's head. So, Mikayla's mom is being bad. Typical.
Anyway, I fell in love with one of my reviews… this shout-out goes to you lita rocks LBC. I LOVE hearing everything that goes through your head at every single part. It makes my day. That goes for every one. It lets me know how what you got out of important parts. I love those marathon reviews. They make me update faster… and they make me just down-right happy.
Lita rocks LBC: You were the only one that got that it was Miley. This made me laugh. And, don't worry about all the f-bombs it only adds to the enthusiasm.
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Welcome to all my new readers.
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