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- No yoai, no rape, no sexual abuse. -
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Past and Present
by zzdoricorezz
Chapter 11
"talking" 'thinking' =flashback= i/ Russian /i
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=Flashback=
"Don't you ever wonder?"
=Flash=
"You will not leave this room; you will not get any food or any rest until you have beaten the previous record of this course."
=Flash=
"Sleep now."
=Flash=
"That's simply not good enough!"
=Flash=
"You have done something that none of the weaklings in this abbey could ever do. You are brilliant."
=Flash=
A hand grabs me by my jacket and pulls me towards the elevator.
=Flash=
He holds out his hands, I step closer and he picks me up.
=Flash=
"Emotion is weak."
=Flash=
"Who will be the victor of this match?"
=Flash=
"Young Kai."
=Flash=
"Hush, Hush."
=Flash=
"What are you Kai!"
=Flash=
"It's alright Kai, it's alright."
=End of Flashback=
My eyes shoot open. When I realise it's just a dream I close my eyes and relax. Why do these dreams keep haunting me. Why do I even react to them, I lived it once, these are only the only memories.
=Flashback=
"Don't you ever wonder?"
=End of Flashback=
Wonder what? Why he treated me so differently from all the other kids in the abbey. Do I dare say... cared for me? I don't know. I still can't decide if he cares or is just playing a sick game with me.
At times he's harsh and cold towards me something I got all the time from grandfather. And then at times he shows me compassion, comfort and care, something I never got from grandfather.
I can't go back to sleep now; that dreams will still be waiting for me. I get out of bed and decide to do a midnight tour of the building. Everyone's asleep or gone home so it will just be me, just the way I like it.
I've walked through some of the hallways making my way up the building. I come to the top floor and decided to see what else is around here on the same floor as his office. I'm walking through the hallways checking every door to find one that is unlocked.
Not my luck, all the doors are locked. I come back around to Boris' office, the last door I haven't checked. I can see the light inside shining underneath the door. Doesn't he ever sleep? Or maybe he leaves the light on purpose so that anyone who passes think there's someone inside. For a moment I think to open the door and take a look. But then again if Boris is in there, he would like an explanation.
So I walk past his office, a few meters down I turn around and walk back. Again I walk past his office a few meters, turn around and then repeat it again.
I want to be near Boris, I feel... maybe cared for. But only sometimes.
But something of nothing I never had is better than nothing at all.
I don't want to go back down to my room to be by myself. I don't know if I want to go into Boris office either. I don't feel like playing games. But I have to admit, I like the attention.
I never got any attention like this from anyone else.
I'm deep in thought when Boris' voice comes from inside his office. "Kai you can stop pacing up and down in front of my office." Nearly in a shout so that I can hear him through the door.
I stop and turn to look at the door. Should I? Shouldn't I? I want the attention... I move to the door and step inside. Boris is sitting behind his desk typing away on his computer. This feels familiar. Middle of the night, I'm tired and in Boris' office.
=Flashback=
I step in front of Boris' desk. I just finished a double training session with no rest or meals in between. I feel like I can just close my eyes and go to sleep it doesn't even have to be in a bed. But I try my best not to show it.
Boris stands in front of me and places his hand on my head and slowly and softly runs his fingers through my hair. Without thinking I lean into his touch and my eyes fall closed. His hand doesn't feel cold.
He draws his hand away and my head lifts with his hand. "Get some sleep tomorrow you will have another double training session."
=End of Flashback=
Boris looks up to me from behind his desk. "And sometimes I wonder why you are so tired." He looks back to his computer. "Walking around all hours of the night."
I just stare at him not saying anything.
After a while of silence, I walk over to his couch and sit down. Boris still doesn't say anything; he doesn't seem to be bothered with me. After a few minutes I decide to lie down.
Boris smirks at Kai's actions.
I feel... I don't know... how to describe it. After a few minutes I take it that Boris isn't going to give me a hard time about this. I relax and I close my eyes and let sleep carry me away.
=Flashback in dream=
"Please don't hurt me! I promise I won't fail again!" The boy I just defeated is being dragged away by two abbey guards. Another helpless kid I just sent for more physical pain. How many trainees have I battled that didn't get sent to the punishing rooms for hell. All at my hands. But I've learned it's better to defeat them then to try and help them. They may all still end up getting punished, but at least I don't have to see their pain and suffering.
The trainee that is being dragged away is fighting back trying to get out of their grip. And that earned him a beating from the guards. I look away I don't want to see it.
=Flash=
I can hear their screams.
"Please I won't do it again!"
"Please don't!"
"Please I promise I won't fail again!"
"Please don't hurt me!"
"Please help me!"
"Please!"
"Please!"
"Please!"
=End of Flashback=
Boris is still typing on his computer; he hasn't paid any specific attention to Kai. But Boris can hear Kai breathing in a deep rapid pace. He can tell Kai is having a nightmare.
After a short period of time listening to Kai's discomfort he stands up from his chair and walks over to where he is lying down on the couch. He reaches out his hand and places it on Kai's forehead pushing his hair out of the way. With immediate effect Kai calms down and his breathing slows.
=Flashback in dream=
I wake up on a couch wrapped in a soft warm blanket. I feel so comfortable I don't want to move but the fact that I recognise I'm not in my room makes me uneasy. I sit up and look around the room and notice I'm in Boris' office. Boris' office in grandfather's mansion.
The last thing I remember I was sitting at my desk in the study trying to stay awake and finish the last few pages of the book grandfather gave me to read and memorise. I must have fallen asleep on top of the book. I was so tired. It's a strict rule that there's no resting until I finish all the work grandfather gives me. But I just couldn't finish the book I was so tired.
The door opens and Boris steps in. "Have a nice rest?" He was supposed to make sure I finish before I could do anything else. I look down. "I didn't finish the book, my apologies, I was just too tired." I couldn't think of anything else than that to tell the truth, I know grandfather was going to yell at me.
"That's alright, I'll allow you a mistake once in a while." I was under his supervision, so I guess he can allow me something. "Thank you." That's all I could come up with.
=End of Flashback=
I'm standing in front of the window staring outside. I haven't left Boris' office since I woke up about an hour ago. We haven't spoken a word to each other. It's early morning and the BEGA building is coming alive with people getting ready for the day's business. There's a knock on the door. "You may enter." Boris answers from behind his desk.
The door opens and Dimitri steps in. "There's a woman here to see you from children's protection services. She doesn't have an appointment but the more I tell her that the more she threatens with a court case." Dimitri informs Boris.
I look to Boris, why would someone from the children's protection services come to see Boris in such a hasty manner, unless Dickenson is behind it. If I had to guess this probably involves me.
I turn and head for the door, I don't want those deranged people from child services to try and convince me to leave with them. I slip out the door I hope unnoticed and head for the stairs. They won't be using the stairs they'll be coming up by the elevator. As Soon as I open the door to the stairs the elevator opens, I look back to see who I have to avoid from here on out.
I see Mr. Dickenson with a woman, so I was right he is behind this. And I'm probably right that this involves me, can't he understand I just want to be left alone. The woman from the child protection services steps into Boris' office closely followed by Mr. Dickenson.
Inside Boris' Office
Mr. Dickenson and the woman steps in front of Boris' desk. "Mr. Balkov? I'm Maxine from the children's protection services." She holds her hand out to shake hands.
Boris only looks back at her unimpressed and unwilling too shake hands. Boris dislikes the child protection services, if they should know the truth.
"What can I do for you, Maxine?" Boris would like to get this over and done with as quick as possible. "Right, I'm here to talk about Kai." Maxine sits down on the chair in front of the desk. Mr. Dickenson stays standing knowing Boris a lot better than she does, and knowing this they won't be here long.
"What about him?" Boris asks, knowing where this conversation is heading. "Sources inform me that I can find Kai here." Maxine says. "Yes, he currently resides in this building." Boris says. So this is Dickenson's pathetic attempt to take Kai away from me again?
"At his own will?" Mr. Dickenson asks. The tone he uses insinuates some wrong doing. "Of course, I would never force anyone to do something they wouldn't want to." Boris mocks Mr. Dickenson, he could never prove the things that he suspected happened in the abbey.
"Where is the boy?" Maxine asks. "He was here just a minute before you showed up, it's too bad you missed him." Boris answers. "Can we talk to him?" Maxine asks.
"You mean try and convince him to go with you to the child protection services building?." Boris asks
"Kai has no legal guardian, it's only for his own good." Mr. Dickenson states.
"No because it will let you sleep better at night." Boris says. Knowing that Dickenson has his own idea about what Kai wants. "It's better to find the child a proper home to live in." Maxine says trying to convince Boris.
"He's happy where he is." Boris says.
"Really." Mr. Dickenson replies knowing that no one was ever happy in that abbey under Boris' care.
"I will not let you take him." Boris smirks.
"Unfortunately you don't have a say in this Mr. Balkov." Maxine says knowing she has the entire law behind her.
"You can't take him; I will not allow you." Boris states knowing he is in control of this situation.
"And what gives you the right to make a decision like that?" Mr. Dickenson asks.
"Because he is my child."
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End of chapter 11
To be continued...
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Cliffhanger.