Chapter 11

Losing You

All the nights I've prayed

mostly, sadly untrue

I am not prepared to be strong

I just can't believe

I am losing you

Not prepared to carry on

I can see you walk away (so cold, so alive)

The helicopter ride was longer then Jubilee had expected it to be. Just were the hell had they taken her? She did not have a watch but her inner clock told her that they had been up in the air for at least an hour now. She glanced over at Fury, she had been trying to figure him out since she had met him back at Sheild headquarters, but she had begun to realize that no matter how many episodes of Criminal Minds she had studied she would never be able to profile that man.

She sighed and turned her eyes towards a soldier sitting across from her. He seemed young, no older then 25. He was gripping his weapon hard and unlike the others around him, he was clearly nervous.

"Excuse me?" She asked and the poor guy nearly jumped. Did they let anyone join?

"Yes?" He asked keeping his voice steady.

"Do you know how much longer until we are there?" Jubilee asked trying to sound as sweet as possible. The man blinked once before checking his watch.

"We should be arriving in about 15 minutes"

"Thank you" Jubilee smiled and leaned back, the gray wall was becoming more and more interesting...

"You don't seem..." The man started but stopped as she once again looked at him.

"I don´t seem, what?"

"You don´t act like a mutant" Jubilee just looked at him for a few seconds. Was he really serious? Then she just smiled and leaned forward.

"What´s your´re name?"

"Jason, Jason Anderson"

"Well then Mr. Anderson please tell me how a mutant should behave?"

She could tell he got even more nervous then before. She could so have played Mr. Smith in The Matrix.

"Well since you are not going to answer me Mr. Anderson, let me tell you something. Yes I have powers that you don´t, yes I could blow half or perhaps a whole city in the air, BUT that does not mean that I will. Just because you have that gun in your hand does that mean that you are gonna go into a mall and open fire?" She did not get an answer so she continued. "Just because we have weapons Mr. Anderson does not mean we HAVE to use them"

"Sorry" He mumbled and looked away probably embarrassed since his comrades had heard her.

Jubilee went back to watching the wall. Was this how humans all over the world saw them now? As these alien species that would kill without second thought? At the moment the future did not look all that bright.

The 15 minutes Anderson had talked about felt more like 30. Once they had landed Jubilee was the first one of the chopper stretching her arms and legs, breathing in the fresh air. She recognized the place as Look out Point aka Make Out Point.

Before she could ask Fury what they would do next load voices were heard not to far away. Two females were clearly arguing and Jubilee quickly identified one of them as Storm, mostly based on her voice but also the fact the sky was turning black.

"I want the same thing you want" Mystique spoke just as Jubilee was able to get a glance at her team. They were safe. "The military has taken a member of my team, I want him back the problem is I don't know where to start looking"

Before Jubilee could react Fury stepped out from the bushes.

"Maybe I do" He said getting that smirk back on his face.

"Who are you?!" Mystique asked. "What do you want?!"

"Nick Fury agent of the S.H.E.I.L.D, I´ve been tracking you for hours"

"I strongly suggest that you forget that you found us" Mystique said ignoring Fury´s words. Fury just snapped his fingers and within a second all the soldiers had their weapons out and ready to shoot, even the Anderson guy.

"That was just to prove a point, if I would have wanted to capture you would have been captured" Fury said and then turned to face Storm and the rest of the X-men. "I am here because I have something for you"

Jubilee gripped the small device he had given her earlier hard in her hand, she was about to walk out herself but did not get a chance as Fury´s hand came through the bushes taking her by the collar and dragging her out.

For a few seconds no one moved or said anything, it was Storm however who broke the silence.

"Jubilation!" She hurried over and gave the young girl a hug. "You are alive!"

Storm was then fallowed by Bobby and the rest of the X-men, the last time she had been hugged like this was probably her birthday, not that she minded but Bobby did almost crushed her inner organs and did not let go until she had promised not to die again anytime soon.

"I have given Miss. Lee everything you need to save your friends" Fury said. "Good luck" and with that he was gone. Damn they were fast...

"Can we trust them?" Jean asked Jubilee.

"I think we have too" Jubilee answered. "We don´t really have a choice"

The first thing they did was too use Fury´s information to retrieve the confiscated X-chopper. Which was surprisingly easy, really they did not expect anyone to want that kind of equipment back?

Kitty and Bobby were send in to take care of the alarm, that way they would have allot more time on their hands. They knew that they would probably be spotted but time was something that would help them.

"Think we can go in yet?" Kurt asked as they stood outside waiting.

"Kitty said she would contact Jean when they were..." Scott did not get a chance to finish the sentence as the alarm went off. Jubilee sighed and turned around crushing the glass doors.

"I think that was the signal" She said and went inside.

Of course the hallways were already packed with soldiers running in different directions.

They were not all that hard to take down, but some of them seemed to be in a panic state of mind and was firing their guns all over the place. You had to be fast not to get hit.

"We have to find Kitty and Bobby!" She could hear Jean´s voice over the shootings.

"You two do that, the rest of you hold them back!" Mystique yelled and then turned towards Jubilee and Kurt. "Did you memorize the building?" She asked Kurt. "Do you know were they are being held?"

"I think so" Kurt answered. "But I´m not..."

"Then just guess!" Jubilee said and grabbed his arms pulling him in towards the wall just in time as a rain of bullets came flying. Mystique touched his shoulder just in time and the three of them disappeared.

Jubilee let out a small sound as she seconds later fell towards the ground. Just as she was about to hit the hard metal floor she felt two arms being wrapped around her, she looked up to see Kurt.

"Sorry" He smiled.

"No need, you caught me" Jubilee smiled back as she was set down.

They both looked around to find that both the captured X-men and Brotherhood members had already broken free from their cages and were now fighting for their lives.

"Bout time you guy´s got here we were..." Wolverine suddenly said behind them, making the two teenagers jump. Wolverine had stopped talking however when he had spotted Mystique. "What´s she doin here?!"

"It is a little complicated, you see..." Kurt started but Jubilee cut him short.

"It is a lovely story that we will tell you later, now come on we have to get out!"

Most of the soldiers in the room had been unharmed, except the one´s Mystique had decided to deal with. They look worse then hell. They did not have the time to stop and see if they were still breathing though, that was unless they themselves wanted to stop.

"Over here!" They heard Lance voice call and they soon spotted him with the rest of the group. "Come on we still have company!"

"Hey over here!" Jubilee yelled as she ran over to a ladder, probably a fire escape. "It leads up to the roof" One after one they climbed up and Jubilee sighed in relief as she saw Storm landing the X-chopper beside them.

"Where is Professor X?!" She suddenly heard Scott yell and she turned around to see that he had closed the exit, trapping Mystique inside.

"Are you insane?!" Mystique screamed. "Let me pass or you will never see him again!"

"Door closing you got 3 seconds Lady" Scott answered.

"You wouldn't dare..." Was the last thing the blue skinned woman yelled before the exit was completely sealed.

Jubilee blinked, she guessed Scott Summers had just earned some major points as a bad ass leader at that moment.

"You son of a bitch!" Lance yelled and grabbed Scott ready to beat the living crap out of him.

"She got what she deserved!" Scott yelled back, clearly he wanted to be abused. A sparkling force field then appeared between them forcing Lance to let go.

"Later boy´s" Jubilee said her eyes glowing. "Or we will all end up down there with her"

"I will get you for this Summers" Lance said before hurrying aboard the chopper.

The Brotherhood were all dropped of in New York as the X-men landed a few miles away in the middle of the forest. Luckily for them Wolverine knew the area very well.

Storm and Beast had also been dropped of in New York, they were going to see what they could do about the Witch Hunt that was spreading across the country.

Jubilee sighed and sat down in the giant grotto that they for the time being had to call home. Wolverine and Rogue had taken of in search for food, and the rest of the group were trying to get a clear shot from the pocket TV they had found in the chopper.

"Jubilee?" Jean´s voice suddenly said.

"I´m up" The tired 16 year old answer, she had not even noticed that she had closed her eyes.

"Are you okay?" The redhead asked sitting down beside her.

"Yeah, I´m fine, I´m just tired that´s all"

"What happened to you?" She looked up to see Scott standing in front of her, arms crossed over his chest. "How did you end up with the S.H.E.I.L.D?"

"They found me, after the explosion" Jubilee sighed. "I woke up at their headquarters, I think it was their headquarters anyway"

"You really scared us" Kurt said. When had they all moved from the TV and walked over to her? Was she really that tired? Fury had mentioned that she had been medicated so that she would wake up faster, perhaps it was wearing of.

"Sorry" She smiled weakly.

"It was cool though" Bobby sat down at her other side. "Not the OMG she is dead part , but the taking the giant robot up in the air and blowing him up part"

"Thanks Bobster"

"Your powers..." Jean started. "They couldn't just have..."

"Appeared and right away I knew how to control them? No you are right, they have been this way for... well before I joined you guys. If you want to know why I didn't show Professor X or tell anyone it´s rather simple. If you are weaker you don´t get to fight as much, and I was tired of fighting"

"Understandable" Jean nodded just as Scott was about to say something. She stood up and got twp blankets. "Here, I think you should sleep some, if we hear anything important we will wake you up"

"Thanks" Jubilee made one of the blankets into a pillow and wrapped the other one around her as Jean forced the other back towards the Iceman statue that was holding the TV.

As soon as Jubilee closed her eyes she fell asleep. Hank had told her that it was a defense that her body and mind had created. Because she could not get enough sleep when she was on the street the body and mind went of right away to be able to get as much rest a possible. At the moment it was a very handy thing.

She did not know how long she had been sleeping she just knew that waking up by the sound of a helicopter and gunshots could not be good.

"They found us" Bobby said as he pulled her up. "Are you okay?"

"I´m fine, how could they find us?"

"They recognized Wolverine and Rogue when they were getting food"

"Damn" Jubilee watched as Kitty was dropped into the enemy chopper quickly making it go down.

"Come on we have to get away from here before they call for help"

They all hurried into the X-chopper and took of.

"Hey, were´s Wolvie?" Jubilee asked once she noticed that the hairy Canadian was missing.

"Well as you were sleeping you missed the fight of the..." Bobby started but was stopped as Scott palm came smacking over his head. "Hey that hurt!"

"He decided too take another way, he will be fine, don't worry"

"I wasn't worried, more curious" Jubilee sat down. "Any news from Storm or Beast?"

"They are trying their best" Jean told her. "I just hope that is enough"

The rest of ride was quiet. They did not really know where they were going, well Jubilee did not know, Scott seemed to have something in mind. Maybe sleeping had been a bad idea but she had been so tired. Something suddenly hit Jubilee. She had not thought about Pietro once during this whole thing. Perhaps she should do this more often, until she was over him... not that she needed to get over anything to start with, it had never been anything serious in the first place...

She could hear a small voice in the back of her mind screaming denial.

She sighed and looked out the small window at her side. A quiet little down was right below them, it looked so peaceful. The town was right below a large dam, she would have been way to paranoid to live there, what if it would break or something.

Oh and there was the Juggernaut talking a walk on the dam.....THE JUGGERNAUT!!!

Jubilee flew up and rushed over to Scott.

"You cant be serious!"

"We have to stop him!"

"Isn't he suppose to be locked up?!"

"Yeah well apparently he got out"

"Don't sound so damn calm Summers!" Jubilee yelled as he landed the chopper. "Isn't he unstoppable?"

"He is going to destroy the dam, we have to try to stop him" Scott got out of his chair. "Come on with your power why would you be scared?"

"I´m not scared!"

"Then what are you waiting for?"

Helping Lance beat up Summers, CHECK!

"So what´s the plan?"

"We have to get his helmet off" Jean said. "Attacking his mind is the only thing that works on this guy"

"Kurt!" Scott called towards the blue teenager.

"Already there!" And he was gone, only to be found on top of the Juggernauts head. That had to make the list of the 100 most dangerous and stupid things you could do.

"What´s this? Another one of little brothers toys?" Juggernaut laughed as he grabbed Kurt and threw him away. Just before he was about to hit the mountain wall Jean managed to use her powers to catch him.

"I only manage to open 2!" He yelled back to them. Without really thinking at all and with a heavy sight Jubilee jumped down from the safe place they had been using at the dams right side.

"JUBILEE!" She could hear both Jean and Scott scream.

"So they sent in the little girl" The Juggernaut smiled at her. "And what are you going to do, hug me to death?"

"You are way to cocky for your own good you know that right?"

"And what are you going to do about that little girl?"

"Oh I´m just gonna steal the helmet, the rest is up to the others" And with that Jubilee put her hands in front of her and sent out all the energy she had left.

It was not suppose to push him of the edge at all, no doubt that was what he had thought. Instead she made the energy go around him and grabbing his helmet with her mental powers. One lock open....second one almost...now! She ripped the helmet of his head and lowered her hands.

"Why you little bitch!" He did not get a chance to attack her however since Rogue almost appearing out of nowhere surprised him, landing on his head without any glows.

The Juggernaut seemed to get weaker but no matter how much energy Rogue took he would not give in completely. He managed to grab her and through her straight at Jubilee.

"Bobby now!" Was the only thing Jubilee heard since Rogue was blocking most of her view. She managed to sit up, placing Rogue´s head in her lap just as Bobby sent the Juggernaut over the dam packed in ice. It was also then Jubilee noticed the News chopper flying above them with at least 3 cameras hanging out. Wonder if that is going to be good news or bad?

"Hey Rogue you okay?" She asked the Goth girl who was slowly trying to sit up.

"Yeah, ah think so" She answered in her thick southern accent as all the other came running up. " And I know were the Professor is!"

Bobby and Kurt helped Rogue aboard the X-chopper. A telephone call from Beast told them that he and Storm , thanks to them had been able to stop the hunt for mutants, for now anyway. Rogue told them and Beast over the phone, everything she had seen from Juggernaut´s memory. Apparently he had been let out and professor X had been locked in. She knew exactly were he was being held and how to get there.

The drugs S.H.E.I.L.D had given her was going out of her system fast, her body had still not recovered from the explosion. She closed her eyes and sighed, she could probably sleep now, at least for an hour or two...

When she opened her eyes again she found herself in a dark room in one of the softest bed she had ever been in. she wanted to lay there forever and ever...

Then suddenly the light was turned on and she quickly closed her eyes.

"Turn it of..." She complained.

"Well Jubilation I am so happy to see that you are awake!"

"Blue?" She asked and blinked a few times trying to adjust her sight. "Were are we?"

"The only place that was not completely destroyed my dear" The blur furry doctor answered. "The lower levels"

"How long was I out?" Jubilee slowly sat up.

"31 hours to be exact" Hank smiled and looked at his watch.

"31 hours!" So much for the one or two hour theory.

"Your body needed the rest, you used allot of power back in New York, your energy had not recovered"

"Is everyone...?"

"Everyone is okay, no need to worry" Hank smiled. "I will go and tell them that you are up and get you something to eat, you must be starving"

"Thanks Blue" Jubilee smiled back and lied back down. She had just noticed that she had been dressed in a medical nightgown and that the uniform that she had been given by Fury was folded on a chair beside her.

She slowly reach out for the vest and opened one pf the four pockets on it, picking up what looked like a small piece of metal with a black button on it.

"Once everything is over and if you are okay you will press this. We will know were you are and you will have 2 hours. That is the deal"

She pushed the button, throwing it across the room in pure anger. She put her arm over her eyes as she felt the tears falling down. But at least they were all safe... that was the important thing, they were all safe.

After getting something to eat she dressed in the S.H.E.I.L.D uniform not having anything else around. She then walked upstairs to the ruin of what use to be her home. It was still standing, it was missing some walls and almost completely burned but otherwise. She had been given a bag and told to go and see if she could save anything from her room before the reconstruction started. After that the Professor wanted to talk to her, no surprise there.

She made it too her room and opened the door to find the walls almost completely black. The furniture was ruined along with her cloths. Her jewelry had survived but the box they had been in had seen better days. Most of her books and Mangas looked alright, her room had not been the one hit hardest. Her movie collection had survived, it seem it could live through anything. But most importantly her photo albums were unharmed.

She kept them under the bed and they all seemed fine, much to her relief, to her they were her life. She also find some other small things she could take, the rest she decided could be replaced later.

She walked outside with her bags feeling the cold evening air hit her face. She glanced at a watch she had borrowed from Hank. 6 minutes to go.

"Wow you found allot!" Amara said as she spotted Jubilee. All the X-men were outside searching for things in the house, which could be called outside or just trying to enjoy the evening.

"Mostly books and movies" Jubilee smiled and walked over to the small group of X-men.

"I´m glad it went well for you" Professor Xavier said as she put the bags down.

"So am I, listen Professor could I talk to you, its kinda important"

"Of course, I thought you wanted to rest some more but if you feel up for it"

"It´s not about my powers professor, its..."

"Look a chopper!" Jamie called and pointed towards a black helicopter that was trying to land somewhere safe.

"It´s S.H.E.I.L.D" Logan growled. "What the hell do they want? They knew about this whole mess and didn't help at all, Fury better have a good reason"

"They did help Logan" Professor X said. "They saved Jubilee and provided the information so that you could be saved"

"They could have done more, though I´m surprised Fury even did this much"

The helicopter landed and and Fury stepped out along with a pack of soldiers. Jubilee could not help but wonder if Anderson was there, scaring him was what she had looked forward too.

"What do you want Fury?" Logan asked as the man walked up to them.

"Nice to see you too Logan, glad your safe" The sarcasm in his words were not hard to pick up on.

"Save your grace for someone else" Logan growled. "You don't have any business here!"

"As a matter of fact I do" Wolverine looked like he was ready for a fight but Fury remained completely calm. "Not many people know me well Logan, but you know me well enough to know that nothing I do is for free, that includes the information I gave in order to save you and the others"

"You came here to demand payment?" Professor Xavier asked sounding rather shocked.

"Not really I came here to pick up the payment" He smirked and turned his eyes towards Jubilee. "You see Miss. Lee and I made a deal, if I gave her the information needed to save you I would have her service's for a year"

"What?!"

"Logan please calm down" The professor said and Jubilee was pretty sure he was holding the Wolverine back from attacking Fury. "Jubilation is this true"

"Yes" Jubilee answered. "He gave me the information and let me go to help, and to repay I will..."

"Be serving under me for one year, not a day less or more starting tomorrow" Fury finished her sentence. "Everything has already been signed, there is nothing you can do Logan"

"But you cant just take her!" Bobby suddenly said and went to stand by Jubilee´s side.

"Yeah" Amara fallowed along with the rest of the X-men.

"Why should we let her go with you?" Kitty asked.

"What are you going to do with her?" Jean glared.

"I can assure you she will not be harmed in anyway" Fury answered looking the Professor like he was ignoring the others. "Before I put her to work I will make sure she is trained in order for the missions she is going to get"

"Yeah like we are letting her go just because you said that" Kurt said crossing his arms over his chest.

"Guys" Jubilee suddenly said and looked up at them with a smile. One of her big trademarks smiles. "Its okay, I made this deal by my own will. I knew what it was, one year of my life in order to save you, I can live with that. Just make sure to make my room just the way it was and I will be back before you know it"

Amara sighed but smiled at her friends giving her a hug.

"I´m gonna miss you"

"I´m gonna miss you all too" Jubilee said still with the smile. "That includes you Summers"

"Nice too know" Scott said and gave her a hug which was soon fallowed by the others. This was the second hug party she had been at in less then a week. First it was the Jubilee returned from the dead thing and now it was the whole Jubilee going away for a year to a place were we cant reach her thing. She did promise to e-mail and keep in touch so that they knew she was alive.

"Don´t start any trouble when I´m gone" She said as she took her bags and started fallowing Fury towards the helicopter. She smiled at Logan whom she suspected was still under the Professors influence. "That one goes especially for you Wolvie"

She got in the helicopter and the doors closed way to soon. She sat down by one of the small windows forcing a smile on her face as she waived goodbye.

When she could no longer see them her smile died.

"Don´t worry" Fury told her. "A year pass by faster then you think"

"Perhaps when you have lived for a 100 maybe yeah"

"You are not going to make this easy are you?"

"Depends on hos you define easy" A smirk appearing on her face as he once again looked out the window.

Pietro was out there somewhere. This things was party his fault and if she ever saw him again she would make him pay for it. Beat him up and yell at least.

But deep down inside the only thing she wished for was that he was fine, that he was safe and that she would see him again.

If she continued this Jekyll and Hyde way of thinking she would probably end up in an asylum at the end of this year.

If she just knew that he was safe that would make it easier... so much easier.

She sighed and looked up at the sealing. 1 hour and 15 minutes to go give of take, wonder if she was allowed to know the exact position of the base. She glanced over at Fury, probably not.

Well home is were the heart is...the only problem was that she had left hers behind.

Note: I´m SO sorry for not uppdating sooner! My life has been a real battle field lately, so surviving has been priority number 1:P

Note 2: I promise too write more as often as soon I get the chance, hope you guys still want to read, once again sorry!