.:Chapter 11:Leave Me Alone:.
"Ah Kamikaze you are finally here," spoke the old man as I entered his office. I kept my face emotionless as I walked over to the Hokage's desk. I glanced at the two other people in the room. "This will be your team," the 3rd said smiling at the two on his left.
"Hello my name is Disuke Rogi." The first guy said pushing his long rectangle glasses up on his head.
"And I'm Arashi Nara." Said the other. I looked them over. Disuke had short black hair with long bangs that almost covered his eyes. He wore a simple net long sleeve shirt with a brown open vest and ninja pants. What was weird about him is that he had black belts all over his net shirt with little multicolored bottles attached to them. Arashi had his brown hair pulled up in a spiky pony tail with piercings covering his entire left ear. He wore simple black clothes with his headband around his arm. I barely paid attention to the 3rd Hokage as he talked about the exam. I was thinking about Kakashi. I still felt his gentle touch on my lips, still felt his strong hands on my back. I sighed inward I was losing it. I didn't understand what this feeling was, but I liked it. I liked to think about Kakashi holding me again, and in a way it scared me. I snapped out of my thoughts as the Hokage told us that we could leave and that was all.
I jumped from building to building with know real direction just jumping around lost in thought. I jumped onto the next building on my left still lost in thought. I walked over to the tiny covered stair entrance on top of the apartment building. I sighed leaning my body against the building. I had completely lost it. Know matter what I did I couldn't get Kakashi out of my thoughts!
"This is so confusing!" I growled grabbing my head. I was torn, part of me wanted to let him in to my heart, but the other part of me knew that he would never accept me. I knew that there was a chance that if I lost it around him I could kill him and the thought made me sick to my stomach.
"You're a monster," I froze opening my eyes to find that I was not on the roof anymore.
"Y…You," I whispered frozen in place staring at the bloody lifeless body hanging from the familiar chain. I watched as someone or something came out from behind the pole with the other me hanging from it.
"Hello Kamikaze-sama," it said.
"Who…are you or…or rather w…what are you?" I stuttered staring in shock at its weird form. It had satin black hair with black holes where eyes suppose to be. There were black angel wings on its back and a seal on its forehead.
"I am you or rather a part of you. My name is Akuma no Ankoku."
"S…so you are like Shiroi?"
"Unfortunately yes, I am like that stupid bird, a creature seal in your subconscious. I am the Demon of Darkness the created inside of you when Shiroi sealed the Great Demon away."
"A Demon… What do you want with me?"
"You have the power to blow entire countries with a flick of your wrist, kill millions of people in a single blow. Why don't you use it?"
"I don't want to hurt anybody else. I…don't want to be a monster…"
"You aren't a monster. You are Konketsuji or half-breed. You are the most powerful Elemental Child ever born! Don't be afraid of your powers uses them to your will, but no you let weaklings collar you like a dog! Stop letting them control you instead control them! People will never understand you because of what you are. Not Kakashi, Naruto, Sasuke, Sakura, or anyone else! They might think that you are okay now, but if they knew what you really were they would run in fear! So I'm here to warn you before you bring yourself more pain; give up this fantasy of Kakashi and throw him away. He will just betray you so throw him away…"
Akuma no Ankoku voice faded into the background as I found myself back on the roof. I stared at my hands, 'Throw him away'. A picture of Uncle's died body flashed though my mind. 'I could kill him on accident.' I closed my eyes letting out a long shaky breath. 'Let him go…' I looked deep inside me only to find me outside of a large locked door with a heart shaped lock. I thought of Kakashi; of his touch, his strong hands, and the way he had kissed me and pushed it away. Though the heart shaped lock and onto the other side of the door with all the rest of my pain and emotions. I sighed opening my eyes as the numbness seeped into my bones. I felt free again.
I started to jump away when I heard a familiar voice. "Kamikaze-san, there you are!"
I turned to face Kakashi, "What do you want Kakashi?" I asked coldly.
He flinched at my cold words and continued, "I was kind of wondering if you…," he blushed scratching the back of his back, "would join me for dinner?"
I looked at him coldly, "No".
He was shocked a little at my answer but recover quickly. "Are you okay you look a little stressed out?"
"I'm fine"
He walked casually over to me brushing the back of his hand against my cheek. I flinched away at his touch. He frowned slightly at my reaction then put his hands on either side of my face, and leaned in so he was about an inch form my face. I froze in place I could move I just wanted him to let go. "Shhh," he whispered rubbing circles on my face. "I promise I won't hurt you. Please don't be afraid I swear I won't ever hurt you." The emotion in his voice made me feel helpless. I didn't understand I was scared of the promise…scared to trust him… 'He will betray you so throw him away…,' I heard Akuma no Ankoku say in the back of my mind.
'Why,' I thought, 'Why is it so hard to let him go?'
"Please Kamikaze-san, I don't know why but I can't get you out of my head. Please… trust me I promise I will never hu-"
"STOP," I yelled blasting Kakashi back. I fell to the ground holding my head staring at Kakashi. He got up blood running from the cuts on his arm. "You don't get! If…if you knew what I could do you wouldn't even look at me… You don't even know me! I'm not the person you think I am, so LEAVE ME ALONE!" I screamed starting to cry. I harden my face and made myself numb though the tears still fell and stood up.
"Kamikaze-san I…"
"Stop calling me that! I don't want to see you anymore! I don't like you like that! Get it through your thick head, and leave me alone!" yelled turning around and jumping away; leaving the hurt Kakashi on the roof top.
I ran all the way to my house as fast as I could, not looking back. When I got to my house I fell to the floor. I wanted to cry again but none came. I had done it; I had thrown Kakashi away. I stood carefully to my feet and went outside. I trained all though to night not wanting to think about what I had done.
The next day I got already for the exam. I loaded my leg pouch with senbon needles and made sure to put new seals on my leather straps. Finally when I had finished getting ready and grabbed a bit to eat I left to meet Disuke and Arashi. I ran all the way to the meeting spot by the school too excited to slow down.
"You're late!" Disuke spat as I walked over to them. I stared at him coldly trying hard to not hit him.
"Instead of complaining on my tardiness why don't you shut your mouth and get inside the school before we are any later!"
We walked around the school looking for room 301. It was weird, there wasn't a person in sight and we were only a minute later than planned. We rounded a corner just in time to hear, "MY NAME IS NARUTO UZUMAKI!! AND NONE OF YOU ARE GONNA BEAT ME!!!" I sighed, 'that Naruto is going to get himself killed!'
"Well hello Kakashi-sensei," said Disuke. I looked up to see Kakashi staring right at me covered in bandages.
"Hi…," he mumbled not taking his eye of me.
"Come on guys," I said brushing pass Kakashi and opening the door. I looked around the room spotting Naruto, "You know Naruto that speech was so loud I heard if all the way down the hall. What are you trying to do get yourself killed?"
"KAMIKAZE-SAN!"
"Sheesh not so loud," I mumbled rubbing my ear and glancing around the room.
"I didn't know you were applying," stated Sakura.
"Well that makes two. The Hokage gave me these two," pointing at Disuke and Arashi, "and told me that I could apply."
"Arashi, what are you doing here?" asked a kid with the same hair style as Arashi.
"What's up little cousin, not happy to see me?"
"Cousin? Who is this guy Shikamaru," asked Naruto.
"He is Arashi Nara my older cousin. He is the strongest in the Nara clan, but unfortunately lazier than me if you can believe it and doesn't have a brain in his head."
"Hey I'm right here!" Arashi said popping the Shikamaru guy on the head.
"Who are you?" a blonde chick that was clinging on to the annoyed Sasuke asked me.
I ignored her and instead looked at poor Sasuke, "Do you want me to remove this chick from you Sasuke?" He didn't answer, but the look he gave me was a clear yes. I took the opportunity to try out my wind control. I kept my hands causally by my sides then moved my fingers which in turned moved the wind currents between Sasuke and the chick pushing the girl off Sasuke and into the wall. It worked better than I thought surprisingly.
"Thanks…," Sasuke whispered rubbing his shoulder.
"W…What happen to me?" asked the blonde holding her head.
"Your body rejected Sasuke," I answered with a smirk.
"You! You did this to me!"
"Now, now Ino calm down, you are going to make this more troublesome."
"Shut up Shikamaru!" she yelled walking back over to Sasuke, but as son as she touched him I sent her flying back into the wall again. Unfortunately as soon as I did my neck started to burn like fire. I hissed though my teeth as the metal burned at my already raw skin.
"Kamikaze, are you okay?" asked Sakura.
"That thing around your neck started glowing as soon as Ino hit the wall again," said Sasuke staring at the collar around my neck.
"That is a Kon Rensa. Why so you have one around your neck?" asked a boy with silver hair and glasses.
"A what?"
"Kabuto, bro what are you talking about?" asked Naruto staring at the boy.
"A Kon Rensa or soul chain is a highly dangerous chakra controller. It not only sucks up a person's chakra, but actually eats away at the person's physical make-up. It takes away about 70% of a person's chakra, energy, and strength, but that is not the reason I'm so amazed that she has one. You see the Kon Rensa is forbidden on humans because the immense power of the Rensa will break down and kill a person's body. That's why today they are only used to control great summoning and such. How did you get one around your neck?"
'70%,' I thought staring at my hands. 'No wonder I can barely lift a spoon.' I looked back up to see everyone staring at me. "To tell you the truth I didn't even know what it was till you told me. I just woke up one morning and found it around my neck. I tried to destroy it, but nothing seems to work."
"That's because only the person who put it on you can take it off, or if that person is killed then it will just fall off."
I looked at my hands once again, 'Interesting so all I have to do is find that person and kill them. I have a pretty good idea of who did it. Personal I think it was the 3re Hokage after all he was the one who sent me in for questioning with that bastard Ibiki.' I was so caught up in thought that I jumped as I heard the sound of kunai knifes hitting the floor. I looked up just in time to see a guy from the sound village appear in front of Kabuto. The sound guy pulled his arm back and threw a lighting fast punch at him. Everyone froze in shock as Kabuto dodged it so fast I didn't even see him move. Then out of nowhere Kabuto's glasses cracked and shattered.
"What's going on? He dodged the blow, but something broke his glasses." Sasuke said.
"His nose probably got grazed…serves him right for acting all superior." Shikamaru lazily answered.
I raised an eyebrow. I was totally lost. "Hey kid, what did Kabuto do to upset the sound people?" I asked a kid with a puppy on his head.
"First of all my name is Kiba and secondly Kabuto said that the Village Hidden in the Sound was a weak new country which in turn insulted these three sound guys."
"Oh I see," I studied Kabuto for a minute. All of a sudden Kabuto shuddered then vomited on the floor.
"Aw man he hurled!" yelled Naruto.
"Kabuto?" Sakura asked. Naruto and Sakura ran over to him.
"Kabuto, bro are you okay?"
"Are you alright?" asked Sakura placing her hand on his back.
"…Yeah…I'm fine…"
"You're a pushover, aren't you? Pretty sad for someone who's been an applicant for four years now," said the sound ninja that had attack Kabuto.
"Better add this to your cards. The three applicants form the sound will all make chunin this year," smirked the other sound guy. I just stood staring at them. 'Kabuto dodged that blow, but why did he throw up? Is there something else that I am over looking?'
All of a sudden there was a big explosion and a too familiar voice shouted, "WOULD EVERYBODY PLEASE JUST SHUT UP?!"
"No," I whispered staring at the man. "Why is he here?"
"Sorry to have kept you waiting," said the scar face man.