The next day Ichigo was still locked in his room, though Amu was in the crib in the living room when Grimmjow had gotten her in the morning. At the moment the bluenette was in the kitchen. "Morning daddy..." Yuki yawned, one hand rubbing his eye as he trudged sleepily into the kitchen.
"Hey…what you want to eat?" Grimmjow asked, turning to look at his 'son'.
"Fried egg?" Yuki asked hopefully, walking up to Grimmjow and hugging his leg.
"Sure" Grimmjow replied, starting the egg and ruffling Yuki's head affectionly.
Yuki giggled as he clung to the man's pants. A few minutes later Ichigo trudged into the room, looking worse than usual. He had a red turtle neck on and a pair of black night pants that looked about three sizes too big. The dark circles under his eyes were darker than usual, too. "Ichi? You okay?" Grimmjow asked, leaving the egg for a moment to hug the orangette, looking over the other male.
"Uh... yeah... I guess.." Ichigo murmured, not bothering to look up as he stared blankly at the floor when he was hugged.
"You guess? Ichigo look at me and tell me you are all right…you aren't getting better…I don't want to have to take you to the doctor because of the depression or the cutting…and don't lie about it" Grimmjow sighed, looking at Ichigo with a stern look. Ichigo didn't respond. He only pulled at the hems at the edges of his sleeves. "Ichigo" Grimmjow sighed, pulling Ichigo closer. "You are strong…don't let it get to you" he murmured
Ichigo's body started to shake a little. "It's too hard..." He said softly, still not looking at the man.
"Ichigo…nothing is too hard…I'm around, Yuki is too…Pantera and Gin…you have people to help you Ichi" Grimmjow muttered, kissing Ichigo's forehead. "Just ask for help"
"Grimm..." Ichigo said softly, finally leaning into the other man.
Grimmjow continued to hug the younger, kissing his forehead again. "Uh.. daddy? Is the pan supposed to smoke like that?" Yuki asked, tugging on Grimmjow's pants to get his attention.
Grimmjow moved the pan to a different burner with one hand, turning off the stove. "Depending on what you are making sometimes…this time not really" Grimmjow sighed.
Amu started to cry in the other room. "I... I should go and get her... uh, Grimm, can you get a bottle out of the fridge?" Ichigo asked, slowly untangling himself from Grimmjow's arms. Grimmjow nodded, getting a bottle and a new egg out of the refrigerator. He cracked the egg in the pan and set the bottle on the counter. "Um, I think I need to clean that stain in the living room..." Ichigo said softly when he came back into the kitchen. He was cradling Amu in his arms, the little girl had quieted down but was still whining for food.
"We can clean it up later Ichi" Grimmjow replied. "You want anything to eat?" he added.
Ichigo held Amu a little closer as he shook his head. "N-no..." He said, grabbing the bottle on the counter and putting it in the microwave to heat it up.
"You are eating Ichigo…what do you want" Grimmjow sighed.
Ichigo shook his head again. "Not hungry." He said quickly before taking the bottle out and letting it cool for a minute. He didn't want it hot, just warm.
"You barely ate yesterday Ichigo" Grimmjow stated, serving Yuki's fried egg to the child.
Ichigo took the bottle and started to feed Amu before he spoke. "Grimm, I'm not hungry." Yuki took the plate and held it with both hands before he walked over to the low table that Grimmjow had gotten just for him and set the plate down before climbing into the chair that had came with it. Grimmjow gave Ichigo a stern look before sitting at the larger table with a cup of milk. Ichigo sighed and sat down next to him before shifting Amu slightly in his arms, the little girl whining about being moved while she was eating. Grimmjow smiled at Ichigo and his daughter. Ichigo glanced at him with a weak smile. He loved the man next to him. He did. But, he was still in love with Shiro. The pain that he had felt when the demon left was still fresh in his mind, Perhaps that's why he cut himself. Perhaps that was why there were many, thin scars running up half of his forearms. Perhaps that was why he always wore a turtleneck no matter what the season was. He winced a little at that thought. He had gone to the hospital once already because of that.
One time he had cut too deep and he wasn't able to get the bleeding to stop in time. Grimmjow had found him on the floor in a puddle of blood, or so the bluenette had told him when he had woken up in a hospital bed. Grimmjow had actually scared him with his anger because he had cut himself like that. Grimmjow leaned over and kissed Ichigo's forehead. He loved Ichigo and the kids more than anything and he would give anything for them. He knew Ichigo's wounds from Shiro were still open. And not just the cut marks. Ichigo blushed a little as he looked down at Amu, whom was oblivious to the world as she ravenously ate the formula in the bottle. Grimmjow chuckled slightly before looking over at Yuki. "You want to watch Peter Pan after breakfast?" he asked. Yuki looked over at him with bright eyes. "Yeah!" He said over a mouthful of eggs. Grimmjow smiled and nodded, drinking his manly drink, milk. After a minute Amu had finished off the whole bottle and Ichigo pulled it away before pushing her long bangs back and kissing her forehead. "...Grimm, Amu needs a haircut soon.." He said, glancing at the man.
"K" Grimmjow replied, taking the empty bottle to the dishwasher.
"...Do you want to go get a haircut or should I just cut it?" Ichigo asked, standing up. He walked over to Yuki and bent down to kiss his forehead, making the little boy giggle. Amu squirmed a little at the odd angle that she was being held at. "You can cut it if you want" Grimmjow replied, cleaning up the pan he used to cook Yuki's egg. Ichigo smiled a little and straightened. "I need the sink, then. She needs a bath anyhow..." He murmured. "..So clean the sink when your done." He added as an afterthought as he walked out of the room to get a change of clothes for Amu.
"Will do" Grimmjow called. He looked at Yuki who was finishing now.
Yuki climbed out of the chair and grabbed his plate before bringing it over to Grimmjow. Here daddy!" He chirped as he held the clean plate up. "Can I have something to drink?" He asked.
"Thank you…and you can" Grimmjow replied, setting the plate in the sink and going to the fridge. "What you wanna drink?" he asked.
"Can I have a juice box?" Yuki asked hopefully as he tried to look into the fridge around Grimmjow's legs that were blocking his view.
Grimmjow grabbed a juice box and handed it to Yuki. "Let me finish the dishes and we can watch Peter Pan" he stated with a smile.
"Okay!" Yuki chirped with a bright smile before he ran into the living room.
Ichigo came back into the kitchen with an outfit for Amu a minute later. Grimmjow quickly finished the dishes, cleaning the sink. Grimmjow kissed Ichigo's forehead again. Ichigo blushed a little and smiled as he walked over to the sink and turned the warm water on. After the sink was full he carefully undressed Amu and set her in the sink. She pouted but was otherwise obedient. Ichigo chuckled as he started to wash her softly with a washcloth. Soon, the little girl was nearly white with all the suds and was giggling as Ichigo tried to clean her feet. Grimmjow could hear the others from the living room where he was, as promised, watching Peter Pan with Yuki. Yuki seemed to like it a lot. Yuki was giggling at the movie when Ichigo finally came out of the kitchen with Amu, her hair was still damp so it looked darker than normal and she was wearing a pink dress with a 'Hello Kitty' face on the chest. There were bright purple socks on her feet. She had her thumb in her mouth when Ichigo set the little girl in a highchair were a comb and some scissors were already out next to it. He started to comb and cut her hair to where it was just above her eyes in a messy bob-cut. Grimmjow watched Ichigo cut her hair with a small smirk. Ichigo glanced over at him, blushing brightly when he realized that the man had been watching him. Grimmjow grinned. "D-don't look at me like that..." Ichigo murmured quietly with an even brighter blush as he looked back to what he was doing. Grimmjow grinned bigger before turning back to the TV. Ichigo was soon done cutting Amu's hair and he took the towel off of her shoulders so he could put the cut hair in the garbage. Grimmjow was, again, watching Ichigo instead of the movie. Ichigo was much more interesting than the movie. When he was done, Ichigo picked Amu up and walked over to the couch. He sat down next to Grimmjow, leaning a little on his shoulder. Grimmjow wrapped his arm around Ichigo's waist with a soft purr. Amu giggled a little and reached out for Grimmjow with a big, toothless smile. Ichigo smiled down at her and kissed the top of her head, her hair still damp with water. Grimmjow smiled at Amu, kissing her forehead before kissing Ichigo's. Yuki had been so engrossed in the movie that he hadn't noticed the orangette sit down. It was near the end of the movie, where Hook and Jane were battling. "Who you think gonna win?" Grimmjow asked, ruffling Yuki's hair.
"Uhhhhh... Jane!" Yuki said after a moment, not bothering to look up at Grimmjow.
"I think so too…let's see" Grimmjow replied, amused.
Yuki grinned at the screen. Ichigo smiled at him before reaching a hand out to ruffle the half-demon's hair. Grimmjow pulled Ichigo on his lap so the orangette could reach his son better and because he liked a warm Ichigo on his lap. "G-Grimmjow!" Ichigo blushed, squirming a little.
"What?" Grimmjow asked 'innocently'.
"Why do I have to sit on your lap?" Ichigo almost whined as he pouted a little.
"I knew it!" Yuki suddenly gasped, pointing at the screen. "Jane DID win!" He grinned at his own little victory.
"Awesome Yuki…and cuz I love you Ichi" Grimmjow replied.
Ichigo's blush died down a little and he looked away due to Grimmjow's words. He hadn't said those words once yet to the man and it made him feel bad. Something was keeping him from saying those three, tiny little words but he didn't know what it was. Grimmjow blinked at Ichigo, nuzzling his neck lovingly. "Ichi?" he asked in a soft whisper.
"...Huh? ...Oh, I uh, I'm fine." Ichigo murmured, looking down at Amu.
"Really?" Grimmjow asked, still worried.
"...Yeah." The orangette sighed, forcing himself to look up to Grimmjow to give him a small smile, somehow managing for it to not look forced.
Grimmjow stared for another moment before kissing the other's nose. Ichigo blushed some more and nuzzled Grimmjow's cheek before relaxing into his frame. Grimmjow smiled, looking back at Yuki before letting his attention fall on his uke. "aww! Why do they have to go back?" Yuki asked with a frown.
Grimmjow chuckled slightly. "So they can grow up and have children of their own" he responded.
Yuki pouted. "But Jane likes Peter pan!" He exclaimed, pointing at the screen. "Kinda like you and mommy!" He added before huffing in disappointment.
"Maybe Jane will come back for him" Grimmjow suggested.
"Will she?" Yuki asked hopefully with a grin.
"I don't know…maybe" Grimmjow replied.
Yuki pouted a little. "But I wanna know!"
"I will get the second movie" Grimmjow promised.
"There's a second?" Yuki gasped. Ichigo smiled at him, is eyes soft. His little boy was so cute.
"Yup" Grimmjow grinned, ruffling Yuki's hair.
"Yay!" Yuki giggled with a smile.
Grimmjow kissed Yuki's forehead. "So what should we do now?" he asked.
"Umm... I dunno.." Yuki murmured with a frown
"Well, we need to get started on school. Summer ended over a week ago and I have yet to start working with you." Ichigo sighed with a small smile.
"So you two can do school stuff and I can watch Amu" Grimmjow suggested.
Yuki nodded and smiled. Ichigo got off of Grimmjow's lap to go get the school items out of the closet. Before he did though he handed Amu over to Grimmjow. The girl giggled and nuzzled his chest. Grimmjow smiled and kissed her forehead. That only made Amu giggle even more. Grimmjow smile grew and he tickled her stomach, kissing her over and over. Amu exploded into laughter as she squirmed around. Grimmjow smiled and stopped tickling her. He smirked as she slowly stopped laughing. Amu mumbled something and reached up for him. Ichigo and Yuki came back into the room, Yuki holding an armful of papers and books while Ichigo held a plastic fold out table. "What are you gonna learn about Yuki? Ichi tell ya?" Grimmjow asked.
"Ummm, mommy said we were gonna work on reading and writing the alphabet!" Yuki said with a big smile as he lifted the papers in his arms a little higher, a few falling out of his grasp.
Grimmjow smiled, slipping off the couch and grabbing the paper that fell. "You sound excited" he chuckled, placing the papers on the table.
"Yeah! Reading sounds fun!" The little boy smiled up at him.
"It is fun" Grimmjow replied with a small smile. Yuki started chattering about how he couldn't wait to read while Ichigo started to set up the day's work. He had a pair of reading glasses on as he looked through the papers and workbooks. Grimmjow smirked at Ichigo. The orangette looked adorable with his glasses. Grimmjow was resisting the urge to grab the male and kiss him. Yuki climbed into a chair and was nearly bouncing in his seat as Ichigo set down some flashcards of the alphabet. He was really good for his age and had nearly learned all of the alphabet already. Grimmjow smiled, turning his attention back to Amu. He smiled warmly at her, kissing her forehead. The little girl started to giggle helplessly, one of her tiny hands reaching out to tug on a piece of Grimmjow's blue hair. The bluenette smiled, kissing her nose. Ichigo smiled a little at them. It was cute. Grimmjow smiled at Ichigo, he kissed Ichigo's nose and Yuki's forehead. Yuki giggled before starting to repeat the alphabet out loud when Ichigo told him to get to work, though he was blushing when he said so. Grimmjow smiled, proud of the boy, though his heart tingled as he remembered the child wasn't really his. "Uhh... P... Q... um..." Yuki mumbled, frowning a little.
He huffed and looked over at Ichigo. "Oh, you know this one. Try." The orangette encouraged, tapping the flash card on the table.
"Uh... ...R...?" Yuki asked, making Ichigo smile and nod a little.
Grimmjow smiled as well. The alphabet was pretty easy for him. "Uhm, S T... U... V, W X...Y... um... Z?" Yuki finished after a moment, smiling wide when Ichigo nodded.
The boy was smart. "Now, one more time, okay?" Ichigo asked, making the little boy pout. That made Ichigo chuckle. Grimmjow smiled at the young boy's pout. So did another male, just out of sight of the family inside. Yuki started over, but was smiling anyways. After a moment Ichigo huffed and stood up before reaching out and taking Amu from Grimmjow, smiling a little at the other's pout. He nuzzled the little girl's forehead before holding her close and sitting back down. Grimmjow sighed, listening to 'his' son continued the alphabet. A pair of sharper, colder twins of Yuki's eyes watched Yuki as well, a faint smile on his lips. Ichigo started rubbing his wrists a little as he held Amu and listened to Yuki recite the alphabet. He winced inwardly when he felt one of the fresher cuts on his arms reopen, blood welling up in the thin wound. Grimmjow seemed to know Ichigo was in pain as he took Amu, laying her in the crib before telling Yuki he could take a short break. The bluenette then dragged Ichigo to the kitchen. "H-hey!" Ichigo yelped when the bluenette pushed him into a chair and grabbed his arm. He tried to yank it back but the man's grip only tightened. His face lit up in shame when the man pushed his sleeve back and he looked down at his lap. Grimmjow didn't yell, only sighed and grabbed the first aid from under the sink. He started cleaning up the thin bloody mess. Neither of the males noticed horrified look from a snow haired man at the window. He stared at the crimson on Ichigo's arm, heart of stone cracking to pebbles. "I'm fine." Ichigo muttered, still not looking up. When Grimmjow was done tending to the reopened cut, he yanked his arm back but didn't move from the chair. Grimmjow sighed, kissing Ichigo's forehead. "I want to believe that…but Ichi…you are killing yourself with this…what if Yuki found out about…he might do something because he wants to help" Grimmjow practically pleaded
Ichigo shook his head and pushed Grimmjow away from him, his hands falling into his lap. "I can't stop..." He murmured. "I'm fine, Grimm... I am..." He sighed. "Just... Go check on Yuki and Amu..." The oranget pleaded more than anything. He needed to be alone for a moment... just a little moment... Grimmjow stared at Ichigo for a moment before nodding. With another simple kiss on the nose, Grimmjow left Ichigo alone in the kitchen. The orangette sighed, staring at the bandage on his arm, the white material only hiding a small portion of the many cut marks on his arms. Shiro stared at Ichigo. His golden eyes glowing in the shadows he hid in. The orangette pulled his sleeve back down over his arm. After a few minutes had past, Ichigo started to stand up, his eyes closing for a moment before he finally walked out of the kitchen, a fake smile on his face so he wouldn't worry Yuki. Grimmjow looked over at him, Amu in his arms. They were now watching Spongebob. "Alright, time to get back to work!" Ichigo said playfully, picking up Yuki and resting him on his left hip. The boy pouted a little but smiled and hugged his middle anyways. Grimmjow watched Ichigo, he looked better. Though Grimmjow knew that smile was fake. A flash of white near the window made the bluenette shifted his eyes. Ichigo set Yuki down, the little boy running over to the table to work on his schoolwork again. Grimmjow watched before turning the TV to something Amu would like better. The little girl started giggling at Micky Mouse, who was chasing the dog, Pluto, to try and get him to give back his shoe. Yuki was now writing the alphabet with Ichigo's help, the boy's handwriting pretty neat for a five-year-old. Grimmjow smiled till he noticed someone in the window. Everyone else didn't seem to notice.
Shiro is a stalker...but he has his reasons so be nice to him
Yes it's been a week, I had been spoiling you guys...which wasn't a good idea since I am a busy student ^^;
This story gonna be coming to an end in 2 or 3 chapters...depending on how much I spilt it...yeah my esimate keeps changing ^^;
Anyway Review and I will try to update this real soon...along with a few other stories
IS: Ichigo/Kids
Me: Grimmjow/Shiro