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Bella's POV
Yeah...always meant forever...Forever nothing but friends.
I laid awake for what seemed like forever that night, listening to the rustling trees out side my window and the gentle snores of Edward over on the cot bed. I turned to face him and was instantly mesmerised by the way the moonlight danced over his features. I watched as it highlighted the scar just under his chin from when he fell out of a tree when he was six, there was so much blood...I'd never been so scared.
Until now.
Now I was scared...Scared to tell him how I felt about him, even though we'd always been able to tell each other everything...even though my feelings were starting to eat away at me and gain strength from that nourishment.
I started to unconsciously twist the silver ring, he'd once given me, around my finger while staring up at the ceiling.
"Can't sleep?" His voice suddenly broke the silence.
I'd been too wrapped up in my mind that I hadn't realised his snoring had stopped.
"No." I answered truthfully.
"So what is it that's bothering you?" He asked as he propped his head up on his hand and gave me his undivided attention.
"Nothing really...just things." I tried to shrug it off so he wouldn't pry too much...but it was Edward and I should have known better.
"Don't you dare cop out on me know miss Swan...Spill. I won't be able to settle until I know what's troubling you." He crawled over and pulled himself up to his feet.
"What are you doing?" I asked trying to hide the panic from my voice as he pulled back the covers slightly.
"Move over." He chuckled at the shocked look on my face before climbing in next to me.
He pulled the covers back over him and started to snuggle up to me. I froze for a moment as a thousand thoughts of how I didn't think my heart could handle having him this close to me started to race...but soon slowed to a comfortable stroll as the warmth of his body enveloped me with his arms. For a moment I forgot about everything other than the feeling of that moment.
"So tell me." His voice was low and husky from waking far too early.
"I was just thinking about Jasper and Alice." I lied...sort of.
"What about them?" He asked.
"Just how they can be like they are with each other you know? Like they've only known each other for such a short space of time...I know they've met before but they haven't spent that much time with one another...Yet they know exactly what they want and aren't scared of going for it." I was really talking about us in a backwards kind of way.
He let out an almost saddened sigh. "Maybe it's because...they don't have anything to really lose from it all."
We didn't talk much more after that...we just settled into a comfortable silence. After a while I started to hear his soft snores again.
I woke before him the following morning and spent a short time memorising his grown up face as I had his childlike one so many years ago but before I could lose myself wholly, I groaned and rolled out of bed.
Our day was filled with me taking him places and generally spending time together away from friends...There was going to be plenty of time for that later on. It was amazing just to be with him. I'd forgotten how good it was to hang out...even though our activities now didn't include riding our bikes down to the little ice cream place back in Phoenix...Now we occupied Starbucks instead.
Before we knew what had happened it was seven thirty.
I stood looking inside my wardrobe wondering what the fuck to wear.
For the first time in a long time I wanted to make an effort so I'd showered and applied a little make up but couldn't work out how to dress...seventeen year old and didn't have a fucking clue...I guess Alice would but she's not here. I huffed and turned around to find Edward stood by the door...his eyes falling over the suddenly very skimpy towel.
Oh Fuck.
Bright flaming luminous Red would not have been a strong enough description for the colour that spread throughout me. My eyes were wide and must have helped him regain some kind of composure because he cleared his throat and blushed before pointing back to the door and disappearing out of it.
I settled on a pair of hip hugging dark jeans and a blue v-neck sweater vest; choosing to leave my hair down but with a little added volume. I didn't look half bad I guess and it wasn't like it was a party or anything
Edward looked mighty damn fine in his own jeans and button down white shirt that looked good against his Arizona tan.
I didn't miss the way his eyes raked over me as he rubbed the back of his neck either..but then I guess I'd just done the same to him and he'd never seen me dressed like this before.
We made it to Emmett's a little after half past eight and he welcomed us into the house with a hearty hug. Alice was already perched sideways on Jaspers knee and she we giggling at something he was doing...I didn't really want to guess but the grin sat on his face was huge.
"Bella!" She squealed when she saw me and ran over to give me a hug.
I returned her enthusiasm before she looked me over
"See you do take notice of me after all." She pulled at the sweater then frowned. "Well...sort of." Her correction made me laugh out loud. "Come on Bell's lets get you a drink." There was something almost scheming about the look in her eyes and I wasn't sure I liked it.
Thankfully she only handed me a beer and I took a deep pull from the bottle while watching Emmett trying to talk Edward into taking part in the dumb ass computer game tournament he was wanting to play on his stupid xbox. He wasn't having much luck. Neither Edward or Jasper seemed interested in the slightest so he huffed and turned off the waiting game, choosing instead to use it to play music through instead. What I didn't realise was that you could feed photographs through it like you could a computer...a fucking slide show of every photograph he'd ever taken off him, Alice and me...including the ones where we took a trip to the coast two summers back. I was mortified when two pictures of me and Alice in bikini's graced the screen. He of course just fell over laughing at the expression on my face.
"Ladies!" Jasper purred; making Alice blush...a feat in it's self.
Of course Edward didn't say anything.
After a while and a beer or two later Jasper asked if we wanted to play spin the shot.
"What the hell is spin the shot?" I asked incredulously.
"I'm glad you asked it means there's interest." She grinned. "Ok, so normal spin the bottle is for high school kids..."
"We are high school kids you stupid fuck!" Edward laughed.
"...and is a pretty pathetic way to get off with someone or cop a feel so this one is drinking based instead." He glared at Edward for the interruption. "So...when it's your turn... You spin the bottle and whom ever it lands on takes a shot." He finished and put a bottle of Jack Daniels whiskey on the table that he'd obviously brought with him.
I wasn't a big drinker...Beer was all I was used to at the few parties I'd attended but they usually got busted up before any serious drinking could take place.
"I don't know if this is such a good idea Jazz." My best friend caught a glimpse of the apprehension on my face .
"Cullen...Don't be such a fucking pussy!" He teased and Edward stiffened where he sat.
He hated being called that.
"So who goes first." I butted in sounding a little more sure of myself than I felt.
Edward looked at me puzzled but I shrugged and grabbed the bottle.
"No one volunteering? Ok then I will." I sat the bottle on it's side and spun, hoping I wouldn't send it flying off the table or anything. "You know this would work a hell of a lot better if you guys were actually sat down for it to be able to land on someone!"
They all crouched down by the table and watched as the bottle slowed down on Emmett.
"Fuck yeah! Pour me the shot baby." He grinned stupidly causing me to roll my eyes at him.
I unscrewed the bottle and looked at Jasper expectantly. "And what exactly are we supposed to use take the shot from?"
"Use your imagination." He chuckled before pulling five shot glasses out of his jacket pocket.
"Who the fuck carries Shot glasses and Whiskey around in there pockets?" Emmett quipped as he nearly fell over laughing.
"That would be Jasper...apparently." I answered shaking my head at him before pouring out Emmett's first shot.
"This is hardly a fair game." I added as we all watched him knock it back in one.
"You're right...It's not fair...But it sure as hell can get fucking funny after a few turns. I played this once back home and the bottle kept landing on this one poor guy...after the fourth time I think people were deliberately trying to make it land on him just to see when he'd stop." He shook his head at the memory before taking the bottle for his turn. "OK...Let's see."
It stopped on me.
"Bella you don't have to do this." Edward almost cringed as Jasper filled up my shot glass with the pale amber liquid.
"I know I don't." I smiled before slinging it back in one.
It tasted disgusting! Then the burning started...then the dumb shiver that you can't stop when something goes through you.
Everyone except Edward laughed as I crinkled up my nose.
The game carried on for a while and unlike Jasper's earlier experience of it everyone had had their fair share of Jack. My head felt wonderfully light and carefree as we all giggled like idiots as Emmett sank another one.
"Another hit for the team!" He slurred a little as he slammed the glass back down on the table...then lifted it back up to make sure he hadn't marked his mothers furniture.
As the bottle Jasper spun next landed on Alice he gave her a knowing look.
"Hale, I know what you're doing, and you really don't need to. I'll still fuck you if I'm drunk or sober." She licked her lips and Emmett sprayed his beer, that he'd been drinking in between shots, everywhere.
We all shoved away from the table trying not to get caught in his shower but ~I still wound up wearing more beer than I wanted to.
"Great...Just great. Thank Emmett." I stood up and started to pull my sweater away from my body slightly.
"Blame those to fucking horn dogs not me!" He growled as his little sister flipped him off and straddled Jasper's lap backwards.
"suck it up Big bro. I'm not a little girl any more and just be thankful that you don't know everything I get up to." She wiggled her eyebrows at him.
I looked at Edward and laughed at the glazed, relaxed look in his eyes as a stupid ass grin spread across his face.
I gave up worrying about my sweater after a short while and we went back to just talking and sharing embarrassing stories. Alice took great pleasure in telling everyone about the one and only time I'd worn a skirt to school, and how the elastic in my panties fucking snapped and they few down just as I walked into Biology. I was the 'butt' of all the jokes for ages. When it happened even the teacher told me it wasn't a practical lesson that week...theory only. I wanted a huge rock to fall on me. I was just glad that I got through it and was kind of able to laugh about it now. But then I gladly told everyone about the time Alice was caught making out with the pity fuck kid and that she said she only did it because of how he looked at her with puppy dog eyes.
"Noted!" Jasper guffawed as she hit his arm.
Some how the conversation turned to relationships.
"What the fuck? Never?...You've never had a boyfriend?" Jasper looked at me like my head had just exploded.
"No." I shifted a little uncomfortably as Emmett's eyes shot up.
"Not for the want of guys trying." He added with a nod. "It's a known fact at school that she has the hottest ass..." Then he was on the floor. "What the fuck? Dude?" He turned to where Edward sat glaring at him. "Did you just fucking push me on the floor?"
Everyone except Edward nearly fell over laughing and I was glad for the distraction.
"So if you've never had a boyfriend then you've never been kissed? I mean...kissed?" his insinuation was perfectly clear but instead of answering vocally I chose to down another shot instead.
"Wow."
Edward's POV
I wanted to punch Emmett....Hell, I wanted to track down every mother fucker that had ever had the gall to ogle her like that and do them serious damage.
Instead I opted for shoving the dick off of his chair, it had worked with Jasper after all.
The fact that she'd never had a boyfriend both saddened me and thrilled me at the same time but looking at the sadness in her eyes in that moment bothered me to no end. She could have her pick of any guy she wanted yet she didn't...But then I hadn't either. I'd been carrying a torch for Bella for so long that I hadn't dated anyone. The simple truth was that no one interested me like she did and it wouldn't be fair to anyone else when said torch was still burning brightly.
My head was spinning slightly and I felt chilled out to the max. The alcohol I'd consumed didn't let me dwell on any thing for too long though the only thought it seemed to process was how hot Bella's ass did look in those tight fitting jeans. I couldn't really blame guys for looking I guess.
I think it had gotten to about twelve thirty when I suggested to Bella that we head back to her place...Hopefully we'd make it back before her mother did and could let the alcohol take us into the land of nod quickly. I was after all starting to struggle to keep my eye's open. Bella was stumbling and giggling as I grabbed her arm and held her up. The problem facing me was...Who the hell was going to hold me up?
"Bella honey...If you ever want any one to rectify that whole never been kissed thing..." Emmett slurred and pointed to himself making me cringe at the thought of my cousin all over her like that. "I'm willing to lend you my lips." He concluded.
"Emmett." She she pointed to him before stumbling again. "If you ever tried to kiss me...I'd rip out your wind pipe...in beat you to death with the knobbly end!" She grinned.
"You love me really." He chuckled.
"Like a head in a hole...wait that didn't come out right! A hole in the head!"
With that we began the tedious walk back to Bella's place two blocks over.
When we finally made it back to her house we fumbled around trying to get upstairs. I had an attack of a guilty conscience about the amount of alcohol I'd let her drink but I was too pissed off at Jazz for calling me a pussy. He knew I hated that shit! But I still should have taken more note at the amount she'd drank.
My mind went blank again as she started to pull her sweater off before she'd even gotten into the bathroom.
Maybe alcohol wasn't so bad after all. I grinned as I shamelessly took in the sight of her retreating semi topless form.
Thank you Jack.
When she came back in she was giggling again and I couldn't help but join her even though I had no fucking clue why we were laughing.
"What?" I asked as she swanned over towards me.
"I ton theels thunny." She said while sticking it out at me.
Her eyes were trying to focus on the tip of it and it was causing her eyes to cross over.
I couldn't help the burst of laughter I had to let out.
"Thup up!" Her hands shot out to shove me.
"Why does your ton theel thunny?" I mimicked.
"It theels thind oth heathy."
"Heavy?" Something was propelling me forward. "Let me see." My head was swimming in thoughts of kissing her and before I knew what I was doing our lips had met and were moving against one another.
I managed to clear my head a little and move back to see her eyes glazed with lust and her breathing was as heavy as her tongue.
Before I knew what had happened again My mouth found hers...with more vigour than last time. I couldn't quite understand all this. She was kissing me back...And it was nothing like the little pecks we'd shared as pre pubescent teenagers. My lips caressed hers hungrily and her hands wound themselves into my hair..and fuck if that didn't feel good...really good. My sanity tried to reason with my clouded judgement but to no avail. I wanted her...this. I had always wanted this. The little whimper that escaped her spurred me on as I backed her against her closet door with a gentle thud our bodies ground together causing friction I'd only ever dreamed about.
This was wrong...we were drunk
But it felt so amazing I didn't know if I was capable of stopping.
Of course if she was to stop it then I would without question but while she was willing...
But I couldn't take advantage of her like that.
"How do you know I'm not the one taking advantage of you?" She moaned as my lips devoured her collar.
Had I been thinking out loud?
My body was acting of its own accord once her words sunk in.
"Oh god!" She growled when my disobedient hand ventured under her top and up to the curves of her breast.
Never had I dreamed anything as wondrous as this before. The feel of her bare supple skin beneath my hand...the gentle way in which her chest heaved against my hand with the increasing pressure I applied to them. My dick was straining so hard that when she moved her hips against me my head fell back in delight at the attention. Then her legs were wrapped around me making the friction even better as I ground against her.
The headache I would have in the morning would so be worth it.
A/N Yep a little bit of a WTF? Why did the dumb ass writer stop there? Moment I know but it's for the next chapter to be set up...trust me *grins*
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