Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place,
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you?
" Why doesn't she see me ? ,Am i that invisible ? , am i that weak that i don't even register to her ? , damn this sucks "
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you're screaming?
" there she goes off to fight another foe and i have to stay here like always *sigh* she never wants me to help no one does why do i even bother?"
No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life.
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
" it's been three years since she left and she hasn't returned am i that weak i couldn't save her ?, maybe if i was there maybe i could have... "
No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life.
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
" she's back but i didn't save her well not alone now she's off with the others and i'm stuck here doing paperwork again why won't she take me with her ? The other rangers get to go with her so why won't she let me go with her?"
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like (What it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
"'I can't take this anymore I've done everything to show her I'm not weak I'm strong like her and yet even with my hdd form I'm still not good enough no more...no more living in her shadow she doesn't want a sister so its time i left ".
For a week, Shelby kept to her usual schedule. But finally, it was the end of the week. Shelby had looked everything up, and was ready. She'd chosen an overdose, thinking it was a less painful way to die than slitting her didn't risk sneaking out to the bathroom until the evening was done – an evening of lasts. And, for the first and last time, she whispered three words that she had thought of, but hadn't believed it until that moment. "I love you.", after making sure Demi was asleep and Noire was busy , she snuck out of the room and made sure no basilicom staff weren't listening.
She went to the bathroom, and poured herself a glass of water, as she'd seen her dream self do so many times.
Then she opened the bathroom cabinet, where she'd hidden over-the-counter legal drugs that she'd bought for the time,She sent up one last prayer to Heaven, scared for her afterlife. But she doubted anything could be worse than this empty was left of the girl. But nothing had changed. She was still an empty shell, Shelby took a deep breath lifted the pills up
Finally, she began to swallow and sip, doing it over and over again, until she'd taken over fifteen and the water was finished. Then she slipped back to her room, and closed her eyes, hoping against hope that it would work. Soon enough, she knew the pills were working. She swallowed continuously, not letting herself be sick. Then a face began to float in front of her closed eyes, clear and white. The face had a sorrowful look on it, staring into uni's eyes imploringly. Little plaits swayed slightly. The lips moved, but uni couldn't hear anything.
And all of a sudden, Shelby let go. No difference seemed to be made. The house stood silent Noire was unaware, but in the same moment, something had happened.
Shelby still lay there, but her last breath had been taken. Her heart stopped. Nothing was left of the girl. But nothing had changed. She was still an empty shell.
Her voice – the voice of an angel – still echoed through her room, with The Art Of Suicide chiming loudest of all. "Under the arches of moonlight and sky...suddenly easy to contemplate why...why..."
No one knew why Shelby would have taken an overdose. Everyone put it down to well-hidden depression, the denial of Kendall's love or carelessness of the Wild rangers , not noticing any strange behaviour in the young girl. But it wasn't. Shelby had hidden her secret well.
Noire was the first to see her. She woke up at 6am, and nudged her. "Hey, wake up." The girl's eyes didn't open. Nor did she react. That was when Noire realised something was wrong.
"Shelby?" Still no reaction. And even before Noire tried her pulse, she knew she was dead. And in her heart, she knew what had driven her to it
Shelby aka wild white had passed away in the night. She was seventeen, far too young. When she was found, much later, her long black hair was tangled, her face was pale and looked as if she was having trouble sleeping, but nonetheless, there was an expression of serene peace on her face.
-Shelby-
It's been a long time since I ended my life. Things have gone better. I remember who I am now. I'm the girl that always listened in class, the girl that never talked back to authority figures, the girl who used to fight monsters on a daily basis
Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep.
If I should die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take.
Hush little baby don't say a word and never mind that noise you heard its just the monsters under your bed in your closet and in your HEAD!
That's the end. By the way, I don't know if the quote at the end is an actual prayer, but in Nightmare On Elm Street, Nancy says that just before she goes to sleep before the climax scene.
A loud gasp came from Shelby's lips as air rushed into her. Shelby opened her eyes to see Noire curled up in a corner and Demi kneeling over her.
" Ok we need to talk " Demi said.