I know its been a while, but I have finally decided to update on this story. Writers block has been real lately. I started this chapter a while ago and one day I was looking back and decided to finish it up. Hopefully I can continue to keep updating but at this point I'm not 100% sure. Please leave some reviews on what you would like to see next because it really does help me to keep writing. As always thank you for joining this crazy ride with the Winchesters ! I hope you guys enjoy chapter 12 ! :)

Disclaimer : I do not own anything you recognize. Just the characters I made up, Lex & Lilly.

Chapter 12 :

Lexie's POV :

I overheard them talking. I knew they are trying to hide something from me and I'm gonna find out what it is.

"What aren't you guys telling me ?" I said trying my best to sit up. This pain in my body is really making me regret ever going to that party.

"Uhh, nothing" Sam said looking over at me. Taking a sip of his drink to make it seem as if he wasn't hiding anything.

"Obviously it's something, just tell me." I knew they were lying. You can always tell when one of us is lying cause we seem more tense then usually. All three of them look down to the floor trying to avoid eye contact with me. I had a feeling something was wrong , really wrong.

"Is it Tommy ?" I asked. Lilly looks up at me with tears in her eyes. At that moment I knew it was something about Tommy.

"It is Tommy, isn't it ?" I feel my hands starting to shake.

"He passed away last night Lex" Lilly said, her voice trembling with a few tears rolling down her cheeks slowly.

I let out my breathe that I didn't even realize I was holding and felt tears roll down my cheeks. It can't be, Tommy can't be dead.

Lilly starts walking over to me she's grabs my hand but I pull away. I just needed some time alone right now. I can't speak to either one of them right this second. I get up from my bed and made my way to the bathroom with all the strength that my body had left. Holding on to the walls so I won't fall over.

"Lex, your going to hurt yourself even more, sit down" Dean got up after me with his arms out so he could catch me if I fall. What a hero.

"Leave me alone" I replied coldly. I knew it wasn't any of their fault but I just didn't want to be around anyone right now.

I slam the bathroom door behind me and look at my self in the mirror. I felt anger and sadness take over my body. My eyes starting to sting as more tears started to roll down my face.

"It's all my fault" I whispered to myself through gritted teeth. I reached for my phone that was in my gowns pockets. I begin reading the messages between me and Tommy. The last text he sent me was right before the party. I couldn't help it anymore and just sobbed on the bathroom floor. I look at my phone just one more time waiting for just one more text or a call from him but nothing happens. As tears blur my vision, I get up and throw my phone at the mirror standing above the sink. The mirror shattered into pieces throughout the bathroom. I slid down the cold tiled wall and continue to sob on the cold tiles.

I hear Sam asking if 'I'm ok' through the door but I didn't answer him. I couldn't speak to anyone right now. Tommy is dead and it's all my fault. If we just stayed home and not go to that dumb party he would have been alive right now.

"Lex !" I hear Dean on the other side knocking on the door. I couldn't find any strength to answer.

General POV :

As they heard something shatter coming from where their sister locked herself in, they became worried.

"Lex you ok ?" Sam asked but got no reply.

Dean automatically went to big brother panic mode. "Lex !" He raised his voice a little louder, banging on the door for her to open up.

They didn't get any reply not even a simple 'yes'. "Sam, pick the lock open" Dean said. Sam took out a paper clip that he keeps handy just in case for situations like this. Well, not necessarily this type of a situation but you know breaking in situations. The hunters lifestyle. Dean was towering over him, rushing Sam to hurry up.

He had finally successfully unlocked the door. Dean went running in with Sam and Lilly right behind him. He scans the room quickly and sees his baby sister on the floor crying her eyes out with glass all around her.

He rushes over to her and sits down next her. He felt a sharp pain on his palm from the glass but he couldn't care less about that right now. He wraps his little sister into his arms. "Hey...hey look at me" Dean said lifting her chin so she can face him. "It's going to be ok... I promise."

Lexie's POV :

As Dean pulled me into his arms I couldn't resist and gave in. I'm usually not the type to hug my brothers or needed their shoulder to cry on. That is all Lilly. But at this very moment it felt amazing having my brother by my side. He promised me it's going to be ok but I don't believe him what so ever. How was it going to be ok, Tommy isn't coming back. The person that first spoke to me when I was new to the school was gone. In home room we bonded automatically, and we went from not knowing each other to almost having every class together. Ditching school and going on our small adventures. Our last adventure was at the park under the tree, talking about our future and what we had coming for us. Only for his ending way to soon. I truly loved him and the list of people I loved was unbelievably small but he was there. So no Dean it's not going to be ok. Not now, not soon, it will never be ok because I will always have a piece of my heart missing. But I couldn't tell Dean all that so I leaned onto his chest and just freely let all my tears in my body flow out. Lilly sat next to me joining into our hug and a second after Sammy joined in.

A few hours passed and I woke up in the hospital bed once again. Lilly was sound asleep in the chair beside me. I didn't see Sam in the room so I assumed he went to go get some food or something. I spotted Dean besides Lilly. I wasn't sure if he was sleeping because he did have his head back with his eyes closed but his usual snoring was not heard.

"Dean ?" I whispered not wanting to wake him up if he was actually sleeping. He picked up his head and looked over to me. Guess he was awake after all.

"Hey...you're up ?" He whispered walking over to me.

"No, I'm just talking in my sleep." Obviously I'm up Dean.

"How you feeling ?" He was now standing by my bed with his hands in his pockets.

"Amazing" I replied rolling my eyes. I don't understand why they keep asking me that like they know I'm not at my best right now.

"Quit with the sarcastic comments for once, I'm really worried about you Lex." He sits on the edge of my bed. Thanks Dean, I didn't know that.

"Well, I don't know what you want me to tell you Dean" I said looking out the window near my bed. "My best friends dead and he's not coming back." I felt tears forming in my eyes once again.

"And it's all my fault" I begin to let to tears fall down my cheeks.

He looks down to the floor for a moment then looks back up at me. "I hate to say this, but if you listened to me none of this would have happened"

"Really ? Are you really being serious right now ?" Is that all he worries about is proving that he was right.

"That's all you worry about is proving that you were right" I felt anger growing inside my body.

"You know what ? You were right dean ! There are you happy ! You got your way !" I started to yell at him causing Lilly to wake up.

He looked at my with a shock expression. "Lex you know I didn't mean it in that way" he began to say.

"Honestly I don't even care anymore, just leave me alone" I turned to lay on my side so my back was facing him.

"Lex...please" he puts his hand on my arm trying to turn me back around.

I resist "leave me alone !" I yell one last time. Hopefully he gets the point this time. I don't know what got into me but just the way I took the thing he said made me feel like that's all he's worried about is proving himself right.

I knew he stood there for a moment till he finally walked out.

Lilly got up from her seat and walked over to me "what happened ?" She asked.

"Nothing" I didn't feel like explaining the whole situation to her.

I hear footsteps walking into my room but I didn't even bother turning around to see who it was cause I knew it was either Dean, Sam or one of the nurses.

"Dad, you're back" Lilly says.

Once I hear Lilly say 'Dad' I turned around and see him standing by the door. Normally my body would be filled up with fear if I knew my dad found about this whole situation but at this very moment I felt nothing. It was like my whole body went numb after Tommy died.