Maya P.O.V.

I didn't text Laura right away, but I could feel my phone vibrating away in my pocket. I know we were supposed to meet about twenty minutes ago, but I'm not sure how to face her. In the end, I have to tell her about the kiss. If I want to salvage any of this relationship, I have to be honest with her.

I pull out my phone to check my messages. There are a few from Laura and two from Emily. I stare at the names, instantly drawn to what Emily could be texting me about.

You are worth it. –E

I just need a little more time. –E

My heart sank because Emily was once again putting a hold on coming out.

I quickly wrote back to Laura: I'm coming over. –M

Then I started walking to her house, which is not too far from mine. The walk was mostly me thinking about what I should do, what I wanted to do. Contemplating if I was willing to lose Laura because I have some type of feelings for such an unpredictable girl. I hadn't even thought about how I actually felt towards Emily. I know I'm drawn to her, and I know I get butterflies around her. But I don't know if it's just a slight like or more.

On our 8 month anniversary, Laura took me to this nice restaurant. We ordered expensive food, and we attempted to order wine. For anyone who wants to try that, it doesn't work often. But the waiter gave us wine glasses with water in it, and it was a pleasant evening. As the night came to an end, I gave Laura my gift. It was a necklace with my initials on it, and she handed me a necklace like hers except with her initials on it. In a way, that was us taking the next step. We went from just two girls dating, to something far more serious. Later that night as we both laid in her bed, Laura said those three words. Words I've never said before, because I didn't know what they meant. At that time, I loved her with everything I had. She took me from a dark place and fixed what Emily broke. I don't know if I'm willing to give that up.

Contemplating my feelings for Emily is one thing, but I know I still love Laura.

Laura answers her door after my second knock.

"Hey, babe", she says, giving me a peck on my lips.

Guilt gnawed at me, and my stomach felt like it was in a million little knots. Each one did not want to be unraveled.

When we made it up to her room, I couldn't handle the guilt anymore.

"Emily and I kissed", I say quickly, desperately hoping I didn't just ruin everything.

The look on Laura's face was pure defeat and hurt, but she didn't say anything. She nodded, and I didn't know if she hadn't heard me or didn't care.

"It was an accident", I say, this time a little more desperate for her to understand.

She shakes her head, "How do you accidentally kiss someone?"

"She kissed me", I look down at my feet.

Laura pulls my face to look up at hers, "But I know you kissed her back, and it meant something. It is written all over your face."

I stare into her eyes, and I remember why I fell for her. Laura is by far the most understanding person I've ever met.

"When you moved, you waited for Emily. When we started hanging out, all you talked about was waiting for that phone call. Maya, you loved her, and I'm not sure if you still do. But staying with someone because it's easy isn't the answer. Figure out how you feel about Emily than act on it. It's what you want", Laura says, standing up.

I stand with her in one swift movement, "I don't want this."

Laura starts to head to her bathroom, "You don't want this at the moment, but we both know you want Emily."

One second we are talking, the next Laura is in her bathroom, which was her telling me it was time for me to leave. I don't wait for her to come out, and I don't try to win her back. Even though, I feel like I just lost one of the most important people in my life, I can't help but think about Emily.

Emily P.O.V.

Hanna paces around my room, "Are you going to do it or what?"

"I don't know. Maya is with Laura as we speak", I say, slumping my shoulders.

Jealously still ran throughout my body, and I couldn't control the sick feelings I get every time I picture them together.

"Did she kiss you back", Hanna asks, finally settling onto my bed.

I think, "Yeah, she did."

"That means she still likes you. I know this is a tough decision, but I also know you want to be with Maya. If your mom doesn't accept who you are, that's her loss. But you have a great group of friends and a wonderful girl named Maya who are willing to be your strength. Don't forget that", Hanna says, putting her hand on my shoulder.

I hug her tightly, "I have to come out."

Hanna smiles at me, "But break up with Ben first. It seems ridiculous to keep stringing him along like this."

She is absolutely right, there is no need to continue dating someone I have no feelings for. I send him a quick text, and his response is even quicker. We planned to meet that night for dinner.

"Do you think you could hang around the restaurant", I ask.

Hanna nods, "Scared he will get more upset this time?"

"I think the first time we broke up, he knew we'd get back together. This time, I'm not leaving him any reason to believe we will get back together", I say, laying back on my bed.

Hanna leans onto her side, "Does this mean you love her?"

I hadn't thought about it, because I'm not sure what it means. She's the first person I've ever had actual feelings for.

"How do you know if you love someone", I ask curiously,

She lays onto her back, "I think love has a different meaning for everyone, but if I wake up wishing that person was there, I know it means something. Wanting to know simple answers to questions like 'how was your day', and not just barley listen to their answer but really listen. It's when you want to know every last detail about that person, and it still doesn't feel like enough. But love means different things to each person, the definition varies."

I lay on my back with her, "I love Maya."

Emily has made the decision to come out to her mom, and we will see how that happens next chapter. Laura broke up with Maya, and Maya is hurt. They dated for a good while. Soon, Emily and Maya will be back together, but Emily will break up with Ben first.