In the morning Sergei got up from bed, trying not to wake Lili so she wouldn't notice him going out. Last night felt.. foreign to him. He had dated many girls in the last 9 years, had lots of flings, slept with women he desired. But he never actually cared for any of them. Never once did he let anyone cry on his shoulder, never did he try to comfort a lover. It felt foreign, it felt shameful. He felt his coldness breaking, his emotions starting to function after being suppressed for such a long time. This wasn't good. He had to stop this, and he had to stop this quick. He couldn't let his emotions have a say in his decisions. Emotions meant weakness, emotions meant questioning the morality of his actions -which he did not want to do after taking the lives of many innocent people for SPETSNAZ - emotions meant death in the battlefield. He could not let himself get soft over a girl. And not only because of the need to suppress his emotions, but also because he couldn't let there be a person that he cared about. That would put the loved one in too much danger; and Sergei knew how much it hurt to lose a loved one because of your mistakes. No; he would not let himself care about the Rochefort girl.
He wrote "Went out to interrogate. See you soon." on a piece of paper, then put it on his pillow so she could see it when she woke note was cold, but that's how he meant it to be. "Don't get attached, don't let her get attached." he thought to himself.
He first went to Bryan to ask how to contact Baek. After some talking and persisting, a bit of threatening and a few punches, Bryan spilled out where to find Baek. Sergei noted the location and went back to his room. He opened the door and was greeted with Lili's voice; "See you soon."?. He remained silent.
"What the hell Sergei?! You left me alone when I specifically asked you not to!". She took a breath, contained her anger, her emotions. "But it's okay. I'm going anyways. Thanks for the night." she said, started getting up, shrugging off the hurt and the pain. "I know where Baek is." Sergei said. "Good for you." Lili said, "But I can learn that information on my own. And it won't take me years of Russian spy training to do so.". She smirked. Then she pushed him with her hand and walked out of the room.
Sergei felt uncertain. One part of him said to go after the girl, tell her "I'm sorry." and ask for her forgiveness. One part of him laughed at how soft he was becoming. And one part of him was happy, content; knowing that the girl would be safe since she was away from him. He went to his bed and pulled the covers up to his neck, ready to go to sleep, thinking to himself: "There is no one left that he can hurt. No one that I love..".
He greeted sleep like an old, forgotten friend; and even if it did bring nightmares with itself, he still found peace with its company, just for tonight...