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Snape scoffed as he sat at his desk. "She is his Lily Evans." Severus's face screwed up, 'that girl is no Lily,' he thought. His mind was reeling over the fact that he would have to have a talk with Miss Granger over what Sage had imprudently showed her. The anger began to rise in his stomach. He knew what the headmaster had been alluding to a few days earlier about Granger being Sage's Lily. It made him feel sick, whenever he thought about it, if he hadn't made mistakes his entire life might have been different. Mistakes she had warned him about.
****19 years earlier****
Lily's heart plowed into her throat when the headmaster told her the news.
For once the headmaster knew that he was powerless, knew that he could not help. But he knew that she could help where he could not. She had reached the young man at depths the headmaster never believed possible. Unknown to so many, the two of them were a lot alike. She was the only one who could reach Severus Snape now, after what had happened.
That sweet girl who was both quiet and sarcastic, smart and calculating, was who he, Albus Dumbledore, must trust to save Severus from a most horrid fate filled with hatred, pain, and bitterness. She had broken Severus of his cynicism and distrust, and now she had to break him of his anger and vengefullness.
Her hands covered her mouth as her eyes became glossy with impending tears. Her heart swelled with sorrow for the one that she loved, for the one who loved her, for the young man she wanted to marry. The person who had been by her side for 3 years.
* * *
When she made it up to the astronomy tower, in the biting chill of the night, she found him staring out into the abysmal darkness. His black hair glistening with a hint of navy blue in the moonlight. He did not turn to look at her. His body was motionless, sitting on the ground with his back against the wall. She fell down next to him. She felt his body shudder at her touch on his shoulder.
"I'm so sorry, Severus," she said.
She tried to nestle in next to him, but he was like an extension of the brick wall. His body was cold when it was normally so warm.
She pushed his hair back behind his ears, it had been drapping across his checkbones. He did not respond
"Please talk to me, Sev."
Silence. She stared at his profile in the darkness, his dark eyes fixed on the distance, his skin pale. She brought her hand up to his cheek and her thumb moved gently across his high cheek bones.
Without moving, he said, "They killed him, Lily. In cold blood. They had no evidence, but they didn't care. He was guilty in their eyes, he deserved a death sentence."
Swhe moved her hand down to his chin and beckoned him to look at her. What she saw was not something she had not seen from him in awhile. A mask. Emptiness.
He continued, "He did not even fight. They killed him because they knew no court would declare him guilty. They had no right."
Lily sighed and brushed his hand slowly, "I'm sorry I need to say this, but he was horrible to you. He abused you. He used Unforgiveables on you and Jace-."
"He was my father, Lily." He said abruptly and coldly.
"He was not, Severus." Her hand found his knee.
"I cannot do nothing. Bad or good father, I have an obligation to him, to my family, those aurors will pay. They took his life needlessly." If hate were a liquid it would have run freely out of him.
Lily was frightened by this sudden turn in him. Severus never did anything or felt anything slightly, he pored everything he had into everything he did or felt. It made him very endearing as a boyfriend and very academic as a student, but it also made him a very formidable rival or enemy.
* * *
"Severus, you can't!" She yelled at him, her face as red as her hair.
"You aren't going to tell me what to do," he hissed in return.
She grabbed his arms and put her crying face on his shoulder. "Sev, what will you become? Something no better than what your father was. Please, Severus, let it go. There is nothing you can do."
"Yes there is, there are those who are also angry about my father's murder."
"Death Eaters, Sev, what are you thinking!"
"I am thinking that nothing happened to Alastor Moody and Potter's damn father for killing my father. The ministry did not care about evidence, or anything else, the Mark on my father's dead body was enough to justify his death. They will be sorry for their arrogance."
"Their arrogance! What is wrong with you? What about your arrogance? Do you think you can just go around killing people as it suits you?"
"You don't know what you are talking about, Lily."
"Yes, I do, Severus, you are going to go ruin your life to get revenge on a bunch of aurors who killed a father you hated. In the process you are going to be committing the same wrong that they did. You father made your life hell for a long time, and now you are letting his death condemn you to that same hell for the rest of your life."
Severus did not say anything in return. He just fumed. He walked away from her and stood glaring into the fire in his room.
"Severus, what about us? What about me? I thought you wanted to get married."
Silence.
"Where I have to go, you cannot go with me. I cannot ask that of you. No matter how much I may love you."
"What are you saying? Do you think I would actually just walk away from you, just like that?"
* * *
Severus stood by the tree waiting for Lily. His arms were crossed resoluted as his black robes blew out behind him in the wind. Soon, he saw her walking up the hill towards him. Despite the many fights they had in the last few weeks, she had still remained afixed to his side, determined not to abandon him.
"Why did you want to talk all the way out here, love?" She asked him.
The outsides of Severus's lips curled up slightly. "Because what I have to tell you no one else can hear, and no one else can see what I have to show you."
She shifted nervously, "What is it, Sev?"
"Lily, I cannot be with you anymore. Things that I am going to be a part of, you cannot be. It would be too dangerous for you. I don't want you to get hurt."
"Hurt, Severus? Don't you think that this hurts?" She whispered, tears forming in her eyes. "The thought that I am not enough for you. That revenge is more important to you, the revenge of a father who never cared about you."
He closed his eyes and then looked away from her. "I'm sorry, Lily. I love you, but I cannot ask you to stay with me and I will not."
She grabbed him by the arm, "Severus, you do what you have to do, but I will always be here for you. I will wait for you."
"I have a feeling that you won't want to, for very long." He said blankly.
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"I am not right for you Lily, you deserve better. You deserve someone who can feel things more than I can. You are not going to like me anymore."
"Why Severus? Nothing could make my feelings for you change Severus. We've been together for three years, I know what I deserve and I know who is right for me. You are, Sev, no matter how off your path you get."
"You don't know who I am anymore, Lily, what I am," he said shaking his head. He did not want to see the tears falling from her eyes.
She put a hand out to touch his face, but he backed away. "I'll always know who you really are, Severus."
"No," he said. "You don't and you won't."
He stepped forward and pulled up his left sleeve. She recoiled at what she saw and put a hand up to her mouth.
"Oh, Severus," she whispered, the tears streaming down her face more rapidly.
"I can't feel for you that way anymore," he said forcefully.
She covered the Dark Mark back up with his sleeve and stared into his glazed eyes. She held her hand over his robes, on top of his forearm, and leaned into him. She placed a gentle kiss on his cheek and wrapped her other arm around him.
"But I will always love you Sev, and I will let you go if you need to go. I really wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. You should always remember that."
* * *
Dumbledore shook his head negatively from his place looking out his office window. He wiped a lone tear that had fallen down his face. He had not been able to save him and neither had Lily, but he hope that one day he would be able to save him. He had always had a soft spot for Severus in his heart, and he knew that the young man was good. But he had been mistreated so much that it has given him many inner demons, demons that he fought off most of the time, but they had claimed him this time.
Author's Notes
Hey All, hope that you like this. I think it will give you some clarity on how Dumbledore views this entire thing. I hope it also gave you some insight into why Severus has dual personalities some times. That one side of him tends to peek through his exterior sometimes.
Anyhoo, Sev has a talk with Hermione next. Some more Hermione and Sage. Then Sage and Karkaroff.
Thanks for all of your reviews. You are all very great. Thanks for telling me what you like about the story.
Disclaimer- nothing familiar belongs to me. I belongs to JKR.
Snape scoffed as he sat at his desk. "She is his Lily Evans." Severus's face screwed up, 'that girl is no Lily,' he thought. His mind was reeling over the fact that he would have to have a talk with Miss Granger over what Sage had imprudently showed her. The anger began to rise in his stomach. He knew what the headmaster had been alluding to a few days earlier about Granger being Sage's Lily. It made him feel sick, whenever he thought about it, if he hadn't made mistakes his entire life might have been different. Mistakes she had warned him about.
****19 years earlier****
Lily's heart plowed into her throat when the headmaster told her the news.
For once the headmaster knew that he was powerless, knew that he could not help. But he knew that she could help where he could not. She had reached the young man at depths the headmaster never believed possible. Unknown to so many, the two of them were a lot alike. She was the only one who could reach Severus Snape now, after what had happened.
That sweet girl who was both quiet and sarcastic, smart and calculating, was who he, Albus Dumbledore, must trust to save Severus from a most horrid fate filled with hatred, pain, and bitterness. She had broken Severus of his cynicism and distrust, and now she had to break him of his anger and vengefullness.
Her hands covered her mouth as her eyes became glossy with impending tears. Her heart swelled with sorrow for the one that she loved, for the one who loved her, for the young man she wanted to marry. The person who had been by her side for 3 years.
* * *
When she made it up to the astronomy tower, in the biting chill of the night, she found him staring out into the abysmal darkness. His black hair glistening with a hint of navy blue in the moonlight. He did not turn to look at her. His body was motionless, sitting on the ground with his back against the wall. She fell down next to him. She felt his body shudder at her touch on his shoulder.
"I'm so sorry, Severus," she said.
She tried to nestle in next to him, but he was like an extension of the brick wall. His body was cold when it was normally so warm.
She pushed his hair back behind his ears, it had been drapping across his checkbones. He did not respond
"Please talk to me, Sev."
Silence. She stared at his profile in the darkness, his dark eyes fixed on the distance, his skin pale. She brought her hand up to his cheek and her thumb moved gently across his high cheek bones.
Without moving, he said, "They killed him, Lily. In cold blood. They had no evidence, but they didn't care. He was guilty in their eyes, he deserved a death sentence."
Swhe moved her hand down to his chin and beckoned him to look at her. What she saw was not something she had not seen from him in awhile. A mask. Emptiness.
He continued, "He did not even fight. They killed him because they knew no court would declare him guilty. They had no right."
Lily sighed and brushed his hand slowly, "I'm sorry I need to say this, but he was horrible to you. He abused you. He used Unforgiveables on you and Jace-."
"He was my father, Lily." He said abruptly and coldly.
"He was not, Severus." Her hand found his knee.
"I cannot do nothing. Bad or good father, I have an obligation to him, to my family, those aurors will pay. They took his life needlessly." If hate were a liquid it would have run freely out of him.
Lily was frightened by this sudden turn in him. Severus never did anything or felt anything slightly, he pored everything he had into everything he did or felt. It made him very endearing as a boyfriend and very academic as a student, but it also made him a very formidable rival or enemy.
* * *
"Severus, you can't!" She yelled at him, her face as red as her hair.
"You aren't going to tell me what to do," he hissed in return.
She grabbed his arms and put her crying face on his shoulder. "Sev, what will you become? Something no better than what your father was. Please, Severus, let it go. There is nothing you can do."
"Yes there is, there are those who are also angry about my father's murder."
"Death Eaters, Sev, what are you thinking!"
"I am thinking that nothing happened to Alastor Moody and Potter's damn father for killing my father. The ministry did not care about evidence, or anything else, the Mark on my father's dead body was enough to justify his death. They will be sorry for their arrogance."
"Their arrogance! What is wrong with you? What about your arrogance? Do you think you can just go around killing people as it suits you?"
"You don't know what you are talking about, Lily."
"Yes, I do, Severus, you are going to go ruin your life to get revenge on a bunch of aurors who killed a father you hated. In the process you are going to be committing the same wrong that they did. You father made your life hell for a long time, and now you are letting his death condemn you to that same hell for the rest of your life."
Severus did not say anything in return. He just fumed. He walked away from her and stood glaring into the fire in his room.
"Severus, what about us? What about me? I thought you wanted to get married."
Silence.
"Where I have to go, you cannot go with me. I cannot ask that of you. No matter how much I may love you."
"What are you saying? Do you think I would actually just walk away from you, just like that?"
* * *
Severus stood by the tree waiting for Lily. His arms were crossed resoluted as his black robes blew out behind him in the wind. Soon, he saw her walking up the hill towards him. Despite the many fights they had in the last few weeks, she had still remained afixed to his side, determined not to abandon him.
"Why did you want to talk all the way out here, love?" She asked him.
The outsides of Severus's lips curled up slightly. "Because what I have to tell you no one else can hear, and no one else can see what I have to show you."
She shifted nervously, "What is it, Sev?"
"Lily, I cannot be with you anymore. Things that I am going to be a part of, you cannot be. It would be too dangerous for you. I don't want you to get hurt."
"Hurt, Severus? Don't you think that this hurts?" She whispered, tears forming in her eyes. "The thought that I am not enough for you. That revenge is more important to you, the revenge of a father who never cared about you."
He closed his eyes and then looked away from her. "I'm sorry, Lily. I love you, but I cannot ask you to stay with me and I will not."
She grabbed him by the arm, "Severus, you do what you have to do, but I will always be here for you. I will wait for you."
"I have a feeling that you won't want to, for very long." He said blankly.
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"I am not right for you Lily, you deserve better. You deserve someone who can feel things more than I can. You are not going to like me anymore."
"Why Severus? Nothing could make my feelings for you change Severus. We've been together for three years, I know what I deserve and I know who is right for me. You are, Sev, no matter how off your path you get."
"You don't know who I am anymore, Lily, what I am," he said shaking his head. He did not want to see the tears falling from her eyes.
She put a hand out to touch his face, but he backed away. "I'll always know who you really are, Severus."
"No," he said. "You don't and you won't."
He stepped forward and pulled up his left sleeve. She recoiled at what she saw and put a hand up to her mouth.
"Oh, Severus," she whispered, the tears streaming down her face more rapidly.
"I can't feel for you that way anymore," he said forcefully.
She covered the Dark Mark back up with his sleeve and stared into his glazed eyes. She held her hand over his robes, on top of his forearm, and leaned into him. She placed a gentle kiss on his cheek and wrapped her other arm around him.
"But I will always love you Sev, and I will let you go if you need to go. I really wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. You should always remember that."
* * *
Dumbledore shook his head negatively from his place looking out his office window. He wiped a lone tear that had fallen down his face. He had not been able to save him and neither had Lily, but he hope that one day he would be able to save him. He had always had a soft spot for Severus in his heart, and he knew that the young man was good. But he had been mistreated so much that it has given him many inner demons, demons that he fought off most of the time, but they had claimed him this time.
Author's Notes
Hey All, hope that you like this. I think it will give you some clarity on how Dumbledore views this entire thing. I hope it also gave you some insight into why Severus has dual personalities some times. That one side of him tends to peek through his exterior sometimes.
Anyhoo, Sev has a talk with Hermione next. Some more Hermione and Sage. Then Sage and Karkaroff.
Thanks for all of your reviews. You are all very great. Thanks for telling me what you like about the story.