By Jasmine Starlight
Full Summary: Yaoi/het. Neji/Sasu Sasuke's slightly mordant; Itachi just might be a sociopath. Maybe Gaara is from a broken home. Neji just may be in the closet. Maybe Naruto might be lonely. Maybe Kabuto needs someone to love. Maybe Kakashi might need someone to hold. Maybe Sakura might need real friends. Maybe Temari needs a reality check. Maybe Kankurou needs anger management. Maybe Jiraiya needs Tsunade. Maybe Orochimaru needs them both. Maybe Hinata needs freedom. Maybe Kiba might need acceptance. Maybe Ino needs confidence. Maybe Tenten needs medication. Perhaps Shikamaru needs love. Shino, quite possibly could need companionship. Maybe Tayuya is hiding behind her personality. Maybe Haku fears rejection. Maybe Kimimaro desires friendship. Maybe Lee is crying out for attention. Maybe Obito needs compassion.
Squee!
Pairings:…Neji/Sasu…Kimimaro/Haku…Obito/Kakashi eventual…then Itachi/Kabuto…perhaps I could stick some rape in there somewhere. Tenten/Kankurou…Naruto/Gaara…Orochimaru/Jiraiya/Tsunade… Open to suggestions. Shikamaru/Temari…Kiba/Ukon! Zaku/Kin…Hinata/Shino…Tayuya/Lee. Dosu/Kidoumaru…Zabuza/Haku…then…Zabuza/Kisame! Shisui/Sakon! Ino/Sakura.
CHAPTER ELEVEN
ALL THE SMALL THINGS
"I
am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live
in this mess I've made
And all I'm asking is for You to do
what You can with me
But I can't ask You to give what You
already gave
Cause I've been housing all this doubt and
insecurity and
I've been locked inside that house all the while
you hold the key
And I've been dying to get out and that might
be the death of me
And even though, there's no way in knowing
where to go, promise I'm going because
I've got to get out of
here
I'm stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I've
got to get out of here
And I'm begging You, I'm begging You,
I'm begging
You to be my escape."
---Relient K; Be My Escape
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Shisui paused from his conversation with Sakon to pick up his cell, "Yes?"
"You're choking!"
"I'm not choking!" Shisui insisted as he edged away from the object of his affections, "Where are you?"
Sasuke inched behind the large (spiked) punch bowl, "Stop acting like a woman you Fag." Shisui was then hung up on as Sasuke made his way upstairs.
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Narrowly escaping the many comatose bodies strewn across the floor, Sasuke picked his way toward the bedrooms fortunately picking the one without a Kiba clutching Hinata to his chest.
Noting the lack of posters or clothes in the closet, Sasuke safely assumed that this was guest room, a guest room with a huge balcony.
Boredly he walked through the, ajar, glass doors.
"—I guess irritating him online isn't enough to warrant a conversation in real life—" Neji sighed to empty (or not) air, Sasuke stopped and back tracked.
"—being closeted sucks."
Sasuke frowned and back tracked faster. But doing this made him collide with a shrub, which attracted Neji's attention. The Uchiha, who looked rather indignant trapped in a green shrub, bristled and struggled with the thorny branches.
Neji blinked and assisted the younger boy, pulling him from the clutches of evil vegetation; Sasuke was glad to be free of the plant but would rather be free of Neji.
"How much did you hear?" Neji asked resignedly as Sasuke briskly brushed himself off.
The black haired boy turned to leave but Neji held firm on his already ripped sleeve. "How much did you hear?"
Sasuke turned away, Neji frowned.
"Look at me." Neji turned Sasuke's chin so he could stare into cold black eyes.
"Why won't you let me talk to you?"
"You seemed to be very chatty online, when you didn't have to see me face to face and look into my eyes."
"You're the one who seems to have trouble looking at people when they're speaking to you."
Sasuke scowled violently, but steadfastly refused to look Neji in the eyes.
"You're being a tad unreasonable, aren't you?"
"Unreasonable, how?" Sasuke ground out.
"I am making an effort—to make up for what I did. Maybe talking to you anonymously wasn't the best of ideas but I tried! You on the other hand, just want to stay angry at me for no good reason!"
"No good reason? What's going to come of us "making up"? Aren't you just going to make more excuses? How do I know you won't do it again? No, let me be unreasonably angry and we can both go back to hiding in our respective cliques."
"Cliques? As if, aren't you the one who's always campaigning for individual thought? Now you want to run and hide because this is something you've never had to deal with before?"
"I do not want to run and hide. In fact, I never run and hide."
"Really? What are you doing now?"
"Self-preservation, and how do you know so much about this sort of thing, anyway, huh? Are you saying you've had experience?"
"No."
"Then how do you know what you're doing?"
"I don't, maybe that's the problem. I'm sorry I didn't have a positive homosexual role model in my life, to tell me what to do and how do it. But at least I'm here."
Sasuke frowned, "So? Now that you're here, what are you going do, Hyuuga?"
"I didn't think you'd let me get this far."
"So what? You're just flying blind?"
"Not completely." Neji replied as he began to lean in slowly for what he hoped would be a kiss instead of the expected punch to the face.
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Uchiha Itachi was not having the same luck with men his cousin and younger brother were, in fact, his luck seemed to take a turn for the worst as he'd somehow made a wrong turn and ended up in the dying garden.
He sighed in frustration and ran a hand through his dark bangs, "This is getting ridiculous." He muttered to himself as he leant against a barren stone fountain.
"It shouldn't be this hard to find one person, should it?" Itachi continued muttering to himself, as he slumped behind the cold stone.
"Itachi-kun?" Ino asked quizzically.
Itachi made no move, "Yes, Ino?"
"What're you doing out here?"
"I got slightly lost."
"Slightly? Were you looking for something?" Ino said as she plopped down on the ground beside him, drink in a manicured hand.
"Actually I was looking for someone." Itachi said irritatedly.
"Is that someone that dying rosebush over there?"
"No."
"Then you got really lost."
"What are you doing here?"
"It smells in there."
"Are you sure it's not just your upper lip?"
"Funny."
"One of my better traits, I'm told."
Ino sighed forlornly and at that Itachi raised an eyebrow.
"What's your damage?"
Ino sighed again, before turning to look at Itachi, "You're gay right?"
"What?"
"You're gay." Ino said oddly.
"How do you know that?"
"I just do—okay, so being gay is hard, right?"
"I'm not sure what you're trying to ask me."
"Yeah, it's hard—people will judge you and made up things about you and not be friends with you anymore because you're gay." Ino kept on.
"Ino?"
"And because they were too stupid to realize it they hate you; because you've changed and that's not the person they wanted to be friends with in the first place and people say it's a lifestyle choice. Then you can't get married or have children or adopt because that's not what God wanted and--"
"Ino, what the fuck is wrong with you?"
"Nothing, I'm just saying." Ino said, staring at her painted toes.
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Is love forged in pain? Is it pain?
Does it transcend all? Is love that stabbing pain in your heart?
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RedAsBlood09666: Have you heard from him lately?
Pearleyedgirl87: He hasn't been online for awhile.
RedAsBlood09666: Hasn't been on the chat for awhile.
Pearleyedgirl87: It's troublesome, wasn't the point of this chat so he could have an outlet?
RedAsBlood09666: I don't know what the point of this was, we just happened across each other and then you showed up.
Pearleyedgirl87: Do you think he did it?
RedAsBlood09666: It's a possibility.
Pearleyedgirl87: It's not a possibility, it can't be.
RedAsBlood09666: Why not? We can't help him. We're just names on a computer screen.
Pearleyedgirl87: We can help! We do know each other.
RedAsBlood09666: No, in real life this wouldn't work. In real life we wouldn't care.
Pearleyedgirl87: How do you know? I would care.
RedAsBlood09666: You say that now, but in school we'd just be in our own groups.
Pearleyedgirl87: Fine, here's a show of faith for you.
Pearleyedgirl87 your last message to RedAsBlood09666 was blocked.
Pearleyedgirl87: How could you do that! We're trying to help him.
RedAsBlood09666: He doesn't want our help! This isn't school! This is the internet, we don't even know if he exists.
Pearleyedgirl87: This is the real world! C'mon! You're just SCARED! I don't care about your views or your stupid real world politics, this is someone's life that's in jeopardy here!
RedAsBlood09666: It defeats the purpose of why this thing started.
Pearleyedgirl87: This thing isn't achieving its purpose, I don't care anymore what people think about me, about this, or about anything I do. Tomorrow at school I'll be wearing a neon blue studded belt. Come and find me.
Pearleydgirl87 has signed off
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I've been unusually diligent in keeping this retarded project, diligent is a word from my word-of-the-day toilet paper.
I got that for Christmas from Gaara.
Gaara is actually the reason why a lot of things go smoothly in my life, I never noticed it before though. Is it because I'm really dense? How could I have been so dense not to notice the one thing that should have been the most obvious?
How idiotic can I be?
I mean everyone else saw it, why am I so stupid?
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It hurts, it burns, it stings.
Not just my hurts, burns, and stings, though. Everything else just pulses with pain. I despise it—I despise my weakness for being incapable of stopping it.
An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure.
end
Wow, a lot of people have picked up this fic, and as always I apologize for the wait but I just don't have the drive or the time to do things like a I used to.
I love all my reviewers.
Ninjas will fuck your shit up.
Tidal rabbit- do I win at life?
JakotsuGlomper- I thank you.
Silverdragon87- …:D
Rabidbutterfly- Kiba is a sexy beast.
Chibi-Crysti- Cuz nothing really happened.
Dodo-chan- Yes, I agree. Ninja will fuck your shit up.
Taiy-Chan- I doubt it.
Jamz- But then your ass would have a line where you were sitting on the edge of a chair for three months while I updated.
Nanogirl- I think you may be the inverted me—you are a yuri fangirl where I stick to Yaoi!
Orochimaru's Biznatch- Oro's biznatch, hmmm—that would make you Jiraiya! Hop!