AUTHOR NOTE: IMPORTANT: I want to let you know that after this chapter, the story will be in VANITAS' POINT OF VIEW until the end of the story! I will remind you in the next chapter, so you don't get confused!

ANOTHER SIDE NOTE: THIS IS A VERY SHORT CHAPTER, PLEASE DON'T HATE ME, BUT I'LL UPDATE THE NEXT CHAPTER SOON! :D

Chapter 11

Maybe There's Beauty In Goodbye

* You push me away, another black day. Let's count up the reasons to cry. Look what you've missed, living like this, nobody wins. – The Veronicas – Nobody Wins

Vanitas and I are at a pub, day drinking since we had nothing better to do on a Saturday afternoon. Vanitas has been avoiding his girls recently, but I didn't want to get my hopes up. Maybe, it is just a phase he was going through… We have been having a lot of fun, so I hope our fun doesn't end soon…

"Hey, are you drunk yet?" Vanitas asked.

I took a huge sip of my pineapple and vodka. "Nope. This is only my third one."

"Two shots of Absolute!" Vanitas shouted at the bartender.

"Got it!" The bartender poured vodka in two little shot glasses and handed them to us.

"Really, Vanitas? We are going to get THAT drunk again?" I rolled my eyes and took my shot.

"Not We, YOU!" He downed his shot and laughed.

"I wish I had a high tolerance for alcohol like you." I praised.

"Ha. Nah, it's cute when you get drunk too fast." He teased.

I rolled my eyes and grunted. "Whatever."

"Oh, I forgot to tell you!" Vanitas playfully flicked my nose.

I rubbed my nose and glared at him. "What?"

"I got a job at Meat Town's Diner!" He grinned. "I'm going to be a butcher!"

"Really?! That's great! How did you get the job?"

"Sora knows the owner, so I asked him if the owner needed a butcher and the next thing I know; I'm hired!"

I am truly amazed how everything is falling in place for Vanitas, and I couldn't be more than happy for him. I don't want to curse it, but I think he is slowly becoming a nice and caring person. I love the new Vanitas.

"When's your first day?" I asked.

"Tomorrow."

"Wow, I might stop by to check up on you." I winked.

"I would like that…" He patted my head.

*~*~*My Complicated Crush*~*~*

Vanitas and I decided to head home and just watch scary movies all day. I still want him to relax because of his wound, but it is slowly getting better! I feel bad it's going to be a huge scar, though. Vanitas told me he is happy the scar is going to be big because it will show what a true "badass" he is. Only he would be happy of his "battle wound".

As Van and I are walking on the sidewalk, talking bout his new job, Van stopped in his tracks.

"Van?" I questioned, but my eyes widened when I followed his gaze.

There is Zexion standing right before us! I pulled Vanitas' arm, trying to get him to ignore Zexion, but he pulled his arm away from my grasp.

This is no good; I just wanted to go to Van's car and go home! If Van gets in a fight with him then he'll be back to the old Vanitas…

"Please ignore him. He's not worth it!" I gritted my teeth, but it is no use, there is darkness in Vanitas' eyes.

He's going to fight him, and there's nothing I can do or say to stop him.

"I wish I had my gun, so I can end your pathetic life." Zexion hummed.

"I'll destroy you with my bare fists!" Vanitas screamed out as he charged at Zexion.

I smacked my forehead with my hand while Vanitas started to throw punches at Zexion. Zexion dodged them, but they were close calls every time.

The people around us stopped and stared, and I felt embarrassed. They are whispering amongst themselves making my knees feel very weak. Why couldn't he have chosen to walk away?!

Vanitas finally threw a punch at Zexion's face and Zexion fell head first on the concrete. Everyone gasped and they all examined Zexion's body, I, on the other hand, grabbed Vanitas and pulled him away from everyone. If we don't leave, the police will surely arrest him.

"Come on, Vanitas! I don't want to bail you out of jail!" I kept pulling his arm.

Vanitas nodded and we both ran to his car before anyone had time to call the police. I'm sure Zexion won't mess with Vanitas anymore…

*~*~*My Complicated Crush*~*~*

Vanitas and I are in his room watching a horror movie, but I didn't know what is going on because Vanitas kept talking the whole time!

"He's nothing without a gun! Now I get why he carries it; he can't even defend himself with his fists!" Vanitas mocked Zexion.

"I just wished you would have walked away," I muttered.

"Ah, come on, Cagalli! If I just walked away then I would regret it! I mean, he shot me; he should've seen it coming."

I didn't feel like talking about it anymore, so I just rolled my eyes and watched the movie. Vanitas tried to put his arm around me, but I kept flinching away.

I want him to be back to the "sweet" Vanitas, not the "rude" Vanitas…

"Ha, Eva would've praised me if I punched him in front of her," he said coldly.

That comment set me off. I felt my body burning with rage. "THEN CALL HER AND HANG OUT WITH HER SINCE YOU LOVE HER SO MUCH!" I shouted.

Vanitas' eyes widened. "Geez. I was just kidding…"

"Well, I'm not. It's funny how we've been hanging out a lot and you're still dating her. Have I turned into one of your other girls?"

Vanitas went to touch my face, but I slapped his hand away.

"Don't touch me!" I threatened.

Vanitas blinked a couple of time. "Are you on your period or something?"

I began to laugh hysterically. "It's all a BIG joke, isn't it?! How long are you going to keep leading me on?!"

"I'm not leading you on… I care about you, Cagalli. Just chill." He tried to kiss me, but no surprise; I flinched away.

"If you cared about me then you would be with me instead of those other women!"

Vanitas grew quiet for a second, but then his phone started to ring. I glanced to see who is calling, and it is Eva! PERFECT TIMING! I threw my hands in the air and ran out of the room.

"CAGALLI, WAIT!" Vanitas ran after me, ignoring his phone.

I didn't wait, though. I wanted to run out of the house to get fresh air, and maybe call Kairi to stay at her house for a couple of days. I should have known that he would never change. He never cared about me; he never loved me…

Before I touched the front door knob, Vanitas pushed me against the door and pinned me down; our foreheads are touching.

"Don't leave… I'm sorry," he whispered.

"How long…"

"How long what?" Vanitas asked sternly.

"How long are we going to keep playing these games?" I tried to break free of his grasp, but he isn't budging.

"Cagalli-"

I interrupted him. "No, it's always going to be like this. We are just friends with benefits… Nothing more…"

"That's not true. I just want to take it slow…"

"WE'VE HAVE BEEN TAKING IT SLOW FOR YEARS AND YEARS!" I shouted in his face.

He slowly unpinned me and stared deep into my eyes. "Cagalli… I…"

My eyes widened. I'm waiting for him to say it. Was he seriously going to tell me that he loves me? Vanitas tried to get the words out, but it isn't working.

My eyes began to water… He can't even say it because he doesn't truly love me…

I walked passed him to go in my room to be left alone. He didn't even bother to follow me because we both know deep down that he doesn't love me like I love him.

*~*~*My Complicated Crush*~*~*

I heard the front door close, and I guess he left to be with his girlfriend or whoever. I talked to Kairi and Sora about our little fight, and Kairi told me to come over for a couple of days to cool off while Sora told me that I should just move out and get away from him.

I had a gut feeling to take Sora's advice. Why should I torture myself by seeing him every day when I know he doesn't love me?

Am I supposed to act like this fight never happened? I wasted so many years on him, and it wasn't even getting me anywhere. The only problem is where am I going to go?

As I ponder the thought, my phone began to ring. I looked to see who it is and I didn't hesitate to answer.

"Hey, Zack, what's up?"