The Will to Win

Chapter 11:So Close Yet So Far

Disclaimer: I do not own Cowboy Bebop.

(Last Time)

Faye's P.O.V

"Do you regret it...do you regret this whole thing ever happening?"

"No" I answered strongly. Spike turned to face me as we both stared into each other's eyes, brown staring into emerald. He was so close I could almost feel the heat radiating from his body but could he feel mine's? I miss that warmth I felt when I was securely in his arms not to long ago but did he feel the same way or was he just trying to make me feel better?

"Why?" He asked almost in a whisper.

"Because I would have never gotten the chance to meet you." I answered and it was the truth. If I hadn't met Spike Spiegal, I wouldn't have known this feeling that I feel for him right now. I'm not sure what it might be but all I can say is that...I think I'm falling in love with Mr. Spike Spiegal.

(Now)

Spike leaned down as his lips softly brush over Faye's lips. Feeling the touch of her lips on his made him want more. He wrapped one arm around her waist while his other hand caressed her cheek. Spike pressed his body against Faye's as he captured her lips in another chaste kiss. Faye feeling Spike's body against hers deepened the kiss while also bringing them impossibly closer. As the kiss grew more intense they both fell onto the couch. Faye straddled her legs open so he could lay on top of her. Spike let his hands roamed all over Faye's body as she started to unbutton his shirt, neither separating for air.

Faye felt like she was in heaven as she felt Spike's hand touching her in all the right places. She never felt anything like this before. Sure she flirted and hanged out with other guys but that was just for fun. This was something that felt so much better, so real and she wanted more of it. Ever since she found out that she was falling for Spike she wanted to tell him but didn't know how. Obviously she didn't have to say anything since Spike made the first move but did that mean he felt the same way?

Spike was also in a world of his own. He pulled away from their kiss and laid butterfly kisses from her face down to her neck. He smirked against her skin when he heard a small gasp escape from her lips. Spike lifted Faye's shirt over her head as he once again laid butterfly kisses on her stomach, up to her breast, and back to her lips. Now Spike clearly remember saying that he wasn't in love with Faye but that unknown feeling he had was emerging when Faye told that she didn't regret meeting him. He never felt like this with Julia.

With Julia it was both love and lust at least to Spike it was. They both loved and lusted for each other but he wondered if Julia loved him back. If she felt the same devotion he felt for her. With Faye it was different at first it was just plain lust. Who wouldn't be attracted to Faye Valentine? She was gorgeous and had a knockout body with a flaming attitude. She could light a whole room with her bright emerald eyes but what did he feel for her now?

"What are Spike-person and Faye-Faye doing?" Ed asked as she watched them, from over the couch, an a awkward position. Spike was in the middle of unbuttoning Faye's pants and Faye unbuckling Spike's belt. As soon as they heard her both separated from each other and quickly got dressed.

"Nothing. What were you doing watching Ed?" Faye asked sternly. She was so close to having Spike yet so far because Ed had to ruin everything. Faye would have done this in her room but she totally forgot that Ed was here. Sometimes she wished that she lived by herself again.

"Ed and Ein heard noises so Ed wanted to see what it was." Ed responded innocently, "Ed thought Spike-person was tickling you when he was on top of Faye-Faye. Can Ed play to but with Ed's clothes on?"

Both Spike and Faye blushed at Ed's last comment but Spike was the first to recover from it and looked at Ed with a sly smirk.

"Oh you'll play all right, just not with us." Spike said which earned him a smack to the stomach courtesy of Faye. She watched Ed with irritation itched on her face. Faye didn't know how to explain this to her. If she had to do this then she would have to do it alone.

"Get out Spike." Faye demanded as she looked at Spike. The look on his face clearly read 'are you crazy?'

"And miss this?" Spike replied with an amused smirk, "No, I want to see how you're going to get out of this one."

"That won't be possible. Now I need you to get out so I explain to her these um…. things." She really hope Spike would lay off just this once so she could talked to Ed. She didn't want Spike laughing or criticizing her about everything she said. Guessed Spike finally took the hint as he looked into Faye's eyes, which held a little embarrassment and some other feelings he couldn't decipher.

"Fine but I'm going out for a walk, so don't wait up for me." With that he turned to the door and headed out leaving Faye with a curious Ed.

"Ok Ed, I'm going to explain some things that might help you understand the world better." Faye started as she sat on the couch.

"What's that?" Ed asked while plopping down next to Faye. Her face held nothing but pure curiosity.

"Well, what you saw between me and Spike was um…nature taking its course."

"How is that nature taking its course?" Ed wondered.

"You see Ed, that's what two people, who share the same feelings for each other do. They make love in a intimate sort of way. They show their affections for one another that way but you don't need to worry about that now." Faye said as she looked at Ed.

"Why not?" Faye placed a hand on her shoulder as she responded.

"You're to young right now to understand but your old enough to know what goes on in people's head. What Spike and me did, well almost did was sex. You know what sex is you just don't how its done and it will come to you naturally but don't worry about it until the time comes. You'll know when you are ready and when that happens you'll truly feel alive."

"How does Ed know when Ed is ready?" She asked.

"When you have no doubts in your mind when you are with that person. When you find somebody you love and want to spend the rest of your life with. When that feeling of finally finding the one and only arrives. Its probably best that you wait until you are married but its what you feel at that time to decided whether its right or wrong. There are other exceptions, like you could be some cheap slut looking for a good time but I'm telling you right now that won't happen with you because I know after I'm done telling all this you will wait until the time is right."

"Is Faye-Faye and Spike-person in love?" The question hit Faye like a ton of bricks. She didn't know what Spike and her almost did meant. 'Did he feel the same way? I know I felt the fireworks ignite when we shared that kiss but what did he feel at that time? Or did he think I was something he could get into bed easily with?' Faye thought.

"To tell you the truth, I honestly don't know."

"Then you were a cheap slut looking for a good time huh?" Ed asked innocently. She took no notice at the hard glare Faye was giving her right now.

"No! It's just complicated right now Ed. Spike lost the one person he truly cared about and I don't know. I mean I know I have feelings for Spike. Maybe its love…no I know its love but I just don't know how he feels right now. Especially about me." Faye responded truthfully. She looked down as her eyes found a new interest in the floor.

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Spike walked aimlessly as he lighted a cigarette. He had lots things to think about, one in particular was Faye. He was kind of glad that they stopped before it went any further. He just wished they stopped under different circumstances.

'How could I have let things go so far?' Spike thought, 'One minute I'm looking for revenge and next I'm almost sleeping with a cop but is that how I think of her, as a cop? No, it's much more but I don't want love another, not after Julia. Not after being betrayed and being hurt. I don't want Faye to get hurt either but she will if she stays with me."

Spike continued to walk for a little while longer until he decided to head back. He started to head back to Faye's place. Along the way back he stopped when he felt someone tug his arm. He turned around to see a boy a little younger than him standing behind him wearing a green shirt with a yellow button shirt (which was left unbuttoned) over it and brown pants. His hair was the opposite of Spike's; it was a dark shade of brown and stood upwards.

"This is for you." The kid said as he handed Spike a small envelope with his name printed on the front. Spike took the letter as he looked at the guy.

"Who are you? Who sent you?" Spike asked, feeling a bit of terror as he looked at him then down at the envelope.

"Name's Roco Bonnaro. Some guy told me to give this to you. Well, I got to go. Bye!" With that Roco sprinted down the street.

"No wait! Ugh damn it!" Spike muttered a few other curses and looked at the envelope again. With a scowl on his face, he ripped the side of the envelope and pulled out a piece of folded paper. He unfolded it and read it. Spike eyes widened as he read the letter once more and watched as it fell to the floor. He left the offending letter on the floor along with his cigarette and headed back to Faye's place not noticing a figure watching him from the shadows.

"Soon Spike. Soon." The figure whispered to him self with a sinister smirk on his face. Spike finally made it back to the apartment only to find everyone a sleep in there respective rooms. He made his way to the same couch he and Faye made out on only a few hours ago. His slowly began to shut his eyes as thought of the words on that dreadful letter.

"When angels are forced out of heaven, they become devils, isn't that right, Spike?"

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A/N: Well there you have it. Sorry if Spike and Faye didn't go all the way in their little make out session but I suck at lemons, maybe the fact I never written one helps. Anyways I'm not sure if I'm going to write a lemon because I'm not sure what the hell to write. I even had trouble writing this one. So thanks for reading and don't forget too review.

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