Why do I keep hoping you'll notice me?
In all honesty, it's the last thing I want. You don't realize it, but I've hurt you in the worst possible way. Not only did I lie to you about who I truly was... but I'm living a lie now, allowing you to think I'm dead. If you knew... it would break you.
Then why do I keep hoping you'll notice me?
It hurts me every day we're apart – I can't go a single day without thinking about you. The way your hair frames your face, the way your eyes sparkle when you laugh. I wish I could go back to the way things were... but I can't! You don't realize it, but the reason I left is to keep you safe. There are powerful people out there who would kill me if they knew what I've done, and they would kill you too just for knowing who I am. I can't put you in that kind of danger; I can never go back.
So then why do I keep hoping you'll notice me?
You don't realize that I can track you. There's the GPS in your cell phone... but you also don't know that there's a tracker in that locket you always wear, the one you never take off. I built an app that alerts me if you're nearby; I tell myself it's so I can avoid you, so you'll never be in danger because of me... but in all honesty, it's to give myself an opportunity to catch a glimpse of you. If I had to live my entire life never seeing you again, I don't think I could live.
I follow you, but always at a distance. I can never let myself get too close, because you can never know I'm there. I can never let you see me, because you can't know I'm alive.
So then why on Earth do I keep hoping you'll notice me?
A/N: From clarinetgirl2427's prompt list (a vast source of inspiration for me, for sure!)
Phrase prompt #68: Why do I keep hoping you'll notice me?