/Sawyer POV/

It's not a big leap to say that the past and present days of my life have made me feel like anything but a human being. Sure things are going okay, but it's hard to not be able to call your old friends. You'd think that having the day off would bring some sort of relief, but no. The adoption ads I'm searching through are making me hate to face the reality of the coming months.

Yeah. Sure, I could spend a lot of time searching for the right couple to give the baby to, but you never really can know a person. Once I turn the baby over to them, they could do any number of things...

Oh stop.

I'm just being overdramatic. It's prone to happen.

"I'm going out." I shut my laptop, slide it under the couch, and jolt to my feet.

"Where are you going?" Logan looks startled.

"I don't know yet. Just need to get away from everything and myself. I think I'm gonna go dance. Not done that in a while."

"Perhaps it's not that best idea."

"See you in a while, Logan." I grab my bag from my bed and head out the door, much to my brother shagrin.

I was lucky enough to score a room for aerial dancing. One of perks of being the sister of a mega-popstar, I guess. Spending time in the air is truly a treat, for a few songs, I don't even think about the floor.

-Instrumental to Whitney Houston's "I Have Nothing" begins-

My hands grasp the sheets and I climb. With the mix of height and adrenaline, I begin to twirl.

- "Share my life, take me for what I am. 'Cause I'll never change all my colours for you. Take my love, I'll never ask for too much. Just all that you are and everything that you do."

This is what freedom feels like. Letting, what you can't control, go.

- "I don't really need to look very much further. I don't wanna have to go where you don't follow. I won't hold it back again, this passion inside. Can't run from myself. There's nowhere to hide."

Allowing the sudden drop is possibly the most liberating motion.

- "Don't make me close one more door. I don't wanna hurt anymore. Stay in my arms, if you dare. Or must I imagine you there? Don't walk away from me... I have nothing, nothing, nothing. If I don't have you, you, you, you, you."

The floor meets my the soles of my feet and then it's as if I'm lost into another dimension. Music works through all my joints.

- "You see through right to the heart of me. You break down my walls with the strength of your love. I never knew love like I've known it with you. Will a memory survive, one I can hold on to?"

Love nor money could get me stop right now. I swear, I feel infinite. Feet to floor, hair everywhere, sweat sheening my forehead, and with every movement; my worries seem to disappear.

- "I don't really need to look very much further. I don't wanna have to go where you don't follow. I won't hold it back again, this passion inside. I can't run from myself. There's nowhere to hide. Your love I'll remember forever. Don't make me close one more door. I don't wanna hurt anymore. Stay in my arms, if you dare. Or must I imagine you there? Don't walk away from me. I have nothing, nothing, nothing."

Clapping starts to echo through the empty room. I stumble then turn around to face my critic.

"James, what are you doing here?"

"I just came to watch. I'm not gonna disturb you." He sits on a chair by the table that the radio rests on.

"Yeah, right. You all just didn't want me to be alone. Be honest. You and Logan think I'm gonna do something stupid."

"He does. I don't. You haven't been dancing in a long time and I missed it. But, Logan did seem concerned about the baby. He was wondering if it was safe."

"It's fine. Turn my music back on."

"Got it." He throws his hands up in surrender and I swivel around on one foot. Guilt sizzles through me after snapping at him.

"Would you join me for a dance, Mazzy?"

"Sure." James lifts out of the chair to fiddle with the iPod.

"Pick something good."

"I've got it." He smiles from across the room.

"Shall we dance? I remembered you saying that you liked the video, and watched it 100 times, so I thought we might give it go."

"James, you are just beyond words."

"Well, let's see if my dancing skills are..."

-"When your legs don't work like they used to before, And I can't sweep you off of your feet. Will your mouth still remember the taste of my love? Will your eyes still smile from your cheeks?"

He turns the volume up and walks over to me. More and more losing the giddy little smile and becoming more straight faced.

-"And, darling, I will be loving you 'til we're 70."

I slide my hand down his arm, lift it up, and intertwine our fingers; while placing my other hand on his shoulder. His hand rests on my waist as we take our first step.

- "And, baby, my heart could still fall as hard at 23."

We sway with the beat for a moment before he spins me out and pulls back in.

- "And I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways. Maybe just the touch of a hand..."

James's hand gently cup my face, then his arms wrap around my body and lift me slowly, but lowers me rather swiftly, and turns me around. I step away from him, never letting his hand go.

-"Well, me - I fall in love with you every single day. And I just wanna tell you I am."

I wrap my arm around his neck while he hoists me into the air sideways. With James supporting my weight by holding my ribs and thighs, my arms extend out. He spins us around a few times then returns me to my feet.

-"So, Honey, now. Take me into your loving arms."

Our foreheads touch for a slight second.

-"Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars."

Back again to swaying, then we turn back to back to ease down to the floor.

-"Place your head on my beating heart."

I twist around and touch his chest, he reacts as if a surge went through the veins; puffing his chest.

-"I'm thinking out loud. Maybe we found love right where we are."

Our eyes seemed to lock on each other for a few second.

-"When my hair's all but gone, and my memory fades. And the crowds don't remember my name. When my hands don't play the strings the same way (mmm...). I know you will still love me the same."

He dips me twice quickly, when upright again, I let gravity lay me back with my hands keeping grip down his arms until our hands meet.

-"'Cause, Honey, your soul could never grow old; it's evergreen."

With a gentle tug, he's bringing back towards him and one of my legs wraps around the back of his. On the floor again, I'm spun around and return to him pulling me with my back against him.

-"And, Baby, your smile's forever in my mind and memory."

Once again, his hand traces along my jawline to the tip of chin; making me look at him. When I see the smile on his face, mine was instantaneous. Feeling a little giddy myself now, I sprits off and do my own thing for a moment, but come back with hands on James's chest. Only to dash around and have him twist to find me.

-"I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways."

I'm dipped over his arm and my feet rise into the air to complete a flip.

- "Maybe it's all part of a plan. Well, I'll just keep on making the same mistakes."

Leaning against his chest, he takes me into the air.

- "Hoping that you'll understand..."

Midway through the song, the music stops.

The iPod probably died.

But, still, James held me there.

"I believe we'll never know what Ed Sheeran wanted us to understand." I drop my legs so that I can stand.

But, before I support my weight again, he twirls me around as if the music never stopped. Seeming to not notice at all that it had. He holds me tight as I hide my face in his shoulder.

"Thank you for the dance."

"Yeah." He backs away. "Anytime."

Chapter Song: Shake - Victoria Justice

(Yeah, I know it don't make sense, but just let it slide.)