What it was like when Throttle gave his thoughts to Charlene, the first touch

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Okay, I know this is a bit disorganized. But the thoughts of people are rarely organized. Especially in the case of two alien species. I mean, Throttle is a psychic alien! Why does almost no one touch on this? I know the series doesn't make a big deal out of it, but man they should have. He pushed into the mind of another person, giving memories and thoughts, and you never, ever hear about how that might have affected Charley. Well, this was my idea of what really happened.

The First Touch

He had moved so fast, his tail instantly wrapping around her waist to pull her forward, his antennae glowing as they pressed against her forehead. A light touch, warm, was tingling across her scalp, sending goose-bumps all over her body. But all that was recalled later, much later.

He had slipped into her mind so fast, so quickly, she couldn't even blink. It felt like there was no time in her mind, no way of telling how long he'd been there, (had he always been there?), how had he gotten there?

It was a raw presence, a being, a pressure inside her head. He felt hard, like he was covered in armor, firmly pushing in to open her thoughts to his, sinking deep inside her mind. But there was no pain, no forceful shove, no invasion. No dark intention, no desire to cause pain, not even to read, or see, or hear, or touch what he felt in her mind. Just there, slipping in even more.

He felt hard like marble, and cool to the touch. Calm, too much calm to be natural, a steadiness that she could measure with a hidden thought, like the ticking of a clock or the beat of a heart. He'd had training, formal training, she realized. He was trained to be in the mind of another. He was taught to be calm, be still, to push back all he was to soothe those he was with. But she could still sense it. He was trained to hide it, subsume it, ignore it. Buried deep in his armor, maybe even he couldn't see it anymore, but she could sense it.

A burning, boiling thing, coiling around his heart. Frustration (with others, himself), anger (at his enemies, at his situation, at himself), pain (for his friends, his memories), and so, so much greif (for his friends, his home, his own innocence.) It was not meant for her.

It was not meant for her to touch, to soothe, no matter how she felt it, no matter how she wished to heal it.

Not yet. It would take time, a long time, to earn the privilege of touching that burning ember.

She had been afraid, shaking, her body trembling in his grip. And yet her stance was still solid, her will unbroken, the fire still shining in her eyes. She had been quite willing to take him on, bare-handed if she had to. She was a survivor and a fighter. He had no doubts that she'd be stubborn and refuse to believe him.

So he had used a strong presence, keeping his edges sharp and defined to push through any resistance. Surely a fiery spirit like her would never stand for his touching her mind; she would fight him every inch of the way. He would have to dig, push hard, punch through barriers.

He had never been so wrong before.

She had no barriers, no guards, no blocks. He slipped in like a hot knife through butter, easily flowing into her mind-space. She was like water, a liquid being that was constantly flowing around him. She acknowledged him, wondered about him, was filled with curiosity to know all about him. She had no distrust, no fear, as if she was not even worried he would harm her.

She welcomed him in, accepted his presence with ripples around him, touching with waves of knowing and thought. She flowed at his touch, brushing against him, learning his armor and touch, his presence and scent, learning the sound of his 'voice'.

He instantly stilled in shock at such a mindscape, scrambling to rebuild the structure of thoughts in his mind. He sent out calm, reassurance; and yet the ripples spreading around him seemed to know him more than they should. He had never encountered a mind like hers before, so accepting of all that he was; he found himself trying to resonate with her. But how could he? Nothing was solid to hold on to, everything was moving and still all at once. Her mind was a beautiful chaos that nothing could ever describe. Color and sound in utter darkness and silence; soft and hard together in a way that should have been impossible, yet explained everything about her. Was this her presence?

And then he knew why there was stillness. She was waiting for him to move.

He was cutting himself off from her. He was stopping her somehow. He was blocking her. The armor had to go.

He lowered his guards, partially dissolved his blocks. He could not remove his shields, he was far too private, but that hardly mattered. She flowed around them anyway. She sank into every chink and crack, no force, no invasion, just accepting of everything. No judgment, no condemnation for his touch-no. No, this was not a touch, this was assault. How could she let him in like this? She knew nothing of mind-walking, had only heard about it in stories and movies. She should be frightened, or angry. Yet she didn't curse or scream, yell or try to attack. And he would deserve it, for if any other Martian mind-walker knew what he was doing, they would shame him until the day he died.

No one was allowed to walk in the mind of the defenseless. The ramifications of such a thing were beyond horrible. Alteration of memory and/or personality, mind control-all of it was possible for those without a mental defense.

And she was completely defenseless. What he was doing now would be called rape of the worst sort, an intimacy far greater than sex could ever be, and oh gods, he was tearing into her like some kind of—

He stilled completely now, unable to move no matter what he might wish. She had sensed him, the emotions that had sank within him like green bricks of poison, and now the fluid being was sending a cool touch to his presence. It felt like—like—

Like she was forgiving him.

He loosened his control, the blocks completely gone now. His shields were almost non-existent, to let her have as much access to him as he had to her, at least, as much as he could. Tentatively he extended himself outside of his presence, truly feeling the water-like mind and consciousness around him. And she flowed around him, wrapped questions around his answers, feelings around his thoughts. She was learning, he realized, learning how to talk to him, to feel and understand him, taking what he offered and realizing what he took.

He reached out, touched. She accepted, reached out for him.

Throttle began to 'speak' in her mind; whispers of secrets and prayers in the dark, scents of forgotten perfume from his lover and the burning blood of his friends dying around him, memories flashing through both minds. The sounds of laser-fire, screams, pain and death, love lost and divided, loyalties betrayed. The taste of tears of frustration, grief, defeat, and triumph. The touch of Carbine's hands, the medics bandages, the mad Dr. Karbunkle's scalpels and blades and torture. The sight of so, so much death….

She accepted it all, translating it so she could fully understand.

'A while back, Mars was invaded by the Plutarkians…..'