…all things ceased; I went out from myself,
leaving my cares
forgotten…..
There were several horses in front of them. Regina was really wishing she hadn't told Robin about her reservations. She should have just got on the damn horse, ridden to Rumplestiltskin's castle and blanked out her emotions. But now Mr. Sensitive was all attentive, and trying to help her, make her face it.
Always wanting the best.
Maybe she'd need to find something to shake him up in revenge.
Oh.
She already did with all that "ring" talk.
Ok. Fine. She'd give him this.
He hoisted her up, like a gentleman, and instead of settling her behind him, he put her into the front. In command. In control.
Yet so out of control.
He settled behind her, "I know what you're doing, you know," she told him.
"Of course you do!" He wrapped his arms around her to grab the reins and kissed her on the neck as he started them into a gallop.
"And I know what that was all about!"
She felt his smile, "I know!"
And then they were flying. And …and she saw Daniel. Teaching her everything she knew about horses. How their first kiss was, her friend, and he hers…and then…
Love again….
She hadn't noticed that Robin had been sneaking her hands around the reins.
"Take the reins, Regina."
No. Not that. Anything…anything…
He let go, and she had the reins.
Love again
She wasn't in love, she wouldn't love, she was incapable of love…
She could take control though…
She grabbed the reins then, for they were slipping.
Damn him.
She wasn't sure which man she was cursing. Daniel. Robin. Both.
Both.
Did one need a spell to be both?
We are both….
She needed a drink. She needed to be anywhere but here. She wished she had never met Tinkerbell, never seen her stupid fairy dust, and never, never decided to even come here.
She was ready to be left alone.
Leave me alone.
All alone.
Alone.
Her and the darkness which swept all this away….
She wanted to be there, to drown in it, indulge in it, find it…..
But she couldn't find it.
It was gone, and there was this smug do-gooder pushing her…
She wished she had never met him, too.
But she had.
Suddenly the horse stopped.
She had stopped it.
There was nothing.
He helped her down without a word.
They were at the castle.
There was nothing.
And it was dark.