You wake up to the sound of steady beeps. The sounds of screaming echo off in your head. Your eyelids are heavy but after several attempts, you finally get them open. You look around your surroundings with blurry vision, attempting to make out where you are. You try you raise your arms to rub your eyes but they feel slightly restrained. Your right arm has an IV in it, blood slowly going back into your body. Now you remember. You remember what happened. You remember how it all felt. You remember the screams of your mother being the last thing your heard before you blacked out. You remember why you did all of it. And now you realize that you're still alive. You look at your other hand and see your mom sitting in a chair pulled up to your gurney, head laying down next to your leg, and with her hand over yours, gripping it tightly as she sleeps. You carefully take your hand out her grip, only to put it over hers. You start rubbing circles on the back of her hand as a sad smile spreads across your face while you look at her. She'll be angry at you, but more in a sad, loving way. Your father on the other hand... You aren't sure of how he'll react, but it most likely won't be in a positive way like your mother.

Your thoughts are interrupted by her stirring. Her eyes go wide and she gasps when she lifts her head up and sees that you're awake. She tackles you in a hug and you can't help yourself from a soft smile. She pulls back, gripping your shoulders. "Don't you DARE do that to me ever again, okay?" she sternly lectures you but with a crack in her voice. Her eyes start to water before she breaks in a sob and brings you back into a tight hug.
Your smile fades and all you can manage is slight nodding.

You stay in that position for a while, rubbing her back to try to calm her down her crying. You break your silence.
"How long have I been in here?"

She sniffs and releases you from the embrace. She looks down at her watch. "About an entire day now: from last night to tonight."

Starring at your hands, you take a slow deep breath in and out before looking into her eyes. "Why did you save me?"

Her eyebrows furrowed "Why /wouldn't/ I. I'm you're mother, I gave birth to you and nurtured you as a child. I gave you life into this world and I would never want to just stand by and watch you leave it."

"Then maybe you should of just left the room so you wouldn't have had to watch it." you respond with a straight face.

The sad and disappointed look in her eyes vanish and are replaced instead with anger. "You know what? I give up with you!" she says as she stands and throws her hands up. She paces in front of you while she continues. "Maybe I'll just let Russell deal with this. He's ashamed of the fact that you attempted suicide and feels that you would've tarnished the Fabray name if you had succeeded with it, especially since it is a huge sin. With that being said, we're sending you off to a christian boarding school that is outside of Lima but still in Ohio. We think it will be a good place where you can repent and find acceptance of yourself and to also just get away from whatever life you had been living that had you wanting to die. I'll get you dropped from McKinley so I can sign you up for it. You'll be going once you're out of here and we'll send you your stuff."

You're stunned at what she has said, but you can't let her know any of your emotions right now. Keeping a straight face again, you respond "don't worry about dropping me out, I already did so myself."

She turns to look at you directly, eyes widening when she realizes that you're not joking.

"I'm guessing you never saw my expulsion papers on the counter in the kitchen then? I put it there for you to notice, seeing as Dad most likely won't be home because of 'work'" you say with air quotes empathized on the word 'work'.

"Wha-" she started.

"Oh don't give me excuses. You know what happens when he stays late or even overnight. He fucks the other ladies there. And you don't do anything about it except stand by and keep letting it happen because you know what can happen if you don't act like his dog. But that doesn't mean that you can't stand up and make a change in your life. Maybe he'll back off. If I'm going to be away, you need to do something because I know he'll treat you even worse since it'll only be you two in the house."

"Whats going on right now isn't about me, and it doesn't need to be. This is about you. You're being sent out of Lima because you need it. You need the fresh air and a new start again. This is it. Therefore, once you're out of here later, someone will come pick you up and drive you to the school. No excuses. You're going."

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Chapter End Notes:
so like I know I totally left ya'll hangin for like 2 months but there was a good reason! sort of, not really. qq. did comic con with some out of country friends which was a week, so then there was a week backlash from that. and then it kinda went downhill from there and I jus got out of habit :( that or I would try to write at night again but I would majorly fall alseep. BUT Ima start writing during the day now lolol mostly during class I suppose, although itd be awkward if someone were you look to what I was reading. oh well, their loss of mentality. so! Ive already started writting the next chapter. Ive had this one mostly written out for a long time actually but I didnt really feel it was finished but I suppose this'll be ok for now, so if its all weird thats cuz it is, oops. NEXT CHAPTER SOON I PROMISE and if I dont you can poke me everyday until I do ok.

OH also, I had to change the first sentence of the prologue cuz I totes messed up in the previous chapter with it lol