It seemed as if every hair on my body stood on end and believe it or not it wasn't because Opie wanted to talk. It was more like the feeling of being watched. I could only think of one person who would be doing so. I turned and looked over my shoulder at Jax. For some odd reason it just felt like he was watching me. I spotted him instantly, standing in between Chibs and Tig. They seemed to be enjoying their conversation but I could tell Jax wasn't in it. He was, in fact, staring right at me. His stare was intense like he could almost bore holes into me but his smile was playful, like the situation amused him. I gave him a big smile and his smirk got a little bigger. Yeah he knew he had been caught creeping but I don't think he cared very much. I guess it didn't bother him that I knew, hmm never know I guess. I thought back about this conversation I was about to have with Opie and it surprised me that I already knew what I was going to do. My hours in jail had sobered me up a little in my life I guess. I turned back towards Opie.

"You know I don't exactly have a minute. I need to unwind a bit after being so cooped up. I'm going to go talk to the guys I'll talk to you later.." I turned to walk away from him and he grabbed my arm. I turned and looked at him a bit stunned. What was he doing?

"Luanne, don't do this to me. Don't walk away from me. We've been friends forever." I nodded. I think he kind of picked up that i was mad at him and at this moment I really didn't care. Yeah I know we had been friends forever and I had pretty much been in love with him for just as long. I had bent over backwards for him for most of my life and I couldn't do it any more. So what I was doing now was for me.

"I'm not doing anything to you. I'm going to go have a drink with my friends and pretend I didn't just spent the last two hours inside a police station for stealing a damn dress. On that note, I'm going to get a drink. You're more than welcome to come..." I said, trailing off as I walked towards Jax. Surprisingly, it didn't hurt like I thought it would. I had imagined that walking away from him would cause me to cry but I actually had a smile on my face.I barely heard him call my name, but as always my body was so intuned to him it was ridiculous. I slightly turned and he was standing there smiling at me. His arms were crossed against his chest.

"It was worth it. You look beautiful Faith." I simply smiled and continued walking. Now that one stung just a bit. He never tells me how good I look and then boom! Just when I decide that I'm not going to be his puppet anymore he tells me how beautiful I am. It unnerved me a bit, but I made sure to hold my head high. I wasn't giving him the satisfaction of knowing his compliment hit home. I continued my stride towards the three men standing by the pool table.

I made it over to the three guys and Tig immediately threw his arm around me. He decided that it would be an appropriate time for a noogie, which I didn't agree. I freaking hated noogies! I quickly pulled myself out of his hold and attempted to fix my hair. It didn't go as well as I had hoped.

"Ahh she's one of us now guys! You make me so proud." I flipped Tig off. Asshole, I already knew I was never going to hear the end of it. He leaned into my neck and I pushed him off.

"You know guys maybe we should call Unser."

"And why's that?" Chibs asked with genuine curiousity.

"To get Faith's mugshot. I think it'll make a nice christmas present." Jax spit out his beer and started to laugh. Chibs shook his head and I just stood there with my mouth hanging open. I couldn't believe he just went there.

"Sorry to burst your bubble doll, but the absolute last thing I want for christmas is my mug shot picture." He shook his head with a smile on his face.

"Not for you baby, for me." Okay I was more appalled then I was fifteen seconds ago.I think I was more grossed out then anything. Why would he want my picture? Unless it was too...ew. Ew ew ew! No not gonna happen. I looked up at Jax and my face was all wrinkled up from the grossness withTig. He was just standing there with a smile on his face, looking like he didn't have a care in the world. He lifted his bottle up I'm guessing in a cheers gesture towards me and tipped it back. When he was done, I reached across from me and stole Jax's beer out of his hand. His lips twitched but his smile remained. I took a long swig and made sure I kept the smile on my face. I wasn't huge on beer, I'll drink it but I'd rather have whiskey or jager to be honest. I knew that he knew that as well. I drank the rest of his beer in stride and politely handed him the bottle back. He looked down at the empty bottle and shook his head with a smile on his face.

"Be a dear and fetch me another drink darlin'." I said with a smile on my face. He actually did, surprisingly the hell out of me. He brought me a shot of whiskey and himself another beer. I wasn't quite sure what a shot of whiskey was going to do for me but hey it works. I slammed it down quick and then proceeded to make my way to the bar. I snatched up the bottle from behind the bar and took a long drink as I made my way back over to the guys. I stopped by Jax and leaned in. That shot went straight to the head. I was already starting to feel good. Just then, I heard the jukebox begin playing. I didnt know the song but the beat made me want to dance. I snatched up Jax's hand. His eyebrow lifted but he didn't hesitate. He set his beer down and followed me by the jukebox. I just started to dance. I'm not sure if it was the music or the alcohol but I was feeling good.

After the song ended, Jax pulled me into him. We were inches from each other's faces. My breath hitched in my throat and I knew he was going to kiss me. I wasn't quite sure if I wanted it or not though. Part of me was screaming KISS ME DAMMIT! The other part of me was screaming GET AWAY FROM ME NOW BECAUSE YOU'RE RUINING EVERYTHING! I started to step back but I couldn't move. This time I knew it wasn't the whiskey, this was 100% me and I was scared shitless. I managed to meet his eyes and he gave me a warm smile and just like that I knew everything was going to be okay. I closed my eyes, ready to let it happen when a light suddenly lit up the clubhouse and I slowly stepped away from Jax. Thankfully I did because in walked Gemma and Tara. Jax looked over his shoulder then back at me and gave me a wink. Seeing Tara reminded me of our earlier conversation.

"Jax, we still need to talk about you..." Tara and Gemma walked up. Gemma pulled me into a hug then pulled me away from her to get a look at my choice of wardrobe. She laughed slightly and shook her head. Meanwhile, Tara snuggled up into Jax's side. I quickly looked away. For some odd reason I felt like I was intruding on their private moment. I motioned towards the bar and Gemma got the hint and followed me over there.

"So do I even ask?" She asked motioning the dress. I shrugged and picked up my bottle of Jack and took a hearty swig.

"I accidentally stole a dress and went to jail because of it." She took the bottle from me and took a swig herself. She set the bottle back in front of me.

"Yeah that deserves a drink." I nodded and took another swig. I stole a glance at Jax and he had his arms wrapped around Tara's lower back and she was gazing up at him with an animated look on her face. My heart hit my stomach. He was going to go with her. It was more apparent now then ever. I was so lost in staring I didn't notice that Gemma was in fact staring at me now.

"Alright spill it. And don't give me no 'I don't know bullshit'. You know something!" My cheeks reddened. I can't believe I was so careless I was caught.

"I think she's gonna take him from us Gem," I said with my voice cracking. She turned her seat around and stared directly at them.

"Shit." Was all she could say. Hell its all I could feel. I looked at them again and took another swig of my bottle. His face was just as lit up as hers was. How could I have even imagined for a second that he was into me? He's clearly crazy about her. I felt the chair on the opposite side of me shift. I turned slightly and seen it was Opie. Great just what I needed. Another reminder of someone who doesn't love me.

"Need a drinking buddy?" He asked motioning the bottle. I looked down at the now three fourths of the way empty bottle of Jack and shrugged. I stood up and looked down at him. Its not often I get to do such since he's a giant and all. I walked towards the clubhouse door and turned around. I caught Jax out of the corner of my eye. He was still engulfed in Tara of course. I resisted the urge to puke. Yeah i know its childish but I'm drinking and right now and i don't care. I looked for Opie and was surprised to findhim looking at me. He got up and followed me without a second thought. It wasn't lost on me that of all the times I cried, begged,and wished he would do this now that I decided I would move on he does it. I took a seat at the picnic table and he sat across from me. Surprisingly, he looked completely at ease as well. I really started to study him, which I knew was a bad idea but I did so anyway. He wasn't looking at me but off in the parking lot. His beanie covered most of his hair and for once his beard was trim and all in one place. I resisted the urge to mess it up but this was not the time.

"I'm sorry Faith. I'm sorry for all of the times I hurt you. I'm sorry for making you cry and I'm sorry for you being so pissed at me it would you up in jail." Damn, that was the last thing I was expecting.

"I can't believe you told Donna that Jax and I were sleeping together." He turned and looked at me.

"Aren't you?" I shook my head and took a swig of my bottle. Opie reached across the table and took it. He took a big swig and my head was starting to feel funny. Opie lifted the bottle and looked at it. Yeah I knew it was almost empty and no I didn't care I had almost finished a bottle of whiskey by myself.

"No we're not. You literally walked in on us cuddling. Thats it. And besides since when did you turn into a chick? Gossiping about shit you don't know about." He smiled so big I seen the white of his smile in the dark. It caused my stomach to flip. No no no you can't do this!

"If you would have seen him you would understand."

"No I wouldn't."

"He had this constant smile about him no matter what we did all day. He smiled so hard his face should have cracked." I rolled my eyes and snatched up my bottle and finished it off. Opie shook his head and laughed.

"I'm gonna go grab another bottle. I'll be right back." He pushed up off of the table and walked back in the clubhouse. I sat at the table drumming my fingers away. The air seemed so quiet, but that could be because it was the middle of the night and all of the noise was happening indoors. I layed my head down on the table. I must have fallen asleep because I woke up to someone shifting the weight of the table. I squinted and spotted none other than Kyle Hobart. I groaned and put my head back down.

"Don't you ever fucking give up? I'm in no mood for your bullshit." He laughed and leaned forward.

"Just wanted you to know, I'm still waiting for you. I deserve to have you and I will."

a/n: so it will always be teller Tuesday to me even though its over:((( what a great ride it was though and it wont ever be the same. So always review and let me know what you think