A/N: I'm sorry it took me forever to get this up, I just couldn't get my muse to cooperate with me. But he's back now so all's good. This is the last chapter, I hope you guys like it. Thanks for everyone who has read and reviewed. You guys are the greatest!
TRUTH BE TOLD
Olivia unlooked her apartment and walked in closely followed by Elliot. He had been released from the hospital into Olivia's care and would be staying with her for a week to recuperate. Olivia took his duffle bag and placed it in the small closet in the entry way.
"Make yourself at home." She said as she made her way into the kitchen.
Elliot went and sat on the overstuffed couch and leaned his head back into the soft cushions. He was still a little surprised that Olivia had agreed for him to come and stay with her, he could of always gone home and have his eldest daughter keep an eye on him. He smiled to himself at the thought of having so much alone time with her. Even after all the years they had known each other they rarely spent time together outside the work place.
Olivia came back into the room carrying two cups of steaming coffee. She handed one to Elliot who accepted with a slight nod of his head. They sat in silence no words needing to be said. That was how it was for them. They could go hours without words and still find comfort from each other. Elliot placed his finished cup onto the coffee table and turned to lie down on the couch his head resting on the arm rests. He reached out his arms for Olivia to come lay with him. She smiled softly and put her cup down next to Elliot's and lightly fell onto his chest his arms immediately wrapping themselves around her body. Her black tank top shifted slightly exposing her toned stomach. She smiled as he gently drew lazy patterns across her now exposed stomach.
"You're tickling me." She murmmed into his neck.
"I just want to touch you. I don't think I'll ever get enough of touching you."
He started placing small kisses down the side of her face until he reached her lips. He brushed his lips softly over hers moving his head back and forward waiting for her to latch onto him. Olivia raised her head and grabbed hold of his lips with her own as they brushed over hers once again. She put her hand behind Elliot's head pulling him in. She opened her mouth wide as she let her guest in without hesitation. Elliot's tongue dulled with her own eliciting a moan of pleasure from Olivia. They pulled away only when air become imperative. Olivia's chest heaved up and down as she tried to steady her breathing. Elliot kept his gaze fixed on Olivia's now desire filled eyes. He still couldn't believe he had his partner lying in his arms lust etched in her beautiful features. He wanted more though, he needed more.
He pushed himself up from his lying position pulling Olivia with him he took her hand as he started toward the bedroom. Olivia wordlessly followed him in haze. She couldn't think straight all her senses were wrapped up in Elliot. She didn't even fully know if she wanted to take things this far so soon but she felt powerless to stop it.
Elliot pushed open her bedroom door and guided her down onto the bed. Olivia's brain was still in a fog as her clothes were slowly being removed from her body. She felt like she was on auto pilot. Her head started to clear of fog and a realization hit her hard. Olivia's heart started pounding. Not from desire but from fear. She was about to do something she had never done before and it was going to be with Elliot. Her partner.
She put her hands on Elliot's now bear chest and stopped him coming in for another kiss.
"Just wait and give me a sec."
Elliot pulled away and noticed the tense look in her beautiful chocolate colored eyes. His own eyes changed to confusion, he was sure she wanted this but the look in her eyes and the reaction now evident in her body told him otherwise.
Olivia could feel the embarrassment stain her checks. She quickly pushed him off of her and grabbed her robe on the nearby chair and her cordless phone. She walked quickly into her bathroom shutting the door and locking it behind her.
Elliot's heart started pounding in his chest. He was sure he had read all the signs right. She had wanted to be with him as much as he wanted her. Elliot started to put his clothes on; he needed to sort this new development out with her. He walked over to the bathroom door and knocked lightly.
"Liv?"
"Yeah, El. I'll be out in a sec, k? I need to make a phone call"
Elliot tried to decipher her tone but was drawing a blank. She sounded fine. Maybe she really did just need to make a phone call. Elliot shook his head, he doubted that. Do you really stop what they were about to start to go make a phone call?
Olivia quickly dialed the number she had grown to know by heart. It was the number that delivered her sanity when she could not see through her madness.
The phone rang and on the third ring her liberator picked up.
"Hello. Casey speaking"
"Oh thank God. I need help."
"Liv what's going on? You sound like you in an empty room. Is everything ok?"
"I have locked myself in my bathroom. I have… I… I need help"
"Is everything alright? Should I call someone?"
Olivia smiled at the concern weaved through her friends words. She was so glad they were friends again.
"No, it's not like that." Olivia started. " Umm… I'm kinda naked and have locked myself in the bathroom to avoid something"
"Your naked and avoiding something? What are you avoiding?"
"Elliot"
Casey let out a loud laugh. She immediately imagined her friend sitting on the side of her bath tub naked and talking to her on the phone and Elliot just beyond the door.
"Casey! It's not funny. I called you for help"
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry. Ok, how can I help you?"
"Ok here goes. Elliot and I started fooling around on my bed and the next thing I know I have no clothes on and we're about to get to the main act and I just froze. Casey I have never done this before, and I'm scared as Hell. Please tell me what to do" Olivia pleaded with her friend down the phone.
"Never done what? Frozen up during sex? Or never had sex? Cause I know you've done that, I've seen the photo remember?"
Olivia listened to see if there was even the slightest tone of anger in her friend's voice at the mention of The Photo. Deciding that there was none she continued on.
"No. I've never made love." Olivia whispered. She felt tears well up in her eyes at her confession, but it was true. Years of sleeping with men and not one was someone she had loved. Sure she had liked some of them, even really liked, but there never has been love. At least not on her behalf.
"Oh. Hey it's not that bad a situation. Listen, it's the same as having sex, you know? All the physical stuff is the same, it's not like there's a whole new routine you need to know, but you will, you know, feel different. It's Elliot. He loves you. You're heart well just feel like it's going to burst with this amazing sensation of being with him."
"I'm just so scared Case. I've never been in love. What if he hurts me? I don't think my heart could take it."
"Elliot would never intentionally hurt you. Liv, he is so in love with you it's crazy. Go and be with him. Everything will work out. Trust me."
"Thanks Case. I'll speak to you later"
"Any time. Oh… and I'm gonna want details"
Olivia laughed out loud
"No. I mean it. Specific ones"
"Bye Casey."
"Bye Liv"
Olivia stood up and looked at herself in the mirror. She stared long and hard at the face looking back at her. She could do this; she will go out there and be with the man she loved. She needed to be with the man she loved, it was like every path in her life she had chosen lead right to this moment. Her moment of truth.
She opened the bathroom door and was surprised not to see Elliot still in her room. She worried that her escape into the bathroom had sent him home as quickly made her way through her apartment in search of him. As she neared the kitchen she could hear the sound of pots and pans being clanged together. She walked into her kitchen and saw him at the counter surrounded by cut up vegetables.
"Hey, whatcha doing?" She said coming up to stand behind him.
Elliot jumped at the sound of her voice. He had been so deep in thought on how to rectify what he believed to be his misinterpretation of what she wanted from him.
"Just making you dinner. Vegetable lasagna. Sound good?" He asked turning to face her. He took in her appearance. She was still in the robe she had put on as she fled the bedroom, her hair was a little flat from laying with him on the bed, but to him she looked like the most beautiful woman in the world. He wanted so bad to reach out and pull her into him but was confused as to what she really wanted.
Olivia could feel his apprehension. She sighed in annoyance at what she had caused. She never wanted him to feel self-conscious around her. Olivia knew she was the only one of the two who could make it right. She stepped in close to him forcing him back up against the counter top and only stopped when her body was flush up against his.
"I'm not hungry El" She whispered running her hands up his chest and around his neck.
She saw in his eyes for a brief moment a look of confusion though that was quickly replaced by hunger of another kind as she started nibbling on the soft skin under his jaw bone. He gripped her hips and moaned as she kissed and nibbled her way down his neck. His hips thrust into hers letting her know what he wanted. Olivia smiled into his neck feeling the effect she was having on him pressing into her belly.
"Liv. I don't know what's going on. Are you sure you want this? We can wait. I'm happy to wait. Well not happy to, but I will for you" He said huskily into her hair.
Olivia looked up and him and smirked. "You not piking out on me, are you Stabler?"
Elliot looked into her eyes and saw a look of confidence that had not previously been there. "No Benson. Just making sure we're playing the same game"
"Good"
Elliot leaned into capture her lips prying her mouth open with his tongue groaning in satisfaction as her tongue came out to play with his own. She nipped at his lower lip and soothed it with her tongue. Elliot pulled her body in close so she could feel the effect she was having on him. Olivia's body took over as she started to grind her hips into his. She needed more of him. She ran her hand down his chest and over her jean covered crotch giving it a light squeeze. Elliot jumped at the contact of her hand on his pulsating penis. Olivia smiled into the kiss knowing she had the control to make her partner jump at her touches.
"Bedroom. Now" She demanded not taking her mouth away from his. Elliot scooped her up into his arms and carried her all the way there never letting his lips part from hers.
He laid her down gently and stood back up to discard his clothes for the second time within an hour. Once he was naked he slid his body over Olivia's settling between the crook of her legs and coming face to face with her. Olivia's heart pounded in her chest as she felt him rest gently against her centre waiting for acquiescence for entrance. Her breath hitched as he moved his hips against hers as he let the head of his penis slip in gently. He waited for her eyes to meet with his before he went any further; needing that final okay from her. She looked at him and bit her bottom lip nervously. Elliot looked at her in all her nervousness and was about pull out what little of him that was placed within side of her when she stilled him with her hands firmly on his arse.
"Don't leave. Stay there. I'm ok" She whispered. She could feel the tears trying to escape from her eyes. She willed them to stay at bay. Elliot's heart clenched at the sight of her tears moistening her eyes.
"Livia, we don't have to."
She looked into his eyes and felt a rush of love flood her body. She could do this, she wanted to do this. She brought one hand up and stroked his cheek a small smile graced her lips.
"Please don't hurt me El." She begged softly.
Her request startled Elliot. He knew she was not talking about hurting her physically with their love making. She was scared he would wound her heart.
"Liv, I would never hurt you. I don't even exist without you."
She stroked her thumb over his lips smiling at his declaration. That's all she needed to hear. He needed her as much as she needed him, their two souls only existing through the life of the other. This would be the only man she would ever make love to. It didn't matter what men had been in her pass. She could make a future with him right now. She was going to give him something she had never given anyone before. Her future. He would be her destiny maker.
"Make love to me El."
The truth had been told
A/N" I tried to do a full on smut scene, but I just couldn't. I want to so bad though. Another story maybe.
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