Ewiituntmay: Major Warning! This chapter contains a lemon XD!! Dot worry, if you really don't want to read the lemons, they will be marked! This chapter also contains some gender bending, meaning implied Yaoi! Now then, this chapter is for cheyjeevas, and happy-smiling-cookie and all my reviewers so far, Sen Saruwatari, Pied Piper 93, Quiet, and sarhbear. Thank you for your support ^-^ Now that that's done, Enjoy!
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Recap: I stood and went over to my bag near the door, L was coming towards me, I stepped to the side so he could pass me to the door. However he stopped when he was right next to me, he reached up and very, very gently touched the side of my face with his fingertips. I blinked in slight surprise, he seemed slightly strained, though a blush was painted on his face, "It really scared me to see Suki like that…all tied up…I felt too much like it was you…and it scared me." he quickly leaned forward and brushed his lips against mine before walking to the door and out. I stared after him for a second before a blush found its way onto my face. I mock frowned slightly at him, how dare he take advantage of a girl in a fragile emotional state…I finally relented and smiled. He had been scared because seeing Suki like that had made him see me like that? And not simply because we were twins…though that probably had a big part in it.
I gathered my clothes before checking the time on my cell phone again. The whole episode had taken two hours. I now had about an hour to get dressed and head over to the Sand Dusk Hotel and check it out before T.D. got there. I showered quickly, got dressed, putting my outfit for tonight in my bag. When I was sure I had everything I left my room, I would need to wait to fix my disguise until I got to the hotel.
I got down to the lobby and immediately went to the kitchen, grabbing a slice of the cake I'd asked Watari to make for me and two containers of strawberries. I stashed the cake in my bag as well as one of the containers and headed out to the lobby. L turned to look at me, as did everyone else, who seemed worried about my attitude earlier, or lack thereof.
I held the remaining container of strawberries behind my back as I walked over to L, who motioned to the cell phone on the couch, the one Watari had set there for me during our staring contest. I picked it up and opened it, then satisfied I closed it and put it in one of the coat pockets. I looked at L, my expression blank, but not as truly blank as it had been while I was numb, "Ryuzaki…is it alright if I go out?"
He raised an eyebrow, but this time he didn't question it and nodded, "Be careful…"
I nodded once, "Well…I'll have my cell phone if you need to get a hold of me…but just to let you know I probably won't be back until morning anyway." I tilted my head slightly as I thought that statement through. Then nodded my affirmation, L stared for a few seconds then nodded again. I blinked and set the strawberries in front of him, then turned and left without waiting for anyone to say anything.
I walked down the street a little ways, then finally called for a taxi, I got to the hotel at 8:39pm, just enough time for me to complete my disguise and check the room out, and then to just wait for T.D. to show up.
I paid the driver as I got out, then hurried inside, I asked for the key to the room, under Siolfor's name and told the receptionist that I was expecting a man to be coming around nine, she smiled and nodded. I returned the smile and headed into the elevator, no one was with me and there were no cameras so I put on the 'leg extensions' that would make me taller and took the coat off. I put my hair up and in a hat though, so as not to draw attention to myself.
The elevator stopped on the top floor and I stepped out, I took the key out of my pocket and opened the door and stepped into the room, it had been set up exactly as I had ordered it, there was a table set up in the moonlight, near the window, it had a white tablecloth, and two ornate chairs were set at each side across from each other. There were two tall slim wine glasses, a candelabra and dinnerware. There was also a tall slim vase with two roses, one was white the other red.
I looked around the suite, I decided to check out the other rooms, to ensure they were prepared as well. The bathroom, off to the side of the bedroom, was stocked with candles, I hadn't ordered it, but it was a nice touch all the same. There was a vanity, with flowers wreathing around the mirror, as well as some other extravagant things that the hotel had seen fit to provide.
I left the bathroom, and walked into the bedroom. It was luxurious, and I found myself wishing I could indulge this way more often, though as myself not my hacker ego. The four post bed, king size, was covered in yards and yards of black, red and silver satin, with curtains hanging from the post frame, they were also satin and depicted a design in the same colors as the bed sheets and comforter.
I went over to the bed, running my hand along the satin covers, they were very fine, with a very high thread count. Apparently Siolfor had paid enough, or maybe they just recognized the name and seen fit to let me woo my current interest…or something like that.
I sighed and went to the nightstand next to the bed and opened the single drawer, it held only a small sheet of paper advertising something from the hotel, I only glanced at it before pulling out a small bottle of lube from my pocket, I put that as well as the 'toy' I'd found in the drawer, along with a sealed envelope and closed it. It was necessary for them to ensure that T.D. wouldn't find out my gender. I couldn't simply have sex with him after all, because then he'd know I was female, if I did this there was still equal chance that I was either or. Though it may lead him to thinking that I was more male than female, which didn't matter really, as long as he didn't know that I was female.
I turned away from the drawer and went back to the main room, once I looked over everything again, to make sure nothing was out of place I left the room. I went back to the lobby, already mostly dressed, now all I had to do was wait for T.D. to appear. I was waiting near the receptionist's counter, but not in an obvious way, I knew that T.D. wouldn't recognize me in any case.
I glanced at the clock positioned behind the receptionist. Five to nine, I was about to pull out my sketchbook when a man came up to the desk and asked for Siolfor's room. I looked up without moving my head, it was T.D., I recognized him instantly from the pictures I'd seen, there was little difference from the most recent one I'd seen and him standing at the desk now. I looked back down and smirked, he really wasn't that bad looking.
T.D. had chin length deep red tousled hair, somewhat like my own, he was slightly tanned, about maybe five feet five inches tall, he was slim to average weighted and from what I could see from this position, his eyes were a brilliant blue green color. He didn't really look Japanese, though he also didn't really seem to have a specific nationality to him. He didn't even glance at me, he merely got the key from the receptionist and headed to the elevator and up to the top floor, where our suite was located.
I chuckled, very quietly, to myself, then walked casually to the elevator. No one rode up with me so I casually pulled on a pair of thin perfectly fitted black gloves, and pulled up a black mask that covered the lower half of my face. (A/N: Something like Kakashi from Naruto, or Zero/Lelouch from Code Geass.) My outfit was fairly genderless, my pants were a little snug, but not too much, and my shirt was tight enough to cling to my body, without revealing too much chest area. The shirt was sleeveless, though I wore a pair of plain black sleeves to add a nice touch. My hair, which had been hidden from view in the lobby, now hung freely down to my knees, it was thick and temporarily dyed black, it hung in silky strands and was soft to the touch.
I pulled out a small dissolvable pill from one of my many hidden pockets and swallowed it, it was a voice modifier, it changed my voice, so that when I spoke I sounded entirely different, even to my own ears. I pulled out another container, this held a pair of contacts, which I quickly put on (or in if you prefer). By the time the elevator reached the top floor, I had finished and now had only to check my reflection in a floor to ceiling mirror, it was positioned on the wall to my left after stepping out of the elevator.
I checked myself over quickly, my biggest problem had been my height, because I'm only five feet on the dot I had to figure out a way to make myself taller, without shoes, and had to settle for 'extending' my legs, now I appeared to be about six feet tall, I was very slender, I had to wrap my chest to keep myself from looking too female, so that when I turned there was very little definition to my chest. My eyes were a lovely burgundy color, from the contacts, and my hair hung straight down, my carefully parted bangs also made me look more androgynous, and the mask showed my profile beautifully, without giving away my face completely. It also made me appear mysterious.
I smirked at the reflection then went to the door and opened it, T.D. was currently following my earlier path, just moving from the bathroom to the bedroom, after a few seconds in there, without looking at anything too closely, he came back out, not noticing me leaning against the doorjamb. The twilight outside kept it from being too dark in the room, so that the light pouring into the room from the hallway wasn't too noticeable just yet. None of the lights had been turned on, just as I had requested.
(Torrential Downpour's point of view)
I had just checked out the room, it was amazing, the king sized bed was covered in satin black, red and silvery bed covers, and the curtains hanging from the four post frame had also been red, black and silver, depicting designs that were lost in the folds since they were tied to the posts. The bathroom had been just as extravagant, though it didn't interest me as much as the bedroom.
I wondered silently to myself, as I stared out the windows in the main room, near the table, if I'd ever get to use the bedroom…maybe Siolfor is only intending to have dinner with me, but then why not just go to a restaurant? Well duh…this is Siolfor I'm talking about, it's not like they can just go out in public. Even so if that's the case…why not just get one small room or something? Well…I suppose all this just goes to show me that Siolfor might like extravagance! Damn! If that's the case I should have dressed better!
I glanced down, I had decided to be mostly dressy at first, than casual, when I decided that that wasn't what I wanted to put across to Siolfor I settled for in between the two. I now wore a pair of dressy black slacks, held up by a plain black belt with a silver buckle, because Siolfor does mean silver right? I believe so… My shirt was a plain blue dress shirt, over that I wore just a plain jacket, and my shoes were plain black, they could be either dress shoes, or just for wear, which I was happy about. I didn't wear a tie and the top three buttons of my blue shirt were undone. I hadn't brushed my hair because 1) it looked pretty good in that controlled chaos kind of way and 2) it wouldn't have stayed combed if I'd tried. I'd brought my goggles, but decided not to wear them, for two reasons, 1) I didn't want them hampering my vision of Siolfor and 2) I wasn't sure what Siolfor would think of them.
Overall I thought I looked pretty good. I continued musing over the bedroom for a few seconds when a smooth beautiful voice broke the silence, "You approve?"
I whirled around, I hadn't heard or seen anyone when I got here, or afterwards. I felt my breath hitch when my eyes finally rested upon the voice's owner, "Siolfor…" I barely breathed it out. I had already been very nervous about meeting Siolfor and now here they were, right in front of me.
The tall, lean form was leaning casually against the doorjamb. They must have been a few inches taller than me, but I couldn't quite tell yet, since they were still leaning against the door. I let my eyes roam down the figure, true to their word it was very hard to tell which gender Siolfor was.
Long black hair fell in a silky waterfall down Siolfor's back, to the knees, and the bangs framed the beautiful face. It wasn't too round, nor was it too sharp, it was a perfect blend of the two, and from what I could see of the face they were pale. The eyebrows were perfectly shaped and neither too thick or thin, thick dark lashes framed the light burgundy eyes that stared back at me, shining with amusement.
The form was on the border of being lanky and yet far from it, there was a certain gracefulness and elegant air that hung about Siolfor, as well as the obvious air of unclaimed superiority. Siolfor was very superior, everyone knew it, even Siolfor, but the obvious denial, or rather the way they didn't claim to be only added to it. I could already feel myself being turned on.
I knew this was going to be hard if all Siolfor was doing was keeping me company for dinner. I exhaled slowly and carefully, trying to keep myself from being so obviously aroused. I had only been standing there staring for all of half a minute, but it felt like hours, "Yeah…I approve."
I myself was unsure whether I was talking about the room or Siolfor, but I figured that it was probably about the room, because Siolfor was just way too damn hot to say I simply approved! I could see the amusement in Siolfor's eyes heightened as they realized the same thing I had. I felt a blush spread across my face for an unknown reason.
I tried to swallow over the lump in my throat as Siolfor gracefully pushed away from the door and shut it behind them without turning away from me. I was still staring, I knew it, but Siolfor was so hot that I couldn't look away, plus the fact that this was Siolfor, the greatest hacker in all of the world and I was being privileged enough to meet them in person. As far as anyone knew, no one had ever, ever, met Siolfor in person, not even L, the detective.
They motioned the table next to me and pulled out a chair for me to sit down in, and a few things happened in our close proximity, one was that blood rushed immediately to both my already hard to control erection and consequently to my face from the former reason. Two was for me to mumble a thank you as I tried to move forward and sit in the chair, causing me the barest of touches against Siolfor…if you call falling into their arms the barest of touches. This caused the third, and second most wonderful, thing to happen, Siolfor chuckled ever so slightly at my inability to walk, and then helped me sit in my chair, with my arms wrapped tightly around their neck. I took in the smell, it was neither masculine or feminine and I found I liked it quite a bit. The fourth thing to happen was by far the most wonderful thing to happen out of all of them, after I was successfully seated and had just barely managed to pry my own traitorous arms from around Siolfor's neck, Siolfor chuckled again, then I felt the barest of touches against my lips, where Siolfor had gently place their own clothed lips.
I felt my eyes widen to the size of saucers and barely had time to register that I didn't even manage to kiss back before Siolfor had pulled away and was now settling into the seat across from me. I felt a major blush flood my cheeks, both for being angry at myself and for the fact that Siolfor had just kissed me, though the second overruled the first by a landslide.
I was sure, now, that my antics had amused Siolfor, where at first I had thought they may think me mundane and/or horribly klutzy and tire of my antics quickly. Yet Siolfor had only chuckled and even kissed me, I found that Siolfor was just as they were while hacking, unassuming, gentle, kind and most of all very efficient, superior and intimidating, though just as with hacking Siolfor didn't claim or exude any obvious superiority…if anything I could tell they were trying to keep me from being intimidated, but when faced with Siolfor how could you not feel intimidated?
I let out a sigh at the thought and seen one of the finely shaped eyebrows raise slightly at the sound, I quickly waved my hands, "Sorry, I was…just …I can't believe I'm actually here…with you…right now." I sounded lame even to myself, I was sure that Siolfor would take advantage of that and make some sort of excuse to leave, but then Siolfor surprised me, as they always do.
"The feeling is mutual. I am actually meeting you for the first time as well, Torrential." I could sense more than hear the amusement in the voice, but it was there nonetheless, only it wasn't in the trying-to-be-intimidating way of most people, it was in a more joking manner.
I flushed slightly, "Uh…just…call me Matt." I had been surprised by the name, I wasn't used to people calling me that when we were talking face to face. Yet something about the way Siolfor was calling me by a name at all made me happy, and I found I wanted them to be calling me by the closest thing to my real name.
"Matt?" I thought for a split second that Siolfor would laugh at the name, or the fact that I couldn't keep my mouth shut and let them call me my hacker name, but then, "I like it…it's nice. So, that must mean you're originally from America?"
I blinked in surprise, "Uh…yeah. I was born and grew up there until I was about twelve, almost thirteen, then my dad got a job here and he moved me and my mom and sister here. I've been living here since, though they moved back to America about three years ago." I blushed again when I realized that I was rambling. I was sure that Siolfor wouldn't want to hear about my family and my pitiful life…
"I see. Moving here at such a young age explains why you're so fluent. So, you like Japan then?" their head tilted in a curious manner and I found it almost endearing. I also found that my earlier intimidated feeling was slipping away slowly. I felt bad for lying, about my age, my birthday and my past, but Siolfor didn't seem to mind really. I was pretty sure they already knew about me anyway.
"Yeah…yeah. I decided I'd stay here, because I really like it here. It's so different from America…in both good and bad ways." I smiled down at my food and finally took a bite of the mashed potatoes that I had just noticed were in front of me. I sensed more than saw Siolfor smile at the explanation, and glanced up through my lashes as Siolfor simply played with a fork. It was then that I realized there was only one plate of food and it was in front of me…I flushed slightly at the realization, and as though they knew what I was thinking Siolfor lifted one long slender hand and waved my thoughts away nonchalantly.
"Don't worry, I ate already." I blinked in surprise, Oh…they probably already had everything planned out, and ate before coming here so they wouldn't have to take the mask off. … I wonder…what else Siolfor has planned?
The images that accompanied the thought made me blush harder and I found that I couldn't look at Siolfor for a few seconds. When I did I noted the same amused look in the burgundy eyes that I'd seen earlier, then I realized that Siolfor must know what I was thinking because one eyebrow raised again and a light chuckle escaped from them.
"Calm down Matt. All will be revealed in time." I nodded once dumbly and went back to silently eating the potatoes and moved onto the small steak and green beans that came with them. I took a few more bites, then set my fork down to take a drink from the glass that sat before me, that's when I realized that Siolfor also had a glass sitting in front of them, it was half as full as mine was, indicating that they'd been drinking from it as I ate.
I took a drink and quickly went back to eating the remaining food, I was mentally cussing at myself for having not tried to look then cussing at myself for having those thoughts instead of respecting Siolfor's privacy. I finished and looked up at Siolfor mumbling a quite 'thank you'. I smiled slightly when Siolfor tilted their head again, "Would you like dessert?"
I blinked, nodding slightly. Siolfor must have something planned for that because if they didn't wouldn't it just have been set next to the plate for when I was done. I watched as Siolfor reached over and removed a plate and bowl from the trolley that sat next to them. They got up and set the plate on the table, in front of me, "Would you mind sharing?"
I blinked in surprise, finally starting to understand where Siolfor was leading. I nodded, trying not to appear too eager, but when the amused look returned to their eyes I realized that I had failed. I was already blushing when Siolfor sat in my lap…I looked over at them, a small squeak escaping my throat, I was sure Siolfor already suspected that I had an erection, but now I knew they'd feel it. Siolfor only continued using my fork to tear a piece of the cake off and turned to offer it to me.
I stared at Siolfor hard, opening my mouth to take the bite in any case. When the cake actually hit my tongue I moaned slightly, it was the most delicious thing I'd ever tasted…yet. I blinked and looked at Siolfor who once again appeared amused, they nodded their head once in agreement, and slowly pulled the mask down to take the next bite, I only seen part of their face, since it was mostly silhouetted against the now lit candles…I hadn't even noticed when Siolfor had lit them. I thought for a second, trying to pinpoint when they'd done that and had just settled on the thought that they must've done it after I sat down, because I vaguely remember looking past the lit candles while talking to Siolfor earlier.
I was just confirming the thought when I seen Siolfor take another bite and leaned toward me, before I realize what they were doing the soft, warm, full lips were pressed against mine, I didn't waste time this time and began to kiss back eagerly, I figured what the hell, Siolfor must already know that I'm hard…just from being in the same room with them. I let my tongue slide out and traced the lips pressed against mine, I felt Siolfor smirk before allowing me entrance. It was the most glorious moment of my entire life up to that point, Siolfor, I could tell, already tasted very sweet, and it, combined with the delicious cake nearly made me cum.
I moaned into the kiss and pulled away only when I needed to breathe. Siolfor didn't even seem affected, their breathing pattern was normal, whereas I was dragging in ragged half breaths that were doing nothing to regulate to my normal breathing. I couldn't see their face, it was now fully silhouetted against the candle light, but I didn't care, I only wanted those soft warm lips moving against mine again. As though sensing this Siolfor turned fully toward me, so that they were now fully straddling me on the chair, they reached up and gently took my face in their hands, then the lips were pressed to mine again.
I kissed back, very eagerly, my hands moved from my side to Siolfor's slim waist. I wasn't sure if my tight grip was bothering them or not, but when they said nothing and didn't move to take my hands away I figured it must not be bothering them. They pulled away gently and turned back to the cake, once again feeding it to me, then taking a bite for themselves. I watched carefully as Siolfor savored the cake, it was slightly amusing and I never would have guessed Siolfor was a stickler for sweets. On the third bite we shared again.
It continued that way until the cake and the ice cream in the bowl next to it was gone. On the last bite we shared a longer much more hungry kiss than the others as Siolfor continued to straddle me. I could feel the heat radiating through the thin pants they were wearing and vaguely, in the back of my mind, found myself wondering if they really were a guy or a girl. But they didn't seem to have breasts, and at the same time didn't seem to have an erection…Maybe if it's a guy, he's only doing this for me, and therefore isn't really turned on? The thought nearly broke me…I mean not that Siolfor was a guy, or that he might only be doing this for me, but that I wasn't enough to turn him on…
But if it's a girl…then why would they pretend to be a guy, I could see the flat chest though. Maybe that's why? But I shook this thought away as well…perhaps they really are androgynous, having neither breasts nor penis? That would explain a lot, but then…what will-
I was cut off when I realized that Siolfor had both stopped kissing me and was no longer straddling me. I turned to look to my right. Siolfor stood right next to me, "What do you prefer? Male or female?" the question surprised me quite a bit and only added to the confusion as well as the thought that Siolfor was truly androgynous. I shook my head slightly…I hadn't ever really thought about it, but I suppose when I did I had always, always in my dream set Siolfor up as a guy.
"I-I…I don't…I don't know." Siolfor's eyes seemed to darken above the mask that was now firmly back in place, and I knew that they knew I was lying, I wanted Siolfor to be a guy, I wanted him to take me, to fill me and to do as he wished with me, but had it ever been anyone other than Siolfor I would never have let another man so much as think of touching me that way. Siolfor must have realized that, because I realized that a few different emotions must have been crossing my face, telling them exactly what I was thinking.
Siolfor immediately pushed their mouth roughly against mine, and I found that one hand's long, gracefully thin and elegantly glove wrapped fingers were wrapped around my throbbing erection. I gasped into the kiss and moaned. I knew that Siolfor now knew that I wanted them to be a man. Siolfor didn't pull away, nor did the hand, "You want me to be a man don't you Matt?" the question, though the kiss had been rough, was gentle and quiet, patient even. I nodded and let out a small whimper, "You want me to be the only man that does this to you don't you? Is that what you were thinking?"
I nodded again, "Yes…I want you to be the only man that ever does anything like this to me…I want…to feel you inside of me…I want…you." I closed my eyes as I let the words out. I had never wanted to admit such needs right in Siolfor's face. Or really to Siolfor at all, though I suppose he would have had to know sooner or later.
"Don't cry Matt, I understand." I blinked slowly, letting my eyes open and take in Siolfor, I reached up a hand to my face and when I pulled it away my fingers were wet, I hadn't even realized that I was crying. I mentally cussed at myself again for crying, I really didn't have a reason to cry. I mean I was here with Siolfor, the day before my birthday. I reached up about to furiously wipe away the tears when both of Siolfor's hands reached up and stopped mine, I looked up at them in surprise. One hand still held both of my wrists as the other reached up and gently wiped the tears away. Then the mask covered lips covered my own again, in a quick, gentle and reassuring kiss.
I swallowed over the lump in my throat, Siolfor was much too good for me, I would only ruin them. I knew that…and now I regretted even asking to meet them here. I closed my eyes again, I would need every ounce of my willpower and self restraint to tell them to leave…I wasn't good enough for Siolfor and I was sure almost no one ever would be. I opened my eyes again and nearly crumbled, Siolfor's eyes were slightly pained, "Matt?"
It was a question, it was more than just one question…I could sense that. Siolfor, despite what they'd told me, probably did have someone, and now they were here with me because I was too selfish for my own good. I didn't want to ruin Siolfor's relationships with others…but that wasn't what Siolfor was asking me.
"Do…you want…me to leave?" the question finally broke me. I let out a few more tears.
"No…I don't…but-" I was about to tell them everything that had just been going through my mind but Siolfor's index finger against my lips prevented me from saying anything else, and I realized that it was no longer gloved.
"Then that is all you need to say. You needn't worry about anything else. All you need to worry about is me and you and right now. All you need to do is tell me what you want. Okay?" I let out a few more tears, Damn they really do know everything. Even down to what I was thinking.
I nodded and tried to will myself to stop crying, Siolfor quietly helped, pressing unclothed lips back to mine, I immediately snaked my tongue out and found that Siolfor was already waiting. I tasted them again, so sweet and delicious, the taste was very heady and I found myself growing dizzy and lightheaded. I pulled away to suck in a few breaths, "Please…Siolfor…I want you…inside me."
That was that. I had just officially declared that I wanted Siolfor to be male and that I wanted him inside of me. I didn't want to look at Siolfor for fear of what I would see there, but I forced myself to look and what I seen was a calm understanding, no judgment, no pity, no disgust. He nodded once and grabbed my wrist, pulling me towards the dark bedroom, none of lights had been turned on, the only light came from the lit up buildings outside and the candles on the table. Siolfor didn't bother to turn on any lights, as though this had all been planned out, as though this was his domain.
I stopped short of the bed, and pulled Siolfor back to me, just hugging him, I wrapped my arms around his neck and buried my face into his chest, since he was about a good head taller than me. He rested his chin on the top of my head, simply wrapping his arms around me, and holding me. I felt strange and weak, but feeling his arms around me made me feel protected, in a way I haven't felt in a very long time. I felt like no matter what happened Siolfor would be here to protect me.
I nuzzled my face into his chest some more then pulled away, his hand was beneath my chin tilting my head until he could lean down and place kisses on my mouth and along my jaw line, leading down to my neck, I only stood there, holding onto him for dear life. Am I really about to have sex with Siolfor? It's not quite making love…not on his part anyway, I…I love Siolfor…but I'm pretty sure he probably doesn't think of me in the same way…will…he…will he actually take me? Will he use a condom? Or will he leave his seed inside of me? Will he even take me? Who's to say that he doesn't just make me cum by foreplay alone… I understand if he won't actually take me…and I want him too, but he might not be able to give this to me, no matter how much I want it.
As though once again reading my thoughts Siolfor pulled away slightly, so that we were only centimeters apart, "I'm sorry…but I can't leave any traces of my being on or within you. Please understand… I hate to admit it but it is mainly for my safety, but of course there is always a chance that you'll be linked to me and if I am caught and prosecuted, then you'll be suspected as well."
I slumped obviously but I nodded, "Yeah…I…understand." I was glad that he was mainly showing concern for me should he get caught, which seemed nearly impossible…but that didn't change the fact that I wanted him inside me.
"I…wish, that I could give this to you…as I believe that is what you want right now…but I can't and it hurts me slightly, I can only hope you'll settle for my company for now." I nodded again wrapping my arms tighter around his neck, burying my face in his chest again.
"I'm sorry…I didn't mean to hurt you that way…I'm just glad that I can be here…with you…now." I only pulled far enough away so that I could lean up and kiss him, thoroughly. I could feel him smile slightly into the kiss. I pulled away, a blush spreading across my face, Is this what girls feel like? Is that why they want to be held by someone all the time? Because they feel so safe and protected?
~Beginning of Lemon 1~
I let out a breath and frowned, I was sure that I had probably ruined the mood, for Siolfor if not just myself. I was a little too selfish sometimes. I realized that I was clinging to Siolfor when he chuckled gently in my ear, and I realized that he was hovering over me, and that I was now laying on the bed.
I blushed profusely and was about to apologize for clinging to him when I felt his hand wrap around my semi-erection. I moaned at the contact and heard him chuckle again, it surprised me how much more male he seemed now that I had deemed him male, though I suppose anyone else would still consider him androgynous. I gripped the satin comforter on the bed after I let my hands fall from his neck. I could feel my back arching up into him, "Siolfor…"
My body was starting to feel like it was on fire and I could feel myself beginning to sweat more. I was feeling dizzy again, and my full fledged erection was begging for more attention. Within another few seconds I realized that my shirt was being pulled off, until my arms were effectively trapped in the sleeves that were still around my wrist. I gasped slightly and moaned as Siolfor made his way down from my jaw to my neck, then my collarbone, sucking gently there causing me to cry out, after a few more seconds he moved on, going down my chest, tongue leading its way to my navel, I gasped again and arched up harder, wanting more of the glorious sensations Siolfor was giving me, "*Huff*Gods…Siolfor…*huff huff*please! More…*huff*Siolfor…"
I was still struggling to get the shirt off of me when I felt Siolfor tugging my pants down, then my boxers. Then slowly, so torturously slow, he made his way from my belly button to my hard throbbing cock. I could see that I was already dripping with precum, I let out a small whimper as Siolfor fully engulfed my member, I closed my eyes as more intense sensations hit me. It felt so good and I was so close that when Siolfor pulled away I begged him not to, "Please…*huff*don't stop*huff huff*…I…Siolfor…*huff, huff*"
Siolfor didn't seem to be paying attention to my needs as he turned away slightly, I almost panicked and was about to sit up when Siolfor turned back, gently pressing a hand against my stomach, bidding me to lay back. I laid back, my stomach was tingling slightly where his hand rested, ungloved.
I was about to ask what he was doing when I felt one hand trailing from my outer thigh to my inner thigh, my hips bucked slightly begging for him to return to my erection, but he didn't. Instead, one of the fingers from the hand that had been trailing down my thigh was gently pushing into me. I gasped hard and arched slightly, trying to get away from it for a second.
Then his voice was right next to me, his breath caressing my ear as he spoke, my mind didn't process the words, only the soft and patient tone. I began to calm immediately, soon I found that I was pushing back against the finger and tensed slightly as I felt another one enter me. It actually didn't hurt as much as I though it would, it just felt more alien than anything. I gripped the sleeves that still trapped my hands tightly, I was sure that my knuckles were probably white, but I didn't really care. The only thing I cared about now was the pleasure Siolfor was giving me, I pushed back against the fingers arched up farther, trying to rub against Siolfor, sensing my need Siolfor leaned back slightly and wrapped his other ungloved hand around my still weeping shaft.
I cried out slightly, I was sure that I was going to die from the pleasure. I found that I was slightly confused, I wanted to buck up, into Siolfor's hand, but at the same time I wanted to push back against the fingers that were entering me. I felt a third one enter and winced slightly, but it was only momentary especially when it was drowned out by the other feelings.
I wanted him to take me now! I wanted to feel his hot length inside of me, I almost wanted him to take me roughly. I bucked up hard as he gave a particularly hard tug, I cried out again, then suddenly both the fingers and the hand were gone. I whined a little and hoped like hell that all of this hadn't been another dream. But no…I could never dream up Siolfor that sexily. Nor have I ever felt the dreams this intensely-
"Siolfor! Hah-" I felt something bigger than the fingers against my entrance, I squirmed a little, but Siolfor was breathing against my ear again. His tone was just as soothing as the first time, I tried to relax my body, and only succeeded after a few seconds. I was sweating hard and I wanted to cum, I wanted to curl into Siolfor's arms and stay there.
I moaned and whimpered as the intrusion continued. I was thrashing slightly, and managed to free at least one hand from the shirt, and then the other. I reached up and clung to Siolfor hard. I knew he didn't mean to hurt me, that much was obvious from how he waited anytime I made a sound. I whimpered once again and he stopped. I only wanted him to bury himself into me, deeply.
I could still hear him whispering into my ear as I gripped him tightly, "Please…*huff huff* please Siolfor…just*huff huff* just do it…*huff* please."
There was a pause in the whispering, "Are you sure?" I nodded eagerly and closed my eyes tightly just as Siolfor slammed into me. All. The. Way. I cried out hard and whimpered, it hurt a lot. Siolfor waited patiently. I panted as I tried to calm myself, Siolfor was kissing my face gently, kissing away the tears that were blurring my vision even more. I was still clinging to him tightly, though I noticed that when I shifted the tiniest bit it didn't hurt as much.
I knew that Siolfor probably wasn't actually inside me, he had told me himself that he couldn't do it, but still the fact that I was here with Siolfor and he was doing this to me, and for me…it made me extremely happy. I shifted much more this time and found that it didn't hurt at all, in fact in felt good enough to cause me to moan again.
Siolfor pulled away far enough to look into my face, "Are you ready?" I nodded and shifted impatiently. Siolfor chuckled slightly as he pulled the object out of me and then pushed it back in, experimentally. I gasped and cried out, clenching onto the object whatever it was, I was fully imagining that it was Siolfor inside me and therefore I didn't want it to leave me at all. I only cried out for more and Siolfor complied. Then I seen stars as the object touched something inside of me, Siolfor made sure it hit there every time after that.
I was getting closer I knew it, I was almost over the edge. I held tighter to Siolfor, burying my face in his shoulder as he pumped the object inside me. My breathing was hard and ragged, I felt like I couldn't get a decent breath of air, and my body felt like it was on fire, ecstasy deliciously engulfing my body as I got nearer to my climax, "*huff* Siolfor…*huff huff* I'm…*huff* Sio…gonna…cum…Hah…Siolfor!" I cried out and clutched onto Siolfor as an orgasm racked forcefully through my body, my cum was dripping down Siolfor's hand, which I hadn't noticed had been gripped around my now dwindling erection. My stomach was also covered in the cooling white liquid, as well as some of the comforter.
I felt Siolfor pull the object out of me and drop it to the floor. Then he scooted me over on the bed, so that I wasn't laying in the mess I'd made. I lay there, trembling slightly from the force of my orgasm…it was undoubtedly The. Best. Orgasm. In. My. Life!
~End of Lemon 1~
I turned my head to see Siolfor quietly mopping up the mess with a rag that I hadn't noticed earlier. Once that was done, I almost thought that Siolfor would leave, after 'fucking' me…but he didn't. He came to the other side of the bed and laid next to me, his mask was still firmly in place, and his clothes weren't even slightly disheveled, "Happy birthday Matt."
I blinked in surprise, but my mind was too worn out to be coherent and I merely turned into him, wrapping my arms shakily around his waist. He wrapped his arms around me and I slipped into a blissful oblivion, He'll probably be gone when I wake up…
(Sana/Siolfor's point of view)
I looked down at Matt, or better known as T.D. He'd already fallen asleep. I let out a sigh, this had been the hardest thing I'd ever done in my life, in terms of deceiving someone anyway. It had been very hard for me to pretend to be tall, damned leg 'extensions' anyway! and hard to pleasure T.D. and let him think I'm a man, much less to pretend to be a man in itself. It had certainly tested my skills, both for small details and stealth, of a sort.
I had thought of simply leaving once T.D. was asleep, but for the sake of his trust and 'happiness' and for the sake of my own guilty conscience I had decided I would stay until he woke up later. I sighed and watched as the room outside remained dark. The candles had probably gone out by now, I thought about everything that had just happened, and what it meant. Plus the fact that he had lied to me, numerous times, but in the end I suppose it didn't really matter, I mean I was lying to him, in a sense and he did help me an awful lot. I found it was the least I could do to ignore the lies and such.
He knows this is only a one time thing, I know he does…but how will he act around me now? As a hacker. He still needs to be my messenger, I don't want him to feel awkward…not to mention how I'm gonna feel. In any case, I haven't even been remotely aroused…though I suppose…if it'd been
I sighed again, I checked the clock, it was currently 1:32am I looked up at the ceiling in deep thought, I didn't realize it had taken that long…then again I did try to draw it out as long as I could…making sure that this happened on his 'birthday'. Oh well… I shifted slightly and felt Matt's arms tighten around me. I hadn't expected him to tell me his 'real' name, much less for me to call him Matt…it felt kinda strange and I still referred to him, mostly, as T.D. in my mind. Though when I was talking to him I'd called him Matt.
I shifted again, tightening my hold on T.D. as well. He mumbled something in his sleep and I raised an eyebrow. I watched him for a minute, T.D. was actually a really expressive person, now that I think about it. That had been the only way I'd known what he was thinking when he thought it. I smiled at the way he kept flushing, then flushed deeper when I said something that had been spot on.
"Siolfor…please…don't go! I'm sorry!" I blinked in surprise, T.D. shot up, I released him, mostly from surprise and his momentum but calmed myself immediately, just before he turned to look at me.
He flushed deeply, I smirked slightly, though I kept my tone gentle, "Don't worry Matt, I'm not going anywhere." I motioned the spot next to me where he had been laying. He blushed and mumbled an apology, then laid back down and curled into me.
I found that kind of strange, but not really in a bad way, I mean I was used to Suki curling into me…but not a man, and definitely not one that thought I was a man, or someone who was 'shorter' than me. I glanced over at the clock again and wasn't surprised to see that it was only 1:56.
I lifted one hand gently moving the hair from his face, he opened his eyes and glanced up at me, I smiled, though I wasn't sure if he'd see it and leaned down to place a kiss on his forehead. He had closed his eyes reflexively then opened them again.
(Torrential Downpour's point of view)
I sighed contentedly as Siolfor kissed my forehead, this was undoubtedly the best day I'd ever had, ever. I smiled sleepily up at Siolfor, I could sense him smile back, though I couldn't see it, he pushed more strands of hair away from my face, I continued to stare up at him. I wonder if…Siolfor…would take me again?
I had deliberately thought the question, hoping that Siolfor would know without my having to ask for it…but at the same time I knew that I probably shouldn't think that way. I looked down, thinking things through, maybe I should take control…how will Siolfor take that though? I sighed and looked back up, Siolfor was staring at me, I blushed and leaned up to test my boundaries carefully. I kissed Siolfor gently at first, then suddenly an overwhelming hunger for Siolfor took over me and I leaned into him more forcefully, he only chuckled at my sudden hunger.
"Calm down Matt." I blinked and felt the blush on my face deepen. Siolfor relaxed against the pillows, watching me carefully, as though thinking about letting me control the situation…but I wasn't sure, this was Siolfor after all. I leaned up and kissed him again, he didn't push me away or anything, so I carefully reached up and slowly pulled down his mask, just so that I could kiss him more deeply. He tensed slightly at first, then relaxed again, I smiled, happy that he could trust me a little bit anyway. I pulled his mask up just before I pulled away.
~Beginning of Lemon 2~
Siolfor continued to watch me, once again not even slightly affected by the kiss as I was. I was thinking just a bit too deeply for a second too long, because suddenly Siolfor had pinned me on the bed again, he was leaning over me as I blinked up at him in surprise. He kissed me roughly, as though he himself was hungry now.
I shuddered as the thought ran through me, Siolfor pulled away just far enough to look into my eyes, I stared back, "Is this what you want Matt?" I nodded eagerly, I wanted Siolfor, that was all that had to be specific, Siolfor could take me anyway he wanted now, I just wanted it to be him and only him. His eyes seemed to flash, I wasn't sure what it was about that, but I had a feeling that I was going to be crying his name a lot harder this time than last time.
Siolfor stood and pulled me up with him, with an easy grace, as though I was a mere feather. I blinked and trembled slightly at Siolfor's suddenly predatory look. He pulled me to the end of the bed and turned me to face the frame, he grabbed my hands and placed them on the board at the end of the bed, he leaned against me, "Stay here."
I nodded slowly, swallowing over the lump in my throat, I was getting excited, I could feel that, Siolfor was being unpredictable again. I watched as much of him as I could from here, he went around the bed, but the post and curtain hid him from view. I closed my eyes slightly, then they snapped open when I felt Siolfor behind me again.
"Say my name David." I shuddered at the commanding tone, I obeyed quickly, Siolfor whispered into my ear again, "Scream my name…when I enter you." I was about to turn my head and ask him what the hell he was talking about when he pushed into me, almost roughly.
"Siolfor!" I hissed it loudly, my breathing hitched at the pain, he waited for a few seconds, until I had calmed my breathing a bit, I clenched my teeth at the pain. It did feel different than the object from earlier, it felt very warm…almost hot. I bit my lip to keep from whimpering as Siolfor moved in me slightly, he waited for a few more seconds, then pulled out slightly and slammed back into me, I moaned hard and my legs felt weak, my vision went white, I almost felt like I was going to pass out, but I didn't. Gods it feels so…so fucking good! I…want more…I need more!
I cried out as he repeated the movement, slamming into me harder than the last time and any time during the first time, "Please…more Siolfor!" I bit my lip savoring every single moment of it.
"You're a masochist?" Siolfor asked quietly…as though they'd already sensed this. I was…very much so. I nodded eagerly, admitting that pain turned me on, but only when it was inflicted on me, in this manner. I gripped the board harder as Siolfor granted my deeper wishes, the ones I hadn't intended for him to know, because it probably would've disgusted him, and yet he already knew, and he was making me so fucking hot and so fucking hard.
"Yes…" I hissed out, I wanted more, more pain…but only from Siolfor, or myself…during masturbation. I hissed slightly when Siolfor pulled out roughly, and pushed back in even rougher, it was so heady, I felt my legs grow weaker, my legs even buckled, but Siolfor's arms wrapped around me, determined to hold me up until he was finished. My vision went white again and I had more trouble staying awake then the last time, it was just so…unexplainable.
I felt Siolfor, he was so close to me, he was so hot inside me, it was slightly painful but it was so sexy. I shuddered as Siolfor continued fucking me so ruthlessly, I hadn't expected to cum, seeing as Siolfor wasn't really stimulating me, other than with pain, but suddenly I just…came. I nearly crumpled, my vision going out, I didn't even cry out, I just went slack.
I felt so ashamed, I nearly cried when Siolfor pulled out of me, letting me fall to the floor for a second. Then he was helping me up, I couldn't look at Siolfor, both because he now knew that I was a masochist and because I was ashamed that I couldn't make him cum…inside of me or not. Siolfor laid me on the bed gently and laid next to me, he was still fully dressed and wasn't even turned on anymore. I frowned at myself and finally looked up at Siolfor pleadingly.
~End of Lemon 2~
Siolfor stared at me blankly for a second before saying anything, "You really shouldn't like inflicting pain on yourself Matt…it's not good to do that." I blinked in surprise, Siolfor didn't want me to be in pain, meaning that this had once again been just for me. I let my head fall into my hands, I couldn't even sit straight right now.
"But…it felt so fucking good." I fought the urge to cry again in front of Siolfor, he only wrapped himself around me, I pulled away slightly, he let me go, "I…thought that…you wouldn't take me yourself."
Siolfor sighed gently, the sound was almost melancholy, "Yes, but it was so hard to resist with you pleading with me like that. I wasn't going to cum inside you, though I wouldn't altogether mind doing so, I just don't want you to be implicated if anything really does happen to me, in the next ten years."
"How…did you know that I was a masochist?" I stared up at him, he only sighed again and pulled my wrist up for me to see, it was covered in miniscule white scars.
"You cut your wrists and your lower stomach…I figured you were either a masochist, or that you were depressed, and you never seem depressed so I assumed that you had masochistic tendencies." I stared at Siolfor, then curled into him a little, he wrapped his arms around me gently, "You know…I don't really like to see you in pain…it's a bit of a turnoff."
"I can see that." I said, snuggling into him before pulling away to look up at him.
(Sana/Siolfor's point of view)
"So…what's going to happen now?" T.D. closed his eyes, as though he was afraid of seeing my expression. I ran my hand gently through his hair. When I didn't reply immediately he opened his eyes again and stared up into mine.
I shook my head, sighing as I let my hand fall from his head to my stomach, "Now we go back to the real world." I could see him deflate again, and there was pain in his eyes, but I knew this was how it had to be. There wasn't any other choice, I mean we couldn't elope or anything, after all I'm not really a man.
"Oh…okay." I watched him struggle with himself about something, I reached out and tilted his face up toward me, I placed a long gentle kiss against his lips.
A/N: Whoooaa!! I can't believe that I actually wrote that!!! XDD It's nuts! Anyway, I hope you guys liked it. I had to make it long because it just seemed to wrong and cruel to cut it in half!
So Sana doesn't really consider it cheating, because she is being two different people at one time! I'm sorry if you didn't understand about the 'leg extensions' and stuff, I had a difficult time trying to figure out how to make a short chick like her seem taller than she actually is...I'm not sure what exactly leg extensions are, but the voice modifier is something that Sana had made in her Engineering class...just in case you need an explanation!
As for Matt, yes it is the same Matt, the 3rd in line to be L, only in my story, Matt and L have never met! My story probably wouldn't work otherwise. Matt has gone to Wammy's, and knew about L and his sucessors, but ran away, which is why he'd meeting Siolfor...plus he's about sixteen/seventeen in this story okay? I hope you don't dislike me for this.
Well, at least two reviews for this one...pretty, pretty please?! I'll give you a (virtual) cookie of your choice ^-^!!! Until next time, ciao.