Time for a new chapter! I do not own Supernatural.
"Well I'm beat and we can probably go home now," Sam sighed. He needed to take the attention off Castiel. He didn't like how close Meg got. He was wrong when he said Cas never came to him with rough spots. He just hadn't come frequently. Once in a blue moon.
"Why couldn't you guys go home!" Charlie giggled. Chuck was silent.
"She was fucking scary." He said. "I'm so putting her in my book!" Charlie giggled again.
"You guys are plastered." Jo announced. She had come over to clear their glasses. "Charlie you can stay here, but I don't know about the small one."
"I got him Jo," Cas assured her. Cas looped his arm through Chuck's and pulled him up. Balthazar grabbed his other arm.
"I'll bring him home Cas," Balthy smiled. Cas nodded and helped Chuck to Balthazar's jaguar. Damn Balthazar's family was rich. Castiel didn't even notice they were alone. "Cassie did she mean…?" Cas froze.
"Balthazar it was nothing. You know Meg." Cas said.
"Yes I know Meg was totally in love with you, and that she still cares for you. I know Meg would drop hints so we could figure it out. She may be a Demon sometimes, but she's also an Angel. Now Castiel Novak, what do I not know?" Balthazar was close to tears now.
"I would tell you, but we have quite the audience," Cas replied. He turned and walked around the bar. He found Lucifer and Gabriel crouched behind the bin.
"Told you he would find you." Sam said. He was nonchalantly lounged against the wall. "C'mon it's late." Sam led the way to the car and Castiel sent his brothers' icy looks.
Cas slid in the shotgun and Gabe slid in the back. Sam sighed. A long ride home.
The air was icy. Cas was shut down and Gabe would be inconsolable. He knew something happened to Cas, but Sam would never tell him. They pulled into the apartment and they all flung themselves out of the car. It was nearly 12:30 and almost all the lights of the apartments were out. They all sauntered up the stairs, Gabe hanging behind.
"Lisa," They heard Dean say exhaustedly as they reached the door. Cas and Sam exchanged looks and opened the door. The door swung opened to find Lisa's lips crashed against Dean's.
A thousand emotions crashed through Cas. Starting with anger and ending with dismal betrayal. Lisa pulled herself away from Dean and turned toward the newcomers. Cas and Sam were frozen in the doorway. Their mouths open in shock. Gabe stood squished in the center. He was boiling with rage. He had had so much hope for the Winchesters.
"What the fuck," Lisa grumbled.
"Cas," Dean whispered. Cas turned and fled from the apartment. "Cas!" Dean yelled. He moved to follow Cas, but Sam stopped him.
"What the fuck is right," he growled.
"I have to get Cas," Dean yelled, but was stopped again when Sam's fist connected with his jaw. He was sent sprawling into the couch.
"Sam, c'mon" Gabe growled. He grabbed Sam's arm and dragged him out of the apartment. "Cas," He began to yell as they sped through the apartments. Sam was close on his heels. Hopefully they would catch him. They reached the parking lot and stopped. There at the far end on the campus across the street, was a billowing trench coat, running as fast as it could.
"Fuck!" Gabriel yelled. Dean emerged from the apartments panting.
"Cas!" He called. Gabe turned on Dean.
"This is all your fault!" He screamed. "It's all your fault. If he goes back. If he disappears again. I will kill you a hundred times over Winchester. If he goes back. You're dead." Gabe turned away and began to follow Cas's trail. He pulled out his phone and dialed. "Luci. Winchester fucked up." Gabe was soon out of earshot.
"Dean there is a reason no one is close to Cas. There are so many reason I don't know. But there are quite a few that I do. You were supposed to be good for him. You've made him laugh and come out of his shell and now you've completely crushed him." Sam's voice cut through Dean like ice.
"Sam, I-"
"No Dean. You don't get it. The last time Cas was close to anyone sexual or romantically was three years ago. It was right after we began roommates. He was seeing this guy. Really smart and good looking. He was perfect. I'd have dated him if I was gay. Anyway, Cas was total head over heels. One problem this guy turned out to be a murderer, and he attacked Cas and attempted to murder him. Wrap that around your head Dean. You are the first guy he looked at again and look what fucking happened." Sam gave him a look of pure hatred before turning to his car.
Dean stood in front of the apartment for another hour, before Lisa came out.
"Dean what the fuck," she said.
"Lisa you better leave. Now. I'm seeing someone and you shouldn't have kissed me. You just fucked up my life. Leave now and never come back." Dean's voice was cold and hollow.
"You're seeing a guy?" Lisa said skeptically.
"You know I'm bi Lisa. No leave." Dean turned and ran back to the apartment.
Cas ran blindly as long as he could. He stopped after running for what felt like hours. He looked around and found himself just blocks away from Balthazar's apartment. Looks like that's where he needed to go. He made his was down the streets fighting back his emotions. He was Castiel. He didn't need emotions. He didn't want emotions. He would not have emotions. The climb to Balthazar's penthouse apartment was long. The damn elevator was broken.
Stopping at the door, Castiel hesitated. He raised his hand to knock, but stopped when he heard raised voices. Balthazar was yelling as loud as he could at Raphael. Something about him. He knocked quickly, hoping to stop the argument.
The door was flung open to find Balthazar, red faced and pissed.
"Speak of the devil." Raphael growled. Balthazar turned, as Raphael walked up, and punched him squarely in the jaw.
"Get the bloody hell out of my flat!" Balthazar yelled. Raphael grabbed a jacket and fled past Castiel. Balthazar finally looked at Cas. He took in the pink tinted eyes and the windswept hair and muddy trench coat. "Cassie, what happened." He asked softly. That's when Cas lost it, and tears began flooding from his eyes.
"Well I'm beat and we can probably go home now," Sam sighed. He needed to take the attention off Castiel. He didn't like how close Meg got. He was wrong when he said Cas never came to him with rough spots. He just hadn't come frequently. Once in a blue moon.
"Why couldn't you guys go home!" Charlie giggled. Chuck was silent.
"She was fucking scary." He said. "I'm so putting her in my book!" Charlie giggled again.
"You guys are plastered." Jo announced. She had come over to clear their glasses. "Charlie you can stay here, but I don't know about the small one."
"I got him Jo," Cas assured her. Cas looped his arm through Chuck's and pulled him up. Balthazar grabbed his other arm.
"I'll bring him home Cas," Balthy smiled. Cas nodded and helped Chuck to Balthazar's jaguar. Damn Balthazar's family was rich. Castiel didn't even notice they were alone. "Cassie did she mean…?" Cas froze.
"Balthazar it was nothing. You know Meg." Cas said.
"Yes I know Meg was totally in love with you, and that she still cares for you. I know Meg would drop hints so we could figure it out. She may be a Demon sometimes, but she's also an Angel. Now Castiel Novak, what do I not know?" Balthazar was close to tears now.
"I would tell you, but we have quite the audience," Cas replied. He turned and walked around the bar. He found Lucifer and Gabriel crouched behind the bin.
"Told you he would find you." Sam said. He was nonchalantly lounged against the wall. "C'mon it's late." Sam led the way to the car and Castiel sent his brothers' icy looks.
Cas slid in the shotgun and Gabe slid in the back. Sam sighed. A long ride home.
The air was icy. Cas was shut down and Gabe would be inconsolable. He knew something happened to Cas, but Sam would never tell him. They pulled into the apartment and they all flung themselves out of the car. It was nearly 12:30 and almost all the lights of the apartments were out. They all sauntered up the stairs, Gabe hanging behind.
"Lisa," They heard Dean say exhaustedly as they reached the door. Cas and Sam exchanged looks and opened the door. The door swung opened to find Lisa's lips crashed against Dean's.
A thousand emotions crashed through Cas. Starting with anger and ending with dismal betrayal. Lisa pulled herself away from Dean and turned toward the newcomers. Cas and Sam were frozen in the doorway. Their mouths open in shock. Gabe stood squished in the center. He was boiling with rage. He had had so much hope for the Winchesters.
"What the fuck," Lisa grumbled.
"Cas," Dean whispered. Cas turned and fled from the apartment. "Cas!" Dean yelled. He moved to follow Cas, but Sam stopped him.
"What the fuck is right," he growled.
"I have to get Cas," Dean yelled, but was stopped again when Sam's fist connected with his jaw. He was sent sprawling into the couch.
"Sam, c'mon" Gabe growled. He grabbed Sam's arm and dragged him out of the apartment. "Cas," He began to yell as they sped through the apartments. Sam was close on his heels. Hopefully they would catch him. They reached the parking lot and stopped. There at the far end on the campus across the street, was a billowing trench coat, running as fast as it could.
"Fuck!" Gabriel yelled. Dean emerged from the apartments panting.
"Cas!" He called. Gabe turned on Dean.
"This is all your fault!" He screamed. "It's all your fault. If he goes back. If he disappears again. I will kill you a hundred times over Winchester. If he goes back. You're dead." Gabe turned away and began to follow Cas's trail. He pulled out his phone and dialed. "Luci. Winchester fucked up." Gabe was soon out of earshot.
"Dean there is a reason no one is close to Cas. There are so many reason I don't know. But there are quite a few that I do. You were supposed to be good for him. You've made him laugh and come out of his shell and now you've completely crushed him." Sam's voice cut through Dean like ice.
"Sam, I-"
"No Dean. You don't get it. The last time Cas was close to anyone sexual or romantically was three years ago. It was right after we began roommates. He was seeing this guy. Really smart and good looking. He was perfect. I'd have dated him if I was gay. Anyway, Cas was total head over heels. One problem this guy turned out to be a murderer, and he attacked Cas and attempted to murder him. Wrap that around your head Dean. You are the first guy he looked at again and look what fucking happened." Sam gave him a look of pure hatred before turning to his car.
Dean stood in front of the apartment for another hour, before Lisa came out.
"Dean what the fuck," she said.
"Lisa you better leave. Now. I'm seeing someone and you shouldn't have kissed me. You just fucked up my life. Leave now and never come back." Dean's voice was cold and hollow.
"You're seeing a guy?" Lisa said skeptically.
"You know I'm bi Lisa. No leave." Dean turned and ran back to the apartment.
Cas ran blindly as long as he could. He stopped after running for what felt like hours. He looked around and found himself just blocks away from Balthazar's apartment. Looks like that's where he needed to go. He made his was down the streets fighting back his emotions. He was Castiel. He didn't need emotions. He didn't want emotions. He would not have emotions. The climb to Balthazar's penthouse apartment was long. The damn elevator was broken.
Stopping at the door, Castiel hesitated. He raised his hand to knock, but stopped when he heard raised voices. Balthazar was yelling as loud as he could at Raphael. Something about him. He knocked quickly, hoping to stop the argument.
The door was flung open to find Balthazar, red faced and pissed.
"Speak of the devil." Raphael growled. Balthazar turned, as Raphael walked up, and punched him squarely in the jaw.
"Get the bloody hell out of my flat!" Balthazar yelled. Raphael grabbed a jacket and fled past Castiel. Balthazar finally looked at Cas. He took in the pink tinted eyes and the windswept hair and muddy trench coat. "Cassie, what happened." He asked softly. That's when Cas lost it, and tears began flooding from his eyes.
Sorry for the horribleness. I just couldn't help it. I have Moffat syndrome. Please R&R! Thank you for being such awesome readers!