IF ONLY I WERE ABLE

Spoilers up to 2x09. Emma is afraid of failing. As a mother. As the savior. As a daughter. Only now she won't have to learn to do it all on her own. She has her family for that.

A/N: Again with the crappy updates to which I have no excuse, sorry.. I do hope you like all the Emma and David bonding in this chapter as I still see such a crappy relationship between them on the show.. Sorry but give me a hug or something I will stop complaining...

on with the show lovely ones

I don't own ONCE UPON A TIME.

Chapter 11:

Moving day was coming along nice with everyone helping out. Emma had stayed behind with Henry and Snow while David was at the house. Emma had noticed though that her parents seemed to be on their mushy- lovey dovey attitude since they had gotten the house. And for once she was happy to get to see them have some normalcy back in their lives. If they could be called that.

"So, Henry" The boy's head lifted a bit to look at his mother. "I think the upstairs room is ready for you" He slammed his book shot and bolted upstairs. Well not quite ready yet. It was empty but they still had to bring the new furniture they had gathered from all the people in town to get Henry a new room.

"He seems happy" Her mother said calmly as they smirked on his excitment. "So does your father by the way.."

"You don't sound too happy" Emma bit her lip.

"Oh no, I am but.. well we've been talking and he finally accepted that if we are meant to stay here in Storybrooke and make it our home then it shall be" She trailed off...

"Why do I sense a 'but' coming?" Emma sat on the couch facing her mother.

"He wants us to have another child." Snow let her words sink in.

"He... well we talking about that the other day.." Emma sighed. "Well... that's big"

"I told him you wouldn't be happy about it" Snow bit her lip awkwardly. "Wait, what?"

Silence filled the room until Henry came downstairs. "What's wrong?" Snow seemed utterly surprised about Emma opening to David like that.

"Some little bird told me that someone is anxious about changing diapers" Thomas joked as he and David downloaded boxes from his truck.

"That little bird... women have a problem keeping secrets" David rolled his eyes.

"You are royalty, even in town, keeping a secret like that can't be easy and well they are women, being discrete is not one of their strong suits" Thomas put in.

"If we are royalty, How come am I am the one lifting the boxes?" David joked. "Remembering my humble roots?" Thomas winked as he watched Grumpy and Happy carrying some more boxes upstairs.

"Still I think it's nice that you are trying again, it will be nice for my daughter to have a playmate other than 28 year old toddlers and such" Thomas could have smacked Charming's face if they hadn't been interrupted by Emma calling David.

"Hey Emma" He said cleaning the sweat from his forehead. "Everything okay?"

"Snow's jealous" Emma said a bit serious. "She is mad because I gave you permission to have a child... as weird as that sounds but I am quoting her..."

David had to smile at this. "Oh well it was just the beat of the moment kid, you don't let her feel like that"

"Did you just call me kid?" Emma said unamused. David froze. For a moment he forgot who he was talking to. "I'm almost 30"

"I know" David blushed as he hissed at Thomas to be quiet. "Anyway don't worry about Snow, she just doesn't like to lose control on things, specially when it comes to you"

"That's what I'm afraid of." Emma admitted with a small smile on her face. "You might want to come and use some charm on her before she keeps examining me like something is seriously wrong with me"

"Are you hiding?" David joked.

"Shut up, your wife is scary" Emma hung up.

"She sold me out didn't she?" Snow said indignantly when her husband showed up 30 minutes later. Emma glanced at her father.

"She said you might just be a bit...unlike yourself" He chose his words carefully.

After calming Snow down and assuring her that she was just overreacting Charming remembered this one time she had been extremely paranoid. Red had been the victim of her uneasy attitude that time.

"Yes it was right before she found out she was pregnant with you" David told Emma that night while Henry and Snow slept. They had decided to camp at the house rather the apartment, Charming had called it almost like home. Emma hated camping.

Emma really enjoyed this late conversations with her father that had sort of become their thing ever since she had returned from their home. Emma had been hit with a wave of insecurity when she heard this. Was it possible that her mother was expecting a child already.

"You are awfully quiet" Her father pointed out sipping on his bear.

"She might be pregnant for all we know" Emma said more to herself than to him.

"It is possible. Your mother is most of the time a composed woman" He bit his lip watching Emma's eyes fall. "Emma, listen"

"No, it's fine, I'm fine, This had to happen right? I mean things are okay now.. I mean for now, maybe forever so we can all just be okay with whatever might be coming our way"She stood up.

"Where are you going?" David could sense had switched inside Emma somehow this whole thing had just become real. Maybe too real for her to handle. "Good night Emma"

She smiled at him but went quietly. He would later stand by her side. Crouched down to watch her sleep as she held on to her baby blanket. Her safety net much like his sword or Snow's ring. She seemed to be sleeping peacefully but he could see traces of tears on her cheeks.

She had wanted them to be happy. She was being brave but deep down she was still a little girl who was afraid of all the changes around her.

Okay so not everything could go happy from here on. Emma wants them to be happy but she is afraid of letting go of what she has just found.

I realize this is something done before- This story has reached a point into which Snow would be the one comforting Emma and yet I feel like David is equally able to do so.

I hope you liked it and thanks for reading!