CHAPTER 12

I hated how much Scourge can be a pretender, even to his best friend, or am I not a best friend to him at all?

I knew he was only pretending earlier. Why did I kiss him though? It's because I love him of course!

"I was supposed to say yes back then but he was only fooling around. Maybe he wasn't serious back then"

Scourge's POV

I was kissed by her for many times now. How do I feel? I feel nothing but every time I touch my lips, I always felt hers on mine.

It gives me that sparkling feeling that I hate. I don't want to feel this for her, even if we were in a arranged marriage shit.

I don't really mean that I hate her or anything. I just don't know what love is. I don't know. That sparkling feeling I feel when she kisses me, I don't know about that.

I just wanna, know who I am. I don't want to be with her. I don't love her.

Or is that what I really know? I went out to follow her because I wanted to annoy her. I'm not a pretender, I just don't understand what I'm feeling

I just want her to understand. I knew how much my attitude hurts her. I see her in pain every time.
Yeah, my mom told me to pretend but all this years, I felt something incredible.

Something, so heavenly and something unbelievable. I can't explain this feeling. I hate it. I hate how much I don't understand it.

I went to follow her so I can understand this feelings. I see she was shocked to see me there when she turned around.

"What are you doing here, gay best friend?"

She called me gay. How rude. I just pretended to be so I can understand how I feel further. OH, the way she helps me.

The way she says yes, the way she smiles, the way she's beautiful and the way she makes me feel. Hey, am I smiling? Why?

"I'm not gay and I'm following you. What does it look like?''

"Oh, no! Don't follow me, it pains me to see you follow such a foolish girl like me" Sarcastic

I'm sorry for calling you a foolish girl. I just don't think first before I talk.

"Erm, I'm sorry. Please stay?" I tried saying sorry. I tried being sweet.

"Aww, you care? How sweet of you" Sarcastic

"…." I didn't respond because of how much sarcastic she is. But I was really shocked when she kissed me. That's when I started to realize, I was wrong when I accepted and did what mom told me to do when I was young.

FLASHBACK

"Honey, I want you to pretend to be the best friend of Amy"

"WHY?"

"Because you have too and you must"

"Sure, but it'll cost you"

"How much?"

"A million dollar"

"Sure, just do your job"

There is still something that makes me sorry and guilty. The fact that I was only supposed to pretend but my feelings changed. From nothing to something. It's too confusing, I cannot understand.

What am I doing out here? I saw her back being unseen. I don't know why but I had the urge to come to here but decided against it. I went to the club and saw my friend. Shadow .

"Oi"

"*SIGHS* This is so exhausting."

"Why? How?"

"Because I don't know what to do! Amy's been annoying all week! She's been kissing me and I hate it! I also feel this sparkling feeling that I hate. I hate it so much" I yelled exasperatedly

"Dude, I have a favor to ask:"

"What is it?"

"I want you to let her leave, forever." Shadow said smirking

Sure, but I can't. I can't do it. Why?

"Why do I have to? I don't want to." I replied looking sad

"I knew it. The answers to your problems, I know it"

"What is it?" Curiously, I asked

"You love her dude, you love her."

.HER?

Shocked face itched in my face. I do? I do love her?