The entire car ride was silent. Everything was blurred. One moment I'm happy and loved then the next I felt alone and tight. Jace is going to freak out. Wait. WAIT. WHY DID YOU NOT PROCESS THIS. YOU'VE BEEN KISSED BY SOMEONE YOU HAVE FEELINGS FOR. You had one job brain. Make extra cells not important. Get a first real kiss yes. Well I stormed out on him. We park in front of the house. The lightwood house well crap.

"I thought we were going to see Jon." I say quiet.

"I know but he assembled the swat team sooo.." I cringe. "Don't worry you don't have to tell us."

"Weeeeeell" I turn to him. My voice squeaky.

"Okay maybe their going to attack with millions of questions." We both laugh and slowly get out.

"Let me say this out loud so I don't stutter like a animal."

"Shoot."

"Last night Jace was asking about my parents and I was debating if I should tell him because he was drunk as you know so I thought he wouldn't remember but to stay on safe side I didn't say anything. My mind started racing with thoughts of my family." I took a sharp breath. "So I couldn't sleep so I went for a walk which made me think more I needed to speak to someone. I went to my father. I told him stuff and I guess he got in my head which made me angry he was talking about how I needed him and deep down I do I miss he turned me into the person I am today." I say looking down at the ground my eyes watery. Before I knew it I felt arms wrap around me it was Jon. The door was open the entire time so I didn't need to repeat myself. My eyes wide I turn around and Jon let's his hands go.

"Clary you should have talked to me." He said quietly.

"I'm sorry." I say even quieter.

"Your not going to school tomorrow." Jace said behind him. He walked up to me and threw his hands around me. "Don't ever do that again." He holds me tighter. My arms wrap around him too. I like him. My father would be disappointed.

"I like you too." I say almost inaudible. He kisses my hair.

"Can I kiss you?" He said. No. No. No. Stop. You can-how are my lips on his. I'm so confused.

"I'm sorry." I say when we break apart. He laughs.

"At least you are finally in my arms. Not just as friends. Hopefully."

"Well my mood swings are off the charts." I say cringing.

"I promise never to press a topic for you."

"Thank you."

"I love you clary but I'm tired Izzy and Alec and Magnus all fell asleep and unlike you I'm going to school." Jon said. "Hey I'm going to school."

"Like hell you are!" Jace shout.

"Fine."

"Let's go inside." Simon said while heading inside. I smile. You have family that is not looked up in a cellar. Be happy clary. I followed and went into a guest bedroom. I borrowed Jace's shirt and so did Jon. I was shifting in bed. I couldn't sleep. I just sat in bed. I got up and walked towards Jace's room. I knocked and entered. Jace was up on his phone.

"I never said I was going to school." he said smiling.

"Can we talk?" I said looking at the ground. He smiled and patted his bed. I sat down.

"What about?" He said staring.

"My past." He threw his phone across the room. (A little dramatic in my opinion.)

"I'm all ears but only if your ready." I nod.

"When I was born I went into a loving family. We were pretty wealthy. When I was 7 my mother was diagnosed with cancer. My father stayed clam. My parents were loving. When I turned 9 everything was starting to go downhill she started kemo my father became a alcoholic and started teaching me lessons just because I looked like my mom he thought I was a second chance. He taught me how to be violent and self critical. A day after my 10th birthday my mom passed. My father was in a terrible mind. Jon knew him better. I had faith in my father. I let him punish me he said that it would make me better. He would hurt me physically and emotionally." A tear fell down. "Once my father hurt me really bad when I was 14." I pulled up the shirt to reveal a long scar on my thigh. "I still went to school but it was hot so the makeup went off and revealed the marking and my brother stepped in a told the police it was my father. He was arrested. We stayed with our grandparents until we worked up enough money to live fresh. I went to one school I told this person my secret and everyone bullied me so I moved to a new school. The one I am now." Jace was quiet then pulled me into a tight embrace and then kissed me.

"Sleep with me I want to sleep knowing your safe." I smiled and rested my head on him and then moved so I cuddled up against him.

"Thank you."

"Remember how you were drunk and me and Simon had to take care of y'all."

"Yup."

"Magnus still so drunk could barely speak said he wouldn't go to bed knowing that Alec wasn't with him."

"Yes."

"I said I want a love like that I think I found my version."

"I love you."

"I love you too Jace."

"We have the entire day to ourself clary."

"What are we doing?" I asked confused

"Whatever you want."

"Can I paint you?"

"Any day any time."

"Now go to sleep clary. my clary." He wrapped his arms around me. I snuggled my head into his chest. "Goodnight my golden globe."

OMG the story is coming to a end I loved writing this. I might try and write the last few chapters before i leave and upload them do the story will be complete before I leave. Well I guess this is a goodbye.