A/N: Okies folks, 2 years has now went past. Ash and Gary are now 19, kay ^w^

Chapter 11

Shattered Dreams

Ash hung a sheet clumsily over a long line as the sun and breeze brushed against his pale cheeks. Risa carried out more clothes in her semi-human form as Star floated by with more pegs. Paletown was in blossom in the spring weather, red and blue flowers contrasted with the Butterfee and Beautiflies that roamed through the area. Ash had released the Pokemon he'd met at the lab and they decided to live with him in his home town. Mr Mime was opposite Ash as he hung some socks on the line he'd saw his mother work at many years ago. He glanced over to Pikachu, Chikorita and Togepi as they played with Chi and Chu, running around the Ponyta and Luxio he'd became such good friends with. Ash's back garden had been extended to occupy all his friends, thanks to the help of the people in town. He sighed and looked up to see two Wingulls playing above him. He smiled, though it didn't reach his eyes, then turned round, Mr Mime picked up the empty basket and followed him in. Ash looked on his wall in the living room from the kitchen, observing the frames with Sinnoh Gym Badges in it along with the Pokemon League one in the middle and many more regions of badges. He looked further down his mantel piece, looking at the photo's that sat on it. One with him and his mother when he was 8, another with him and Brock and Misty along with all their Pokemon. The last one was of him, Pikachu, Chikorita, Togepi, the Pokemon from the lab, Tracey and the Eeveelutions, he smiled at this photo as everyone has happy and/or pulling funny faces to the camera. Tracey had moved into Professor Oaks research lab 8 months ago, he was happy he had, Ash needed human company once and a while. He pulled out a locket that he had around his neck and opened it. Inside was a picture of him when he was 5, and beside him, Gary.

'I hope you're safe' he thought to himself.

Ever since Ash was separated from Gary, he relived the moment he last had with him, haunting his dreams every night. His dream were no longer dreams, only nightmares that roamed his head every night, waking him at the last moment those doors closed with his screaming. He smiled a fake smile, ready to turn to his only friends now and comforts.

He then put it away quickly and lifted up a needy Bonsly from the kitchen floor.

After Ash had left the lab, where apart of him still lingered, he went to Misty, Brock and his Pokemon's graves and found a range of Pokemon nearby, familiar Pokemon. His house was over flowing with them now, old and new friends throughout his journey, but all he wanted and needed now, was Gary. He wiped a stray tear from his cheek as he tucked the locket away and resumed his daily chores.

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Ash sat in his back garden, petting a tired Pikachu on his lap, Star creating shapes with a bubble above his head and sipping a orange juice as he read The Paletown Magizine, well pretended to read, nothing really went in his head much anymore. He was interrupted by a small yelp from inside his home. Pikachu was on his feet and raced into the kitchen, Ash and Star close behind. Ash's heart stopped as he took in the scene before him. An Umbreon stood facing Pikachu and Star, both unsure whether to attack, Kin-Kin, the youngest of the Eeveelutions, the quiet Eevee, was struggling in someones arms. The holder was as beautiful as Ash had remembered, his long hair hiding part of his eyes, his pink cheeks that contrasted against pale skin. His appearance had only changed slightly due to the scares and cuts across his angelic face. Ash brought his hands to his face as he tried to hold back tears. All that was replied was a smirk before the words.

"Hello Ashy-boy, long time no see…" he said menacingly.

Ash blinked, he could have hugged him right there if it weren't for his anger over taking his joy.

"What are you doing here!?" he yelled, pointing at him with rage.

"Hmpf. Thought you'd be happy to see me…"

"Happy!?? Of course I am but my anger and eyes out grow it! Put down Kin-Kin at once!!!"

"Sorry but I can't…"

"Why not?"

"Well what appears here to an Eevee, is in fact, the Legendary Pokemon, Mew."

Star sighed, "How did you find out?" she asked.

"I don't know, the Boss just told me, and I did as he asked."

Ash looked at Kin-Kin and Star, totally lost in confusion. Kin-Kin sighed, as if she were chosen in a game of 'Truth and Dare'.

"Pesky humans…" she mumbled.

Immediately she disappeared and reappeared beside Ash, but not as a Eevee, she was floating and looked similar to a Espeon, only pink with a longer tail and no red orb on her forehead. She had large blue eyes that looked like the ocean and stars had become trapped in her head.

"Tell your Boss to leave us in peace!" she said, rage bubbling up inside her.

"I'm afraid I can not, my orders are to bring you back no matter what…" he said, avoiding Ash's eyes now.

Ash looked at him and Kin-Kin, too much was going on.

"Kin-Kin is not going with you…" he said, he was shaking now though, his voice was weak but he looked at Gary, fury in his eyes.

"You and that stupid company!!!! WHY!!!! WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME BEHIND!!? GET OUT!!! LEAVE LIKE YOU ALWAYS DO, I HATE YOU!!! GET OUT AND NEVER COME BACK YOU BASTARD!!!" He screamed at the top of his lungs, tears slipping down his cheeks.

Gary took a step back, but looked defiantly at him.

"You don't know how much I have went through this past 2 years all for the sake of you and your freedom!!! You ungrateful asshole…!"

"I didn't ask you to…"

"… I'm taking Mew and you aren't going to stop me."

"I'm not going to let you push me around!" Ash stepped in front of Kin-Kin, as Risa came rushing into the room, looking up in shock at the visitors.

Gary's eyes narrowed.

'Hmpf, he's grown up a lot…' he thought to himself in amusement.

He took a step closer, causing Risa to take an automatic step beside Pikachu in her defensive nature, preparing to attack.

Gary pondered for a moment, keeping his mint green eyes locked on to Ash's hazel orbs.

"Ash, could I have a moment alone with you for discussion?" he asked, his face calm and courteous.

Ash raised an eyebrow in his surprise, he had planned for an attack, not a moment alone. He straightened his posture and nodded.

"Guys, stay here, this way…" he said, looking at Gary with piercing eyes as he led him into the living room. Gary gave his Umbreon a meaningful look, probably to tell it to stay, as he followed Ash gracefully. He closed the door and turned to see Ash glowering at his from under his long locks that was his fringe.

Ash had grown in the last 2 years. His hair was still messy and wild, unhidden due to his captors ignorance of stealing his cap. His eyes were still that forest hazel, though the sparkle of his eyes was hibernating, making them look sad. His skin was still quite dark, but paler before, letting the colour of sleep loss under his eyes become slightly visible.

Gary's image had changed over time too. His skin was still pale, his hair still long, sharing the same colour as his surname, and his eyes as green as spring leaves, but there was a flaw in his perfect appearance. He still towered over Ash proudly, but his usually relaxed, confident, and to a point, smug posture, was stiff and uneasy. His eyes not so much impish and joyous, but rather tired and troubled. This image of Ash's former love, formed a clog in his throat, making him strain to keep his glare locked onto Gary's eyes.

"You're not getting her…" Ash said bluntly.

Gary smiled, but it was not a smile Ash had grown up with. "It's like I want to take her, it's more like, I have to take her…Orders…"

"Hah!!! Orders, seems your soul is still in the claws of the beast, hm? Does he hold your heart too? Because you sure don't seem to care of what affect, taking another part of my family and life, would have upon me!!!" Ash's voice was rising under the swirl of emotion that was going through his head, confusion added to the hurricane when he took in Gary's reaction.

He was laughing.

"What's so funny!?"

"Y-you!!! Ha ha!! You are still such a girl!"

Ash clenched his fists, ready to throw a punch any moment towards Gary.

"You! Don't dwindle on old lives!!! I want you out of here!"

Gary took a step towards him, close enough for Ash to hear his breathing, but now close enough for him to feel it.

"Now I know you don't want that." he toyed.

"No… no I don't, but it'd be easier if you did, so I can try to move on!"

"Move on? You and I both know neither one of us can do that…"

"Why did you go with them…?" Ash finally broke out that question that was screaming to get out.

Gary looked up with solemn eyes. "Because if I didn't, you and I would no longer be here… and our Pokemon need us, right?"

"Then why don't you leave…?" Ash forced out, trying to keep his voice as even as Gary's.

"Ash, they'd be on me like the strips of a Pikachu!!! I am not, and will not put you in danger!!! My number one priority is your survival!"

"Survival!? Gary, I'm deteriorating every moment with out you. I don't want to survive I want to live!!!"

Gary, for once, stood speechless, dazed almost, but covered his face with a calm, bitter almost, mask.

"As long as your heart beats, you'll live…"

"Then I'll end it!!!"

In mere seconds, Gary slammed Ash up against the wall with his delicate wrists in a vice grip using his own, pressing his whole body against the smaller male, pinning him against the wooden wall.

He brought his face closer to Ash, bending over slightly to match his height, until his was just inches away, so close that Ash could feel his breath, almost taste it. His nose took in the familiar smell of him. He still smelt of morning dew mixed with leaves, a smell he'd acquired when he got his Eevee, it was nice to know he still spent time with her.

Gary brought his mouth to Ash's ear, a smile spread across his face as he did.

"Did you really miss me that much?" he murmured, amused in sense.

Ash gulped, trying to struggle free, but finding no effect on Gary, he probably didn't even know he was trying to get away.

He closed his eyes in defeat as he answered.

"Yes… Of course I did… You bastard… I don't even know what love is anymore, when you left, you took that knowledge with you…"

"So I guess even if I left here … I'd still be taking something from you…"

Ash's legs threatened to give way from the stress the conversation was piling on to him, but they straightened with the familiar sensation of soft lips against his own.

He closed his eyes as he felt Gary's tongue lick his bottom lip, requesting access. Ash parted his lips and Gary explored the wet cavern that was Ash's mouth, their tongues dancing inside his mouth, making Ash give out a small moan. Gary smirked and pulled away slowly for air and looked down at him, though he wore the smirk, it did not reach his eyes.

"I'm sorry Ash … I should never have left you… but it was so I could be with you some day…" he whispered, his nose touching Ash's as hazel eyes gazed into emerald's.

"Can't that someday be today?" Ash croaked, begging almost as he thought of Gary leaving him again.

"They're watching me like a Murkrow!" He said with a forced smile.

"I don't care, the Pokemon here can protect you if they come… Misty and Brocks Pokemon came back and Tracey is working in Oaks lab!!! He has 102 Pokemon there right now and I own around 80 here!!!" Ash told him, desperate now.

"But Ash, they have fusions of Pikachu's and Vulpixes and Dragonair's with Onyxes!!!" Gary replied.

"I don't care, I have a Mew, the Lake trio of Sinnoh and Star…" Ash reminded him, making Gary bite his lip, "See, it works out, please… I can't stand to be away from you anymore… it hurts…" Ash whimpered, pulling his arms free from Gary's now weak hands and wrapping them around Gary as he buried his head in his chest.

"Please stay…" Ash begged.

Gary embraced Ash tightly and kissed his head.

"Ok Ash … I don't want to hurt you any longer" he whispered.

Ash sniffed and looked up, his eyes about to over run with tears. He got onto his tip toes and kissed Gary on the lips softly.

"I love you Gary Oak…" he said happily.

"I love you too Ashy-boy~" he cooed, kissing back gently.

For the first time in what seemed a life time, Ash began to know happiness again.

A/N - I decided to split this into 2 chap's now, got so passionate bout writin it I fear it will go on too long D= So yea, more 2 come =3