Chapter XI: Forgive 'n' Forget
Freddie's POV
I heard voices outside the room and got up to go and check who it was, until I heard the voices.
"My mission was to get you to his room, what happens next is between you and Freddie" I heard Daniel say. Get who to my roo-no, impossible.
"Thanks Daniel, I know you can get into shit for this"
I paused at the door, not sure whether I should open it or not. Or just wait for her to knock and then open it, or not open the door at all. Taking a deep breath I opened the door to see her standing there, I'm sure she was just about to knock. I stepped aside to let her in and then closed the door behind me.
I looked around my room, shit the guys have left it a mess, and damn Matt and his posters, she's gonna think we are such…well guys. Maybe before she notices how messy my stuff is around my bed I could shove it without her notice-wait why do I care what she thinks.
I leaned on the door and took another breath and then looked her in the eyes. She was standing there, staring at me…but me then my mess, well and the guys mess.
"You can get kicked out for this if you get caught trou-Poppy"
I guess using that word, that name I called her to tease isn't the name I would call her now, considering I don't know if right now the time where we can start actually is being another apart from fri-well not even friends.
"I had to see you" she mumbled.
Well, that's not like Poppy is it now? Mumbling, that's a new one. The Poppy we all know is a loud-mouth heartbreaking brat who only thinks about herse-
"Freddie could we just talk, starts over and talk this throu-"
"Talk what through?! How you used me? Or...or how you almost burnt the school down and don't even get me started on those emails-
"They weren't written by me, well not all of it. It was mostly exaggerated and-"
Now I just got mad.
"And what Poppy? You think that this is all so fuckin simple that the girls forgave you so I have to forgive you too! Do you really think I can forgive you for making me fall in love with you only to have it thrown back in my face?! They may have been OK with you using them the way you did but I sure as hell am not!"
There, I said it. I told her how I feel, how she made me feel I hope now she knows the mess she left behind. The lives she hurt, mine especially.
"I know and I'm like really sorry, but you have to hear the rest you have to hear me tell you that I love you!"
I laughed. "Love me? You call that love do you?"
"No, of course not but I just-I wanted to get out so bad-"
"And yes, I was your damn ticket out! No need to remind me what I already know!"
I couldn't look at her anymore and turned bitterly away.
"Freddie I made a mistake, a bad mistake. But you have to know when I kissed you I realised I found a reason to stay and..." she went on.
(A.N - In bold will be Freddie's self arguing with himself not to get back with Poppy, and normal writing will be to get Poppy Back)
I was a reason she wanted to stay back?
She still used you, how do you know she won't do so again?
She sounded like she was serious, she is sorry.
Yeah now, until she does it again.
Why would she do it again?
You call her trouble for a reason, and once she is in it again she'll have you bail her out of course.
Me? How?
Your mother.
No, Poppy wouldn't-
What happened to hating her a minute ago?
That's before I saw her, and fell in love with her all over again.
You're only going to have your heart broken again.
I think...I'll take the risk.
"...and they won't do anything about Harriet until we have proof she started the fir-"
I stopped her talking all if a sudden, because without planning it, without thinking I had her pinned against my bedroom wall in a kiss.
When we broke apart we just stared at one another.
"You're too much trouble"