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(After HTTYD 2)

No Name

(Valka POV)

The question had been bothering me all day.

I hadn't really dwelt on it before, mostly just accepting the fact that it was there and that was that but curiosity has gradually been building on me the last month and she certainly wasn't willing to talk about it. It's just a part of her, something that everyone is used to but I know that when I left both her feet were there.

Something between then and now. Twenty years is a long time span to cover and I don't feel comfortable enough to pull her to the side and ask.

She already has enough on her mind already, leaving the house early for a lap with Toothless than retiring late collapsing into bed. But Haedryin is my daughter and I should know, should've been there when it happened but I wasn't.

How did she lose her leg?

I give a tired sigh staring at the flames leaping from the fire. The blanket that was wrapped around my shoulders fell off a while ago and I haven't built up enough energy to pull it up again. Haedryin and Toothless will be getting home within an hour and I feel it is my responsibility to make sure they get back safely.

Something to make up for not being there for either of them for nineteen years. Haedryin's twentieth birthday will be hitting sometime within the next month December twenty first the winter solstice. Or when lethal winter begins. Something I hadn't really dwelt on with her birth.

I mean, of course I knew about her powers, I was horrified by the thought but couldn't get myself to explain it to my husband. Stoick probably would've taken it fine, I mean it's obvious that he did eventually accept it I'm just not sure when or how that happened.

That's why I gave her a blue horn to represent her powers show her I did know if I didn't make it to her teenage years. And I didn't even bother to check on her. I could've come back and at least peaked at how life was going, maybe seen if she was still alive because of her way with ice but I didn't.

The door creaks open and I twist a greeting on my lips to Headryin and Toothless. They're back early-not them. My eyes widen slightly and Asher stands in the doorway for a moment suddenly looking lost, "Valka, can I talk to you?" He asks after a hesitation and I shrug.

"Yes." I answer and he gives a small nod shutting the door behind him the wood making a soft squeak. He pads over across the ground towards me and sits a few feet away lifting his hands over the fire. The wind is howling outside snowflakes blowing by in deadly gusts. Whatever he wants to talk about must be really bothering him for it to cause him to walk all the way out here.

I tried to get Haedryin and Toothless to stay put but both were persistent on the flight and left anyway, Haedryin saying she'd clear the snow for them.

After a moment of silence I turn so I'm facing him, "What is it, lad?" I ask and give a soft smile. Asher gives a tight smile and lets out a whistling breath.

"It's about Iyn." He answers and I freeze small panic racing through me.

"What? Did something happen-" I start and he lifts up a hand laughing.

"No." He says and laughs some more before he grows serious again. "I already asked Stoick this….but...can I marry your daughter?" He asks and I blink in surprise staring at him for several long moments. My face stretches into a wide smile and I rest a hand on his shoulder.

"Yes."

Asher releases a breath his face breaking into a smile, "Great!" He exclaims smiling.

"Is that all?" I ask and he nods.

"Yeah. Stoick nearly gave me a heart attack when he answered, but I just wanted to make sure it was okay with you to." Asher says and gives a tight smile. I sigh softly and nod as he starts to stand I bite my lip.

"Asher," I say and he stops looking back at me look inquiring. I press harder on my lip before the words spill from my mouth, "how did Haedryin lose her leg?"

His eyebrows shoot up in surprise, "She hasn't told you?" He asks and I shake my head. I've been to cowardly to ask. "Oh," He says and after a moment his fingers curl, "I'm not sure I should be the one to tell you."

"Asher, please, I need to know." I say my tone a plead. He sighs before sitting back down biting his lip, it would appear that Haedryin's nervous habit wore off on him like it did me. Biting the lip.

He lets out a long sigh staring at the fire for a long moment, "About five years ago before she found Toothless the raids were getting worse. I remember there was a night that she claimed she shot down a Night Fury. She'd made the claim before so no one really believed her, I didn't, honestly I thought she was beautiful but crazy. I mean, she's a Viking and wore gloves constantly it wasn't until much later that I realized why."

My hands wring together subconsciously. That's how she did it. Gloves.

"I think what really caught my attention was when fourteen and she was almost fourteen I teased her about it in return, she broke my nose and three of her fingers." Asher says shaking his head slightly a small grin playing across his face. "It hurt. But the weirdest thing to me was how cold her hand was, I mean it was in a glove."

"She wore gloves all the time?" I interrupt and he gives a nod his eyes distant as if the past is another country to him.

"She was always muttering something like, 'conceal don't feel,' under her breath I still don't know it that was actually it. Stoick didn't really pay attention to her I mean, she could throw a punch but she wasn't very strong and was nicknamed, "Dainty hands the Useless."" Asher cringes at that and my heart sinks.

I could've been there for her if I'd just gone back. Conceal don't feel? She tried not to feel? I mean, I know now that her emotions affect the weather but it's usually just a little snow above her and that's it I'm sure it took years to get any control over the power.

"Anyway, so she claimed she shot down a Night Fury and I guess she really did that night. Then a few days later Dragon Training started. For the first few days she nearly got killed by every single dragon then she could suddenly make them fall asleep at her feet, stop mid track the stunts she would pull were amazing, at the same time she and Toothless were growing stronger in their bond. The night before the final exam I found out where she'd been going, the Cove and waited for her knowing she'd come."

"You didn't like her?" I ask and Asher snorts.

"At the time, I loathed her. Long story short, Toothless dropped me from the sky, then they took me on a flight we discovered the Red Death's nest and then went back to the Cove where Haedryin promised she'd find some sort of solution to the problem. DIdn't work so well, she tried training the Monstrous Nightmare and failed revealing her powers. Eventually we rescued Toothless and they blew up the Red Death at the cost of her left leg." Asher explains in near one breath.

My brain has a hard time wrapping around that. "She was fifteen?" I breathe staring at Asher with shock. Fifteen.

Fifteen.

I should've have gone back, I shouldn't have stayed with the dragons, I could've forced Stoick to agree with me. But I didn't.

"I should've gone back to Berk." I murmur lowering my head in shame.

Asher rests a hand on my shoulder, "Trust me. Nothing could have helped it. Not even you being here. Valka, you can't be there for her every second of every day, you did what you thought was best." Asher says firmly.

"But it wasn't what was best, Asher. I'm a terrible mother!" I exclaim and burying my head into my hands.

There's a small moment of silence, "Iyn would've hid it from you to, her powers and Toothless. She's a secretive person and it's takes a lot of shoving to worm your way into her trust circle, something me and the other riders had to shove at for years. You being here wouldn't have changed anything. Your what she needs now." Asher says and I press down on my lip tightly, tasting blood.

"I know that in here." I say and point to my head and then to my heart, "But in here…"

Asher smiles softly, "Just do what you can now. She'll be exhausted when she gets back." Asher says and I force myself to nod.

"Thank you Asher." I say and he gives a small nod then stands. "Goodnight Valka and thank you." he says and I nod.

"You're a good man, Asher." I say firmly and he laughs.

"Thanks." He says before walking towards the door opening and closing it with a soft thud. I stay in my thoughts for a moment before narrowing my eyes with determination.

No, I wasn't there for her then. But I will be now.

Authors Note: Yup! Haedryin has broken Viggo's and Asher's noses! She dislocated Quires jaw in HTTYD 1.

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