Heeeeeey! So I really liked writing this chapter, and I even went back to revise it! There's some MaixNaru fluff in there! Well, kind of. But you'll see; so, here's chapter 11 and enjoy! Don't forget to R&R~
Chapter 11
I screamed. I screamed so loud it even scared me. My body trembled uncontrollably and I stared down at my hands and body that were covered in blood.
I killed him! Was all I could think.
Oh my god, I killed him! I killed him!
I rubbed at my arms trying to get the blood off, but it only smeared making it worse. I began scratching my skin hoping somehow that would help and I could barely feel the burning and my own blood running down my arms.
It won't come off!
"Mai, Mai, stop! Stop!" I felt someone grab my arms and I felt my heart completely stop. I immediately screamed pulling away and ran off into a bathroom.
I didn't even think about where I was as I threw up the handle on the sink and scrubbed my arms as hard as I could, trying to remove the blood. No mattered how much soap I used none of it would wash away.
I cried. I screamed and cried the hardest I had in months.
I think I used a whole bottle of soap before someone could stop me. They wrapped their arms around me and pulled me away from the sink and into a corner. I thrashed as hard as I could. I wanted to get away. To run away.
Why did Takashi do all of that? Why did I kill him?! I felt so good to stab him over and over! I could still hear his laughter echoing in my head.
Be quiet! Stop! I begged.
I flailed my arms trying to push whoever was holding me. I curled myself into a ball, pulling my legs tightly to my chest and began to slowly rock myself while subconsciously scratching my arms.
…
Many people came and went. It was all a blur along with the tears that stayed on the rim of my eyes. I don't know the order of who came, who tried to talk to me. They're voices sounded slurred and confusing. I didn't understand what they were saying.
I continued to stare at the white tiled floor as I heard the bathroom door open once again. I only heard a few steps before silence. I had to hold back my curiosity to look up at who it was. I was doing well at ignoring them all until now.
I absentmindedly scratched at my arms again, my curiosity getting the best of me. I glanced up to see my visitor only to choke on my breath. I let out a few dry coughs that starch my throat making my eyes water.
My visitor slowly made their way over to me, to not scare, me and sat on their knees, gently offering a cup of water. I stared into their captivating blue eyes blankly for a moment before carefully taking the cup from them with trembling hands.
I drank it hungrily and it made my throat burn as the cold liquid slid down my throat. After the last drop possible was gone, I let out a quiet sigh and the person in front of me took the cup from me and placed it behind them.
Their hand suddenly brushed against my leg as they turned back around and I flinched, trying to scoot further into the corner. They're hand grabbed mine that was scratching my arm, once again, making me freeze.
I stared down at the hand that lightly grasped mine. It felt cool and calming and just so…right. That's what scared me the most; it felt perfect for his hand to be on mine, but it felt so wrong too. So wrong; he shouldn't be here. He shouldn't be the one to do this to me; calm me down.
Why was he here anyway? I hurt him; ignored him, blocked him out. So why was he being so nice to me? I don't deserve it…
"There's nothing there, Mai."
My whole body stiffened at the sound of his voice. It was cold and hard making me shudder which, lucky, probably couldn't be seen from all my trembling.
I looked back down at my arm, it was gone. All the blood. Gone.
I let out a long breath of relief finally feeling all my muscled relax. My heart began to pulse normally before Naru released my hand to grab a first aid kit from behind him.
When his hand let go of mine a sense of panic struck my body. I wanted him to hold my hand again. It felt like my body was overheating. Like a layer of fire covered my skin making my hair stand on end.
With the small rectangular box held in his hands, he glanced up at me as if to get approval to bandage my wounds. I wasn't even sure if I nodded but he took out a bottle, cotton balls, and gauze.
I hissed threateningly and snatched my arm away when alcohol was poured into the cuts that I hadn't realized I inflicted on myself. He didn't seem shocked or irritated by my rejection … he just mumbled a sorry and patiently held out his hand, waiting for me to present an arm to him.
Once both my arms were completely wrapped in the thin white cloths, Naru stood from his spot and, almost silently, walked to the sink and put the box on the sink. I stared at him intently, my arms rewrapping themselves around my legs.
I must've spaced out for a moment because he was kneeling in front of me again with another cup of water handed out to me.
I gladly drank that one dry too.
When I brought the cup down away from my face, I found his staring at me. It was a stare like he was debating within his mind about something.
He suddenly brought his hands up, moving them in a slow fluid motion.
"Are you ok?" he signed.
S-Signing?! How does he know how to sign?! Can this guy do everything?!
I just stared at him, slightly wide eyed, trying to cover my expression.
"I know you can sign," he continued. "I've seen you do it with Terra before." He signed quite slow actually, expecting I'd have a hard time keeping up. Heck, I can sign like a mad man and comprehend it easily!
He stared at me for what felt like forever, waiting for a response and I knew I wouldn't win. I nervously brought my shaking hands up before slowly signing, "I only know very little." I lied. He paused a moment as if unsure of what to say next.
"What happened?"
Why, why did you have to ask that?
I felt nauseous as my stomach turned uncomfortably while remembering my dream. The way his hands ran across my skin…
I turned my face away and shut my eyes tight shut. I felt my lip tremble and fresh tears slowly slid down my already bright red cheeks and I shook my head. I didn't want to remember. Why was it that every memory on top of memory that first came to mind was anything that has scarred my mind?
Something cool lightly grasped my face. My eyes snapped open looking to Naru who cupped my cheeks in his hands. It seized the fire that burned my skin as I unknowingly leaned into his touch.
I stared into his eyes confused. I didn't understand his expression. It was vacuous and cold like it always seemed to be but there was something within his eyes, his touch that wanted to say something.
What are you thinking, Naru?
Aww! Gosh, I just love Naru in moments like this! Just- no words to describe the emotions in my heart! Stay tuned for Chapter 12 which will be posted soon! Please review! Love you all~