I decided, rather then planning these, which as you can see from my lack of updates, doesn't work, i put my itunes on shuffle and whatever song came up i would do. I itend on doing this every four or five days.
This song is Outside Looking In by Jordan Pruit. Its a great song.
The storyline is somewhere after The Western Air Temple but Before Firebending Masters. It's Zuko contemplating his feeling of not belonging. It's in his poijnt of view and when he speaks he is refering to Katara. What he wished he could say to her. There are major hints of a one-sided Zutarqa but they can be ignored.
This wasn't easy for me, I mean it was easy to leave everything behind but not to be here. Just because of who I am you suddenly think you know half of who I am, half of what I know and have been through.
I don't blame you, I never said you didn't deserve to be prejudice. But I'm trying, and you can see that. There are other people here and you need to see past you own hatred for us.
Don't think I don't hear you talk about me. You're a really bad liar and I'm really stealthy. I love the way you twist the visible into your own story because as much as I love you, you want those who don't to turn against me.
You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend ..... on the outside looking in
You were always Mrs. Perfect. Surrounded by friend and loved ones, praised for your effort and supported for your mistakes. How you can possibly imagine what I feel around you is something I'd love to know.
And you say everything is so bad for you, and you get sad like you have the worst fate n the world. Not to sound insensitive, but yes I know you lost your mother. But you have a brother and father who love, and are not trying to murder, you.
So you sit and joke with them. And your eyes become evil as I join. So I take my things and leave, mutinying some excuse and thank you. You never remark but only tense and continue what you were saying.
If you could read my mind
You might see more of me than meets the eye
And you've been all wrong
Not who you think I am
You've never given me a chance
You know nothing beyond the obvious. Nothing besides that I'm the scarred banished prince who made a stupid decision and ran away from home. I have war and hatred in my family so I must be stereotyped in that way.
You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in
You always think the worst. You think you control everyone and everything and that none of you friends can take care of themselves. Its funny too because if you see me as a threat to the avatar then what is my father. Is you don't trust Aang alone with me what happens when he leaves to face my father.
I stay on the sidelines watching everyone. Sometimes your brother and I would share a look of annoyance at you or Toph. Weird how sweet little Katara is the only one to be so cruel.
Either way its not like I care if you want to include me or not. Please, I grew up with Azula. I might care but I can stay invisible for long enough to reverse the annoyance.
I didn't ask to be your friend or lover, heck the most I've spoken to you directly is a sentence.
Well, I'm tired of staying at home
I'm bored and all alone
I'm sick of wasting all my time
I came here to make a difference and be a part of something bigger then all of us. I thought you of all people would accept and understand that. You tell me to change sides and when I do you treat me like crap.
You don't know how it feels
To be outside the crowd
You don't know what it's like
To be left out
And you don't know how it feels
To be your own best friend on the outside looking in
One day your not gonna have everything and maybe I'll be able to understand why you are the way you are. But for now, I'm okay with this, and I guess you are too. So again you pass, making sure to send a small water whip my way, enough to cause significant pain anyways. Still, I believe you deserve revenge so I say nothing and this time you wonder why I haven't told the others. Guess you don't know how I really feel about you and I doubt you ever will. I'm sorry
It was sort of a sappy confession but i think it suited the occasion well.
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The things that you say
You may think I never hear about them
But word travels fast
I'm telling you to your face
I'm standing here behind your back
You don't know my name
you don't know anything about me
I try to play nice
I want to be in your game