Sitting . Under . Falling . Stars

Oh, my stomach's tied in knots

I'm afraid of what I'll find if you want to talk tonight

See the problem isn't you, it's me, I know

I can tell, I've seen it time after time

And I'll push you away

Oh, I get so afraid

December 5th

Namine sat in the cafeteria alone, poking at her crappy macaroni with her fork, dreading eating it. The blonde sighed, looking across the cafeteria to see Roxas walking in with Sora and Kairi. She made eye contact with Roxas, before quickly looking away and blushing.

It had been over a month since they had unnoffically broken up.

Roxas never really said anything to her, he simply stopped talking to her, along with Sora. Kairi was mad at her too, but she couldn't hate her best friend no matter what she did. Kairi understood how terrible she felt.

Every time Namine saw Roxas, she cringed with regret, recalling how stupidly she'd acted the night of Ven's party. It was just as bad when she saw Ven himself, who wasn't talking to her either.

Ugh, why? Namine buried her head in her hands and let out a stressed gasp. Why the hell did I act like that?

Flashback

Namine took Ven by the hand and lead him into the kitchen, out of everyone's sight. He blushed intensely, confused by her actions, and even more so when he saw the way she fluttered her eyes at him. She smirked cutely at him as she faced him, taking his hand and pulling his body slightly closer to hers.

"W-What are you doing?" Ven stuttered, taking a wary step back. Namine only stepped closer to him and giggled.

"I just wanted a bit of time alone with you."

"You're drunk." He dropped her hand from his.

"I want you." She admitted.

Ven felt incredibly awkward. "Listen, Namine, you're a beautiful girl. But you have a boyfriend, remember?"

"Just forget about him." She slurred, taking a swift kiss from his lips. Shocked, Ven kissed her back for a moment before lightly pushing her away.

"What's gotten into you?" He practically spat, before running out of the room.

End

Namine was not proud of her actions at all. She couldn't even justify them either- She wasn't really into Ven, was she? Sure he was cute, but so was Roxas. They looked alike. She tried to rationalize that in her head, like perhaps because she was upset with Roxas, she went to Ven for comfort... She didn't even understand what her drunk mind was thinking when it happened. But Roxas did nothing to deserve that.

Simply put, Namine was terrified. She had just made things right with Roxas only to go fuck them up all over again... Real good going, Namine.

Roxas hadn't even been at school for three days. He was too depressed, and every time he managed to get himself out of bed and into school, he would see her and all of those feelings of betrayal returned.

Honestly, how could she do that to me? What does he have that I don't? These thoughts oftened crossed his mind, making him feel very insecure. Roxas was told by everyone how much him and Ven looked alike, so why would the girl who is supposed to love HIM, go after Ven instead? He didn't know what to make of it at all.

He hated seeing her sitting alone from across the cafeteria. Everyone was mad at her, and even though she deserved it, Roxas still felt bad. He did love her, after all. Seeing her upset hurt him. It was so difficult to ignore the text messages she sent every day.

"You know, Roxas..." Kairi began, poking him in the shoulder. He had been zoned out for the past five minutes, staring at Namine. He snapped out of his trance and turned his attention to the red-head.

"What?"

"You can't run away from her forever." She said. "Maybe you should go talk to her."

"Right now?" He gaped. "No way..."

"I agree with Kairi." Sora said. "Just get it over with man. If you want to break up with her then do it, ignoring her isn't going to make things better."

Roxas let out an exasperated sigh. "I can't do it. I can't face her. Every time I look at her I feel a huge clusterfuck of emotions."

Sora chuckled. "Ha, clusterfuck."

"Seriously." Roxas pouted. "I don't even know what I'd say to her. I'm really pissed off at her, at the same time I'm really hurt about it too."

"I never would have guessed Namine to be one to cheat..." Kairi mused. "I've known her for so long, she's just not like that."

"I know she's not." Roxas said. "She's just changed so much lately. I can't believe she would go and cheat on me after what Seifer did to her, and how hurt she was from that."

"I hate cheating!" Kairi exclaimed. "Like I would never cheat on anyone... I think that if there's a problem in the relationship then maybe you should just break up, not cheat. That doesn't solve anything, and it must be very painful."

"Yeah, it is." Sora commented. "I would never ever cheat on you, Kai." He kissed her cheek and she giggled. "Even if it was just Selphie, it sucked to find out she cheated on me. It's just that feeling of betrayal, you know?"

"Trust me, I know how you feel..." Roxas sighed. "How did you deal with it, Sora?"

He chuckled with good nature. "Honestly? I told her off and broke up with her."

Roxas' face turned into a twisted frown. "But..." Shit. He thought, swallowing the lump in his throat. He felt like he could cry. "Can we just change the subject? I really don't want to talk about her any more."

"Yeah, sure." Kairi said. "Let's just go outside or something so we aren't around her."

"Thanks..."

Vanitas exited the doors and smirked upon seeing her. She stood as she always did, laughing and smoking at the pit with Axel and Demynx. As usual, Vanitas approached her.

"Hey, Xion." He said, and she averted his gaze.

"Hey."

Vanitas nodded to the others as well, who happily returned it, unlike the dark haired girl. "What's up?" He asked them.

"Oh nothin' just hanging out." Axel said, slouching with his hands in the pockets of his coat. It was winter now, and snow covered the ground, much to the dismay of everyone. "Wish it wasn't so cold."

"Yeah same here." Xion peeped, adjusting the red pom-pom hat she wore.

"Yeah I just wanna head to the forest, but it's freezing!" Demnyx shivered.

"We should just go inside once we're done smoking." Xion said, and they nodded in agreement. The three of them finished smoking, and Xion felt very awkward noticing that Vanitas was not yet done his. She didn't really want to be around him, so she casually signalled for them to leave without him, but Axel evidently didn't catch on.

"Hey Xi wait up, Vanitas is still smoking!"

"Oh, crap." Xion laughed awkwardly. "Sorry Vanitas."

"That's okay." He said, flicking it on the ground. "I'm fine now anyway, let's go in."

Mentally, Xion groaned.

Namine didn't have it in her to sit in class, she was way too anxious. It wasn't like her to skip, but she figured that just one class would be alright, and she decided to spend it in the library. She sat at an isolated table near the back, tapping her pencil on her paper. She wanted to draw something to keep her mind off Roxas, but so far it wasn't working.

She heard a chilling familiar laugh as she looked up to see Roxas entering the library, followed by Kairi. Namine's heart instantly jumped and she shoved her headphones in her ears, pretending not to see them. She kept her eyes glued on her phone and pretended to be texting or something. She did this for about five minutes, before she noticed someone's hand was placed on the table before her. Shocked, she looked up, not expecting to meet the cerulean eyes of her 'boyfriend'.

"R-Roxas?" She stammered, face flushing instantly.

"Hey." He said, trying to keep eye contact. "Do you think I could meet up with you after school?"

She nodded weakly. "Of course."

"Okay." He grinned forcefully. "I'll just meet you out front, if that's okay."

"Yeah, sure." Her voice was quiet and shaky. "I'll see you then."

"See you."

Vanitas was quick to catch up to Xion after class, even though she didn't want to talk. She had tried to escape fifth period and smoothly as possible and get on her way home, but the black haired guy found her just as she was leaving the doors.

"Hey, Xion wait up!" He callled, and she sighed, turning to face him.

"Hey, Vanitas."

"What are you doing today? I was wondering if you maybe wanted to stop by my place and hang out for a bit."

Xion wanted to roll her eyes, but she didn't want to be rude. Vanitas had asked her to hang out multiple times and she was never quick to say yes. She had been over there a few times on the weekends since the party, but Axel and the others always came. No one ever went over there during the week other than Ven, and Xion really didn't want to spend time alone with Vanitas. "Sorry, I have to help my mom with a few things tonight." She lied.

Vanitas pouted and crossed his arms over his chest. "Come on, you never want to hang out with me."

She chuckled awkwardly. "Maybe this weekend, okay?"

"Alright, fine." Vanitas said, before his eyes focused in on something behind Xion. "Hey look, isn't that Roxas and Namine?"

Xion turned her head around quickly and nodded. "Yeah, wow. They're actually talking." The two blondes walked awkwardly beside each other towards the left side of the school where the basketball courts were. Vanitas wore a devious smile on his face.

"Let's go eavesdrop." He snickered.

"No way!" She exclaimed, but Vanitas grabbed onto her hand and dragged her towards them. Naturally, she felt very awkward touching his hand, but was thankful she at least had mittens on to block the skin-on-skin contact. When they came to a halt, Xion angrily threw his hand away from hers. "What the hell was that for?" She questioned.

"Come on, I know you're curious." Vanitas laughed.

"No way, that is so immature. I'm not eavesdropping on them."

Vanitas ignored her and poked his head around the corner, only to see the couple standing there facing each other. "Look." He whispered.

Hesitantly, Xion gave in and peeped around the corner. Sure enough, there they were.

"Namine, listen..." Roxas began. Neither of them were making eye contact, but were looking at their feet.

"Roxas I'm so sorry!" Namine exploded into tears, latching herself on to him. Roxas hesitated, but gave her a light hug back before stepping away from her.

"I'm sorry too." He said. "But... I just can't do this."

The look in Namine's eyes scarred him. "I'm sorry." She whined. "I don't know what I was thinking. I-I love..." She began hyperventilating and Roxas lightly touched her arm.

"Calm down..." He spoke softly, and waited a few moments for her to relax before speaking again. "This really sucks Nam, but it will be worse for me to stay in a relationship with someone I can't trust... This is the second time you've lied to me about something, and nothing could have hurt more than to hear from Sora that you actually..."

"I didn't mean to. Nothing would have happened."

"If Ven wasn't such a nice guy, then something definitely would have happened." Irritation began to lace Roxas' voice. "What if Ven was the type to sleep with random girls whether they have boyfriends or not? How can you honestly say that nothing would have happened? Here you are, lying to me again."

"No, I didn't mean to..." She continued to sob. "I-I love you... I would never do anything like that again..."

"How do I know that? I never thought it would ever happen to begin with... And so easily, too. You've changed so much Namine, I don't even know..." He paused, swallowing what felt like a ping pong ball lodged in his throat. "I don't even know if I love you anymore."

Namine's face fell completely. "But Roxas-"

"No, the Namine I fell in love with so many years ago would never cheat... You didn't even cheat on Seifer! So why me?"

"I don't know, I haven't been feeling myself lately..."

"Yeah, I can tell." Roxas retorted. He wasn't even trying to be nice any more, he was too upset with her. "Whatever, I'm leaving. I'm sorry Namine. Maybe when you get your priorities straight, we can be together again." With that, he turned to leave.

"Roxas please wait!" She practically screeched, tears drenching her cheeks. But he didn't stop, he just kept going. After a few moments, Namine turned and ran away.

After the scene had unfolded, Xion and Vanitas looked at each other.

"Um, wow." Xion said.

"Yeah, holy shit. That was dramatic."

"Their entire relationship has been dramatic." She commented, pressing her back against the wall. "I feel bad for listening though."

"Yeah, I thought you said it was immature?" Vanitas smirked as he faced her, getting a little too close for comfort. Xion pressed her back further into the wall.

"Umm, well it was!" She quickly ran away from the wall and faced him again. "I gotta go, though, my mom really needs me!" She waved as she paced away from him. "See ya later, Vanitas!"

He smiled after her and waved. "Bye."

Namine collapsed into tears as she fell onto her bed and instantly called Kairi.

"Hello?" Kairi said, and only heard the familiar cry of her best friend.

"He hates me!" Namine cried. Kairi sat down, prepared to listen.

"He doesn't hate you, Nam." She reassured. "But you have to understand why he's so mad."

"Of course I understand, I'm a total fuck up. But I love him. Is he going to hate me forever?"

"He doesn't hate you." She said again, more sternly this time. "Just think of this as a break, Namine. Do you really think Roxas wants you out of his life forever?"

"He told me that he wasn't sure if he still loved me..."

Kairi was silent for a moment, and thought did Roxas really say that? She gulped, thinking of a way to help her friend cope. "Of course he still loves you, he's just mad. Think about how you would feel if Roxas did that to you. You'd probably break up with him as well, wouldn't you?"

"Yeah, I probably would..."

"It's going to be hard for him to ever trust you again, but maybe you can earn him back if you really try. Spend the next while focusing on yourself and school... And whatever you do, don't hook up with anyone... Prove to Roxas that you don't want anyone but him."

Namine sniffled, trying to stop her tears. "Thanks, Kairi."

"No problem... I'll hang out with you at lunch tomorrow, okay?"

She smiled a little. "That'd be awesome..."

"Well I gotta go Nam, Amaya is crying. See you tomorrow. I hope you feel better."

"Thanks Kai, see you later." She hung up the phone and carelessly threw it on her bed, rolling over to face her wall. She had a collage of pictures that she hadn't really changed over the years; she even had some pictures of Selphie still up there. Of course, she pasted over all the ones of Seifer with ones of her and Roxas.

Generally, Namine hated to think about Seifer. Now when he crossed her mind, all she could think about was the cold murderer who hit her and killed her friend. But just for a minute, she decided to think back on the way Seifer was before that. He was always abusive towards her even before it became physical, but even still, when she found out about him cheating, it hurt. She was betrayed on both sides- By him, and by her best friend at the time, Selphie. She imagined that was how Roxas felt.

More tears flowed down her face. I've hurt Roxas so many times, and he doesn't deserve any of it. I deserve to be alone.

A/N: Hey guys, thanks for reviewing! Sorry this chapter is late. I feel like I'm doing really shitty on this story, but I'm trying! Bare with me!

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