Okay, so here I am chomping on my, once perfectly manicured finger nails. Waiting for 'our' first chemo treatment. Caleb, Ashley and I are sitting in the play room. Caleb is talking to some little girl across the room, at the video game station. The hospital we chose is very highly-talked up about. The best in the state, supposedly. Ashley is next to me, bouncing her leg up and down, up and down. We have fifteen more minutes, until we are up for Caleb's first treatment. I place my hand firmly on her knee, stopping the bouncing. She looked, up at me, finally some of the life blazed back into her beautiful mocha orbs.

"Sorry, was I bothering you?" she asked slightly smirking at the touch

"No, you seemed a little bit more than 'tense'." I joked

"Oh." She said bringing her smirk, to her full, heart-warming, smile.

She slowly leans forward, and I met her half way, lightly pecking her on the lips. So soft and calming. The short, touch calmed me instantly. Reaching out for her hand for the remainder of the wait. I intertwined our fingers, looking her, soft angelic hands over. They haven't changed after all of this time, she was just as breath-taking now as she was the day I first saw her.

"You okay." She asked as she nudged my side, with her elbow.

"Huh, wha- yea. Just uh spacing out." I answered, startled from the sudden, break in thought.

Soon enough we were called into, a room, with about 7 other children, ranging from what looked to be the ages of 2-18. They explained Caleb's chemo process, and how it would be once a month for, 4 months, and then slowly picking up treatments.

Before I knew it, he was sitting in a rather large chair, a cord hooked up to his port. I just stared at him in complete and utter despair. Almost unwilling to let my eyes translate the sight in front of me. I sighed as I paged through an old issue of PEOPLE magazine.

"Hey, I am going to go and get a crappy cup a coffee from the cafeteria, want one babe." Ashley asked

"Uh, sure. Lots and lots of sugar please!" I said looking up at her as she smoothed out her jeans and straightened her short-sleeve black shirt out.

"Youuu got it." She said as she lean down pointing at her lips.

"Ugh you just like you were when we were seventeen." I said as I kissed her.

"Wellll, love never dies babe." She said walking out. I just laughed lightly looking up at Caleb, to see him, talking to a little girl about his age. Mmm. Maybe Glen was right? That's weird Glen is never right. I thought looking back down at the magazine.

After about two-hours of, bad coffee, mixed emotions and old magazines, Caleb was tired, bored and ready to leave, so was I. We were now in the car, Ashley, just started the ignition and began backing out of the hospital's parking lot.



Chelsea was baby-sitting Kaylin and Blake, while Jamie helped with, Riley. Glen and Chrissy, took a week vacation. Glen said that he needed a break, and Chrissy agreed. So now we were stuck with his terrific little daughter. Five years old and as cute as can be. Tiny little ringlet curls that surrounded her chocolate brown eyes. Chrissy, had straw-berry blonde hair and giant brown eyes. She happened to get Glen's beautiful curly hair. She was wild though, that was definitely Glen.

When we arrived home it was complete chaos. All Caleb wanted to do was curl up in bed and watch a movie. That was a merely impossible task. Jamie was chasing Riley around the living room and through the kitchen. Kaylin was screaming like a maniac as tears streamed down her frustrated face. Blake had ear plugs in while she sat on the couch reading. The only relaxed one, go figure.

I settled Kaylin down, as Ash got Riley to watch 101 Dalmatians with Caleb. Jamie, helped Blake with homework, and I collapsed into Ashley's arms. Exhausted from the emotional wear, and the overwhelming atmosphere. She just hugged me, and rubbed my back calming me down. We were standing in the upstairs hallway. Both of us tired, worrying about how Caleb would feel in the morning.

I kissed her shoulder, whispering "I love you" into the air. Ashley whispered the same words back. I missed this; sometimes I missed just Spencer and Ashley. It was almost 9:30pm. The kids had all fallen asleep around 8:30pm.Chelsea and Jamie went to bed around nine. So now here we were, standing in the hallway at the bridge way of our door.

We reluctantly broke our embrace as I walked towards, the bathroom grabbing pj's on the way. A pair of shorts and a spaghetti strap tank-top. I took a quick shower, letting my problems run down the drain with the water. I dressed and combed through my wet blonde hair. The minute I exited the bathroom and enter our bedroom, I was completely caught off guard by Ashley lips suddenly attacking mine. More passion in this one single kiss. I pulled my face back gasping for air. Looking around like I was sneaking around like a teenager all over again.

The coast was clear, the door locked, and an almost naked Ashley was standing in front of me smiling, the silliest grin, that was slapped on to her face. It all quickly connected and before I knew it we were tumbling onto the bed.

The next morning, I woke up my tank top strew across the room, Ashley's face was lying on my chest. Her breathing, deep and steady, giving me the signal that she was still was asleep. I kissed the top of her head and her know, subconsciously wrinkled, she was so adorable.

"Ash." I whispered in her ear.

"Mmh." She groaned

"Time to wake up." I said in sing-songy voice.

"No" she said not budging.

"Yes." I said sitting straight up.



"Fine." She huffed.

"Only because I love you and you're so damn hot Spencer!!"

"Fine with me." I chuckled.

I grabbed my tank-top off of the dresser, and my shorts off of the lamp shade. I guess I didn't realize how fast everything went. I wrapped my robe around my body as I tied the belt around my waist. Ashley came out of the bathroom, wearing sweatpants and her blue robe loosely tied around her slim figure.

As we walked down the stairs we were greeted by a giggling Chelsea.

"What?" I asked

"Nothing it's just that you might want to consider, getting a sound proof room." She was laughing hysterically now. I just began to turn 10 different shades of red. Burying my head in my hands.