Dear Journal,

Note to self
Parties=socialising
Which isn't my strong point.

A good fact to keep in mind.

When I went to the party it wasn't awful just nerve wracking in a way. There were a lot of countries she had invited. Of course I had seen them all from the world meetings I still for the most part, don't even know them at all

It was strange seeing people together laughing and happy. Of course Eliza had invited everyone in the world, but not everyone showed up.

Me and big sister came together, we didn't talk much in the car there was mostly silence.

But not a bad one, not the one of being ignored.

When we got there Eliza greeted us warmly and showed us were everything was going on at. It was very relax not many arguments going on. It was strange, almost foreign.

Yet welcome.

They were different from normal, not as stiff and formal. Some chatting with each other like old friends. Then again, they could be and I just never knew it.

I saw Alfred there about 11 o'clock he looked and acted almost buzzed (I assume alcoholic influence curious that Gilbert getting the balls to bring it out behind Eliza's back). I tried to ignore it and make some conversation. That didn't work out to well. In the end when i tried to come up with an excuse to end the conversation, I asked if he had seen Toris.

He then slightly smirked and pointed saying goodbye laughing.

I figured I might as well and wondered to that direction. I reached up and without thinking fixed my bow taking extra time to feel the material. I tried to convince myself that I was only going to say thank you.

It's also all I had guts to do. He happened to be talking to the other Baltics and Poland when I came up to him all I could think of to say was

"Ačiū"

"калі ласка"

I afterwards walked away going to go talk to Michelle. We made small talk for the rest of the party and then she invited me to her own slumber party for all the girls. I accepted. It sounded fun enough for the night so in a week I'll be going the that.

A lot of other people came to talk with me, Yong Soo ran a jumped and hugged me. I still flinched at that , but unlike time before I didn't pull away and yell at him. I didn't hug back but I guess he hugged for both of us. I could barely breathe.

I saw that both Lilli and Vash were there. While Vash barely acknowledged me with just a nod of hello. While Lilli came over as soon as she saw me with a big smile. Having a better respect of my personal space than Yong Soo she didn't hug me without permission, and usually I didn't give it. But just for tonight I nodded.

At the end of the party (well there was no official end time, just when everyone started leaving mostly from about half of the guys being drunk and dragged out by there sober partner) "Eliza came up we stood there for a second. She then asked if I ever been to a party.

I thought, even though I knew the answer already. I said No . She asked how I liked it, I just shrugged at her. Then she said firsts aren't always bad Naty". Then she left after a second more.

I rolled my eyes at the scene, but for the first time I felt accepted by them.

From
Nataliya Arlovskaya
The country of Belarus