Fighting For Him
Chapter 11: Christmas BREAK
"Sweetie you were amazing" My dad said wrapping his arms around me tight. "Don't approve of it all but it was still amazing" He said and I giggled.
"Thank you daddy" I smile kissing his cheek.
"Always" He said letting me go and I smiled.
"That was excellent Mitchie, I am very glad we made the trip" Anna said and I smiled.
"Thank you for inviting us Mitchie" Paul said
"Always, you have done so much for me."
"Well that is our pleasure and it was a pleasure to see you dance" He said happily which made me smile bigger. It was hard being so close to Shane's parents but it helped that they cared about me too.
"Thank you"
"You were so good" I heard Kenzie call then her, Amy and Laura all had me in a tight hug.
"Thanks girls, you are one of the main reasons I was so into doing this, the tour so thank you girls so much" I said smiling.
"Want to celebrate" Laura asked smiling. All our parents, Alex's and Shawn's were all around us.
"Actually I was wondering the same thing." I heard a voice and we all turned to look at Demi. "A few of my dancers and I wanted to take Mitchie out and celebrate her joining our tour. You are all welcome to come to celebrate Mitchie as well, she is amazing and we are all happy she accepted to join our team of dancers." She said and I couldn't help but smile at her comments. Also I would have to get to know her and the dancers sometimes, might as well start early.
"I think that sounds fantastic." My dad said wrapping his arms around my shoulder securely, always protective, maybe not always there, but always protective.
"We would love to but we actually have the red eye flight back to Anaheim tonight. I have to work tomorrow otherwise we would love to stay" Paul said and I nodded.
"It's okay I understand, thank you both for coming though" I said hugging them quickly. "Are you leaving" I turn to Shane asking him, we needed to talk, so if he was staying maybe that would happen.
"Tomorrow morning I am going to let those two have their lover's night" he said motioning to Amy and Bryan who were talking to Amy's parents smiling.
"Their cute so do you want to come celebrate"
"I guess so"
"Alright, then maybe we can…"
"Ready to go" Amy said as her and Bryan made their way over and I nodded.
"Yeah are your parents joining us?" I asked and she smiled.
"They had plans with the others already so it's just us and your dad I guess" Amy said and I smiled.
"Sounds good"
Soon enough Shane, Amy, Bryan, Laura, Kenzie, James, Alex, Shawn, My dad and I were all headed to this restaurant downtown I have never been too before. Demi said it was one of her favorite places and we were meeting her and some of her dancers there. Evan was coming along with the girl and the guy I figured out were her dancers tonight. They had also been in the audition.
We arrived and saw Demi sitting at a table big enough for all of us with about 8 other people. There were a lot of us and that would be why the rest of the restaurant was practically empty, not that it really bothered us. I recognized them as her band and dancers. I guess I was meeting them tonight. Well not all of them I only recognized 2 as dancers, and well Evan so I guessed I was going to meet the rest at rehearsal.
"Hi" I said smiling walking up and Demi turned smiled.
"Hi sit down, all of you, and I would like to introduce you to my band and a couple of dancers" Demi said smiling and I sat down beside her as she smiled.
"Alright so this is the band" She said introducing me to all the guys you played in her band. Then this is Jared and Kylie, your fellow dancers and well Evan. Then this is Jenna she is Jared's girlfriend" She said and I smiled.
"Nice to meet all of you"
"You are going to be quite an asset to our team" Jared said and I smiled.
"Thanks that means a lot. Demi and guys these are my friends and my dad" I said pointing to everyone and they all said hi and such.
Dinner went by fast with lots of chatter about the tour and just regular chit chat. It was nice to see everyone getting along. Surprisingly even Shane was talking with everyone and such. I was almost jealous because I saw Kylie eyeing him and clearly trying to flirt but I pushed it to the back of my mind.
We finished and we all went outside. Demi and her friends said good bye and after sharing a hug with Evan they all left and headed to where ever they were to be. I should be heading back to the penthouse as I would soon have to pack before we leave Sunday.
"Well darling I should be heading back to the hotel. I will see you when you arrive at home next week?" My dad asked and I smiled.
"Sure dad thanks for coming" I said giving him a quick hug.
"Bye darling" He said and got a cab heading towards his hotel. I was hoping Shane was coming by the penthouse because I wanted to talk to him.
"We all should be getting back, it is pretty late and we have a busy weekend" Kenzie said yawning. "Are you guys joining us?"
"We are I am tired" Amy said as she was holding onto Bryan's arms. They weren't tired they just wanted to be in her room all alone.
"We are heading back to my place but I will see you girls in the morning" Laura said as her and James headed down into the subway to get back to his place near NYU.
"Shane what are you doing?" Bryan asked
"Just going to crash in a hotel, I will meet you at the airport tomorrow?"
"You sure" Bryan asked and Shane nodded.
"You can stay at our place. We don't mind we have lots of room?" I said as in a question, I don't know if he would be comfortable with that, but we really needed to talk.
"Better if I didn't, I will see you all I am sure over Christmas, congratulations Mitchie" He said and before I could say anything he was in the subway tunnel too. What the fuck is this. He kisses me then won't even give me a chance to talk.
"Alright well I guess I will be heading home, so Shawn I will talk to you later?" I asked knowing Shawn would have to be going back to his place soon.
"Actually I was hoping I would be able to steal you away for an hour then I can drop you back off home?" He asked and I smiled looking at Kenzie and Amy who nodded.
"Alright sounds good, I will see you girls later" I said smiling and started walking down the road with Shawn. It was just a few seconds before he took my hand and I smiled at him as we got to the corner and called a cab to head to his house. I don't know why I held his hand, we weren't a couple but it felt comforting.
We arrived at Shawn's place after about 15 minutes and made our way up to his apartment and walked in. It was really quiet and none of his friends were over. I think I almost wanted to run because he likes me but I felt comfortable with him, was that wrong?
"Come on to my room I have something for you" He said and I smiled.
"Really you didn't have to get me anything."
"Just come on" he said pulling me softly by my hand and I followed him. We got into his room and I sat down on his bed noticing a wrapped box on his desk. I was slightly confused why he would get me something, but then Christmas came to my mind and now I knew I had one more person on my list. Shawn had been a really good friend to me these last 3.5 months.
"So here you go" he said handing me the box then sitting beside me leaning against his wall like we had the last time.
"You didn't have to get me anything Shawn" I said slightly sternly.
"Consider it as a Christmas and going away gift" He said smiling "and no you don't need to give me a Christmas gift." He said and I rolled my eyes.
"What comes around goes around, you will be getting one."
"Your decision but just open your gift" He said gently elbowing me and I smiled then opened my gift.
"Okay I will" I said un-wrapping it to see a white box. After finally getting the tape undone I open the box. I smile on top seeing a picture frame that says friends at the top and the meaning of the word surrounding the rest of the frame. In the frame was a picture of the both of us at rehearsals the past week. We were both in our normal dance clothes doing a funny gangster pose. We had all been fooling around that night between dances. I smiled looking at the picture than at Shawn.
"Thank you, I love this picture, I will for sure have this on tour with me, my gangster friend" I said giggling and he laughed.
"That was the plan but there's more" He said and I took the frame out and move the tissue paper out of the way. I pulled out a zip-up hoody. It was black but decorated with purple and red lines dancing all across it in insane patterns. Then there was pair of sweats pants that said dancer in graffiti purple letters.
"These are amazing where did you get them?" I asked smiling. These would be perfect for tour, he really didn't have to get me anything but it was truly amazing.
"Well the sweater you borrowed from me came from this little shop in LA I go to. It's called Sweater reality, and it sounds really weird but they are amazing. They carry some clothes but most are custom made so I ordered those and picked them up when I was there at thanksgiving. I was sure you would like them and for tour it would be handy and very comfortable."
"Well I love them, thank you so much" I said giving him a hug and he hugged me back.
"You're welcome I am so glad you like them" he said and I pulled my head back from his shoulder and leant my forehead against his. I could feel his breath on my lips.
"I really want to kiss you right now" I whispered very softly.
"Yeah, me too"
"I don't want to play your feelings, I hate when that happens to me I would never want to." I said and he knew that because I keep telling him that over and over and over again.
"A goodbye kiss" He whispers his breath fully on my lips, knowing he was slowly inching closer to me.
"Goodbye for now" I whispered because I hated saying goodbye.
"I accept that" He said softly and I nodded.
"If I didn't have feelings…" I said and stopped
"I'm going to kiss you now" he said softly and his lips pressed against mine and I kissed him back. His kisses, our kisses that we shared were never fiery like the ones I had with Shane but there soft, sweet, slow and just amazing. I pulled back smiling.
"Goodbye for now" I whispered and he nodded.
"Yeah and Mitchie I understand things are hard with Shane and everything but you will get through it. Start with your tour, your dream then everything will fall in place as it should, and if being friends is my place then I will forever be there." He whispered and I smiled.
"I like that and will definitely start with that. Thank you so much Shawn you have been amazing friend. I should get going back though and get some sleep before packing, we will talk and see each other before Christmas break is over though" I said and he smiled.
"Can't wait and yeah you probably should. I have one more thing for you though. It's a usual tradition for dancers to get these when they are amazing and you Mitchie Torres are amazing so…" he said then left the room to come back in seconds later with a bouquet of roses. "These are for you" He said and I stood up taking them. I almost had honest tears in my eyes.
"Where were you 8 months ago?" I asked hugging him and he chuckled.
"In the wrong place at the wrong time" He said and I smiled liking that answer.
"I guess it was planned that way, thank you for the flowers. I really should be going now though."
"Yeah come on I will drive you" he said and I gathered up my stuff. We made our way to his rover and I climbed in as he got in and headed towards the penthouse. I don't know why we kissed but it felt right even though I knew it would probably be the last time. I loved the clothes and picture he gave me and the roses were amazing, he was amazing.
We pulled up to the curb and I unbuckled my belt looking at him. "Thank you again so much Shawn and I will see you later, keep in touch."
"Always" He said smiling.
"Bye" I said giving him a quick hug as he hugged back.
"Bye" He said as I opened the door and gathered my stuff.
"Text you later" I said closing the door and heading into the apartment building. I turned back to see him raise a hand in a wave as did I as he pulled away from the curb heading back to his place.
I got into the apartment which was almost eerily quiet. I went into the kitchen getting a vase filling it with water and placing my roses within it. I smile and walk upstairs with it. I walked into my room placing the roses on my desk and then my clothes and pictures frame in the suitcase that I had started to pack. I went into my bathroom and washed up getting ready for bed. I sat down in my bed when I heard giggles coming from the rooms beside me. I sighed knowing both my friend were being loved in a sacred way I once used to share with Shane. I got my iPod plugging my ear phones in, my iPod hating me but as is, I fell asleep listening to the playlist that reminded me of all the good moments with Shane, that have sadly already started to fade away.
It was finally the 20th of December and I was in my bedroom at my "house" in Anaheim. I had been organizing things deciding what I was bringing on LA and what I would bring on tour, mostly clothes as well as a few things for comfort when I would be away from home. I had stayed here the last week after we got home. We took the long way home from New York, stopping at a few places for the night as to do some Christmas shopping. I was now done and the next thing was to wrap them which would be on my list for tomorrow.
I have talked to Anna and she convinced me to stay with them for Christmas. I would finally get a chance to talk to Shane and I was hoping he somehow changed his mind and maybe realised I still loved him and we were right, even if we would be away from each other, but I could only hope, hope was all I seemed to have left when it came to him.
I was heading there on the 22nd and then I would leave the 27th when I was heading to Amy's for a night with the girls before heading to LA for the month of January. I was going the 29th visiting Shawn and then going to a New Year's Eve party with Evan, and staying at the hotel that would be my home for that month. Anna was just happy that I would be there for at least Christmas.
I finished organizing some more of my clothes and paled some in my dance bag that I would take to Shane's with me. I wouldn't need that much just enough for the few days I would be there. I was getting tired as I had been cleaning up my room and getting up early and going for run's every morning. I needed to keep in shape and I was used to my muscles burning and loved the feeling.
I head to my bathroom and grab a quick shower as it was about 8:30 and it would do no harm to get to bed early. I dried off, changed and brushed out my damp hair. I tied it up into a messy bun on top of my head and made my way to my bed after turning off the big lights. I turn on my bedside lamp and grab my book and leaning against the headboard reading a few chapters before it was getting hard to keep my eyes open. At the point I put my book away and turned off the light curling up in my blankets, placing my head on the pillow and dream land soon consumed me.
It is now the 22nd of December and even though I was nervous about staying at Shane's I was excited because Christmas, my favorite holiday, was only 3 days away. I had finished wrapping all my gifts early this morning and had made sure I had put the ones I needed at Shane's in my car and the rest I had left at home for now.
I had been in my pyjamas all day and they were super comfy. I finally decided I should get ready and head to Shane's since it was nearing 4:30 and Anna expected me there for dinner. I showered and blew dry my hair leaving it in natural waves. I loved that light brown colour it was it seemed more natural than my black hair, to me anyway.
It was slightly chilly outside, which made sense since it was December so I slipped on a pair of dark skinny jeans and I simple pink t-shirt that ended just below where my jeans started. I slipped on my Aeropostale sweater that I bought while shopping for others last week, it was so comfy. I slipped on my converse slinging my dance bag over my shoulder and heading downstairs after making sure I had everything. I lock up and get into my Ferrari which I had driven back from New York and headed to Shane's. Here goes nothing.
I walked up to the door and knocked. The door opened to a very happy Anna. "Mitchie I am so glad you are here" She said wrapping me in her arms and I smile hugging back.
"I am glad to be here." I said smiling.
"Come on in" She said and I walked in smiling seeing the house decorated beautifully. It was truly Christmas and I got even more excited.
"It looks amazing and I smell pine, so a real tree?" I asked and she nodded.
"Only a fresh tree will do, we are actually just about to start decorating so come on in and help." She said and I smiled putting my bag by the stairs and taking off my shoes and then headed into the living room where Shane and his dad were sorting ornaments.
"Hi Mitchie how are you?" His dad asked I smiled.
"Hi Paul I am good thank you how are you"
"Fantastic, it is Christmas" he said smiling and I nodded.
"That it is, hi Shane." I said smiling at him, trying to be civil and was hoping we could talk tonight and it could have a good outcome.
"Hey Mitch" He said with a quick smile then went back to what he was doing.
I soon joined and together almost as a real family we were decorating the Christmas tree. It was so surreal because it had never been so family oriented at my house and I loved it. There was a little tension between me and Shane but so little that it didn't affect the feeling of Christmas.
It was 2 hours later when we sat down to dinner. Anna had made spaghetti with homemade pasta sauce and it smelled amazing and she served it. We all ate and had friendly conversations during dinner and it was nice.
After dinner I went upstairs and got changed into comfier clothes as Anna and Paul said they were going to do the dishes. I went downstairs and sat on the couch turning on the TV seeing How the Grinch stole Christmas on and smiled watching it, enjoying the silly Christmas movies. It was only a few minutes later when Shane came down and joined me sitting on the other couch. I knew we would have to talk soon and it would only happen if I brought it up. I was just about to when Anna and Paul walked in the living room.
"We are just heading out for a few last minute things, we don't know how long we will be but if you aren't up we will see the two of you in the morning?" Anna said as Shane and I looked at them.
"We will try to not be too long" Paul said and I nodded.
"That's fine, have fun" I said smiling then turned back to the TV.
"We are good here" Shane said smiling and his parents nodded.
"Alright see you two, if not tonight, tomorrow" I heard Anna say then listened as the two of them made their way out of the door. I heard the car head down the laneway and decided now was better than later, I had to finally bring it up.
"Shane we need to talk." I said turning to face him and he turned toward me his eyes finding mine then looking away.
"There is nothing to talk about." He said and I inwardly groaned he was kidding, he had to face it, it wasn't a month ago he wanted to talk about everything, this was ridiculous.
"Yes there is, you kissed me."
"So"
"So... you kissed me!"
"Yeah and?"
"Well you know how I feel" I said putting my heart on the line; I didn't know what would happen next.
"The kiss meant nothing okay, drop it."
"It didn't?"
"No, now Mitchie you need to stop."
"But…"
"I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE OKAY!" He shouts interrupting me and I try to hide the hurt from coming to my face as I fell my heart shatter, yet again because of him, into another million little pieces.
"Then why did you kiss me."
"It doesn't matter" He said quietly.
"Just tell me Shane" I said hoping my voice didn't show the hurt.
"When we kissed when we were together are feelings always poured into it and that's how I knew the feelings were real. I kissed you to know what a real kiss felt like, to know that what Emily and I Emily had wasn't real, so it was right to end things with her." He said avoiding my eyes and I wanted to scream and cry and hit him so hard right now. Did that mean he had feelings for me, well he said he didn't and he looked dead serious, I hated him but loved him so much, I needed out of here soon.
"So you flew all the way to New York to kiss me to decide if it was okay to end things with your girlfriend, a little twisted don't you think?" I said trying to disguise my pain with attitude.
"And to see the dance show, now I am done talking about it, it's over." He said looking me in the eyes and it was my time to look away.
"You're right it is done" I said standing up and before he can say anything I am running up the stairs after grabbing my bag to the familiar room and bed. I walk into the room tossing my bag on to the floor. I shouldn't cry but the guy I loved with everything just said he didn't love me back and broke my heart, again.
I grabbed my iPod and made my way to the bed. I was too lazy to do anything so I crawled into bed in what I was already wearing letting my tears bring my make-up down my face not caring. I hugged a pillow to my chest burying my other face into a pillow hiding my sobs. Would he always break me? I turned on my iPod putting one ear bud in my ear. I put on Christmas music. I would have to let this go and get in the holiday spirit, sure he didn't love me but after tonight I couldn't let it ruin Christmas.
It was the next morning around 7:30 when I woke up my eyes really dry. I got up grabbing a towel and made my way to the bathroom wanting a shower and to wash my face knowing I probably looked like a zombie. I had a shower and rinsed my face feeling much better as I wrapped a towel around my body.
I went back to my room got dressed, tying my hair up then making my way downstairs to the kitchen. I saw Anna in there and who just sitting down to breakfast. "Hi Anna" I said smiling and she smiled.
"Hi Mitchie, there are some hashbrown's and bacon in the oven keeping warm if you want some" She said and I smiled.
"I'll love some thanks" I said getting myself a plate. I got a glass of juice than sat at the table eating. "Paul still in bed" I asked and she smiled.
"No he had to work today so he could get the first day off before and two days off after Christmas, but I don't mind. I was actually going to start making some fresh sugar cookies, would you like to help? Shane will probably be asleep until noon, up all night playing video games, boys" She said and I couldn't help but giggle, she always made the day fun and I was not letting him ruin it, although I still felt a bit off about last night.
"Sounds about right and yeah I'd love to help" I said smiling.
"Alright well we can finish up eating then we can start. I love the smell of fresh baked cookies around Christmas time." She said smiling.
"I wouldn't know but I think I would like it too" I said smiling a little sad and she smiled bigger.
"You will love it, I promise" She said and I smiled finishing my breakfast. Anna truly was like a real mother and it made family holidays like Christmas and thanksgiving finally feel real to me.
It was 3 hours later and I sat down on a stool at the island starting to decorate the first batch of cookies. I had been pretty quiet and I could tell Anna was wondering if something was wrong. I knew she would ask but I wouldn't offer it up unless she asked because I didn't want to bring it up but I knew it was coming as she put down the rolling pin and looked at me.
"Mitchie is something wrong, because I tried to ignore it but last night there was tension between you and Shane and you aren't your happy normal self?"
"I'm happy…" I started and she gave a look.
"Not completely, you can talk to me" She said
"I've just been a bit off after the kiss in New York." I said quietly.
"You two kissed? So does that mean?" She said stopping and I shook my head.
"No we aren't and won't be. He kissed me for the wrong reasons, played my feelings and he doesn't love me anymore, it's over" I said trying to hide my sadness to of course no avail.
"Mitchie I doubt he meant it."
"No he did, I could tell. I just wish he didn't kiss me, I had played his feelings before we fell in love and fell horrible, I should've known he would do back, just didn't think he would not love me anymore, but I don't think I know anything about love anymore." I said and she sighed.
"No-on ever does but I think…" She started then stopped looking behind me and I knew Shane was here.
"Morning Shane" She said smiling and the way she did I knew he didn't hear anything we were talking about, luckily.
"Morning mom" He said getting a glass of juice then sitting down grabbing a cookie.
"He's the best cookie tester" His mom said and I smiled.
"I have no doubt" I said and kept decorating. 20 minutes later Anna spoke again.
"Mitchie do you mind if I have some alone time with Shane" She said and I shook my head.
"Course not I am going to get ready and go for a run" I said and go change into a sports bra, loose t-shirt and yoga pants. I tie up my hair. Attach my iPod to my arm band then leave the run would help clear my head, I could use that for sure.
I was gone for at least an hour and got back to the house. I walked back upstairs and walked into my room to see Shane sitting on my bed like he owned the place. I wanted to scream as I saw he was flipping through our scrapbook, the one I took everywhere and he shouldn't be looking through my things, I knew it had been at the bottom of my bag.
"What are you doing in here?" I asked as he stood up placing the book on the bed and staring me down.
"It's the house I live in. I can be in any room I wish." He said and I was mad as he was being a smart ass.
"Just leave the room Shane, no need to bitch at me for no reason."
"I just needed to tell you something. You need to back off and stop telling all your issues to my parents. Especially about us that has nothing to do with them. You always make the, take your side as the victim and they are my parents and to be there for me. You need to give me back my parents and get your own got it" He said and I was mad and tears instantly came to my eyes. He could bring up anything but no he brings up the sorest subject possible, was it his new life goal to break me, because I let him go because I had loved him too much to not.
"Of all people, you are the last I thought would mention them. You knew everything that went on, so just leave."
"Well maybe you will finally get the hint" He snapped back getting into my face then stepped around me leaving. I walked over and slammed the door locking it. I sit on my bed letting the tear falls. My parents were something I hated talking about but he knew everything about it, except for the New York part and it killed me that he used something so sensitive against me. He clearly didn't want me here and honestly I didn't want to be either. I would feel bad but I hoped Anna would understand.
I grabbed my dance bag tossing it onto the bed and started putting my stuff in it; I was not staying here for Christmas. I grabbed my phone and dialed a familiar number I could find refuge in.
"Hey Mitch, how are you?" I heard her familiar voice.
"Amy…" I breathed out "Does that offer of staying at your place still stand?" I asked letting out a sob against my will.
"Yeah of course, can you drive or do you want me to come get you?" She asked worried and as much as I was shaking I wanted to leave as soon as possible so I would drive.
"I can make it there, I should be there soon."
"Explain when you get here?" She asked
"Yeah, thank you so much I need out of here, away from him, love you girl, see you soon" I said
"Love you too Mitch" She said and we both hung up.
I finished throwing my stuff together and zipped up my bag. I looked onto the bed where my picture book laid and as much as I hated it at the moment I grabbed it and stuck it into my bag. I grabbed my jacket and went downstairs. I would call Anna later and explain as she went Grocery shopping. I had placed all their gifts under the tree earlier so they had all their gifts. I was heading to the door when I felt a presence. I turned to see Shane leaning against a doorframe from the living room to the foyer.
"Doing what you do best I see? Running" He said almost like he was evil and I was so over it right now.
"I'm not running, I am leaving where I am clearly not wanted and what the fuck do you mean what I do best I never ran from anything." I said sternly because I honestly haven't.
"You ran away from us" He said and oh for the love of god, here we go.
"I did no such thing, and you know that. I love or loved you but our dreams where different worlds Shane. Yours was here mine was there, it wasn't working together so we had to end it."
"You ended it, I went there to talk but I was hoping you would talk me out of it" He said and I didn't care, it had to be over, I had to let him go.
"I didn't break up with you I was letting you go because I loved you and that's what love does. You sometimes love someone so much you let them go and I did so you could live your dream, attend your dream school and eventually go pro."
"Stop okay, you gave up on us and knew when you saw me you were ending it, so you gave up, I didn't okay I still loved you." He said and I scoffed.
"I didn't give up at all. You are the one who went and got a girlfriend. I didn't look for another boy because I was stupid and actually thought you cared still hurting from letting you go, but you seemed to not even care at all."
"You know that isn't true, I cared for you." He said softly and I shook my head.
"You got a girlfriend, that isn't caring, that is moving on, I understand we had to eventually but a month Shane, a fucking month?" I said in a question and he ran his hand through his hair, something I found so sexy, I still find sexy.
"It still didn't mean I didn't care about you."
"Well if you did it was very little. I don't want to fight but that night; at the game I asked to talk would you have talked with me?"
"I wasn't ready, nor will I ever be."
"Wow okay you really don't care at all. I was going to tell you I made a mistake, my biggest mistake, letting you go. I wanted you back. I was in pain being away but together, knowing that I would again be in your arms at some point. I was dying knowing that I couldn't even come home to that. You wouldn't have listened to me? You had completely forgotten, never forget, really? Remember that's what you told me" I said begging the stinging tears that were spilling from my eyes to stop.
"It was too late to take it back Mitchie. I didn't forget I just let go of the love. You are unforgettable." He said and he was pained I could tell but for me I had to say goodbye. He wasn't the man I fell in love with, he was someone that I knew I couldn't love.
"That's the problem. I am still her, the girl you fell in love with what feels like forever ago but you aren't the man I fell in love with. He is the one I miss all the time. The man who helped me when I was hurting even though we barely knew each other and the one who begged me for a chance because he saw something special in me. The guy who supported me when I asked for space, who made me who I am tonight, showing me so much I didn't know and bringing me one of the greatest families I could ever ask for. The man who showed me why the rain was so magical and every moment counts and how he would let his guard down in front of me and told me he loved me in the most meaningful way it every could have been. I miss him the one who wore Minnie ears in Disneyland on the full final week we were together. I promised I would never forget him and I won't." I said blinking back tears and saw some streaking down his face as well. This was it. "I have to live my dream, for him, and you go live yours. I will never forget him but I have to forget you." I reach into my bag pulling something out letting it rest in my hand running my fingers along it and walked up to him. "If you see him, give him this" I said placing it in his hand. He looked down and saw that I had placed the broken chain that held the word dancer in diamonds he had given me the night before I left. "I may still be a dancer but that's for him to remember because he doesn't seem to. He was right, love isn't everlasting, memories will be and remembering Smitchie is something I will always do, but I have to forget you, it's the only way." I said and sighed as I watched his hand close over the necklace.
"Mitch…" he started but couldn't finish.
"Goodbye Shane" I said and pressed a quick kiss upon his lips. I pulled back and turned away walking towards the door. I opened the door taking a step outside of it and looked back to see the destroyed man standing behind me. He looked up at me and slowly waved a hand in a wave. I raised one too then turned towards the laneway pulling the door closed behind me.
I walked to my car letting the tears fall and the sobs escape. I started the car and slowly, doing everything to concentrate, made my way to Amy's. I got there where there was Christmas lights up and on and the house lit up. I turned off the car and stepped out of the car. I heard the door open and I took a step before my legs gave in and I fell to my knees. I wrapped my arms around myself losing it. My whole body was heaving and it was when I felt two strong arms wrap around my shaking body that my eyes closed as I broke and the world disappeared.
(A/N: A few minutes before with Shane after Mitchie closed the door.)
I stood there as the door clicked shut. I finally opened my mouth as a sob escaped. I headed towards the stairs and looked back at the door. "Goodbye" I whispered sitting on the stairs. I hung my head, my hands on my forehead. The broken chain was still in my palm. I just sat there letting the tears fall down my cheek and onto the carpeted stairs.
I didn't know how long I was sitting there but just stayed there when I heard the door open then close. "Shane" I heard my dad's voice and looked up knowing tears where still falling. "Shane" He repeated walking over to the stairs.
"Dad" I whispered as he wrapped his arm around my shoulder and I leaned into him giving him a hug. I felt so helpless and I was never close with my dad but being in his embrace was the most comforting thing I could think of at the moment.
"Its okay" He said rubbing my back, I was a little boy all over again.
"I… I told her I didn't love her, she needed to know to live her dream."
"I know Shane, I know" He said comforting.
"Goodbye, this is my second chance. This goodbye is forever" I said shakily knowing he had been right but he stayed silent not wanting to be right at this moment. "I lied"
"Shane"
"Dad… I love her" I said gripping onto him tighter. "I will never not... love… her" I said and leaned against my dad more as my eyes fell closed and the world just faded away.
A/N: I don't know about any of you but there are tears running down my face. Sorry it has taken awhile, I didn't want to write this chapter because it was the hardest to right. It had to happen and I am sorry for that as you are all probably upset that I tore them apart. I believe in Happily Ever After's just always takes a while… the next chapter will probably be a bit of both point of views, an explanation why he told her he didn't love her and why he did that for her. Then we will move on to the tour and such, mostly all Mitchie but Shane will be mentioned of course. Let me know what you all think, this chapter set a lot up, mostly for Mitchie on the tour. I would like to hear your comments, thoughts and ideas on what just might happen next?
I have started co-writing a story with the ever amazing NverSayNver. Check out her stories, they are very well written. We will be posting it in a month or so and are very excited for that, so watch out for it and I will let you all know when it is up. I will also be writing a new one-shot soon called Bruised love which is something I have never quite done before. So watch for those.
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