A/N- Sorry it took so long to update but here it is, Read, Review, Rock on!
Wednesday, March 12, 2014
Dear Santana,
Please don't shut me out. I really care about you Santana and I can't deal with losing you too right now, I feel like we have gotten so close over the last two months in these letters and I can't imagine my days going without the motivation of a letter from you. Please write me back Santana.
Love,
Rachel.
Thursday, March 13, 2014
Dear Santana,
I love you, write me back damn it.
-Rachel
Friday, March 14, 2014
Dear Santana,
Remember when you first learnt to play 'On My Own' from Les Miserables on the piano? It was right at the end of eighth grade and everyone was getting ready to go onto highschool, people were leaving to go to different schools and it felt like the end of the world. Well one day after school when I was sitting in my practice room I heard that song coming through the AC vent and I could just close my eyes and feel at peace for the first time in weeks.
Ever since that day it's been one of my favorite songs, whenever something happens that I just need to escape from I drive my car down that old dirt road behind the mall and blare that song until I have to pull over. I don't know if you know but it was my audition song for glee club.
I just wanted to let you know that.
Please write me,
Rachel Barbra Berry
Monday, March 17, 2014
Dear Santana,
I know you are reading these letters because they aren't in the book anymore. Please write back. I'm sorry if you are mad that I outed who you were but its been only four days without a letter from you and they have been the worst four days of my highschool life.
Seeing you in the halls breaks my heart. I can see the dark circles under your eyes that are a dead giveaway that you too have spent your fair share of recent nights sleepless, and I can't help but feel guilty for those. Every time we lock eyes in Glee club or one of our classes and you look away as fast as you can it hurts like a punch in the gut.
I can't stop looking at you.
Remember those poems you wrote me? Yeah the paper they are on is so worn that they are practically falling apart at their creases because I carry them with me everywhere and read them so much I have each line practically memorized.
Don't shut me out,
Rachel
Tuesday, March 18, 2014
Dear Rachel,
I can't believe that you kept quiet this long if you have know who I really am since the beginning, that's so un-Berry like of you. But nonetheless, I am glad that you did. And I'm equally glad that you outed me now. After that meeting got royally fucked up I don't know how I would have been able to screw up the courage to do it all over again.
I apologize for not writing back for so long. I just needed time to think and try to clear my head and figure out where we could possibly go from here, to which I have no fucking clue. Sorry for the language but I am at a loss. I mean you saw what happens to Kurt (not that I'm much of a help with that) and you already take enough shit at this school (not that I'm much of a help with that either) I can't imagine what it would be like for you if you came out as gay on top of that... You are gay right? This isn't like some confused Berry thing where we would date for two weeks- never going out in public because someone might see- and you break it off because you 'got over it' and go back to your boyfriend? Because I've done that enough times and don't think I could go through that with you too.
What do you think we should do from here? It really is up to you, Rachel. I would do anything and everything to protect you, should you decide that you want to go on with some sort of a relationship with me.
Love,
Santana
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
Dear Santana,
Thank you so much! I was so afraid that you weren't ever going to write to me again and I couldn't stand that thought, I was about to go all 'Say Anything' on your front lawn with a boom box... But then I realized that I don't know where you live so I couldn't do that.
Anyway, as for where we go from here. I know you brought this up before and I don't care where we go from here as long as I'm with you. You know I've never done anything like this with a girl before but I've also never felt this way with someone else before, boy or girl. One thing I know for sure is that you are more than a passing fancy, you are something that I want and would be willing to endure whatever the neanderthals at this school can dish out for us to be together. I don't care what the repercussions are for me. I just want to be with you.
So, how would you like to go on a date with me? Nothing big and scary, just dinner and a movie maybe? I think it would be an easy first step for us to take so we can get to know each other better and be able to talk face to face instead of killing trees with our letters (though I do love them). I truly do want the chance to date you and show that I'm more than the diva everyone seems to think I am.
Does Friday night work for you to go out?
Love,
Rachel
A/N- Thank you all for staying with this story through the long time between updates, I made sure to keep up with a letter a day so you still get all of them, just sort of belated updating. I hope you all enjoyed this chapter! Thank you all so much for your encouraging reviews thus far!
Smiley Author- nice guess! And that 20 bucks has been donated to my college fund, sorry! ;)